It was the start of my final year at Hogwarts and this year was all about forgetting. That sounds weird, but I needed to forget everything that's happened, my father, my mother and eughh, The Marauders.

My mother, as usual, had made me late for the Hogwarts train and I had to run to catch it and find a compartment. As I searched, I finally found a half empty compartment but just my luck, The Marauders had taken it. The train began moving and if I wanted to sit down for the journey I'd have to just be brave and sit in their compartment, I didn't have to talk to them, just sit there.

As I walked into the compartment I felt all the eyes in the room watching me, and as I sat down next to Remus I couldn't bear the awkward silence and said:

'Hey' it came out much quieter than I imagined and James just looked at me in pure disbelief. Lily however, was the first to speak and greeted me with a warm smile before saying:

'Hey Avalon, how are you?' I noticed her hand was entwined with James' and I raised my eyebrow.

'I'm fine, I see you've been busy' my voice dripped with venom and Sirius looked almost taken back at my harshness. Flushing Lily looked down at her lap while I rolled my eyes at her; this was the girl who before claimed she hated James Potters guts? I had the feeling Sirius didn't quite believe me, and for most of the journey he continued to stare at me uncomfortably and he whispered silently:

'Avalon?' I looked up and saw his face full of confusion and almost… what? Hurt? I glared at him and snapped:

'What? Why don't you take a picture it'll last longer.' The compartment looked up at me in disbelief, especially Sirius.

'You look… Different' I saw Lily look up and I glared at her, she knew why, but she wouldn't say, would she?

'Well I'm a Metamorphmagus, I can change my appearance'

'You suit brown hair more, especially your green eyes'

'You know what, I couldn't care less what you think, this is me now okay? So what if I have black hair and bright grey and blue eyes, it doesn't make a difference' Growling, I leant back on the seat and closed my eyes, when I opened them, a nervous Lily was looking uncomfortable.

'Um… Avalon? Your eyes aren't grey, or blue, they're purple' I shot forwards from my seat and grabbed a mirror, inspecting my eyes. She was right, they were purple. Sirius. Instead of looking freaked out I acted perfectly calm, like it was the most normal thing in the world.

'Yeah, and?' Narrowing my eyes at her, daring her to say it, she shifted awkwardly in her seat and Sirius looked taken back.

'You haven't just changed your look, you've changed your personality as well, look at you, you use to be the nicest, most stubbornness person ive ever met and now, now your just mean and heartless'

'To be frank, I don't care. This is me now, and im never going back.' Confusion filled Sirius' grey eyes and his face looked contorted with worry, but he needn't worry about me, he didn't know me anymore.

'Your not yourself, your hanging round with Slytherins for Merlin's sake! This isn't you, what changed?' Asked Sirius just as the train pulled up at Hogwarts and I glared at Lily, and my gaze never left her face as I said:

'Ask her.'

Storming out of the compartment I felt the rush of emotions I'd been feeling in the past year rush out and to my horror, tears were spilling down my perfectly formed pale cheekbones. I ran, and I ran till I reached the Great Hall, but before I entered, I stopped to regain my dignity. My eyes were puffy, and my usual black eyeliner was smudged down my face, I wiped it away and applied some more, hiding all my emotions. That's what I've been doing a lot lately. With my eyes now harsh and cruel like the night sky, I noticed once again my eyes returned to their normal grey/ice blue colour that I preferred. I hated seeing them purple, it just reminded me of what could have been.

The usual rush of first years crowded the hall as I took my seat next to a randomer of whom I did not know. It was better this way, not knowing anyone. The first years were excited and giddy, like all children are when they first see the hall. They all seemed so happy, and already they have strong friendships, but if they were anything like me, they shouldn't get use to it, it won't last. Love always finds a way of ripping all your hopes and dreams apart.

The next day, I found my first lesson was Charms, which I sighed at, because I usually found this boring as we were with the Ravenclaws. Goody. Usually I sat with a nerdy girl called Charlotte, who was small and quiet, with lanky blonde hair and an almost pretty colour of blue eyes, but she was nice and smart. However because it was a new year, we'd all be moving, and I was dreading my new seat.

Our teacher called our names individually and told us where we were sitting and when my name, Avalon Rustley, was called, my partner was called, and when they were, my heart (and stomach) dropped. Sirius. Sirius Black. Well wasn't that just great.

Sirius and I sat in an incredibly awkward silence, writing out the effects of the charm we were studying when Sirius blurted out:

'We miss you know' Looking up, I saw Sirius was blushing and I raised an eyebrow at his statement.

'I'm sure you'll get over it' I muttered, going back to my work and ignoring Sirius once more.

'It isn't the same without you Rusty' I shot up, and narrowed my eyes at him, he blushed again and looked down at his parchment.

'Don't. Call. Me. Rusty' Narrowing my cruel coloured eyes at him I noticed his eyes fill with disbelief. Okay, so I was slightly different to last year, but deep down, I was the same person.

'I'm sorry okay? I'm sorry for whatever ive done to turn you into… This, but no matter what you say, this isn't you! The old Rusty was different, she had auburn hair and bright green eyes, she was funny and stubborn and went bright red at anything, I miss that girl, but I know she's still there, somewhere' 'She isn't here, not anymore' Standing up, I looked Sirius straight in the eye and spun on my heel, storming out of the room, to everyone's bewilderment. I saw James and Remus exchange looks as I flew from the room, and left Sirius looking shell-shocked and hurt.

JAMES POINT OF VIEW

Remus and I saw Avalon run from the room, leaving Sirius sat at their table, looking hurt. I exchanged looks with Remus and muttered so no one but him and Peter could hear:

'Its time'

We waited till the end of the lesson, and as we saw Avalon come back with Lily to apologise to our teacher, Peter, Remus and I put our plan into action (with a little help off Lily)

AVALONS POINT OF VIEW

I was sitting in the Gryffindor Common Room thinking about what to do when Lily entered the room, breathing heavy like she'd been running for a while. She told me about Sirius and the rest of The Marauders and how much they missed me, and for a minute, I almost believed her, until I thought that no one apart from her had followed me, they didn't care and they never did. However I had to follow her, otherwise I'd get detention for skipping class, and that was the last thing I wanted.

When we got to the lesson the rest of the class were just leaving and I avoided the rest of The Marauders stares and rushed awkwardly to the front while Lily spoke with James about something in hushed tones. Catching Remus' gaze I saw him flash me a sympathetic smile before turning to James and once again talking to him in hushed tones.

I met Lily outside the classroom and she told me about something that had happened in the Common Room, an emergency apparently. Rushing to the Common Room, Lily told me she needed to stop off somewhere on the way, and while Lily went into a deserted classroom for some unknown reason I stood outside, facing the other way and watching the portraits as they chatted. Suddenly, before I had the chance to react I was pushed forwards, into a dark broom closet. As the door closed behind me, I saw a flash of red hair and a glimpse of James glasses and Remus' sandy hair. Screaming, I saw that they had a blinded person next to them and were about to push him in the closet as well. I moved backwards, but before I could get out of the way, the blinded person was shoved into me and I toppled to the floor, suddenly aware of the person being on top of me.

'Well hello there' the person said, taking their blindfold off and winking. The now unmasked person had long black hair and twinkling grey eyes that I could recognise from a mile away. Sirius. Suddenly I was uncomfortable aware that Sirius was on top of me and I blushed furiously, standing up and fixing my clothes. I was about to say something when I heard a familiar yell from outside the closet.

'YOUR NOT BEING LET OUT UNTIL YOU GUYS MAKE UP!' It was James yelling, with Lily stood next to him.

'PRONGS! THIS IS BREAKING A MARAUDER RULE!' Sirius was yelling now, trying desperately to open the door.

'THERE IS NO MARAUDER RULE FOR TRYING TO HELP YOUR FRIEND!'

'WELL THERE SHOULD BE!'

'JUST MAKE UP FOR MERLINS SAKE!' James and Sirius were still yelling at each other and for once, I had no clue how to react. How on earth were Sirius and me supposed to make up?

'What James is trying to say is you guys should just talk!' Now Lily was talking, instead of yelling like James and Sirius, obviously trying to calm a very angry Sirius down.

James and Lily left, along with Remus and Peter, who both apologised for being in with the plan. Still blushing furiously, I found an upturned bucket and sat down, preparing for an incredibly long night to come.

'So…' Smiling weakly, Sirius leant against the wall and slid down, sitting cross-legged opposite me.

'So… How's Quidditch going?' I tried miserably to make conversation.

'Okay thanks, we've got our first match coming up soon, against Hufflepuff'

'Oh, cool' the conversation stopped there and for the next ten minutes we sat in silence, awkwardly avoiding the others gaze.

'You know what I never found out?' Looking up, I saw Sirius looking at me curiously.

'What?'

'That transfer student from Beauxbaton? She just disappeared the next day and I never saw her again, its really weird!' I blushed even more and remembered the prank again, and more importantly, the kiss.

'Ohh, about that, I have a confession to make' Sirius looked up and I carried on: 'It was me, okay?' To my surprise, Sirius started laughing like it was some kind of hilarious joke.

'It was you? The transfer student was you?' I nodded and he laughed even more 'that makes sense! You're a Metamorphmagus! And that was why Lily looked funny all day!' Suddenly, I started hysterically laughing along with Sirius, and noticed his face was incredibly cute when he laughed. His grey eyes twinkled magically and his grin was so wide it caused attractive wrinkles at the corner of his eyes, along with two dimples on either one of his cheeks. Laughing even more, Sirius stopped and smiled at me, a real smile, not a sympathetic one or a fake smile like some people, a real smile, and it was the first one I had seen in a while. For once I smiled back, willingly as well, not forcing a smile like I had for the past few months, and surprisingly, it felt good.

'I've missed that smile' Sirius smiled and I blushed again, looking down at the dirty floor.

'Surprisingly, so have I' we sat in silence for a bit longer until Sirius blurted out:

'Wait! The transfer student! I kissed her!' Furiously blushing again, I stuttered:

'Hmm… Yeah, about that…' Sirius was grinning at me again.

'You kissed me! I knew her eyes looked familiar!'

'Okay, so I may have kissed you, but it was Lily's idea!' Still grinning, Sirius interrupted my explanation.

'Was it good?'

'Was what good?'

'The kiss!' Sirius winked at me and I felt my face going red and my eyes changing colour.

'Um… It was… Pleasant?' Laughing, Sirius said something about the kiss being 'much better than that' and that I was being modest.

'But you know you never did tell me what purple meant!'

'Oh yeah, about that… I cant tell you' Confused, Sirius looked bewildered and I looked down at the floor, I knew deep down that I had to tell him soon, but I simply couldn't tell him what it meant, it would completely ruin our new friendship and I couldn't let that happen again, we'd just got things back on track.

'Okay, but you know, I'll just ask Lily' Winking at me again, I began to wonder when we would be let out, the rest of The Marauders and Lily had left, we would have to wait till morning. We continued to talk about random things, and Sirius always went back to the same question, to see if I would tell him what purple meant.

For once, I felt happy, properly happy, not faking it like I had for the past months since mine and Lily's fight, I had let a stupid crush get in the way of our friendship, but it was all over now, I didn't like Sirius anymore, at least that's what I thought.

Morning came, and I awoke to find myself asleep on Sirius' broad chest. Surprised, I jumped up and found The Marauders, and Lily, were staring at us with raised eyebrows. Straightening my clothes, I coughed loudly and Sirius woke with a start, jumping up and shouting 'IT WASN'T ME I SWEAR!' When he realised where he was though, he to straightened his clothes and ran a hand through his messy hair, smiling awkwardly at James.

'Honestly Padfoot, all I said was to make up, not go that far!' He grinned and Sirius growled at him, while Lily laughed and I went beetroot red, again.

'So… Did you guys make up?' Sirius and I exchanged glances and laughed, while James looked at us like we were mental.

'Yeahh, I think so' we said simultaneously, and then laughed again.

Walking back to the Gryffindor Common Room, we all continued to talk about random things and soon along the way Remus, Peter and Izzie joined us, and the rumours I had heard from Marie were true, Izzie definitely fancied Remus. She looked just like me when I was around Sirius, she went bright red when Remus said anything to her and always stuttered around him, she looked horrifically nervous around him (did I always look like that, dear Merlin I hoped I didn't!)

When we got to the Common Room, we were greeted by lots of stares from many people who had witnessed our fight over the months and most of them were muttering things to their friends behind our backs. I looked awkwardly down at the floor and averted from their stares by walking uncomfortably to the girl dormitory stairs. Before I could get to my dorm however, James had yelled at some nosy people to mind their own business and leave us in peace.

The room cleared and we all sat down awkwardly on the sofa, well everyone else did, I sat on the floor and leant on the sofa with my feet lounged in front of me. James sat furthest to the left, with Lily leant side wards, her head on his chest with her red hair flaming out behind her. Remus sat on the arm of the sofa, feet resting sideways with Peter sat next to them. Sirius sat on an appalled Peter's lap for a while but after a bit Sirius got annoyed with Peter's constant yelps and moved to sit cross-legged next to me.

We all sat there for a while, before realising we should probably go to breakfast. Entering the Great Hall was even more awkward than entering the Common Room, with more stares of disbelief and mutters. Whilst eating breakfast, I realised my hair was no longer black, it was its usual auburn colour, wavy and down past my shoulder blades. I hadn't checked in the mirror for a while but I was pretty sure my eyes weren't the grey/cold ice blue colour they had been a few hours ago.

'Lily, can I borrow a mirror?' Lily looked up and smiled at me, she must have noticed my hair colour already.

'Sure' She passed me a small red mirror, detailed with orange sequins and a mini Gryffindor lion on the front. Smiling, I opened it and checked my eye colour, yep, they were green again. Still lined with black however and they still had flecks of purple in. I don't think that will ever change if im honest. Not until I actually tell Sirius how I feel anyway.

My first lesson of the day was Divination, which I never took seriously; I was always told by the teacher that I had a talent or, the 'inner eye' as he said. My best talent was seeing through a crystal ball, I had predicted many things that had come true, many of which freaked the students in my lesson out.

I sat next to Izzie at the back, and we were convincing Lily to come and join us while we made room for three people. Eventually she joined us and we sat there laughing at The Marauders and we especially took the mick out of Izzie's crush on Remus. Being Izzie, she completely denied it, claiming it was 'nothing' and Remus didn't like her back.

'Oh please, he's mad about you!' Lily shouted this abit more loudly than she thought and The Marauder's table turned to look, and Remus looked quizzically to Izzie, who blushed and looked down at the dream books we were looking at, pretending to be seriously concentrating on a page. Lily and I sat laughing at Izzie's concentration face for the next ten minutes, before getting told to shush by the teacher. I then asked for a crystal ball and sat next to Lily staring into it, concentrating hard on the foggy mist within.

Suddenly the fog cleared and I saw a hazy picture of the Great Hall, filled with students wearing robes and what looked like graduation hats, all stood at the front of the Hall, and if I concentrated really hard I could just make out Professor Dumbledore calling up each student individually. Just then, I saw a dainty girl with flaming red hair coming to the front, with an older, more mature boy with messy black hair and glasses next. At the back was a young man, with long black hair and mysterious grey eyes, standing next to what looked like me, and to my surprise, we were holding hands. Blushing, the image faded and I saw The Marauders, Lily and I all walking away from Hogwarts, looking older and happy, full of dreams and hopes. The image shifted, and I saw James kneeling in front of a pale, shocked Lily. Sirius and I were stood behind grinning, while I almost started crying watching this future happening. I smiled at Lily's grinning expression while she screamed 'YES!' And flung her arms around an extremely happy James. I turned away from the crystal ball and grinned at a confused Lily, explaining I'd tell her later.

I went back to the crystal ball and saw the image had faded, and I was now looking at a moment not too long in the future. It was Sirius and I; we looked slightly different around each other, like the atmosphere had changed. We were talking I saw, and then I noticed Sirius say something, before leaning in and kissing me lightly on the lips. I smiled in spite of myself and blushed furiously again. Then, I saw a tired red headed girl lying on a hospital bed, and I panicked wondering what on earth had happened. James was beside her, and he was, grinning? Confused, I saw a healer come to Lily with a bundle wrapped in material, she then passed the bundle to an exhausted Lily and I saw that the bundle was a baby. Grinning, the image changed once again and I saw what seemed to be James, sitting in the Gryffindor Common Room, but then saw the boy had bright green eyes and was then greeted by a tall, ginger boy with freckles and a rat sat on his shoulder. Afterwards, a small girl with bushy hair and a pretty face sat next to the ginger and they seemed to be arguing. Who was this boy? He looked so much like James, the same round glasses and messy black hair, but with the brightest emerald green eyes. However if you looked closer, you could see his messy hair hid a small red scar, in the shape of a lightning bolt. Still confused, I dragged myself away from the crystal ball so I could talk to Lily about what I had seen. She had blushed about her and James getting married, but lets be honest, we all knew it would happen one day, I had known it since the day I had first met Lily back in the middle of our first year. James had taken quite a shine to Lily and her gorgeous red hair, and since then, the rest was history.

I wondered about the kiss between Sirius and I, you could almost sense the atmosphere and tension even though I was watching the scene. And there was always the mystery about the boy, could it be James and Lily's baby? That would be so cute! But in a way, the scene seemed almost familiar, and I had felt an eerie sensation when I saw the scar, like I recognised it, and more importantly him. The graduation scene had been very moving, it was like reassurance that everything was going to be okay, and that we all would graduate (never thought Peter would!)

I spent the whole day talking to Lily about the scenes, but I didn't tell her about the young boy with the lightning scar, I couldn't figure out why I couldn't tell her, I just couldn't. She seemed oddly pleased that James was going to propose, though I had to convince her it was at Graduation, not soon. She still seemed on a high about it though.

A/N Hey guys! I loved writing the crystal ball thing, it made me smile as i imagined James proposing to Lily! Oh, by the way, for the guys that havent guessed already, i do not own Harry Potter! As much as i would love to, i dont, and i never will! I am just a humble writer, filling her loss of Harry Potter by writing this story about my ultimate crush, Sirius Black.
Anyway, moving on from my tragically sad crush on Sirius, please review! i love to hear your comments, even your critiscm! Or however you spell it, i'd even appreciate it if you reviewed telling me how to spell it!
- SiriuslySlytherin17 x