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A/N: Sorry that it's taking me a while to write these chapters! As soon as school ends, I'll be writing like crazy! :) XOXO

CHAPTER 3: Nicotine

I couldn't stop thinking about the kiss. Cat's lips were so much better than in my dream! I tried to remember the taste that exploded in my mouth as our lips collided, but I just couldn't. It's not that I forgot what her lips tasted like, it was just a flavor that I couldn't create in my mind. I needed the flavor back on my lips! It was like a drug... and the nicotine is taking over me...

I keep repeating the words that I had sworn I would never say in my mind. I love Cat. I always have. Even on that date with Beck, my heart was still beating for Cat. I only tried to be with Beck because I knew it wasn't possible for Cat to actually like me, even if Tori said she did. It's just not possible. I'm fucking Jade West for crying out loud! A girl like Cat and I... well we just don't belong together. Just like the sun and the moon don't belong together. Why do you think the moon only shows at night? It's because the sun is out during the day. They just shouldn't be seen together. But what about a solar eclipse? Ugh... I'm thinking through this too much...

After class was over, I went to the bathroom and walked in the stall that I had carved the eye into. I locked the door and pulled out my pair of scissors. I needed to relax and just forget about Cat. This is just a stupid little crush that I think is love, but in reality, it's just a crush. I can't actually love Cat. I won't love Cat.

Suddenly, I heard someone skip into the bathroom. "La, la, la, la, la!" I smiled at the adorable noise that bounced off the tile walls. Followed by the singing was an explosion of giggles. It made me curious as to what she was laughing at. I continued to listen.

"Hehe! Jadey..." I froze for a few seconds and then stood on the toilet seat so that I could peak over the stall door. Cat was standing in front of the mirror rubbing her finger against her pink lips. I felt my cheeks move up as my lips curved upwards. I was actually smiling a real smile. What the fuck does this girl do that makes me grin so much?

Cat's eyes looked up to the mirror again and she looked at the reflection of me poking my head over the stall. She quickly turned around and looked at me as I jumped off the toilet. "Jadey?" Cat walked over to the stall and grabbed the top of the door, pulling herself up to look at me. "Hehe, hi!"

She jumped off the door as I unlocked it. As soon as I stepped out off the stall, I was met by Cat's embrace. I just stood still as the redhead held on to me. She pulled away and looked up at me. Her eyes were like lazers, making me melt the longer I looked into them. Her eyes were getting closer and closer as she stood on her tip-toes to reach my lips. Once our lips touched, I felt a rush through my body. I figured it was the nicotine that her lips gave me, making me even more addicted to her taste.

I pulled away feeling the rush become too strong. My heart was throbbing and I didn't know what the fuck was happening to me. I ran out of the bathroom and into the parking lot to find my car. I can't do this shit. I can't fall in love. I can't do that to my heart. My heart does so much for me and I'm not going to let it break.

I tried to avoid Cat as much as possible. Whenever I saw her, I turned around and walked in the opposite direction. I know she probably thinks I'm mad at her or something, but it's just who I am. I'm Jade West, and I can't love.

The next day of school was torture! Cat sat in every class with her head down, completely silent. Her smile always gets me through each day, but the smile isn't here today. I really hope I didn't take her smile away. I'll admit, I do steal a lot of things, but her smile isn't one of them. I kept looking at Cat. She looked so innocent. Truth is, she actually isn't that innocent. She's stolen too... she stole my heart... and I need to get it back before it breaks. I continued to look at her, keeping my eyes locked to her lips, waiting for her smile to return. But by the end of the day, it still wasn't there.

I went to my locker at the end of the day to get all of my stuff. As I grabbed my last book and closed my locker, I was met with Tori Vega's dumb ass face. "Ugh... Vega... What the hell do you want?" I grunted, already annoyed even though she didn't even talk yet.

"I want to talk about Cat" This conversation suddenly became interesting to me.

"What about Cat?" I said as if her name didn't even faze me.

"Well, I don't know if you noticed, but she's upset."

"And why would I care?" I said flatly.

"Because you love her."

She stared at me, waiting for an answer. "No... I can't love..."

"Can't? or won't?" I began to walk away from her, but what she said next made me stop. "She loves you too, you know."

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