A/N: I'M SORRY I'M JUST A BUSY PERSON WITH THINGS TO DO! Now that THAT confession is over with…
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RECAP: Fayre thinks Remus is a monster, because she remembered that he's a werewolf (didn't take her long). Only Remus knows that Carley was the one who kidnapped Fayre. The Marauders and Lily still hadn't told Dumbledore about Fayre's kidnapping…
CHAPTER 15"Are you SURE you're okay?" asked Lily for the five hundredth time.
"YES, Lily… I mean, I'm not okay with everyone asking me how I got my scar… I never was a very good liar as you know. And then…" I took a deep breath. Lily looked at me expectantly. I knew she knew this was coming for a while now.
"HOW could you not TELL me that SIRIUS was CHARCOAL?" I blew up. Lily looked slightly amused.
"How did you NOT know that Charcoal was Sirius? That's the question here. I mean, in the beginning of this year you were practically in LOVE with that dog… And even before you knew it was Sirius, your heart led you straight to him… First you love him as a dog, logically you'd like him as a human, even subconsciously. I mean, there are SO many times I can recall where you called Sirius a dog… Even to his face! Even before he actually WAS a dog," said Lily throwing up her hands. I sat down on one of the armchairs in her Head Girl room as I pondered over this.
First Year: I looked back from the girl with long tan legs to Sirius. "You're drooling like a dog, Sirius."
Second Year: I turned to Lily after hearing Sirius' disgusting tale of how he recently found out that broom closets are big enough to…do stuff… "Ugh. He's such a DOG."
Third Year: "Sirius, your puppy dog faces are good…but not that good. Now stop acting like a dog and STOP BEING SO LAZY! And before you ask, NO! I'M NOT DOING YOUR POTIONS HOMEWORK FOR YOU, YOU LAZY DOG!"
Fourth Year: "EW, Sirius! You're such a PIG! …And a dog!"
Fifth Year: I turned to Lily after giving into what Sirius wanted. "Gosh his puppy dog face got 100x more better. He must've been practicing in a mirror," I shook my head, "what a little egotistical dog."
Sixth Year: "Sirius, you laugh like a dog." That earned me a snicker from James.
Huh. I'm really stupid for NOT figuring this out earlier… I crossed my arms.
"I still can't believe you didn't tell me that the Marauders turned into little cuddly animals."
"Well, not all of them do…" said Lily thinking of Remus. No, not all of them do… And why doesPeter turn into a rat of all things?
"How long have you known?" I asked.
"Only a year or so. Since sixth year… Since the Snape incident," said Lily slowly. Ah yes, the Snape incident. Lily had already filled me in on that.
There was a sudden knock on Lily's office door that made us both jump.
"Okay then, I guess I should get going…" I said opening the door.
"Dumbledore wants to see you," said a boy in our year named… Oh goodness I forgot his name…
"Who are you?" I asked. He pushed up his glasses higher up his nose as his eyes grew wide looking at my face.
"I'm John," he said slowly. I held out my hand.
"Nice to meet you John," I said shaking his hand as he still stared at me. I turned back towards Lily. "This John kid says you have to see Dumbledore. I'm on my way, see ya!" I said. John stood in front of me.
"Actually, Dumbledore wants to see the both of you… And the Marauders…"
"I had nothing to do with any prank that any of the Marauders have recently done," I said.
"You still have to see Dumbledore…" said John. I sighed.
"Fine. Coming, Lily?" I asked calling back at her.
"Yeah. Coming," said Lily arriving at my side.
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I nervously picked at my plaid skirt as we waited to see Dumbledore. I still hadn't spoken to any of the Marauders since the accident. It had been a week since. And Sirius decided to sit next to me as we waited to go into Dumbledore's office.
"This is probably about Fayre and I," whispered Remus. I looked at him alarmed.
"Dumbledore KNOWS?" I asked out loud without thinking. They all looked at me, looking amused. Sirius took this opportunity to casually throw his arm over my shoulder.
"Well, 'course Dumbledore knows. Who told Madam Pomfrey hmm?" asked Sirius, smiling crookedly as I looked into his liquid silver eyes. Not wanting to be mean, I sat stiff and didn't shrug off his arm. Then I looked into Remus' shameful liquid gold eyes. Silver and Gold. It was a bit weird that I was attracted to guys with metal colored eyes.
Professor Dumbledore cleared his voice and called, "Come in" to us all. We looked at each other and then slowly stood up. There was a chair for all six of us. Professor Dumbledore looked up from whatever he was writing at us above his glasses. He removed them and then rubbed the bridge of his nose, and then put them back on.
"Sit down please," he said, motioning for us all to sit down. We sat down. He looked at each of us. You could hear everyone gulp.
"Each of you are here today, because of the incident that has to do with Fayre…and her scar," he said slowly. Now conscious of my scar, I put a hand on it, as if to cover it.
"How, did Fayre get into the Shrieking Shack…? And by the looks of her attendance a couple days before," he looked at a piece of paper, adjusting his glasses, "it looks like she was 'sick' those days." He looked back up at us. "Can anyone explain why she wasn't in school during those days and then just appear in the Shack where Remus just happens to turn into a werewolf?" he finally asked. I looked at Sirius and then at Lily in shock.
"Wait, you didn't tell him I was MISSING?" I exploded, confused.
"Fayre… It wasn't like that…" whispered Lily.
"No, no. You didn't tell him I was KIDNAPPED? You told everyone that I was SICK?" I asked, getting angrily. They were just going to let me die of starvation… Sirius grabbed my arm and I yanked it out of his grips as he gave me a truly sad look, not like his signature puppy dogface. I shook my head.
"You were all just going to let me die?" I asked looking at each of them.
"Fayre, of course we wouldn't. It's just it was so close to the full moon and…" James tried to say. I shot daggers at him.
"Yeah. Exactly. It was close to the full moon. And you know what? I WOULDN'T HAVE THIS BLOODY SCAR FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE IF MAYBE ONE OF YOU CARED ENOUGH ABOUT ME TO TELL DUMBLEDORE TO FIND ME!" I screamed at him. I angrily wiped a tear from my violet eyes. James was shocked speechless. I turned towards Headmaster Dumbledore.
"I was kidnapped by Carley. She's a Hufflepuff. She used the Imperius spell on me and also the Crucio spell on me. She used the Crucio spell on me many times…" I shuddered, remembering, then I took a deep breath as I continued, "She works for Voldemort. She told me so. She also broke my ribs, not by magic, by her feet. She hit my head many times I'm surprised I didn't have any internal bleeding. She didn't give me any water… Essentially, she was letting me die, and not quickly. She also said Fletcher in the Slytherin house is working for Voldemort. I don't know how reliable that is, considering she hates a lot of people, including me." Dumbledore looked shocked at what I was telling him. I pivoted towards the door, about to leave.
"Why did she hate you?" asked Dumbledore. I looked up, at Sirius, wracking my brain for what she had said.
"Because I am a muggleborn, obviously, and… It had something to do with Sirius, but I don't remember exactly. Something about being in love with him, I think," I said staring into his silver eyes. His eyes widened at that. And he slightly smiled to himself. Then I looked back at Dumbledore and tried to hide my pain with a smile.
"But, she doesn't have to worry about that anymore. I'm over it," I said.
Then I left.
REMUS' POV"Wait, you didn't tell him I was missing?" Fayre asked looking over at Sirius and then at Lily. Hurt flashed across her scarred face. A pang of guilt twisted in my stomach at knowing that I had done that. I was truly a monster.
"Fayre… It wasn't like that…" said Lily, gently touching her shoulder. Fayre shrugged it off. She looked at her, with such hatred and hurt.
"No, no. You didn't tell him I was KIDNAPPED? You told everyone that I was SICK?" she asked, standing up. Sirius tried to grab her arm, and he looked so hurt, but she yanked her arm out of his grip and gave him a death glare.
"You were all just going to let me die?" she asked looking at us. I looked away when her violet eyes met mine.
"Fayre, of course we wouldn't. It's just it was so close to the full moon and…" James tried to say. Fayre cut him off with her eyes. They were cold and full of stone.
"Yeah. Exactly. It was close to the full moon. And you know what? I WOULDN'T HAVE THIS BLOODY SCAR FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE IF MAYBE ONE OF YOU CARED ENOUGH ABOUT ME TO TELL DUMBLEDORE TO FIND ME!" she screamed at him. James shut up quickly. There was the truth. My heart beat in my ears. I felt my face flush. I did that. I gave her that scar. It was my fault. My entire fault. I was the monster. I should be locked up. Better yet, I should be dead. If looks could kill, everyone else BUT me would be dead. Because she refused to even look at me when she would talk to everyone else. She wouldn't even glance at me. I meant so little to her… I was the one producing her bad dreams that Claudia said had gotten worse over the past few days. And forever she was going to be reminded of that night because of those four long scars that cut across her beautiful violet eyes. Her face would be forever marred. And her face, now, forever haunts my dreams, as I know my werewolf face haunts hers.
She quickly turned towards Headmaster Dumbledore as she related what happened to her. I had no idea that Carley would use Crucio on her. And over some guy as well. As Fayre told us this, I saw Sirius' eyes grow stonier and stonier by the second as he crushed his fingers into fists. Lily looked like she was going to cry. Peter was trembling. James just stared wide-eyed… And I? I felt nothing. I felt numb. It was still my fault. All her pain that she went through…was my fault. (And a little bit of Carley's psychopathic-ness and Sirius). She looked at Sirius as she proclaimed her love for him… He slowly melted, the stony exterior slowly melted. He was like putty in her hands… But she didn't want that.
"But, she doesn't have to worry about that anymore, I'm over it." She finished. Sirius looked like someone punched him in the chest as Fayre walked out.
"Fayre! Wait!" I called as I got out of my seat and chased after her. The only sounds in the hallway were the clicking of our shoes.
"Fayre," I said grabbing onto her robe and then taking a hold of her arm as I turned her around. She stared at me. Four scars running diagonal across her face. I swallowed.
"Fayre, I'm so-…"
"No. Don't you dare even apologize. Not for this," she said pointing at her face angrily, "and CERTAINLY not for anything that just happened in there. And don't think I'm angry with you because you gave me four bloody scars. No. I'm not angry because of that. Yes, my face will now look a bit distorted but you know what it also looks sort of cool so don't try to beat yourself up about it. I'm angry, because NONE of you told Dumbledore. I could have DIED there. And none of you seem to care. Even now! I come back and you haven't even told Dumbledore…. I TOLD you that Carley kidnapped me. But you didn't tell? Why?" she asked looking into my gold eyes. I opened my mouth but no words came out. She stared at me a bit longer and then shook her head.
"I should've never trusted any of you in the first place. You guys didn't even tell me the one secret I would've liked to know, you know, so I could possibly protect myself. And you know what? If Sirius didn't date that bloody Carley I don't think I'd have these scars on my face!" she yelled.
"Thought you weren't mad about that…" I breathlessly joked. She stole a glance at me. But her eyes softened.
"I… I… I'm not… mad. I just… We were friends, Remus. Maybe even more at one point… And I know you can't control yourself in your werewolf mind but… Didn't I mean more to you that you would've recognized me even in your werewolf mind? Didn't you care about me enough to do that? I mean… I wish you could have stopped it. I'm sorry. I have to go," Fayre said facing her violet eyes to the floor as she turned slowly and walked away.
"You think I'm a monster," I whispered. She turned back and faced me, her violet eyes looked somber and sad. She didn't say a word as she walked away from me… But I already knew her answer.
Yes.
A/N: -Cries- I know. I'm such a baby. I can't help it. It's so sad. Just one sad thing after another. I think I'm gonna cry…
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Innocently Beautiful
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