A/N: Okay. So, you waited a long time… :/ Sorry about that…
IceAge266: Thanks! You're a really good friend…
FantasyEye: Happiness? Don't be silly! No, there is going to be happiness. And then a little bit of sadness. And then bliss! And then a lot of sadness…
MixandMingle: Oh my God! I'm so sorry about your Grandfather. I know how it feels to lose someone so special. I'll try to make the story more happy so you don't die of sadness! I'm really sorry. I hope he rests in peace in Heaven… If you believe in Heaven. I hope he rests in peace. I'm sure he was a very good man.
AnnaIsaDinosaur: Yes, bad things seem to be attracted to Fayre for some odd reason… She's a bit weak is why I think so. Well, I'm writing it…So yeah. That's why. She's a bit weak. And don't worry about Sirius' and Fayre's relationship. It's gonna get better.
This is a WAYYY too long chapter.. Longer than all the others. Eh. Enjoy anyway.
Okay. So, onto CHAPTER 27
CHAPTER 27
I woke up, blinking rapidly.
"What… What happened?" I asked. Sirius was holding tightly onto my hand. And his grey eyes lit up with concern.
"Oh my God! There was someone in your brain and it's all my fault and I should've been talking to you instead of ignoring you and it's all my fault that you went nuts and started screaming. It's my entire fault. I left you in a vulnerable state and whoever it was, was able to take over your brain… And it's my entire fault, Fayre. I'm so sorry," he said leaning towards me. I took in a shaky breath. This whole time, he's been ignoring me, and I've been hearing voices the whole time. I thought I was going crazy but it was just someone in my mind. Oh great. What a relief. I looked up at Sirius. Then I hit his arm, hard.
"OW!" he said rubbing it and laid back into his chair.
"You deserved that. And yes, it was your entire fault. Are you kidding me? It was none of your fault. You can't control what happens to me. You can't protect me. And I'm not vulnerable and don't you dare ever say that again. And you did deserve that," I said jabbing my finger at his chest. He just slowly smiled.
"You're right, Flower, you're not vulnerable."
"Of course not. This flower's got thorns. And don't you ever forget that," I said crossing my arms and laid back into the fluffy white pillow. He crookedly smiled and grabbed my hand, taking it out of my arms crossed.
"Fayre, I was scared," he murmured. I just stared at him curiously and confused. He looked up at me, his silver eyes boring into mine.
"I am in love with you. And I always have been. Ever since I started arguing with you about whether Lime Yellow is an actual color or not-"
"Which it's not," I pointed out.
"And when you said that I do love you… and then…"
"Kissed you," I finished for him. He blushed. Sirius Black actually blushed. There was an actual red-ish tint in his cheeks. I smiled.
"I just got scared…because, you're beautiful. You're wonderful. And you deserve someone a lot better than me," he said. I just stared at him.
"Sirius, I don't deserve anyone better than you. I deserve you. And God, you made me work hard for it," I said smiling. He looked dumbfounded.
"What do you mean?"
"Well, I mean, I didn't know I liked you this much at the beginning, but you were always dating SOMEONE and it just sort of hurt. And then when I did realize my deep feelings for you, I get kidnapped and get into a fight with a werewolf. And then Grace died and I was under the Imperious curse from your cousin, Bellatrix. And now this. I mean I've been in the Hospital wing three times now because of you. If that's not love, I don't know what is," I finished. He shook his head and smiled at me.
"And here I've been just sitting around waiting for you to prove it to me," he said. I pushed on his shoulder.
"Right," I said smiling and rolling my eyes. Then Sirius looked serious, which was an odd look for him. And he leaned in towards my face. I felt my pulse racing. My hands felt clammy. My heart was pounding in my ears. But, all in a good way. His lips were centimeters away from mine.
"My Flower," he whispered before his lips gently met mine. His hands went to the small of my back and my hands fluttered to his neck. Then we heard someone clear their throat and we immediately flew away from each other. It was just James.
"So, uh, that was a bit awkward," beamed James.
"Yeah. Thanks for ruining that mate," said Sirius. James smiled at him.
"No problem, mate!" Sirius rolled his eyes but smiled at him. I felt my face heating up.
"So, has your mind been taken over again?" asked James.
"What?" I asked.
"Madam Pomfrey said that the potion wouldn't last forever. That the voices you were hearing would appear again," said James.
"Oh," I said. Wait, what? They were going to come BACK? I felt myself tremble a bit. They were scary. Telling me I was nothing. Making me BELIEVE what they were saying. Putting me down. Making it seem as if Remus was a monster… Oh my God, Remus!
"Where's Remus?" I asked sitting up straight and craning my neck to see if I could see him hiding somewhere. They looked confused.
"What?"
"Where's Remus? I have to apologize to him. I don't really think of him like that anymore. He's a good guy. I shouldn't have screamed like that," I said looking at my hands. My usually very manicured nails were scratched up and broken, and dirty. I looked up at them.
"Did I leave this room at all last night?" I asked suddenly. James and Sirius stared at me confused. James looked at Sirius.
"Oh, um, I don't know. I wasn't here the whole night. I left for bed," said Sirius. I stared at him wide-eyed.
"Why? Fayre, what's wrong? What happened?" he asked.
"Please tell me Madam Pomfrey was here," I pleaded. James got up and took Madam Pomfrey aside and whispered in hush tones. James came back slowly. I looked at him hopefully.
"No, she fell asleep. Anything could've happened. She says she's a heavy sleeper," said James. Madam Pomfrey's heels clicked over to my bed.
"Fayre, what happened? What has caused this memory?" she asked. I held up my hands.
"What?" she asked, confused.
"My nails. They're broken and dirty. How would I get dirt in them, and they're never broken…" Madam Pomfrey took my hand and scrutinized my fingers.
"They're dry, too," she said slowly.
"Why are they dry?" I asked. Madam Pomfrey ignored me and went to her cabinet and brought back a potion.
"What is it?" asked Sirius jumping protectively in front of me. Madam Pomfrey scowled.
"Move it, Black. It's a Remembrance potion," she said. James and Sirius exchanged a look between each other.
"Are you sure she should know what happened? Does she want to remember?" asked James.
"Is it going to cause her pain? Or agony? Is it better that she doesn't know?" asked Sirius. I sighed huffily.
"Does it matter what you guys think? It's my memory. And I want to know," I said crossing my arms. Madam Pomfrey reached towards me to give me the potion. Sirius stopped her with a hand.
"Okay, maybe we should ask Lily what we should do," said Sirius. James nodded.
"I'll go get her."
"Get Claudia too! Fayre likes Claudia… You like Claudia don't you?" he asked, the last comment directed to me. I rolled my eyes.
"Why does Claudia have to be here?" I asked. Sirius turned towards a frozen James standing in the doorway, waiting for Sirius' command.
"Yeah. Bring Claudia too," he said. James smiled.
"Will do!" he exclaimed and winked at me before disappearing. I groaned and laid back into the pillow under my head.
"I'll take that Madam Pomfrey," said Sirius taking the potion from her hands. She glared at him, but there was a hint of a smile tugging at her lips.
"Why do you let him bully you like this?" I asked her. She shrugged.
"He's not bullying me. It's not any of my business whether you remember or not. It's not a medical issue," she said shrugging. Then she walked out of the room. I glared up at him. His silver eyes looked back at me, playful.
"I hate you," I murmured crossing my arms.
"No you don't." I rolled my eyes. Okay, that was true… but…still.
"You're treating me like a child," I said.
"You sort of ARE a child," he said. I looked at him with fake horror.
"Says the guy who pranks anything that moves," I said giving him a pointed look. He held up his hands in defense.
"Pranking is a profession, not childish," he said all serious like.
"Ri-i-i-ight," I said slowly. I pushed him away, on his stomach. He winced in pain.
"Are you okay?" I asked suddenly concerned. He looked a bit confused and then he smiled.
"Just sore." Then Lily and Claudia came in following James.
"I got the girls! Oh, and these two followed along," said James talking about Remus and Peter who followed in after Lily and Claudia.
"I'm so sorry, Remus!" I blurt out when I saw him. I watched him blush and shrug nonchalantly.
"Don't worry about it. I'm sort of used to your…screamings…now," he said. That just made me feel guiltier.
I looked away and Sirius knelt down on my bed facing our friends.
"Okay, now it's for the moment of Truth… maybe," he said sneaking a glance at me. We stuck our tongues out at each other.
"Child."
"Puppy."
"Now I'm offended."
"As you should be," I said smiling at his fake sad face.
"Why are we here?" asked Claudia before popping her gum.
"SO, as you all know, Fayre here was taken over by aliens. We don't know who the aliens are or what planet they came from but we do indeed know she was taken over which means aliens," said Sirius. James smiled up at him. Everyone else just stared at him, mouths gaping open.
"Aliens?" Claudia shrilled. She would be the one to believe this story. James and Sirius nodded their heads vigorously.
"And her hands are dirty, as you can see," said James grabbing a hold of my hand and showing the others how dirty and chaffed my hands were, "Which definitely means she was abducted last night."
Claudia watched with wide, bright eyes.
"And so, why are we here? It sounds like Fayre had a grand adventure," said Remus, playing along. Lily didn't look pleased.
"She has to remember. Or does she have to remember? I don't think she has to remember," said Sirius, smiles were washed off of James' and his faces.
"Wait, she doesn't have to remember what happened when she was abducted? Or does she?" asked Claudia, clearly confused.
"Well, that's up to you guys. Majority wins," said James
"So, she slept walked last night and something happened. The person was in her body again?" asked Lily. Claudia looked at her confused and then back at Sirius.
"Wait, was she abducted or wasn't she?" asked Claudia.
"She wasn't," James and Sirius said in bored tones. Claudia sat down in a spare chair and tried to backtrack the conversation. I don't think I've ever seen her so confused.
"So, who thinks she should NOT remember?" asked Sirius while he raised his hand. James raised his hand too but then saw Lily's expression of conflict on her face and he slowly put it down.
"Wait, just me?" asked Sirius.
"Padfoot, it's always just you," said Peter.
"Peter's right. You're not thinking right here. She has a right to remember. Actually it's better she remembers," said Lily.
"How is it better for her to remember? What if she killed someone under this…sleepwalking?" asked Sirius. My breath got hitched in my throat. Everyone heard it too.
"See? She can't handle it," he said.
"What do you think of me? Weak?" I asked snatching the potion from his hands when he wasn't looking at me.
"Fayre what are you-?"
But it was too late. I chugged it all down.
"Are you sure she's supposed to drink all of it?" asked Lily.
"Madam Pomfrey never specified," said James. They all stared at me. And then I was plunged into my memory. It was like a thin veil. I could still see all of them staring at me. And I could hear them too.
"What's going on?" asked James.
"I'm…going down the hallway. I've walked outside. I'm…making something," I said.
"Out of mud probably," muttered Sirius. I didn't listen to him.
"It's a potion. A complicated one… I've been working on it for days," I mumbled under my breath. And I didn't remember any of it.
And suddenly I was swept into the memory…
"Just a little more of werewolf blood. That should do it," said the voice that had echoed around my brain.
I jerked out of the memory. Werewolf blood? Oh GOD where in the world did I get THAT?
"It's almost done," my voice said. I mixed the potion over and over.
"Why am I doing this?" my voice suddenly whimpered. The smell of the potion was awful. The voice growled at me.
"What do you mean why are you doing this? You're doing this for me! You're doing all of this for me! And if you DON'T do this for me! You'll die," the voice said menacingly. I felt myself slowly get up. But the forest obscured the face. I couldn't see whom I was standing up against.
"I don't care if I die," I said, lifting my head a little higher. Go ahead and kill me, I thought.
"You don't care if you die?" the voice asked slowly, it sounded as if whoever it was, was smiling.
"You don't know what it feels to die, love," I realized then the voice was feminine. I still stood my ground.
"You don't care for your own life?"
"No. Go ahead and kill me. Then your precious potion won't get done. And you need me to do it, don't you? Or you wouldn't have made me do it," I said, tilting my head to the side, knowing I had beat her. There was the crunching sound of sticks breaking.
"I do you need Fayre. Which is why you'll do this, or all of them will die," she said slowly. She walked out but her face was framed by copper curls and embedded into her pale, ghostly face were bright unforgettable copper eyes. There was blood oozing out of the whole in the chest.
"Please, Fayre. Please! I don't want to die!" Grace pleaded with me. I closed my eyes.
"Grace…is already dead," I whispered. I heard Grace's ear piercing scream and I felt a cool breeze go over me. A tear sneaked out from under my eyelid. I opened my eyes and there was no one around me.
"She was just the first to go. There will be more, Fayre. Trust me on that," said the voice.
"You mean like her sister?" I asked.
"Ever wonder how SHE died?" asked the voice. I had, before, but now I didn't.
Out of the shadows, walked Grace's sister, Matilda.
"Fayre, I tried, I really did, I tried," she cried. One of her copper eyes looked like it had gotten gouged out. On her ghostly arm were words. I covered my mouth with my hand in horror. Scratched into her skin, over and over again, was 'Mudblood'. They were written big and small. It was all over her body. I looked at Matilda's face, which had stopped moving. It was like, she didn't even see me, or she was frozen. Her face frozen with fear in her eyes and her mouth opened in a forever-silent scream. I closed my eyes.
"Stop, please stop," I whispered.
"But, they're already dead. What about your other friends?" asked the voice. Matilda's scarred ghost body was gone.
"Fayre?" a distinct voice said from the shadows.
"Ariana?" I asked.
"Fayre? Are you out here?" she asked. She stepped towards me as I nodded vigorously. Her pale eyes were glassy, as she seemed to stare through me.
"What's wrong?" I asked. Ariana looked real, not like one of those ghosts that the voice had thrown at me. Ariana moved her head jerkily and screamed scratching at her neck, suddenly. Her pale eyes wide.
"Fayre! Fayre! FAYRE!" she screamed at me. I ran over to her and felt myself just fall through her. Another ghost.
"You're sick," I said through my teeth. I heard chime-like laughter.
"Are you going to do what I want you to do?" the voice asked.
"Ha. I don't see the point of why I have to," I said.
"Well, you see, I have someone very important to you here. I kidnapped him. And if you don't do it, I'll kill him," she said.
"Sirius," I heard myself involuntarily whisper.
"She had you there," I suddenly spoke.
"What?" they asked.
"She said she had Sirius."
And then I was plunged into my memory again.
"That's it, sweetie."
"How do I know this isn't a trick? That it's actually Sirius?" I asked. I heard a rustle and a moan. Sirius rolled from the forest towards me.
"Sirius?" I whispered, slowly. His eyelids fluttered open.
"Fayre," he moaned. There was blood on his shirt. I lifted it up slowly. Underneath his shirt were words burned into his skin that read: Blood-Traitor. I gasped.
"Under your shirt," I gasped, "There were words. Burned into your skin."
I saw him carefully lift his shirt through the veiled memory. I heard everyone gasp but I didn't see for the memory was strong and I was deep into it.
"Why? Why do you need me for this?" I asked.
"I need my worst enemy to give some of her hair and to make the potion. That's why," the voice said stubbornly. But for some reason I felt like she was lying to me.
"Then why don't you just take over my mind again?" I asked.
"You're stronger than you think Fayre. And now that you know you were being attacked from the inside, I was only able to control you to get out of that stupid Hospital wing and start putting the finishing touches on the potion. But you resisted. And don't think, that I won't kill him, right here, right now, Fayre Monroe," she hissed.
"Fayre? It hurts. It hurts so much," murmured Sirius, half conscious from the pain.
"Did you try burning him alive?" I asked.
"I knew I would need to motivate you, and I'm not afraid to burn him some more. Fits him don't you think? Such a cold personality. Perfect way to die," said the voice.
Suddenly his hand burst into flames and Sirius cried out as it burned through his skin.
"STOP! STOP! PLEASE STOP! I'LL DO IT! JUST STOP! Please…stop," tears running down my face as I watched him being suffered.
"You're too weak Fayre. So easily swayed," the voice whispered. The fire went out, and there was no trace of a burn. She might've played tricks with me, I thought. But I knew she wouldn't hesitate to actually do it.
"Motivate me," I said.
"Isn't that motivation enough?"
"How did YOU die?" I asked. Suddenly I felt a cold wind brush my hair back. All I could see were clear blue eyes until I was pushed into a dream? Memory?
I ran around to where the Whomping Willow was. There was Bellatrix and Carley, arguing. And then Bellatrix pointed her wand at Carley. A flash of light came out as Bellatrix laughed her maniac laughter that made my skin crawl. Carley fell backward, her blonde hair flying around her. Her blue eyes looked at me, glassy, as she hit the ground with a sickening thud. I gasped, and felt my eyes prick with tears. Bellatrix started throwing rocks at the Whomping Willow, making it agitated. A huge branch looked like it was going to crush her but instead she looked over at me and apparated out of there. Her laughter echoed all around me. As Bellatrix disappeared, the branch fell onto Carley's body with a deafening crack of breaking bones. I covered my face with my hands, but then I heard someone breathing near me. I slowly removed my hands and I fell to the ground in shock and fear. Blue eyes were really close to my face. Familiar blue eyes embedded into a pale face framed by blonde waves.
"Hello Fayre," she said smiling.
I blinked rapidly and I was back on my knees, Sirius' head in my lap, breathing heavily. He was asleep. In front of me, was a ghost. What used to be blonde hair looked pale and shimmered in the moonlight, but her eyes were still profoundly blue. Her eyes looked lost instead of full of malice that I was used to.
"Carley?" I choked out.
I jerked out of the memory. The rest of it wasn't as vivid but I knew what happened. I felt my face dripping with sweat.
"Fayre?" asked James. Sirius was in a chair staring at nothing.
"It was Carley. She was a ghost…"
"Was?" asked Lily leaning in closer.
"The potion was for her. It was a very complicated potion but you know me, I excel at potions, it wasn't too difficult for me," I said. I wondered why she didn't just use Severus.
"Why didn't she just use Snape?" Lily wondered the same thing.
"She needed someone pure. Snape is full of hate and revenge. Snape is not pure," I whispered, the words coming to me without pre-knowledge.
"What was the potion for?" asked Remus.
"She's not a ghost anymore," I whispered. Claudia stopped comforting Sirius and looked over in my direction.
CLAUDIA'S POV
"Why didn't she just use Snape?" asked Lily. Yeah. Why? Snape just fits Carley's personality perfectly.
"She needed someone pure. Snape is full of hate and revenge. Snape is not pure," whispered Fayre. She was surprised at what came out of her mouth. Hmph, I thought, he's a long shot from pure.
"What was the potion for?" asked Remus, his gold eyes curious. I just continued to pat Sirius on the back.
"I can't believe… How did I not know?" he kept saying over and over again.
"It's okay. How were you supposed to know you were burned?" I whispered back. Though, I wondered how he didn't know...
"She's not a ghost anymore," I heard Fayre barely whisper. My head whipped around and I stared at her. She turned her head to the side, and she looked…uncomfortable. Sirius looked over at her, concerned.
"Fayre?" asked Lily, gently touching her forearm. I could see Fayre was biting back a scream. She was fighting with something internally. I got up and walked towards Fayre.
"Fayre? What's going on?" I asked. Fayre's fingers twitched and she lifted her hands and then they'd go back down and clutch the bed sheets. This happened about three times. It looked like she was cracking her neck but, it wasn't popping.
"Fayre? Flower?" asked Sirius, his face has gone childlike as he crept towards his best friend. She opened her mouth, and breath was coming out, as if she were silently screaming. And as she did this, her pale blonde hair turned more gold. Her violet eyes slowly turned bright blue. Her hands went limp on the bed sheets and you could see manicured hands. Her face and body structure changed. But the scar was still eminent on her face… No, not on Fayre's face. It was a different face all together. Her lips curved into a smile, showing brilliant white teeth underneath.
"Missed me?" Carley smiled.
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