"Rebecca." A voice said stirring Rebecca from her thoughts, she shifted her gaze from the fire to Dumbledore standing next to her.
"Hello sir." She said with a weak smile. She glanced across the room at Remus talking with Caradoc and Moody about something. He looked at her and gave her a smile before returning to his conversation and she looked back at Dumbledore.
"How are you?" He asked with a kind smile.
"Alright I suppose, how about yourself?"
"Very well, thank you." He said and paused for a moment. "Are you sure you are ready to return?" He asked and she was slightly taken aback. Was he questioning her ability?
"Yes sir, I am fine, don't worry about me." She said and forced a smile.
"If you are not ready to return it is understandable." He said and she looked around the room at the people and looked back to him.
"Its not going to affect my ability." She said forcefully and saw Sirius walk in to the room, he looked at her and turned on his heel and walked right back out.
"Sir if you would excuse me." She said and took off towards the door. It had been 2 weeks since her and Sirius had spoken, he had constantly been avoiding her, well this was the end of it. She saw him disappear down the corner to the right and took off after him
towards the front door.
"Sirius." She called as he reached the door and he stopped for a moment and looked at her as she ran to him.
"Hey." He said coolly and she frowned at him.
"You have been avoiding me Sirius."
"What are you talking about?" He asked nonchalantly.
"Every time you see me you turn on your heel and walk the other way." She said with a frown.
He went to speak and closed his mouth as he looked to the door.
"You have no idea how horrible I feel about what happened." He said and looked back at her and she felt tears well in her eyes. "I shouldn't have been such an ass, its just..." he said and paused.
"What?" She asked as she stepped closer to him.
"I..." he said and stopped himself. He loved her. He stared at her wanting to spill everything he felt inside. Those weeks they had together were amazing, he wanted nothing more than to take her in his arms and hold her for the rest of his days but she wasn't his to hold, her heart rested with his best friend and he knew that. Sirius Black got all the girls but the one he wanted.
"I'm so sorry Walcott." He said weakly and she lightly took his hand and looked in to his eyes. His heart broke as she looked at him and bit her lip.
"We can't change what happened but I don't hate you for what happened, and I don't want things to be different, you're my friend Sirius." She said and wrapped her arms around him.
"I never should have left you alone." He whispered as he hugged her tight.
"Shhh, stop blaming yourself, it wasn't your fault, it was Bellatrix, not you. Do you understand?" She asked as she pulled away from him and looked him in the eyes.
"But-." He said and she covered his lips with a finger.
"Shhhhhh." She whispered softly and he stared at her. She ran her fingers over his lips lightly as she stared at him.
"Becca…" He whispered as his fingers slowly intertwined with hers.
"Yes?" She asked as she got closer to him.
A knock on the door interrupted them and they pulled away from each other quickly and she looked around and took a deep breath as Sirius answered the door and let James and Peter in.
"Hey guys." James said with a grin as he looked at them and they looked off to the side awkwardly and gave James and Peter a small wave.
"I should go...find Remus." She said awkwardly and turned on her heel and walked down the hall. She felt guilty. What the hell had that been back there with Sirius? They had almost kissed, she had almost kissed him! What the hell was wrong with her? She glanced over her shoulder at Sirius who was looking at her and she turned down the hall and he disappeared from her sight. This was a problem.
"Becky, Becky wake up!" Remus said shaking Rebecca roughly and she immediately sat up pulling her wand out from underneath her pillow.
"We have to go." Remus said pulling his shirt up over his head. "Now, we are needed, there's an attack." He said and she jumped up quickly and started throwing on clothes, her body reeling in panic and sleep, her chest felt heavy as she pulled on her shoes and her and Remus ran out.
"Where are we going?' She asked groggily as they ran out to the apparation spot and apparated. She felt her head swirling in confusion and fear as she felt herself being whizzed around. Her feet slammed hard in to the ground as a large grey building came in to view and she felt herself being tugged by Remus until she spotted Sirius, James, Tessa and Benjy.
"What the hell is going on?" Tessa asked.
"I know as much as you do." Remus said as they looked up at the giant stone walls that surrounded the grey building. Screams erupted from behind them and they started running along the wall looking for the entrance.
"Where the hell are they?" Sirius yelled as there were more screams of children.
"Point me." Rebecca said holding out her wand and they followed it before they found the entrance. Rebecca's heart dropped as she read the sign. Stockwell Orphanage.
"Shit." She said and James and Sirius took off towards the double doors entrance.
"Padfoot! Prongs! Wait! Don't be rash!" Remus yelled after them.
They ignored him and started blowing holes in the door, which wouldn't open for them when they tried to push or pull it. They threw spell after spell but the door wouldn't budge.
Suddenly the door blew open from the inside, shards of door flew in every direction and Fabian and Gideon appeared with Emmiline behind them.
"You guys okay?" Fabian asked as he and Gideon started helping them up.
"Thank goodness you guys are here." Emmeline said as she ran up to them, a gash above her eye bleeding freely which she wiped away.
"There's a big Hall to the North through that door there." She pointed to a doorway 20 feet away. "Most of the Death Eaters are in there, they're holding up four people I think... and Dumbledore."
"Dumbledore's here?" James asked and Emmeline nodded.
"Yes... To the East is a large dorm room, there are kids trapped there with some of ours and the news gets worse... Voldemort is here." She said and ran off towards the doorway with everyone following after.
"Heads up James!" Rebecca screamed from her position in the corner of the room, she had 8 young boys behind her behind a protection shield she had put up.
James ducked and rolled automatically, but he made a fatal error in judgment and rolled the wrong way. His body collided with someone's feet, James followed the feet slowly up the legs that were attached to it, though they were covered by a long black robe, she followed the body all the way up until her gaze met with two red, cold eyes.
There was silence as James stared at Voldemort unable to move for some reason.
"James!" Rebecca screamed willing him to do something.
Voldemort raised his wand… and Rebecca felt her stomach drop. She started yelling every spell she knew towards Voldemort. Nothing seemed to work as Death eaters kept getting in the way.
Suddenly Voldemort's robes caught fire causing enough of a distraction for James to get to his feet before he was knocked back by a stray spell, slamming in to the wall with a groan. She shoved the kids in to an office and turned to them.
"All of you, behind there." She said pointing to a large desk. "And you stay there until I come and get you." She said and ran out of the office, locking it behind her and she made her way back in to the main room.
She searched for Remus but he was nowhere to be found. She saw him upstairs dueling a death eater, cradling his arm and she ran upstairs to help him.
"Stupefy!" She said and the Death eater dueling him dropped to the ground and he looked at her with relief.
"Thanks." He said and pointed his wand at her and she ducked as he shot a spell past her, which hit the Death Eater that had snuck up behind her and blasted him off the balcony.
"Thanks." She said and ran up to him.
"Its broken I think." He said as he looked down at his arm. There was a crack and Rebecca looked up and pushed Remus away as she jumped back. A chandelier came down between them and she turned around and saw Bellatrix with a grin on her face. She took off running and Rebecca ran after her.
"No, Becky come back!" Remus yelled as she ran, her heart racing as she thought one thing, she was going to kill her. They came in to a clearing and faced each other.
"I'm going to kill you." Rebecca gritted as they circled each other.
"Good luck." Bellatrix giggled and threw a spell, which Rebecca dodged and she threw Bellatrix against the wall hard and threw her back across the room. Rebecca dodged a stray spell and searched for Bellatrix and barely dodged a killing curse, the smell of her burn hair filled her nose and she turned to Bellatrix.
"Avada Kedavra!" They both yelled at the same time. There was a loud explosion as the spells collided and blasted everything around them. Rebecca felt herself sailing through the air, everything rushing around her and she skidded across the floor. She looked up as a wall exploded, letting Ministry officials spill in to the building and she looked to where Bellatrix had last been but she was no where to be found.
"Becky come on." Someone said as she was pulled to her feet and rushed around. The sight of dead Death Eaters around her passed in a blur. She nearly lost it as a child laid dead with his head split open.
She was brought outside in a haze and looked at Remus who had been leading her and she collapsed on to the grass and felt herself heaving yet nothing came up. She turned back to the orphanage and tried to pull herself up but her legs didn't want to work.
"No, you're not going anywhere." Remus said grabbing her and holding her to him.
"I have to go back." She said groggily, her head spinning from behind thrown.
"No." He said and held her tighter. "The Ministry will handle it alright?" He said and she and stopped struggling against him. "Padfoot!" Remus yelled, nearly dropping Rebecca as James ran up and helped him out, he bled from his leg which looked broken as he leaned against James.
"What's going on?" Remus asked.
"Ministry has it under control." James said as he helped set Sirius on the ground.
"Sirius." Rebecca said as she fell to her knees next to him.
"I'm fine." He said holding his hand up. Her eyes fell to his back, which was drenched with blood, dripping on to the grass.
"You're bleeding." She said blinking at him trying to clear her mind.
"I'm fine." He said waving her away. There were some screams that came from the Orphanage and Rebecca jumped to her feet and took off towards the wreckage.
"Becky!" Remus yelled after her, running towards her. She needed to help them.
She got inside and looked around at the remnants of a fight. There were a few straggler Death Eaters dueling Ministry officials that were soon being picked off.
"Tessa!" Rebecca croaked as she ran over to Tessa laying on the floor with a piece of wood sticking out of her chest.
"No, no, no, no." Rebecca said over and over again as she started to shake. What could she do? Tessa started to close her eyes as her breathing got weak and Rebecca started to cry.
"No, please." She said holding Tessa's hand knowing there was nothing she could do.
"Oh no." Remus said as he walked up as Tessa took her last breath.
"No." Rebecca cried as she held Tessa's lifeless hand. "Please no." She said laying her head down on Tessa's shoulder and Remus touched her back.
"There was nothing you could do Becky." Remus said and she looked up at him, tears streaming down her cheeks. She turned back to Tessa and closed her eyes and got up and grabbed a hold of Remus and held him as she cried.
"I'm just glad you're okay, when I saw you run after Bellatrix…" He said and held her the best he could.
They made their way out of the Orphanage, passing bodies, a few Order members, Death Eaters and Ministry officials until they got back outside.
They apparated back to the Headquarters so Rebecca could get to helping with the injuries.
After Rebecca took care of Remus the best she could she went in search of Sirius. James was helping Sirius down the hall and she rushed after them.
"Guys in here." Rebecca said as she pulled them in to a room and set Sirius down on the bed and he groaned in pain.
"We need to take care of this bleeding." She said and ripped his shirt off and threw open one of the drawers and pulled out drawings and rags and set them on the bed.
"Sirius I need you to take this." She said handing him a vial as she rolled up her sleeves. He didn't even ask before he popped the cork and downed it. Seconds later he collapsed in a heap and James looked at her.
"This is going to hurt like a bitch." She said as she started to clean out the wounds and stitch it up before she took care of his broken leg.
Sirius woke to the sound of something rustling around in his room and he cracked an eye open and blinked a few times from the haze and spotted Rebecca at the dresser pulling out supplies. She turned around and looked at him surprised. He lifted his head and lifted himself from laying on his stomach.
"Oh you're awake." She said and walked over to him.
"How do you feel?" She asked and handed him a vial and helped him sit up, careful to not let his back touch anything.
"Fine." He said as he winced. "That hurts." Sirius mumbled as she changed his wrappings.
"Well I could leave it and let it get infected." She said dryly and he growled at her.
"Did you just growl at me?" She asked with a smile and he looked at her.
"It hurts."
"Oh big baby." She said with a playful smile.
"These are going to scar very nicely." She said and started applying new dressings.
"Chicks dig scars." He grumbled and laid his face in to the bed.
"How's your leg doing?" She asked as she finished and disposed of the old bandages.
"Its fine." He said and she helped him lay back down.
"Do you need anything?" She asked as she tried to help him find a comfortable position.
"No, I'm fine." He said and pushed her hands away. "I'm fine."
"Is everything okay?" She asked confused as he pushed her away.
"Yeah, peachy." He said and looked at the floor.
"Alright then Sirius, if you need anything just holler." She said and started to get up.
"What's going on with us?" He asked and she looked at him surprised.
"What do you-."
"You know exactly what I'm talking about, the other day." He said and looked up at her and she stared at him.
"You remember when I asked if what happened between us meant anything and you said no, did you really mean that?" He asked and she faltered as she stared at him and sat back down.
"No." She said and sunk down on to the bed next to him. "I didn't mean what I said, I was angry." She said and lightly took his hand.
"Those few weeks were nice." She said with a small smile.
"Yeah." He said returning a smile as he rubbed circles on her hand.
"But...Sirius nothing can come of us." She said and his face fell. "I love Remus more than anything and he's your best friend." She said and sighed softly.
"Yeah, you're right." He said curtly and pulled his hand away from her.
"Sirius you're one of my best friends and I don't want to lose you, please?"
"Yeah sure." He said with a sigh.
"Are we good?" She asked and he looked at her with a torn look.
"Yeah, we're fine Walcott." He said and she smiled and leaned forward to plant a kiss on his forehead.
"Thank you." She smiled and got up.
"I'll be around, if you need anything just holler." She said and he nodded.
"Thank you Sirius." She said with a smile at the door before disappearing.
he sighed to himself and ran his hands through his hair and tugged on it, this girl was going to drive him insane!
Rebecca shuffled through some papers and sighed to herself. It was a full moon and she couldn't sleep. Her body desperately ached for sleep but her mind would have none of it.
So many deaths. She flipped through newspaper clippings and reports and sighed to herself. This was hell. This war. She silently wondered to herself if it would ever end. Her body felt weary and her mind felt numb, she was spent. She got up and took the report with her as she walked out of the living room and down the hall. She passed by Sirius' room and paused as she heard noise from inside. She peered her head inside and saw Sirius squirming around on the bed slightly, moans escaping his lips. She walked to the dresser and opened it up and grabbed two vials.
"Becky." He moaned and she looked back at him. "Come back." He mumbled and she realized he was dreaming. She walked over to him and saw his bandages were starting to bleed through.
"Sirius." She whispered as she placed a hand on his shoulder. He jolted awake, breathing hard and started looking around.
"Sweetie it's just me, you're okay." She said and he looked at her. He looked at her pained and she pulled off the top of the pain potion and helped him drink it.
"I need to change your bandages then you can go back to sleep." She said and lit up the room slightly as she grabbed some bandages. Once she finished she threw out the dirty ones and gave him a sleeping draught.
"Why aren't they healing?" He groaned and drank back the potion.
"There is a spell on them keeping them from completely healing, we have to wait for it to wear off before they can start healing." She said and sighed before he drifted off to sleep and she used a towel to wipe away the perspiration on his forehead before heading out of the room and back to her papers.
Rebecca walked down Diagon alley, she toted a bag full of potion ingredients she needed for the potions for the Order, just pain, sleep and healing potions and such. She passed by a table and stopped and looked back.
"Where is Jane?" She asked as she looked at Sirius eating by himself.
"Work." He muttered as he stuck a fry in his mouth.
"Would you like some company?" She asked and he shrugged and she took a seat across from him.
"So what are you up to today?" She asked and picked a fry off his plate.
"This is it." He said and slapped her hand when she went for another fry.
"Come on you aren't going to eat all of these." She said with a frown.
"Watch me." He said and she rolled her eyes at him. "What do you have in the bag?" He asked.
"Just ingredients, we are running low on potions."
"Hmmm." He said and she leaned back in her seat.
"Are you just going to be a poop to me forever?"
"I don't know what you're talking about."
"You know we used to be able to hold a conversation, even when we were fighting, now it just seems like you don't even want anything to do with me."
"I think we should tell Moony. I feel guilty."
"We didn't do anything wrong, he broke up with me."
"Well I sure as hell would be pissed off if he slept with my girlfriend, even if I had broken up with her."
"You never care about the girls you date, they are just flings. I mean we were just a fling, it wasn't a big deal."
"It wasn't for me." He said and she looked at him curiously.
"What?" She asked and suddenly there was a sound of glass shattering and screams. Rebecca and Sirius shot up with wands out as Death Eaters came down the alleyway.
Chaos ensued as spells shot everywhere and people screamed and ran everywhere.
"What the hell are Death Eaters doing in Diagon Alley in broad daylight?" Rebecca said to Sirius as she took out a death eater that was running after a woman. Sirius looked behind her and pulled her out of the way as a spell hit the window behind them making it shatter. Sirius shot a spell past her and pulled her down the street. There were several bodies scattered on the streets as they made their way out. Rebecca looked behind her as a Death eater shot a spell towards her. At the same moment a man ran out of a store and collided with the spell. Rebecca screamed and Sirius turned around and pulled her in to a book store. She looked out the window at the dead man on the floor who had just saved her life.
The windows shattered and Sirius pulled her down to the floor and covered her.
"Come out, come out." A sing song voice said from the doorway and Sirius popped over the counter and shot a spell which missed and a spell hit the counter splintering it and Sirius dragged her around the store and shoved her in a closet and locked the door. She tried to push it open as she heard Sirius and the Death Eater dueling and she tried with all her might to get out. Suddenly there was silence and she held her breath. Oh god what if something happened to Sirius? Tears filled her eyes as she heard footsteps approach the closet and she held her wand ready. The door opened up and she saw Sirius and gave a sigh of relief. She lunged out and wrapped her arms around him tight.
"I thought you were dead." She cried and he held her close to him.
"I'm fine." He said looked out the window. "The ministry is here. He scattered as soon as they came." He said and led her out of the store. They looked around at the destruction which had only caused 15 minutes. Bodies laid strewn and Rebecca felt her heart break as she saw a little girl and a woman huddled over the man who had gotten hit with the spell. She didn't have time to stop and talk as Sirius quickly led her out of Diagon Alley and side Apparated.
She looked at her house and fell on to her knees and threw up. Sirius rubbed her back and then helped her to her feet. She looked at him as he wiped blood away from his face. A large gash covered his forehead and she looked towards the house.
"Come on lets get you healed up." She said and led him in to the house. She sat him at the table with a cloth while she fetched her supplies and sat down next to him with shaky hands.
"Hey its okay." He said taking one of her hands and she looked up at him.
"I just cant believe it, I mean in broad daylight, and all those people…" She trailed off and took a deep breath. "Why did you lock me in the closet?"
"I uh, didn't want anything to happen to you. Easier to kick his arse if I knew you were okay." He said not looking at her and she took his hand and kissed it. "Thank you Sirius." She whispered and he looked up at her.
"Alright hold still, this might sting a little." She said as she pointed her wand to the cut.
"Be careful." He muttered and she rolled her eyes.
"I think I know what I'm doing." She said and started to stitch the cut up. Once it was stitched up she opened up a jar and he pulled away from her.
"That stinks."
"Sorry, it will keep it from scarring, especially good since we got to it right away." she said and smeared a yellow paste over the cut.
"That hurts too." He said and she rolled her eyes.
"Man up, grow a pair." She said and got up and took her stuff out of the kitchen.
The front door opened and Remus walked in to the kitchen.
"Hey Padfoot, what's wrong with your face?" He asked humorously.
"Death Eaters in Diagon Alley."
"Bloody hell, in broad daylight?"
"Yeah."
"Hey sweetie." Rebecca said as she came in and gave him a kiss.
"Are you okay? I know you were picking up some things."
"Yeah I'm fine."
"Can you take this stuff off yet?"
"Just a few more minutes." She said and looked at Remus. "There is a sandwich and some fruit for you in the fridge."
"Thanks love." He said and kissed her cheek and walked over to the fridge. Rebecca waved her wand and the dishes started to do themselves.
"Is it necessary?" Remus asked humorously as he looked at her.
"I don't feel like doing dishes today." She said and looked at the clock. "Alright Sirius." She said and got up. She wet a rag and handed it to him.
"Also you need to put this on tonight and sleep with it and in the morning it will be completely gone." She said and went over to the cupboard and pulled out a jar and handed it to Sirius. "I need this back though." She said and he got up.
"I should be going, see you guys later." He said curtly and walked out of the kitchen and out the back door.
"Is everything okay with him?" Remus asked.
"Yeah, probably just a little shaken up, it was really weird."
"Well I'm just glad you're okay, thank you for lunch love." He said and leaned over and gave her a kiss.
Its been nearly 2 years since i last posted anything, this is the first chapter i have done since then, it feels good to be back in the game, hope you guys enjoy! Rate and review!