*STORY WARNINGS: LEMONS, SPANKING, AND RAPE.*

Every chapter I will give warnings about what happens in the chapter. So if you see in the warnings spank, lemons, or rape. And you don't want to read it then don't.

So simply don't like don't read.

Edward's Point of View

Day after day I see them all. All the happily mated couples. The joy in their eyes. The intimacy. It has only gotten worse since the vampires have revealed themselves. Now mates can share their happiness with the world. I on the other have been alive for over four hundred years, without the priceless gift of a mate.

My name is Edward Cullen and there are three mated couples in my family; Carlisle, my creator, and Esme, Emmett and Rosalie, and Jasper and Alice. I spent many years with them until I could no longer take their happiness. It was not my intention to be selfish but they are incapable of ever fully understanding my decision.

In my time alone I climbed the business latter, all the way to the top. I have endless amounts of money and endless amounts of women falling at my feet. Spending money has become natural occurrence and women are a tool to pass the time; I meet them I go to a hotel and leave after I'm done. But as I sit in this restaurant with my family I would give it all up for what they have.

I'm staring at the table while I listen to some man about a pointless business proposition, while my family are wrapped up in their mates. We decided to have a nice time in the most prestige restaurant in Port Angeles, for they provide the best blood, but some man had seen me and decided to confront me.

He wouldn't stop his efforts and my family was no longer aware of my presence.

I abruptly stood, "Sir, thank you for the proposition but I'm going to have to pass" I throw down a one hundred dollar bill for the blood and strolled out of the restaurant everyone staring at me as I passed.

Once I exited the restaurant I looked around for my driver. Over the years I have grown tired of driving. I very much prefer to sit back and do work while my driver attends to the road.

Suddenly, I felt a small warm body bump into me.

The person started to fall back so I reached and grabbed them by the waist to prevent them from falling.

A part of me felt a quick burst of something. I'm not sure what it was but I quickly dismissed it.

I looked down to see the top of a head and I now realized it was a woman, "I'm very sorry miss."

Something didn't feel right it felt like every molecule of me was routed to the spot. It felt like I never have felt so much joy in my life. I was in shock.

The most beautiful voice I have ever heard said "It's okay. It's my-"

Her eyes met mine. My existence changed. Everything in me was routed to this girl. This beautiful wonderous girl. The amazing brown eyes. The long silky brown hair. She was so beautiful. Mine!

I immediately realized she was my mate. Never in my existence had I ever felt so much joy. Felt so complete. She was mine forever now. And I need her right NOW!

My arms tightened around her and a growl built up in my chest as I said the word I have always wanted to say, "Mine"

Suddenly, she was gone. I had no idea what was happening. My beast began to fully take over when I saw her running in the other direction.

I moved to run towards my mate but was grabbed from behind. I growled louder than I ever had before, and fought with all my might. Need to get to her. Need to get to my mate. Mine.

"Edward, dude chill." I heard a voice say from behind me. It sounded familiar.

I continued to struggle, and tried to turn and attack, but only got so far as to see who was behind me. Emmett and Jasper.

Anger courses through me. You NEVER keep a vampire from their mate. They should know.

"Edward!" I hear.

My head whips in front of me to see Alice.

"Alice" I growled out, and continued to struggle.

"Edward look at me!" She shouted.

But I looked behind her staring off to where my mate ran.

"Edward you need to stop." I heard the desperation in her voice.

My eyes turn to her and she continued. "Look in my mind Edward!" I growl. "Edward trust me."

I gave in and let controlled myself enough to see into her mind and her vision.

I see myself running after my mate, right as she escapes from me. I grab her and pull her to my chest. It was a glorious feeling holding my mate. She suddenly starts to fight and one of her kicks got to me, and she ran across the street. A car comes rushing by and hits her, flinging her over the car. She lays on the ground, I try to save her. I couldn't

I changed my plan and chose now to go after her and bring her back to my car, but Alice receives another vision.

I drag my mate to my car, her over my shoulder. People stare at us on the street as she screams. As I get her back in front of the restaurant. She kicks me and I accidently drop her. She scrambles to her feet and runs into the restaurant. I chase in after her and track her scent into the kitchen. As I open the door i see a knife come down from my mates hand and she stabs herself in the chest. I try to save her. I couldn't.

I change my mind yet again and decide to follow her until she reaches her home. Alice receives a vision.

She is running down streets as I follow her through the alleys. I am about to run to her when she falls to her knees crying. A man in a cab pulls up before I move. I growl out as she gets in the car. Mine. They pull away and with my speed I run through the woods and followed the car. He stops and my mate gets out. She then quickly makes her way a few streets down to her home. She reaches into her pocket and opens the door. I took my chance

I kick the door off the hinges and a man jump in front of her. I grab and throw him, using all my strength. The man goes through a wall. My mate screams and runs into a kitchen. She trips and her head hits the side of the counter. There is so much blood. I try to save her. I succeed.

I am laying on my bed with her on top of me. We are kissing and my eyes are closed in pleasure. She pulls away and I open my eyes. I see a stake in her hand and she smiles as she stabs it into my chest. I die.

"See Edward trust me! I'll take care of it please!"

I stopped fighting. Even in my haze I understood after seeing her beautiful broken body lying dead on the ground. I was willing to do anything for that never to happen. So I can love and take care of her forever.

I looked at Alice again and nodded my head letting her know that this was the only option available now.

"Okay. Jasper Emmett drive him home. And keep him in the car!" Alice instructed.

"What are you going to do?" I growled out.

"I am going to send one of your many employees to get her for you." Alice said.

"How?" I growled again.

I felt Jasper stiffen and let out a small angry noise. He wasn't happy with me treating his mate in this way. It made me wish for my mate even more.

"I'll ask Carlisle to find a way to find her" Alice replies, not even fazed by my frustration.

I accepted her answer and let Jasper and Emmett drag me toward one of their cars and placed me in the backseat.

Emmett sat with me in the back, making sure I wouldn't get away, while Jasper drove.

My mind wandered. It was a nice escape. I pictured my beautiful girl and our wonderful life together. Making love for the first time and many times after that, getting married, and either spending forever with a human mate or a vampire mate. My beast will decide tonight how we will spend our lives together.

We pulled up to my mansion, it was an hour drive so I must have been dreaming the whole time.

Emmett dragged me out of the car. At the moment I was thankful for how strong he was for I didn't have the will to walk.

Jasper grabbed my other side while Alice, just arriving behind us, trailed behind.

My staff stared in horror as I was dragged through the doorway and up the stairs. I'll figure out how to deal with them later.

My mind seemed to be trailing tonight because we quickly arrived at my bedroom door in no time. I was too busy thinking about my mate.

They opened the door and quickly deposited me inside and left..

Alice ran in and exclaimed, "Edward, we think we found her."

I perked up immediately and rushed toward the door but Alice jumped in front of me.

"You need to stay here! She'll be here in a couple hours and then you can have her." I stepped back and accepted that this was the way things had to be done. Accepting that Alice has been right the whole time. Soon I'll have my matre.

When I gave in Alice grabbed me and gave me a hug. "Im so happy for you."

She pulled away and picked something up off the floor, that she must have just brought in here.

"I'm going to leave you alone and I'll send her up the second she is here."

I nodded.

She handed me the box that she picked up from the floor and gave it to me.

She looked at me sadly and said. "You are going to need this."

I opened the box as she closed the door and left. I looked into the box and whimpered.