Operator? proxy please

(Katie)

When I woke up I was in my room on top of the covers, the window wide opened, my head still hurt and so did my stomach. I lifted my hand up to my face but I noticed a strange mark, it was a circle with and X through it, I just stared at the symbol and quickly went to my window where I stared out at the forest and saw it, the tall man with no face but no static surrounded him as he walked away into the forest. I went to the downstairs bathroom where I kept my pills to find every bottle still there, the house seemed just fine as though whatever happened last night never occured that was if it wasn't for the footage still on the camera that was now hooked up to my computer with a new video already downloaded.

I watched the video, I watched myself going dowstairs, chasing the figure into the woods, the fights, they must have escaped the bounds when I fell unconsiouse for there was footage on the camera of the tall man picking me up as the hooded figure followed him close by so I figured it was the guy in the mask that was recording the footage still as they walked through the forest and back into my house where the camera was placed on my desk as the tall man placed me down on the bed and turned to the camera which began to go static and that was all that was left of the video. The three seemed familar to just as the abandoned house had, I knew that somehow I knew who they were, I closed my eyes focusing on the three figures that I had seen but I could only place a name on the tall man who I guessed to be Slenderman due to the games that I had played but I didn't know the names of the other two.

I was no longer home schooled I had had enough schooling in the Asylum it seemed that whatever they made me forget they replaced with some other subject. I went straight to the attic and went through the rest of the boxes but still couldn't remember any of the characters I saw, their names weren't familiar but their pictures were, I could stare at the photo and something in my mind would click but I still couldn't remember any of them but that was my new mission in life, to regain something of what I forgot. It was just that something about these names seemed important as though they played a huge part in my life and if my mind was focused on something else then my self harm was lowered which was what they suggested that I stay as busy as possible and so far it was working.

That night I went back into the forest, through the tunnel, and to the abandoned house to find that that Hooded figure was gone which was just fine with me. I searched everywhere for some clue as to who he was but I didn't see anything until I moved a pile of leaves away from the corner where I found a tape in the corner and pocketed it. I remembered seeing a tape player in one of the boxes so I hoped to transfer whatever was on the tape to my computer flashdrive. My camera was recording as I walked further into the woods looking everywhere for the masked or hooded figure or even Slenderman but found no such luck until I came upon what looked to be an abandoned hospital or something like that, it looked burnt down and I don't know why but again I got a sense of familiarity as I walked the halls. I went into every room going back and forth, clearing away the rubble looking for anything that might be of use or left behind. Every now and then I heard static but never saw anyone while I was there.

I found two tapes in seperate rooms and writing on a wall.

He's A Liar and Follow me where on two seperate walls but right next to each other and again the words seemed familiar. The static got louder and I looked around but still saw nothing however when I focused on the static I heard something in it as though wherever it was coming from it was speaking to me.

Marble Hornets

Again the name sounded familiar and I remembered that in the box I had found a small notebook with the same words on it and what looked like notes but I thought nothing of it but maybe some idea I had for a story or something and threw it back in the box. I quickly made my way home as the same churning feeling in my stomach started up and I anazlyzied the notes carefully even looking at the entry's that were noted in the notebook. I now knew three names and what the strange symbol that was on my hand meant.

Slenderman was watching me

Masky (a.k.a Tim) wore the white mask

Hoddie (a.k.a Brian) was the orange hooded guy

The mark on my hand was the "operator symbol", his symbol.

But that was only a small scratch on the surface it wasn't enough to un-cloud my mind of the past. I went through the tapes I found but it wasn't anything new or interesting they were the same from the ones on Marble Hornets youtube page and all recorded by Hoodie. I wanted to find out more on these three but when I went online there wasn't anything more then what I already knew about them which wasn't much but I had a better idea of what I was against thanks to the Marble Hornets video entries. My parents called a few times but I told them that there wasn't really anything that I figured out after all if I told them about the three that I had found out so far they would send me back to the Asylum again and I really didn't want to go back even though I did miss Ben my sichiatrist he was nice, friendly, and he really cared about me. He also stood up for me when the doctors got mad at me which had been quit often.

My phone buzzed next to me and when I looked at who had texted me I couldn't help but smile it was the devil himself.

Hey you doing anything today? I heard your

parents are gone and they wont return until

two months from now.

I'm just going through some old boxes in

the attic that had my name on them.

What are you doing today I'm not doing

anything interesting.

I was wondering if maybe you wanted to

hang out or something if that's still

cool to do. If you don't want to though

that's still cool to...

Yeah I'd love to hang out with you

You still have my address?

Yeah I'll come over now. I'll

see you as soon as I get there.

K see ya soon.

My parents had given Ben our address in case I needed to speak with him again since none of the other theripists I went to I would talk to. I didn't trust any of them like I trusted Ben. There was something about him that made me feel safe with him and I felt like I could tell him anything. Sometimes he would even walk around the halls of the Asylum with me or take me out into the woods that were right outside my room or we would head to town where we would get dinner and walk around the lonely streets under the streetlamps just following the stars. My dad thought he was a great gentleman and had no issues with him, sometimes my mom would joke with me trying to get me to admit that he was cute and I wont lie I did think he was but there was still something about Ben that made my heart hurt maybe if I asked him about it he'll know why he always seems to know the answer to everything.

While waiting for Ben to come I changed into some skinny jeans, MCR (my chemical romance) band shirt it was the "Fake your death" album memorial shirt. I was greatly upset to find out that the band broke up while I was in the Asylum the first time and I was even more grieved to find out that also Mitch Lucker died while I was in the Asylum as well and no one told me. Anyways I re-straightened my hair but pulled my side bang back behind my ear and toped it off with a skull headband. I fixed my room which wasn't to messy but I had pappers sprawled everywhere, when I finished I heard the doorbell ring downstairs and I rushed to the door, caught my breath at the bottom and opened the door to great Ben. I couldn't help but smile to see him again.

"Hi Katie you haven't changed one bit since last I saw you." he said with a smile

He came in and we sat in the living room.

"It's been to long Ben wish you had texted me a little sooner."

"I know and I'm sorry I was busy it seems that once word got out about what the doctors were able to do everyone wanted their kid to see me. A thousand phone calls a day I feel like I could sleep a thousand years." he joked

I had almost forgotten about my heart hurting when I thought of Ben until I heard his laugh, and that's when my heart began to hurt as though it was rejecting the idea of me and Ben.

"Can I ask you something, patient to therepist?" I asked

"How about friend to friend?"

"No, no this is one of those questions. I remembered talking to you a lot about my heart and how some things seemed to make it ache and it hurt a lot more when I started forgetting things."

His smile dropped and he moved closer to me taking hold of my hand.

"What's wrong Katie?"

"Well it's just...I hope this doesn't sound harsh but sometimes when I think about you my heart hurts and I don't know why but it does as though it's rejecting something. It hurts and sometimes it feels like it wants me to find something important out but I don't know what and then I only end up thinking about you more."

His arm moved and he wrapped it around me pulling me close to him as I rested my head on his shoulder as I had done hundreds of times at the Asylum.

"I don't know what it could mean." his hand lifted my chin and I stared into his blue eyes "But maybe it's not a bad ache as you think. I may not be an expert on hearts but maybe I can help you mend it."

Those words..I don't know when but I've heard them before but it wasn't Ben...no it wasn't this Ben you said those words it was another Ben.

Katie will you be my Zelda

Only if you'll be my Link

For some reason that line popped into my mind and I started to remember other things, like playing video games with someone who would sit behind me and guide my fingers over the controls, of a hardcore gammer who loved to play his games but only with me and not the others.

"Katie? Is everything alright?"

I shook my head and looked back at Ben.

"Yeah I was just thinking. Can we get out of here Ben?"

"Sure come on I heard there's a cricus in town would you like to see it?"

"Sure that sounds fun."

Ben opened the passenger side door for me before getting into the drivers side and drove into town. We parked a little ways away from town square where we saw a huge red and gold tent set up and some people were going inside. Ben picked seats right in the front near the center of the tent so we had a great view of the show but as the clowns came out there was one that stood out to me, he was taller then the others but instead of bright colors he had black and white stripes, white bandages around his wrists and when he stood up on the ring leaders stand my head began to tic again.

"Come one come all. Young or tall, old or small come one come all to the greatest show on the road. Standing before you is the one, the only, the greatest clown around, the amazing Laughing Jack."

My neck twitched hard and the crack was louder then usual, the doctors thought I had toretts because I was always twitching but I hadn't done it in some time but there was something about that name that clicked in my mind and an image of a tall, black and white clown obssessed with candy and hates children popped into my mind. I saw him clearly in my mind and he was holding out his hand before me.

"Come home Katie. Come home."

"Katie are you alright?" Ben asked

"Yeah i...I um just need some air I'll be back."

I ran outside the tent and felt my phone ring and hoped it was my parents but it was an unknown person but still I checked the txt. They had sent a cut out photo and all that showed was Slenderman, Masky, Hoodie, and the black and white clown that I had seen in my mind and his name appeared.

"Laughing Jack." I whispered

You're getting closer H.B.

Who are you? What do you want?

All that followed was another picture and when I opened it it was the same one on my hand, the operator symbol and then I heard it; static but would he really appeare in such a public place? I looked around but didn't see any of them but it was still there. I went back inside and told Ben that I had gotten a call from my parents but everything was fine and besides the constent head twitch every now and then the show was fun and after apologizing several thousand times I had Ben drive me home saying that it wasn't him I just wasn't feeling good was all and that I'd text him latter.

Once inside I waited till I was positive that he was gone I ran upstairs, grabbed my black hoody that still had blood stains on it, I didn't wash it I liked the stains they were the only true real thing that I remember clearly from my past. I begged the doctors to allow me to remember at least what I did as Demented Katie and they were reluctant but just like me I knew they were glad for letting me keep those memories of those kills. I grabbed my camera and ran into the forest, I went to the abandoned house first to check for more tapes and sure enough there was a tape hiden under the blankets on the mattress. I looked around some more to make sure there wasn't anymore hiding somewhere before I headed on to the burnt down mental hospital and again shivered at walking down the hall realizing how much the Asylum was similar to this place but never the less I went to all the rooms and hoped to find another tape but I didn't find anything and there was no static but I saw the operator symbol more often on the walls.

I headed back home and played the tape but it wasn't anything interesting just a rerun copy of entry #18 from Marble Hornets. I don't know if it was a warning or a symbol, I don't know why this "Hoodie" person was leaving behind these clips or why I had this symbol on my wrist but there was something deeper to who I was then I realized, what was I getting myself into?