Chapter 9: Saying Goodbye
Kendall's P.O.V.
I feel like everything in my body was coming apart. I could feel my very being coming undone. 'This can't be happening. No. It's not happening. This is all imaginary.' I kept repeating in my head.
"Are you OK? Kendall answer me." Logan was saying over and over.
But I was unable to speak. Unable to move. All I knew was my Jo, my beautiful & perfect Jo, may not be here tomorrow. I was in shock. James shook me and I was able to look around. I hadn't even realized James and Carlos come up. They both hugged me individually. I didn't know what to do. I knew it was bad. Carlos and James were even crying.
"Ca-ca-can we g-go see h-her?" I stuttered out to the doctor, even though my mouth was dry.
"Of course!"
The boys and I headed to her room. On the way there, I stopped and pulled out my phone. I dialed my mom's number.
"Hello?" She answered.
"Hey," I replied and continued to tell her what was going on, somehow in a voice calmer than I felt.
"Okay. We will be right there." She said when I finished.
As Logan, Carlos, James, and I walked to the room, we braced ourselves. We didn't want to look too upset when we saw her. We opened the door and stepped in.
"Hey Jo!" I went to her as fast as I could. She may not be here in the morning, but she's here now and that's all that matters.
I wanted to make the most of it. I kissed her then grabbed her hand.
All of a sudden she started crying. Mom and Katie were already here when us boys arrived so Mom went over to comfort her and Katie curled up beside her.
"The... the... the doctor told me to start saying goodbye," she choked out. Then she looked at me. "Kendall, I'm scared."
I almost broke down again. I knew I had to stay strong for my wife, though. She is my one and only true love.
I started rubbing her hand with my thumb.
"I know. Me too."
Then I had to leave her side so that Mom, Katie, and the boys could hug her. They were all sobbing and saying how nothing will be the same. They have no idea.
Finally, we had time alone. I will not allow my self to cry. I laid beside her and listened to her breathing.
Tears still in her eyes, she asked, "Kendall, you'll be OK, right?"
"No."
"I love you..."
"I love you too with all of my heart." I told her.
She cuddled next to me and fell asleep. Soon I couldn't feel her breathing anymore.
I held onto her now lifeless body for what seemed like hours, but was only a matter of minutes, when I couldn't stand to be in the room.
Outside of her room, I fell to my knees and let my held back tears flow. Carlos and James were waiting outside in the hallway and I could tell they started crying as soon as I fell.
"Whh-ee-rr-ee's Mom, Katie, and Logan?" I asked still crying.
Just then, the elevator door opened, and all three walked out.
"She's gone." James told them, amidst his tears.
They started crying. Logan was miserably upset, so much that he punched the wall.
I went over to him, and we both bro-hugged. We both cried even harder.
The End
A/N I thought about what songs should be on a soundtrack if this story were to become a movie. Here is the list and tell me what you think.
Soundtrack
Worldwide – Big Time Rush
Moments – One Direction
The A-Team – Ed Sheeran
Lucy – Skillet
Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely – Backstreet Boys
Have You Ever – S Club 7
Come Wake Me Up – Rascal Flatts
Every Day – Rascal Flatts
Here Comes Goodbye – Rascal Flatts
My Wish – Rascal Flatts
Over You – Miranda Lambert
I Won't Let Go – Rascal Flatts
Nothing Even Matters – Big Time Rush
Forever – Rascal Flatts