Jenny's POV

The plane ride back to D.C. was quiet, Kate sat asleep in the chair between me and Jethro. I had taken the window seat. Carefully looking out it I thought about the night before between Jethro and Mike.

"How could you Mike!" Came the shouts from Jethro from outside. The two had been waiting to have this conversation since Jethro first arrived to find me at Mike's place, the both figured now was the best time. Especially since we were leaving in the morning, they had walked a little ways away from the house as they talked. They were far enough away so that Kate couldn't hear them but I could hear them perfectly fine.

"I did what was best for her. I couldn't leave her there to die! I knew you cared about her too much, plus if you lost her than you would have probably gone ahead and killed yourself like you almost did with Shannon and Kelly!"

"You have no right to bring them into this Mike!"

"I have every right Jethro! I would have left Jenny there to die she would have gone back and Ducky would have done the autopsy and found out she was pregnant, that was what was gonna push you over the edge. You keep blaming Tony and Ziva for this but it is yourself you should be blaming. Jenny is stubborn, she gave them an order and they followed it. They didn't know any better than to follow her orders, she gives them their job and they probably would have wanted to keep them."

"Why exactly should I blame myself though Mike?"

"She's stubborn but just like you. She learned how to be stubborn from you."

"Stubborn?! How was I stubborn when it came to that Mike?"

"You couldn't swallow your pride and go with her. She asked you, you personally that you come along with her to Decker's funeral but no you had to make up a sorry ass excuse and stay behind. You would have gone with her and none of that would have happened."

"Maybe I should have, but tell me Mike, afterwards we met and you told me one thing. You told me she died protecting someone and when I asked who you said me. I should have known she would have done anything to protect me but why when we were talking did you say she died? You could have told me she went down protecting someone. It would have taken me forever to realize what you meant. I didn't believe Jen was dead but when you said it I realized it was true. Because of you Mike I started drink, I drank till I passed out. Not that I wanted to forget her because hell I didn't she was one of the best things that happened in my life, it was because I wanted this to all be a dream that I would wake up from and she would be there standing on the catwalk waiting for me.. Everyday I walked into the office waiting to see her than Vance would appear there and the rest of my day was clouded over. It wasn't until I watched Cynthia come down the stairs and hand me a box, there were tears in her eyes and I knew something was up. Before I looked in the box she grabbed my hand, she told me Jen was the best boss she ever had and that she'll never forget her or me and my team. I realized then that Cynthia had been fired because Vance didn't believe she was capable of the job she had been doing for years. Cynthia was the only other one who had been closed to Jenny and with her gone the reminder of Jenny went with her. In the box was everything Cynthia had managed to save before Vance tossed everything. Mike we all thought she was dead!"

"She needed to be 'dead' in order for us to protect her she was in danger."

"You could have told me!"

"I did when the time was right, Probie try to understand.."

"No! Me and my family will be gone in the morning!"

"You can't do that. It's up to Jenny not you. We've grown close this is like her second home just like it us to be for you."

"Wrong again Mike, Jenny's home was her first home, my home was her second, work was her third and this is her fourth. For me My house was my first home, than Jenny's home is my second, third work and than yours. Never was it our second home."

"Jethro..."

"Don't Jethro me, we are done talking here.." With that Gibbs had turned and left. I heard the front door slam shut and I whined hoping it didn't wake Kate. I than laid down in the bed and rolled over on my side as I heard footsteps approaching the door, I listened as the door opened and closed before the covers were lifted off the bed. I felt them come down as the figure climbed in beside me. As soon as his arms wrapped around me as if on instinct I scooted closer to him laying my head on his chest. I felt his hand run through my hair as he laid there silently.

"Jethro what's going on?"

"You're awake? What are you doing awake Jen?"

"I heard you two outside the window.. You guys weren't the quietest. It isn't Mike's fault.. He did what he had to to protect me. You should be thanking him. If it weren't for him I wouldn't be here.."

"You taking his side now Jen?"

"Jethro he's right you know, you were too stubborn to come with, just like you were too stubborn that one night I asked you to stay. You're stubborn, I'm stubborn and that's how we work so well together. Don't blame him, he did so much for me and Kate, we are both here today because of him." He didn't say anything he just carefully got out of bed and walked over towards the door. When he reached the door he spoke up.

"I would have thought you would have taken my side in all this... Jen he may have saved you but he had no right to not tell me about you. If you were in danger I could have protected you, both of you,."

"You don't understand the person after me was after you as well, if I came back I would lead them to you... I couldn't risk your life as well..."

"Don't Jen.. Just don't we are done talking about this..." With that he walked out of the room nearly slamming the door behind him. That was the argument that really crushed me, we hadn't even been yelling but the words were what hurt the most...

I sat there looking out the window thinking about the fight, it had hurt deep down. He hadn't said a word to me since that conversation last night, he hadn't even looked towards me yet he was willing to bring me home which made no sense. I looked towards him multiple times but he never glanced towards me and he was quiet too quiet.. Though I sat there and didn't question a thing.

The car ride back to his place was quiet as well, Kate remained asleep and Gibbs kept his eyes on the road while I leaned my head against the window and closed my eyes. I had just started to doze off when I felt the car stop. Looking outside I knew we were here. I climbed out and got Kate carrying her inside to bed. Once she was tucked in I came into the living room and looked towards him as he set the last bag down, that was when I spoke.

"You have no right to be mad at either of us. Franks did what he had to to save my life for you and you should be thanking him not yelling at him. Do you know how bad we wanted to tell you.. Jethro I was in danger which means Kate would have been. I had thought about sending someone with Kate to go find you but every time I thought about it I realized that by having her find you, you would realize I was alive and come find me which would put us all in harms way so I didn't risk it. You have to try and understand that we did it for a reason, it was to protect us all.."

He stood starring at me for a few minutes before walking towards me, automatically I stepped back with each step he took forward until my back was against the wall and he stood right in front of me. He lifted his hand and let it rest on my cheek before lowering his lips towards mine and kissing me. I was shocked at first but than kissed back wrapping my arms around his neck and running my finger through his hair.

"Jethro we can't keep doing this.."

"Keep doing what Jen?"

"Fighting and than acting like everything's okay.. Jethro that isn't how life works.."

"Jen stop.."

"What?"

"Just stop worrying, people fight it's part of life and you know what, everything is okay because I'm with you."

"Jethro."

"Jenny I'm not done please let me finish" She nodded and I continued

"Jen I loved you the first day you walked into the office, you were actually here before me which no one had ever been able to accomplish. You surprised me, surprised me by being the first female agent, by being one of the youngest agents ever. Just by coming to work for me you set two records. You didn't stop there you were determined. You proved to be more worthy than William Decker or Stan Burley combined. You knew more then both them and you were a cherished member of the team. You were one of the most important members. We had many undercover missions together, they weren't suppose to be us together but I had talked Morrow into letting you come instead of one of the others, why because you did them better than either of them could do. We worked good together, we knew it and they all knew it. Our undercover missions brought us closer, they helped start a relationship that I never wanted to end. Yes I'll admit it I did shut you out at sometimes and to this day I regret it. You walked out on my in Paris and it was one of the worst times in my life.. I never forgave myself for that. You came back six years later and I had been happy to see you. When you told me their would be no outside the office something inside me died. Jen standing on those stair I meant it when I said I missed you. We worked together for three good years. Yes there were many fights but that was because neither of us could get over our damn stubbornness. When I lost you in that diner I feel apart, because seeing you lie there I knew I had lost you, lost you forever this time. Dines he started drinking because he blamed himself for your death, you were an influence on him, you were an influence on them all. Not only did DiNozzo drink, I sat up late nights drinking as well. That evidence box isn't in the evidence locker it's in my basement. I look at that bloody blue shirt of you all the time to remind myself it's real. I really lost you. Jen I can't lose you. You came back to me, you came back and now I can't lose you again I may not make it if I were to lose you again. Jenny we need you to come back, please come back as director, I once told you you were the best damn agent I ever saw it's still true but also you're the best damn director this agency has ever seen and it needs you. This agency needs you more than you realize so come back to it. Come back to your family, Abby needs you, Ducky needs you, Tony needs you, Tim needs you but most of all I need you. I need you back in my life. Jenny please will you do me the honors of becoming my wife? I can't lose you again, I want to spend the rest of y life with you no matter how long it is. I'll help you with Kate, she can come to the agency and hang out with us. Our family is there and our family wouldn't be complete without you so Jen please?"

I stood there starring at him not saying anything. The entire world around me was silent, my head was pounding as I tried to take in everything. Still I said nothing instead I stood and just stared...

"Jenny... Please say something.."