When the cab stopped both women found it in themselves to pull apart, long enough to get out. They barely had both feet on the sidewalk when Lexa's hand came up and cupped Clarke's cheek once again. A minute later Lexa felt Clarke pull away slightly and all they could do, with their hearts beating out of their chests, was look at one another.
"You're sure?" Was all Lexa could manage to get out.
Clarke nodded as she pulled the other woman closer. "Are you?" She got a nod in response before they entered the hotel hand in hand.
xoxo
The minute Lexa pushed the room door open she turned around and rested her hand at the base of Clarke's neck before pulling them towards one another. They heard the door close behind them but neither was really paying attention. Hands were all over the place as layers of clothes started to come off and fall to the floor. This wasn't about reconnecting and taking it slow. It was about falling into the attraction that had always been ablaze between them. It was about giving in to what the universe had been trying to tell them. It was about need. They needed each other. They had been fighting each other for so long that giving in seemed to be necessary.
"Are you sure?" Clarke asked as she pulled away slightly, her hands on the belt loops of Lexa's unzipped jeans.
A nod. "I'm sure. Are you?"
Clarke nodded as she searched Lexa's eyes for anything that may suggest otherwise. "Yeah."
That was all it took for the final string to break and the floodgates to open.
xoxo
"Let me apologize for interrupting you earlier." Lexa whispered in Clarke's ear as her lips went back to their assault on Clarke's neck, her hand slowly running down Clarke's naked body. Her fingertips trailed over her stomach before reaching her waist and running down her left thigh as she kissed the spot on Clarke's neck, just under her collarbone that she knew drove the blonde mad. She heard the moan escape from Clarke's lips and in that moment she realized just how much she had missed the blonde.
A part of her wanted to go slow but that wasn't what this was about. With liquid courage still running through her veins she slowly trailed her fingers back up Clarke's thigh and as she kissed the other side of Clarke's neck she left her finger slowly trail up where Clarke needed her most.
"Lex, please." That whimper was all it took for any bit of self-control that Lexa had left.
It didn't take long for Clarke to get close to what she craved most. It had been so long that the euphoria she was feeling was making her head feel fuzzy in the best possible way.
"Fuck." She rasped out as Lexa started moving her fingers faster. "I'm getting close."
She felt Lexa nod against where she was kissing her neck. In another minute she was throwing her head back, her body canting upwards. "Lexa." She let out in a moan that made the other woman lean up and kiss her deeply. Another moment later, as she came down from her high she searched Lexa's eyes once again and that was all it took for her to flip them over.
Clarke slowly kissed her way down Lexa's body. Leaving feather light kisses as she went. It may have been years since they had been together but it didn't feel like it, not in that moment. Their bodies knew the other too well and it was as if they had never been apart, the way hands grabbed at all the right places as they moved like they were one. Once Clarke got to Lexa's waist she slowly kissed across it and down both her thighs as she hands ran up and down the brunettes sides, her nails softly scraping sensitive skin as she went. She could hear the soft moans coming from above her as she looked up once last time and saw Lexa's eyes open slowly to look at her. No one else would have noticed but Clarke saw the slight nod that she was looking for before her head dipped down.
"Clarke," the sound of Lexa's voice saying her name so huskily caused her head to lean up, "I'm not gonna last very long if you keep doing that."
Clarke was tempted to continue doing it but she knew, even in the heat of passion that it had been awhile for Lexa and she so she made the call to slow it down, just a little bit. She kissed back up the woman's slender body as her fingers took over where her tongue had left off.
"Clarke, Clarke, please don't stop." Clarke couldn't help but grin at the way the woman beneath her was saying her name.
"Come for me Lexi." She purred into the brunette's ear and that was all it took. She felt the body beneath her lift up slightly as Lexa's head was thrown back against the pillow. Damn, she had missed that sight.
XOXOLexa woke up the next morning tangled under the blankets. It took her a minute to remember exactly where she was and how she had gotten there. Once the fuzziness of the morning wore off her eyes snapped open and she turned around in bed and realized that it was empty. She lifted her head and looked around the room to find the blonde's clothing was gone. She laid her head back down on the pillow and covered her eyes with her arm, trying to thinking of ways to apologize and make things right when there was a knock at the door.
Getting up she grabbed her over sized jersey and threw it over her head before opening the door. "Good morning Miss. Callaway, we had instructions to deliver this to you and to apologize if it woke you. Have a lovely rest of your morning." Lexa looked down at the cart and pulled it into the room.
"Thank you, and no need to apologize." She held up a finger and got something out of her purse before handing the man a fifty-dollar bill. "Have a good day." She smiled before closing the door.
Moving the tray over she sat down in bed before pulling it towards herself. Opening it up a smile instantly appeared on her face as she looked down at the pancakes. She let out a laugh as she saw the note sticking out from under the plate.
I am so sorry that I had to leave but I got called into work. It was an emergency or I wouldn't have left. I know they aren't my pancakes but since you don't exactly have a kitchen these will have to do. Have a good day beautiful and thank you for an amazing night.
xo Griffin xo
As she read over the note for a second time she continued to feel the tingly and the butterflies in her stomach showed no signs of stopping. Yep, she was definitely far too into Clarke Griffin.
XOXO"You didn't come home last night." Octavia wiggled her eyebrows as Lexa walked into the kitchen.
"Holy fuck, don't do that. Now I know what Clarke has always talked about." Lexa jumped slightly as Octavia keeled over laughing.
It took a minute for the laughing to subside before Octavia could continue speaking. "Please tell me you didn't work all night because I might have to kill you if you did."
"I didn't work all night mom, I just crashed at the hotel because it was closer."
Octavia gave her a look. "What do you mean at the hotel?"
"I still have my room." Lexa shrugged as she opened the fridge.
"Why?"
"Because neither of you have told Clarke that Lexa is staying in her old room." Lincoln answered as he walked through the door from his morning run. "And Lexa doesn't want to risk losing her fancy room if Clarke gets pissy. Which I told her wouldn't be a problem but no one listens to me." He rolled his eyes as he slid his arm past Lexa and grabbed a bottle of water from the fridge.
"What the fuck?!"
Lexa and Lincoln looked at Octavia and shrugged. "What?"
"How does he know all of this and I don't."
"Now you know how it feels!" Lexa laughed as Octavia moved away from the counter and went to sit in the living room.
"I don't like either of you right now." She yelled from where she sat on the couch. "She'll find out soon enough and I already told you Lex, she won't care. I just haven't seen her to tell her, but you know you could also be the one to tell her."
"Oh yeah, hey Clarke by the way I'm crashing at your best friends house."
"Sounds good enough to me." Octavia shrugged as she turned the tv on.
XOXOThree days later Clarke groaned at the note that was left on her door. It was something about the water being turned off so construction crews could fix the water lines. All she wanted after three long days of work was to come home and take a nice hot, long bubble bath with a bottle of wine.
Showers at the hospital weren't the greatest, the water was never as hot as you wanted it to be and you were lucky if you got ten minutes before the water went cold all together. Sometimes you really just needed to enjoy a hot steamy bath to get rid of the hospital smell. As much as Clarke loved that smell, she didn't love when she smelled like it.
It didn't take her long to get the idea in her head once she walked into her apartment. She grabbed a bag and threw what she needed into it before heading out once again. Twenty minutes later she pulled her keys out of the same bag and opened the door to the dark apartment. She didn't need to turn the lights on, she knew exactly where she was headed and she could navigate the space with her eyes closed.
So in her tired haze she made her way into the familiar washroom. She set her bag down on the counter before turning the lights on and running her bath. She added the bubbles and then lit the candles that were still the way she left them in the room.
While she waited for the tub to fill she venture out into the kitchen in her cotton robe and opened the fridge. She found what she was looking for right away. Smiling she grabbed the bottle of merlot and a glass from the cupboard. She poured herself a glass before heading back to the washroom where she saw the tub half way full of water and full of bubbles. Just the way she liked it, the more bubbles the better.
She sat on the counter as she waited for the tub to fill the rest of the way before derobbing and getting in. It didn't take long for her eyes to close and she sank into the tub, glass on wine sitting on the edge. She was so relaxed that she didn't hear the front door open and shut. Even if she had she wouldn't have thought anything of it. She also didn't hear the door to her old bedroom open. She took another sip of her wine before sitting it back down.
"Holy shit I am so sorry!" Her eyes snapped open and she barely saw the fleeting form close the bathroom door.
"So much for relaxing" She said aloud but only to herself as she dried off and put her robe back on before making her way ut into the living room. "Lexa what the hell are doing here?" She half laughed as she sat her glass down on the counter.
"I sort of live here."
Clarke cocked her head to the side. "Sort of?"
"Yeah Octavia insisted I stay here while my place is being finished because she saw my hotel bill one night and said even if I was rich I was being stupid."
Clarke nodded. "So the hotel room?"
"I kept it because we hadn't gotten the chance to tell you yet." Lexa looked down at her hands, not really wanting to make eye contact with her ex.
Without another moment passing Clarke was keeled over in laughter. "Lexa," she tried to stop herself, "it's fine, more than fine. Octavia is right it's stupid of you to waste money on a hotel room, because we both know as much as you love room service, you also like actually cooking."
"You're not mad?"
"No, I'm not mad and you both just should have told me, it's not my room anymore and this isn't my apartment plus it isn't like you and I are on bad terms."
Lexa smiled as she looked back up and realised that Clarke was wearing nothing but a robe. Visions of their night a couple days ago flashed across her mind and she couldn't help but smile slightly. "What exactly are you doing here? In the bath?"
"Oh right, that. My water is turned off because of construction and I desperately needed a hot bath after a very long three days of work. I knew O and Linc were at work so I came over here, not that I wouldn't have if they were home either she laughed.
"In that case, go enjoy your bath, I won't barge in again."
"Oh no, it's alright I'll leave you be. I'm sure you've had a long day at work to."
"Clarke. Go enjoy your bath!" Lexa said sternly, looking Clarke dead her eyes. "Yes, I'm sure."
xoxo
A half hour later Clarke heard a knock on the bathroom door and opened her eyes. "Yeah?"
The door opened just enough for her to see part of Lexa's head. "I made dinner if you're interested."
"That'd be great, thanks."
Five minutes later Clarke emerged from the washroom in a baggy sweater and yoga pants. "Sorry about the entire, I wasn't expecting company." She laughed as she sat down at the kitchen table where there was a plate of spaghtetti waiting for her.
"No need for apologies, those pants are fantastic, I should be thanking you." Lexa winked as she sat down across the table from the blonde. "Speaking of thank you's, thank you for those pancakes, not as good as yours but they hit the spot.
Clarke smiled. "No problem, anytime. I'm sorry I haven't called you but I literally haven't left the hospital since that morning. It's been crazy busy and well, you know how much I love work."
"Again, no need to apologize."
xoxo
"Are you sure you don't want to spend the night? I can sleep on the couch."
Clarke shook her head. "I'm sure but thank you, for letting me use your washroom and for dinner."
Lexa laughed as she leaned against the open door. "Anytime, the room is definitely still yours, I'm just borrowing it."
"Borrow it as long as you need." They shared a smile before Clarke turned to leave.
"Clarke?" She turned back around. "We're okay right?"
Clarke smiled with a nod. "We're fine, we're two consenting adults, things don't have to get weird."
"Good, I'm glad, I was a little worried."
"No need to be, we'll just be like Jamie Foxx and blame it on the alcohol."
Lexa shook her head with the roll of her eyes. "You need to work on your jokes Griff."
"I'm hilarious and adorable thank you."
"That you are, well at least adorable."
Clarke stuck her middle finger up at Lexa as she once again started walking away. A year ago she never would have expected to be where she was but she'd be lying if she said she wasn't grateful.
XOXO"I need to tell you something but you can not tell anyone, not even Octavia!" Clarke said as she held the phone to her ear.
"Oh shit, do I need to fly up there so we can do that thing we discussed?"
Clarke rolled her eyes at her bestfriend. "No Ray, we do not need to bury a dead body, at least not this time."
Raven laughed on the other end of the line as Clarke sat down on her couch. "Alright then what is it?" A pause. "Clarke Griffin did you sleep with Lexa?"
"How the hell could you possibly guess that?"
"You have your 'I'm talking about Lexa' voice."
"I have no such voice, thank you."
Clarke couldn't see it but she knew that her bestfriend was giving her a knowing look as she nodded her head. "You totally do, but anyways, how was it? Can I start planning the bachlorette parties again?"
Clarke groaned. "No it's not like that. It sort of just happened and I mean she's incredibly beautiful, there's no denying that."
"So what does that mean for you two?"
"Nothing, it was purely physical, I can't help but be insanely attracted to her but I just don't know where to go from here. I don't want things to be awkward between us."
"It was as good as you remember it wasn't it?"
Clarked leaned her head back on her couch. "Ugh! Yes. Better."
"Wait so you finally managed to cross the finish line?! It's been months!"
"Really Raven? Cross the finish line?" She couldn't help but laugh at her best friend.
"Answer the question."
A deep breath. "Yes I crossed the finish line, three times."
"Sounds like the only problem was that you weren't sleeping with the right person. So it's going to happen again then?"
"I don't know, we haven't talked about it."
Raven shook her head. "Maybe you shouldn't talk about it, you two and talking sucks. Maybe for once you should just let things happen."
"I'm not ready for anything though. She hurt me really bad and I'm not over that."
"I know you aren't but you're friends and you trust her. You said it yourself you're adults and adults can be there for each other without it being anything more than that."
"I don't want to be friends with benefits with my ex, that's so college."
Raven sighed. "You work hard, she works hard, you both need release sometimes. It's not friends with benefits if it happens occasionally with someone you trust. Stop over thinking it Clarke, and enjoy the ride."
"I hate you." Clarke replied as she heard Raven dying of laughter on the other end of the phone. "I'm going to bed now. Go engineer something." With that she hung up the phone contemplating what Raven had said and for once she knew the girl was right, she needed to stop over thinking everything. It wasn't like Lexa was into her like that or that the other woman would ever make a move because that was always Clarke's job. Lexa was always oblivious.
TBC…