When Evan saw Jonathan rush away from him after the incident, he couldn't help but feel discouraged. He didn't even know what got into him; he had never thought he would be into guys. Well, he had, but he won't dare to admit that to himself. Evan rubbed his face and considered running after Jonathan, but it was obvious Jonathan didn't feel for him in that way. Evan packed up his stuff and started walking to his class. His phone buzzed and Evan when he saw who the text was from, he sighed and shoved it back in his pocket. He really didn't want to deal with her right now.
When he entered, he sat in his seat, saying his quick 'hello's to his tablemates. He then just sat in silence, trying to escape his thoughts. He then participated in class, hoping it would distract him from his worries and fear. When the class was over, he slugged to his next class and repeated his routine from last class. After what seemed like an eternity, he finally made his way to the bus and was greeted by Brock sitting in a seat, saving it for him. They exchanged their hellos, and started talking amongst each other.
"So, Evan how was your day?" Brock asked Evan. Evan sighed, he didn't even want to think about the recent events of today, but that wasn't enough to stop him from spilling.
"Shitty." Evan replied bluntly.
"Do you want to talk about it?" Brock asked, he wasn't sure if it was appropriate to ask, mainly because they've just met this morning, but Brock thought it wouldn't hurt to just ask.
"Not really. It's just that I'm kind of fucked right now. But honestly I really don't want to talk about it." Evan half explained. He was being honest though, he really did not want to talk about it. He really just wanted to ignore it. It made him just so fucking sad.
"Alight. I hope it all works out though." Brock patted Evan's back.
"Me too. So enough about me, how was your day?" Evan asked.
"It was really good actually, not to rub in your face or anything. But oh god it was really good." Brock replied happily with a sheepish smile on his face. Evan couldn't help but smile.
"That's great man, so what happened that was so great?" Evan asked.
"It's kind of stupid. Really stupid, like it's a really small thing but I don't know why it made me happy but it really did."
"It's probably not stupid, but you don't have to tell if you don't want to."
"No I do, I'm just scared you may laugh at me." Brock chuckled.
"Dude! No way! Just tell me!" Evan pleaded.
"Alight. So my crush asked to sit with me at lunch. Yeah go ahead laugh. I'm super lame and awkward, I know." Brock told Evan.
"That's not stupid! I think its cute. So did all go well?"
"Yeah it went really well, he even hugged me at the end to say goodbye." Brock said enthusiastically, but then when he realized what had come out his smile quickly faded to a 'what the fuck did I just do' expression.
"Aw. I'm glad it went well." 'I wish I could say the same' Evan thought to himself.
"Wait, so you're okay with it?" Brock asked quietly, with his head down.
"Okay with what? The fact that you like a guy?" Evan asked.
"Yeah. Most people, well considering were in the south, aren't exactly so cheery about it. I'm surprised you didn't have a reaction when I said 'he'. I can think of many people who would just scold me or walk away."
"I don't care who you like. I don't see why I would, considering it doesn't affect me at all." Evan laughed. Sure, he noticed when Brock mentioned a 'he', but he didn't want to make Brock uncomfortable, Evan could tell he wasn't out yet, hence the Brocks face after the statement.
"Thank you Evan."
"Anytime Brock. Now, tell about this guy! Is he cute?" Evan asked, acting like a schoolgirl.
"Okay, okay! And yes he is cute, no wait: He's fucking hot as hell. He's has this really cute Irish accent, and he's so fucking hilarious. He even calls me Brocky. He's just really sweet. I want to make a move, but I don't want to fuck things up you know? Brocks smile faded away into a sad expression. Evan knew exactly where he was coming from, and it hurt him to think about the situation. To think about Jonathan
"I know exactly what you're talking about. What's his name?"
"Brian. Do you think I should make a move?" Brock asked.
"I think you should ask him out. See where it goes." Evan wished he could take his own advice, but it was a totally different thing, right? It was obvious Jonathan didn't feel the same way. Right?
"I think I should too. I'm going to do it tomorrow. I mean what's the worst that could happen, right?" Brock asked himself, with some fake reassurance in his voice. Evan and Brock both knew what the worst that could happen was, but the weren't going to say it at loud. They didn't want to think about it.
"Exactly. Now you better do it Brock! I'm not going to stop pestering you until you do." Evan joked with Brock. The bus then went to a stop and Brock stood up, saying his goodbyes and see you laters to Evan and others. Evan then plugged in his headphones, buried himself in soft music to drown out the outside.
Before he knew it, he was saying hello to his Mom and grabbing a snack in the kitchen. Muttering words 'fine' and 'I got to go' to his mother. He ran upstairs and sunk into his bed. He then got out his phone and texted the one on his mind.
Evan- Hey Jon it's evan r we still up for Friday?
Evan then slopped his phone down and stared at the ceiling until he heard his phone make a noise.
Jonathan- Hey evan
Jonathan- yeah we still doing it right?
Evan- yeah
Evan- r u going to sleep over so we can have a full out marathon?
Jonathan- yeeeeee
Jonathan- so r we going to still watch Friday the 13th movies or no?
Evan- yeah sure
Evan- Unless u don't want to
Jonathan- tbh I kinda don't
Jonathan- bc tbh I kinda need a break from seeing people dying
Evan- me too
Jonathan- so what movies or movie do u wanna watch?
Evan- idk tbh
Jonathan- I lowkey want to watch Disney chanell movies and make fun of them tbh
Evan- xD we should do that
Jonathan- really?
Evan- fuck yeah dude
Evan- quick question
Jonathan- yeah?
Evan- u play video games?
Jonathan- not really tbh
Jonathan-I mean I do dabble in it but I don't really play a lot
Jonathan- but I do play a shit ton of Mario kart if that counts xD
Evan- ooo imma teach u how to so I can kick ur ass
Jonathan- well watch me kick urs in Mario kart bitch!
Evan- u wish bitch!
Jonathan-we'll just have to wait and see me kick ur ass
Evan- fuck no
Evan- so ur gonna come after school?
Jonathan- yea and erin is gonna pick me up
Evan- is that ur brother
Jonathan- no it's my dead great grandma
Jonathan- no its my brother
Evan- aight ok
Evan- ill see u tmmr :)
Jonathan- bye evy
Evan put his phone down and smile. 'Evy? That's a new one' he chuckled to himself.
He then placed his backpack on his bed and opened it up, then his phone went off. When he saw the name of the caller his heart sank. Reluctently, he answer the call and tried his hardest not to sound sad when he talked.
"Hey baby." The caller said.
"Hey Meg." Evan greeted her.
"Did you get my text?"
"Yeah I did, I haven't had time to respond yet though, I've been really busy." Which technically wasn't a lie, he was busy. Busy being at war with himself.
"Oh okay. Well anyway are you free right now? I miss you?" Meg asked.
"No I can't sorry."
"What about Tomorrow?"
"Uh… no sorry."
"Is everything okay Evan?"
"Yeah. I'm fine. I'm just really tired and stressed. I'm sorry."
"It's okay babe. How about you come over on Friday and we can have a break from life? Does that sound good?"
"I'm having a friend sleepover, sorry. We can do it on Saturday though. I'm sorry for not being to able to see you sooner."
"It's fine. I'll talk to you later okay?" They bid their farewells and Evan hung up the second Megan did. Evan deeply sighed. He wanted to break up with her, he really did, but he couldn't. Megan was a sweet girl, and he liked her and everything, but he didn't feel the spark with her as he would with Jonathan. But Megan was safe. He knew the feeling was mutual and everything was locked in place. With Jonathan, it wasn't safe. He was a mystery, he didn't know much about him. It made Evan to want to be closer to him ever more than before.
Top Notes: Chapter 4 is here! So this one came out later than I had hoped, due to Spring Break and Easter. I know I keep saying the chapters will be longer, but I'm just absolute trash and can't seem to make it long without making the pacing really bad and stretched out. I hope you guys enjoy this chapter! Have a good one guys :)
-Claire
End Notes: So yeah, Evan has a girlfriend :(((((((( I know it kills me too, but don't worry Friday is coming soon ;) Yeah I know I added ANOTHER gay ship to the story so yeah I hope you enhoyrf.