Relief
Thats was this was.
The relief of finally being punished for having these feelings.
Or thats what she told herself.
Everytime she would enter this room of solituide, the once white sink now dressed in the ruby colored liquid. With her teammates preocupied and away from this paradise normal people would call "The Bathroom", she could finally give herself what she deserved.
One cut.
Two cuts.
She would always come in here with the intention of cutting once for each time she would think her her during the day. But that was never enough, coming out with only that ammount wouldn't be considered punishment enough. What was usually a trip for 3-4 cuts always turned into 5-6 on a good day. She always knew to stop at a certain point though, she'd learnt that lesson while ago when she kept going and going until she passed out and woke up in the medical wing, fortunatly she'd managed to play it off as a grimm attack from their mission they'd just returned from although the nurse and Yang seemed very skeptical and it wasn't rocket science knowing that that trick wouldn't work twice.
Ruby snapped out of her memory in time to hear a muffled "Hello?" She didn't pay it much attention until she saw the door handle turn. "OPCUPIED" She had managed to squeek out in time, albeit alot louder then intended
"Oh, sorry Ruby" Blake shuffled away pulling what little of the door that she'd opened shut
'Phew' That was probably the closest anyone had come to finding out yet. Realising that she should reply she blurted out "How was your date?" and almost instantly regretted it."It was good, Sun says hi." This alone was enough motivation for another cut, violently slashing at her arm out of anger "SHIT" She yellped looking down at the now bloody mess of a wrist, turns out she hit something she shouldn't of. Now she was losing blood fast "Are you okay?!" A clearly worried Blake shouted, footsteps getting louder as they approached the door "Ruby!"
Tears blocking her vision as she speedily tried to clear her mess "I'm fine. Don't come in!"Her voice cracked "I just dropped something" She was grsaping at straws now, praying that the door would not open
"Ruby I'm coming in"
Ruby threw the blade she'd been using into the bin and threw on the taps to clense the blodd out of the sink "Blake its fine noth-" She blacked out.
"RUBY!"