A/N: SORRY GUYS! I went to a Christian Camp for a week… And then next week I'm going to an acting camp… I know, I'm a horrible, HORRIBLE person.

But please don't be mad at me. At least I'm writing now! :D YAAAYYY! Right? Sigh… I know. You still hate me…

RECAP: Carley sort of took over Fayre's body. And Sirius and Fayre are now together. (YIPPEE!)

CHAPTER 18

It was unnerving, knowing Carley could take over my body. She hadn't done it since the first time, but it was still unnerving knowing she might. And she was ALWAYS in my mind. Professor Dumbledore was even surprised about it. Was this normal? Obviously not. Could this happen? Well, obviously because it has happened. Could it be cured? Possibly. But at the moment, Professor Dumbledore was stumped. I told him not to bother. Well, I think I was the one who told him not to bother… It could have been Carley. She really didn't want to die. At least, not until she killed Bellatrix.

Which, wasn't going to happen.

She's all, "I came back to kill her." And I'm all, "Well, should've thought about that before taking over MY body."

It was like some alien was living in my brain. And she was so NOSY. She looked through EVERYTHING. Nothing was private in my brain. If I thought it, she heard it. And vice versa. Which wasn't fun at all, because every time we would see Sirius, she would have very…loud thoughts.

It varied between murderous and loving. Which was annoying. Because I'll be holding his hand, and then she'll think something really murderous and my nails will dig into his flesh and he would scream 'ow' and just stare at me. And I would have to struggle to get Carley quiet before being able to hold his hand again.

Her thoughts were SO annoying. Now that she wasn't in her OWN body, she didn't seem all that evil and hateful. She was just…annoying. Mostly because I didn't like her and she didn't like me.

I was looking at myself in the mirror and I held my wand above my head, dying my hair a light pink. I conjured up a pink rose to hold part of my hair back.

Ew.

What? I asked.

Just ew.

I don't want your opinion, anyway.

Well, good, because I don't want to SAY my opinion, anyway!

You don't need to get angry, Carley.

Well, how would you feel being trapped inside of a body?

IT WAS YOUR BLOODY CHOICE! I screamed at her.

You're the one who went along with it, she said calmly. I clenched my jaw. Ariana walked and saw my expression. She started applying her eyeliner before she spoke.

"Carley, stop bothering her."

Carley starting screaming inside of my head. And I was too tired to hold her back, so I felt the pain that came with her taking over my body. I looked in the mirror and I saw my face change. My violet eyes turned blue. My pink hair turned golden blonde. My face structure changed, but the rest of my body stayed the same. I wasn't about to let her have FULL control.

"Don't tell ME what to do! You mudblood!" Ariana just looked at her with a bored expression.

"I'm not a mudblood," then she walked out of the bathroom.

Not-not a mudblood? Carley thought confused, and in her confusion I took my body back. I knew she was feeling the pain this time. My eyes turned violet again and my hair turned back to a light pink.

No. She's not a mudblood.

How did I not know this?

Beats me.

YOU'RE a mudblood.

Actually, I'm muggleborn.

That's still a mudblood!

Noted.

I hate you.

Also noted.

I REALLY hate you.

Still, noted.

Carley just grumbled in the back of my head, but remained silent as I finished my morning routine. I twisted my necklace that Sirius gave me for Christmas. It seemed so long ago. It was a beautiful necklace. The ebony dog kept giving me a goofy smile. It made me smile, because it was exactly the same smile Sirius would give.

I walked into the Common Room. Sirius was there, waiting for me. He smirked at me. I felt my face flush as he took my hand.

You're SO weird.

What? 'Cause I blushed?

Yeah. MERLIN! He could do SO MUCH BETTER than you. I clenched my teeth together and tightened my grip on Sirius' hand. Sirius' grey eyes looked over at me concerned. I shook my head. I felt Carley sigh and then she was silent. I relaxed my grip on his hand. We met up with James and Lily. We were going to Hogsmeade this weekend, which was exciting.

"Hi!" smiled Lily. She was so cheerful. I felt slight pain, and I had to hold Carley back because apparently she was unaware that James and Lily were dating.

WAS I BLOODY DEAD WHEN THIS STARTED?

No.

HOW DID I MISS THIS?

I don't know.

I THOUGHT I KNEW EVERYTHING ABOUT THE MARAUDERS!

Well. I guess not.

MERLIN!

That was the end of her little outburst. She wanted to say it out loud. Then Lily and James smiled up at each other, and I couldn't contain her. It was as if she had gotten stronger. I felt pain behind my eyes, knowing my eyes were changing color. And my mouth moved for me.

"WAS I BLOODY DEAD WHEN THIS STARTED?" she screamed her first thought that I had ALREADY RESPONDED TO.

Lily and James jumped. I felt Sirius flinch. I started to breathe heavily as I fought Carley back down.

"Sorry," I panted. Lily's green eyes bored through mine, searching my violet ones.

"No, it's fine. She's still kicking in there?" she asked with a slight smile. Carley wasn't amused.

"She's not leaving until Bellatrix is dead, is her response," I said. Sirius froze.

"You're not serious," I heard him say under his breath. But, I didn't say anything to it. James looked very serious.

"Well, guess we're going to have to kill Bellatrix, huh?"

YESSSS was Carley's response. Everyone else's was 'NO'.

"You can't kill Bellatrix," was Sirius' response.

"Why?" I asked. I wouldn't mind killing Bellatrix. Sirius looked at me with concern mixed with love that was always in his gaze.

"Because, Bellatrix is too strong."

"Good always trumps Evil!" I said cheerfully. But the conversation was done. James and Lily were playfully arguing about something or other. Head Girl and Boy duties.

"Flower, promise me you'll never go after Bellatrix," Sirius' breath tickled my ear. His voice was low and I knew he was serious about it. I sighed.

Don't you dare promise.

"I promise," I whispered back to him. He smiled crookedly.

I'm going to break that promise.

Don't you dare.

Make me. OH WAIT! You can't. Because I'm inside of your brain and I'm stronger than you are which pretty much means, I can take over your body whenever I bloody want to, Fayre. When Bellatrix is near, I'm coming out. And I'm going to kill her.

I shuddered from her murderous words. It scared me. It really did.

REMUS' POV

I watched Sirius and Fayre laugh with each other and cuddle on our way to Hogsmeade. I didn't want to come. I really truly didn't. It sucked, your two best friends having someone to love. I couldn't love anyone. I never could. Not with my 'furry little problem'. I looked away from the happy couples. Peter was bouncing in his seat singing 'we're going to Hogsmeade! We're going to Hogsmeade!' But I knew the isolation from our friends was killing him too. He always felt like nobody. Looking into his black watery eyes, I knew it was his biggest fear, all of us leaving.

CARLEY'S POV

I listened to her thoughts and felt what she felt. When Sirius touched us, we both felt jitters. It bothered me. It wasn't supposed to be like this. I was supposed to be separate from her. But, it felt like instead of us feeling more and more separate, we were becoming more and more…one. I couldn't let that happen. I couldn't be erased forever by her mind. I lied when I said I was stronger than her. Only when she was too emotional could I take over. And even then, I couldn't take over completely and not for long periods of time. I had to keep agitated. I had to.

But I knew, I was dead. Technically speaking, I was dead. I should be gone. But it killed me, knowing I died without love. Without someone loving me as much as I loved him. Knowing I would never have a family. I'll never have kids. I'll never…

If I could cry, I would be crying right now.

God. Life was a bitch.

So was Death.

FAYRE'S POV

"I can't believe you still only like to drink butterbeer," scoffed Sirius as he downed his firewhiskey. I stuck my tongue out at him.

"Call me a child, but I feel more comfortable with butterbeer than with firewhiskey," I said.

"You refuse to even TRY it!" exclaimed Sirius. I scrunched up my face.

"It's like drinking underage," I said.

"It's not drinking underage."

"Well, in the muggle world…"

"Oh GOD! I don't want to hear THAT lecture again," teased Sirius. Then he held up his glass up to me. He had like three cups of firewhiskey and he only drank one cup. He held the full glass up to my lips.

"I'm not drinking it."

"C'MON Fayre. One sip! Please, for me?" he asked, his grey eyes getting bigger. He gave me the perfect puppy dogface. I sighed.

"This is peer pressure," I said grabbing the glass. He smiled crookedly, thinking he got his way. Then I mimed as if I was going to drink it, and then I dumped it all over his head. He looked completely shocked. I giggled and then got up as he started to chase me. We threw some money on the table before running. I ran down an aisle, laughing my head off. He caught up to me and put his arm against the stonewall next to me. I backed up into the wall. We were breathing hard. He smiled.

"Got you," he whispered. Then he leaned in and kissed me. Right when he kissed me we heard a cackle.

"OOHH! Baby cousin! Snogging a girl huh? The same girl I used the Imperious Curse on?" she laughed maniacally. At the sound of her voice I felt immense pain. Carley was in a rage.

It was Bellatrix.

Sirius tried to pull me, now Carley, behind him. Bellatrix's face didn't change at all when she saw the transformation of me into Carley. She was fazed at all.

"This ends now, Blood Traitor," she said pulling her wand up at Sirius.

CARLEY'S POV

I saw the wand being pointed at Sirius. And Sirius wasn't stopping her. Didn't he know what he was doing? If he died, it would KILL Fayre. Maybe I wasn't going to know love, but I could die for it.

As I saw the curse being spurt out of Bellatrix's wand, I jumped in front of Sirius. I felt different curses from both sides of me. I realized too late that Sirius was going to counteract her curse. Too late. I screamed. Then I realized Fayre inside of me was screaming too.

Wow, I really didn't think this through.

But it was killing me. I was dying. And maybe it was killing Fayre too. Sirius looked astonished as I felt the body drop to the ground. I heard a last cackle and then saw Sirius's grey eyes before blackness engulfed me.

FAYRE'S POV

I felt Carley leave. My body writhed with pain. But I wasn't dead. My eyes were open and I knew I couldn't move. I felt paralyzed. Staring into Sirius' grey eyes. He didn't deal well with sadness. He spit at the ground, fire in his eyes.

"MUDBLOOD FREAK! WHY DO YOU JUMP OUT IN FRONT OF ME! WHY ARE YOU SO BLOODY STUPID? Mudblood freak." I felt tears spring to my eyes. And he saw the moisture in my eyes.

"Fayre?" Slowly, my body came back to me. I got up slowly.

"Merlin, Fayre! You gave me a heart attack- what's wrong?" he asked noticing the tears running down my face.

"I don't know. Maybe I'm just too bloody stupid. Oh wait, no. I'm a mudblood freak. Why are you with me anyway, Sirius? Why did you leave your pureblood family? You're just like the rest of them," I said getting louder towards the middle and ending with a whisper.

"Fayre, I didn't mean-"

"Shut up, Sirius. I'm SICK of you hurting me!" I yelled at him. I got up and ran back out of the aisle.

I couldn't believe him.

I couldn't believe…

I found a dark corner and cried. There someone put a gentle hand on my shoulder. I looked up into gentle blue eyes.

"Hey, are you okay?" I just nodded my head.

"My names Xenophilius Lovegood," he said, holding out a hand. I took it and shook it.

"Fayre Monroe."

A/N: Yes. Lovegood's in the story now. Weird plot twist. –Smiles Evilly- Do you get where I'm going yet?