Rebecca sat outside the courtroom in silence. Her head rested on her knees and tears welled in her eyes. Remus was currently inside watching Sirius' trial but she couldn't bring herself to go in there. She knew he hadn't done it. Him and James were practically brothers and he absolutely adored Harry. Sirius had talked about teaching him all the tricks of Hogwarts when he finally got to go. Her and Remus hadn't talked in days. She closed her eyes as she remembered the fight between them only nights ago.

"Where have you been?" Remus asked as he looked up from his book in his lap. He had been sitting the same way when she had left an hour ago. She had spent the last hour trying to get to Sirius but there was no way she was going to get to see him, no matter who she knew.

"Just trying to see Sirius." She sighed softly and sat down on the edge of the bed.

"Why would you want to see him?" Remus spat and she looked at him.

"Because he is my friend." She said and tears jerked at her eyes. She felt so exhausted, she had been driving herself in to the ground with work to keep her mind occupied, plus the stress of seeing Sirius in the paper every day with the bold words, 'MURDERER' and such above him.

"How can you even call him that, he was working for Voldemort the whole time, should have known too, a Black." He said and she turned and looked at him.

"You honestly believe that Sirius would betray James and Lily?"

"Wake up Rebecca, look what has happened, Peter is dead, James and Lily are dead and Harry was lucky to be alive." He yelled and slammed his book shut. "He was not the friend I thought I knew, he betrayed them. He can rot in Azkaban for all I care." He said and got up and started to walk out of the room.

"I can't believe you, he was your best friend Remus."

"Not anymore and if you remember it was by his hand that your best friend is dead." Remus said and walked out.

She had left and gone to stay at the Leaky Cauldron for the last few nights and now she was here. The doors opened and there was cheering and she stood up and saw Sirius being dragged by two guards. His feet scraped along the ground and he hung his head.

"Sirius!" She shouted but he didn't look. "SIRIUS!" She screamed and he lifted his head slightly and she tried to get to him but the crowd pushed her away and she fell back against the wall and watched him disappear and tears fell down her eyes. She felt a hand on her shoulder and turned and saw Remus with a solemn look on his face.

"Life in Azkaban." He said and she felt a heavy weight on her chest. She reached out and wrapped her arms around him as she cried in to his neck.

"I'd like if you came home Becky, I need you." He whispered as he held her tightly. She nodded in to his neck and held him even tighter.

"What do you mean I can't have Harry?" Rebecca shouted at Dumbledore. She gripped the edge of his desk and threw him a glare.

"I feel he will be safer with his aunt and uncle."

"I am his godmother, Lily and James appointed Sirius and I his godparents, he is supposed to be with me, not that vile woman and her idiot husband." She hissed. She had only met Petunia and Vernon once and it was enough for Rebecca to never want the pleasure again. "If you won't give him to me then I'll take him." She said and stood up.

"I would not advise that Rebecca." He said firmly.

"Harry is all I have left, all I have left of my best friend." She said and felt a sob rise up but held back.

"Rebecca for now Harry is safest with his aunt and uncle, perhaps when he is older we can discuss other accommodations but for now…he is best kept with his family." He said and she glared at the floor. She knew there was no point in arguing this further. She half wanted to hurl everything in the office at Dumbledore right now for keeping Harry away from her.

"How have you been Rebecca?" He asked softly and she looked up at him.

"I'm fine." She said wiping a tear from her eye. She wasn't fine. She felt so exhausted, just so exhausted. She had been throwing herself in to work more than ever, working sometimes 20 hours a day. She had been moving up in the potions ward to junior healer. In another few years she would possibly make her way to senior healer and then Head of Ward eventually.

Her relationship with Remus had been somewhat strained in the past few weeks, he had lost his job and was currently searching for a new one, however spent most of his time moping around the house. Not only did she have to worry about work, but the house and Remus. She felt overwhelmed.

"I know you and Lily were close-."

"I don't want to talk about it." She said getting up. "I can't." She whispered and tried to hold back her tears. She had spent so long trying to keep everything together, not even giving herself a moment to cry. She knew if she started she might not stop. Mourning her friends meant that they were really gone, she would have to accept her best friend was gone.

"Rebecca I am truly sorry about what happened to Lily and James-."

"No, don't you speak a word about them!" She shouted.

"I know you were close to Lily." He said and she turned from the window to him.

"I can't do this, you can't make me do this." She said heading towards the fire. She pulled out her wand and lit it up.

"If you ever need to talk do not hesitate to contact me." He said and she grabbed a handful of floo powder and looked at him before facing the fire and flooing back home.

She walked in to the cottage where it was dark with the exception of the coals burning in the fireplace. She walked in to the living room and kicked something. She lit up her wand and saw an empty bottle of firewhiskey roll across the floor. She looked on the couch with Remus laid passed out drunk. She scoffed to herself as she picked up empty beer bottles and took them to the kitchen. She would have another talk with him in the morning. This was not the first time she had come home to this. She begrudgingly grabbed a blanket from the closet and threw it over him. He stirred and grabbed her hand as she went to walk away.

"Becky?" He mumbled drunkenly and she rolled her eyes.

"Go back to sleep Remus, we'll talk in the morning." She said not wanting another fight.

"Where did you go?" He said pulling himself up in to a halfway sitting position against the arm of the couch.

"Went to talk to Albus, go back to sleep Remus." She said and went to walk away.

"You know you weren't the only one affected by everything." He said and she turned and looked at him.

"Yes I know."

"Then stop acting like it."

"Excuse me?" She said roughly, how the hell could he say that?

"Cut me a little slack, I just lost my best friends." He said and she stared at him, her anger rising.

"Remus I have cut you more than enough slack. Have you noticed I am the only one around here with a job any more? I come home night after night and pick up after you because you spent the whole day drinking and wasting your time. I have been plenty patient with you Remus but you need to remember, I lost my friends too, they were my friends too Remus!" She shouted. "My friends are dead too but I still manage to carry on day after day. I can't even see my own godson!" She said and felt a sob rise up. She couldn't even contain herself as tears fell down her cheeks. "I'm trying my best to keep both of us afloat but you aren't making that any easier." She said and turned on her heel and walked down the hall to the room. She slammed the door behind her and looked around her room. She grabbed the vase of dead flowers off the dresser and hurled them at the wall. She grabbed and threw various things around the room until she collapsed on the bed crying. Why did this all have to happen? Why did everyone she cared about have to die? She tried to count how many people she had lost but couldn't keep count. What did it matter that Voldemort was gone? There was nothing to celebrate.

The next morning Rebecca walked out to the kitchen and saw Remus still passed out on the couch. It was nearly ten; it was going to be another one of those days.

She made herself some breakfast and left some for Remus before heading to work.

It was nearly 11 when she returned that night and saw Remus sitting on the couch.

"Did you go out today?" She asked leaning against the doorway. He didn't answer her and she gave a frustrated grumble and walked over to him. She grabbed the firewhiskey out of his hand and he glared at her.

"Did you get out today?"

"What's the point, no one wants to hire a werewolf anyways." He said and leaned back on the couch and stared at the ceiling.

"Damnit Remus." She sighed and put the cap on the bottle. She took a deep breath and looked at him.

"You need to get your shit together." She snapped. "I am not going to sit around and bust my ass while you mope around like this, at least be productive."

"My friends are dead." He snapped and she glared at him.

"You know what? I'm done." She said and tossed the bottle on the couch. She walked out of the living room to the bedroom. Pulling out a bag she started to throw clothes in to it.

"What are you doing?" Remus asked from the doorway with the bottle in his hand once more.

"I'm going to go stay with Amanda for a few days."

"What? You can't leave?"

"Remus you need to get your shit together and apparently having me here isn't motivating you very much, I'll owl you later." She said and closed the bag and threw it over her shoulder. She walked to the doorway but he blocked her.

"Get out of my way Remus." She sneered, he didn't budge.

"Please don't leave." He whimpered.

"You can either move or I will move you." She said and he paused before stepping aside.

"Becky I will change, I promise." He said following after her. "Just please don't leave me."

"Remus you have said that plenty times before, you need to get your act together."

"When will you be back?"

"I don't know, when you get your shit together." She said stepping out the front door. He stared at her as she disappeared and he sunk down the doorway and stared at where she had been.

"Andy?" Rebecca called out as she picked herself from off the ground.

"Becca?" Andrew said sounding confused as he stepped in to the living room. She dusted herself off and he gave her a smile before walking up and embracing her.

"Its good to see you." He said holding her tight.

"You too." She whispered as she buried her face in to his chest.

"Is everything alright?" He asked and pulled away.

"No." She said and he motioned to the couch.

"I miss Lily so much." She said staring at the floor.

"I know." He said rubbing her hand.

"And things are just so hard at home. Remus isn't getting any better and I'm starting to get really fed up. I have been trying to do everything I can to help him but nothing is working, I just don't know what to do anymore, its so stressful."

"Well…you could always come back home." He suggested and she lifted her head and looked at him. "I'm looking for a new place, we could get a place and go half, there is this really nice place I have been looking at near the beach-."

"What am I supposed to do Andy? Just leave Remus?" She asked. He looked at her and sighed as he ran a hand through his hair.

"Becca you're miserable, I can tell, every time you come here its always about Remus and I just don't think being there is the best thing for you anymore, besides, the war is over Becca, you said you would come home, I miss you."

"Me too Andy." She said and threw her arms around him. "I really miss you."

"Please come home, you can get a job at St. Johns, please just think about it." He said and she pulled away from him and looked at him. She had missed Andrew, she had been so thankful she hadn't lost him as well in the war, she didn't know what she would do if she had.

"I'll think about it." She said with a nod and he smiled.

"Alright, how about some lunch?"

"Lunch sounds great." She smiled.

Rebecca looked across the table at Remus who was picking at his food.

"Well its nice to get out." She said softly.

"Yeah." He mumbled and she pushed what was left of her food around her plate.

"So how's the job hunt going?"

"Damnit Becky can't you get off my back for once?" He snipped.

"I wasn't getting on your back Remus." She sneered. "I was just asking how it was going."

"Not good, you remind me every day."

"Well getting off the couch and getting out there can work wonder."

"I have put in a few applications, nothing."

"Have you checked back-."

"I can handle this Becky. I don't need your help."

"Nothing wrong with a little help Remus, we can all use it some times." She said and he stayed silent.

"I'm done, are you?" She asked and he nodded and took his napkin off his lap.

"Lets just go home." He said and got up and walked out of the restaurant.

She stared at his empty seat and pushed her plate away from her as she got up and threw some money on the table before heading outside. Remus sat on a bench and looked up at her as she came out.

"You go on home, I'm going to go out."

"Please don't Remus, drinking isn't going to bring any of them back."

"You have your ways and I have mine, I'll see you later." He said and walked off down the street. Tears built in her eyes as she he walked away from her and she closed her eyes.. She wasn't going to cry over him. She turned on her heel and walked the other way before Apparating home.

Remus stumbled in to the cottage and dropped his keys on the table. Shrugging off his coat he made his way to the bedroom and saw Rebecca sitting on the bed with a bag in her lap. He looked around the room, which was bare with the exception of his possessions.

"Remus I'm leaving." She said getting up and he leaned against the doorway.

"W-what's going on?" He asked dumbfounded.

"I'm going back home." She sighed and picked up her bag. "Back to New York."

"Becky, you-you can't leave." He said walking towards her.

"Remus it's already done, I've already resigned my position at St. Mungos and I've already got my stuff there." She said and took a deep breath. "I just can't do this anymore Remus." She said tearfully. "I had hoped things would get better but they haven't, we fight all the time and I just feel horrible, I need to get away and try to work through these things but I can't carry us both anymore, I'm sorry." She said and put her keys on the bed. "The place is paid up till December and then you need to move out, I've already got a buyer and it's all set up." She said and looked at him. He stared at her dumbfounded and utterly shocked. He couldn't believe this was happening. "Good bye Remus, I love you so much and I'm sorry but I can't do this any more." She said and walked past him.

"Becky please, I will do anything, just please don't leave me, I need you."

"I needed you too Remus, this just isn't working." She said and he grabbed her hand, tears falling down his cheeks. He fell to his knees and wrapped his arms around her.

"Please Becky, please I need you." He cried in to her stomach.

"Remus get off of me, I need to go." She said trying to pull him off of her. She finally got him off her and strode toward the door. She heard him clamber after her and she opened the door and hurried out.

"Becky please, I promise I'll make everything better." He said from the doorway and she looked back at him.

"I needed you months ago Remus, I'm not going to waste my life away like you, I need to do what's best for me now. Good bye." She said and pulled out her wand and disappeared.

***I can't believe its been over two years, two years writing this and I've finally finished it. I'm starting on the next story which will continue this story, can't wait to get started again. Thank you everyone for your support, keep an eye out for the next one.***