Serenity 5

"Evan!" Jonathan called out as he jolted up awake, with tear stained cheeks and glassy eyes. He wiped his burning face and then opened his phone to check the time. '4:23 AM' it read.

'Great. Not only did I get absolutely no sleep, but I'm also going to waste the small amount of energy I have laying in bed. Fucking fantastic.' He couldn't even remember what the dream was about, but he could still feel the sadness inside him: from the nightmare haunting him in his sleep.

He sighed and slowly got out of bed and he did his usual routine, breakfast, teeth, clothes, and meds. It was all a fuzzy experience and he couldn't recall any moments from before until he heard Erin calling his name.

"Jonathan! Hello? You still in there?" Erin snapped his fingers in front of Jonathan's face, quickly taking him away from the fuzzy vision and tired brain. Jonathan muttered a sorry and got out of the minivan, walking towards the closest door, tuning out everything besides the music flowing in his ears. When he entered through the heavy gym doors, he spotted Evan immediately, and then Luke. He didn't know who to go to, Evan or Luke, but luckily, Luke made the decision for him by walking up to him and pulling him into a giant hug.

"You know, you squeeze any harder, my internal organs might come sprewing out of me. Just saying." Jonathan joked.

"That's the idea." Luke replied bluntly, getting a laugh from Jonathan. Jonathan started to walk towards Evan, waving bye to Luke. He could practiclly see the excitement radiating off of Evan as he got closer. He caught Evan sneaking glances at him while looking down on his phone. When Evan looked up at Jonathan, his smile made Jonathan weak in the knees. He felt like jelly, he was on cloud nine.

"Hey Jonathan, how are you doing?" Evan greeted him with a warm smile. 'Awful.' Jonathan thought to himself.

"I'm doing okay, what about you?" Jonathan asked Evan.

"Better now that you're here." They then continued small talk, learning about each other and whatnot, until the whistle blew them out of their little circle. Mr. Edwards was probally talking about some swimming bullshit, like drills or something along the lines of that. But neither Jonathan nor Evan were listening, they were tuned out, thinking about one another, how their mouths curved into a smile, how smoothly each other's laughter rolled off each others tongues. When Evan and Jonathan started to walk amongst each other, they inched closer and closer to one another, until their arms were nearly pressed up against each other, their hearts itching for each other's hand in their own. They separated ways when they reached their gym lockers, and changed into their suits, sneaking glances at the other's bare body standing out in the crowd. Evan saw him talking to Luke, and felt almost jealous, how Luke could be so close to him and his half naked body without batting an eye, how he could see Jonathan's body so up close, as Evan longed for that. ' You have a fucking girlfriend. Stop.'' he told himself.

"Evan is the Asian one right?" Luke asked, Jonathan nodded while sliding his suit up his long legs.

"You should see him right now, so jealous. He's practically burning a hole into the side of my head, and you say he's straight."

"He is, and he's not jealous, why would he be?"

"Because I'm right next to you, and you're half naked, something I'm guessing he would kill to see right now."

"Shut up. He doesn't swing that way. He's probably just thinking about something."

"Thinking about you. And what happened to 'gay until proven straight'?

Jonathan sighed. He rubbed his face and took a quick glance at Evan, then back to Luke.

"He doesn't think of me in that way. We are just friends. Just fucking friends."

"Whatever. You can think what you want to, but if he isn't into you then I'm a one legged giraffe."

"Luke. Stop it. I don't want to think about this right now. It's already hard enough that I'm going to be with him for a whole fucking night on Friday, not that I'm complaining." Luke gave Jonathan a confused face and cocked his head to the side.

"I'm going to sleepover at his place, for a Friday the 13th movie marathon. Tomorrow." He explained.

"For fucks sake Jonathan! Make a fucking move, what the worst that could-"

"Stop. I really don't want to think about that right now." He interrupted. He really did not want to think about tomorrow, about how hard it's going to be to not smush their faces together, to not hold him and latch onto Evan like his life depends on it. He was never a fan of talking about his problems, in fact, he rarely did. He didn't want to be reminded of the pain along with it and be overwhelmed with the issues racing through his head.

"Fine. I'll stop, but I think you're being dumb."

As Luke and Jonathan made their way through the locker room and out to the pool, Craig made his into their little group and immediately started talking.

"Guys. I need help." Craig said with a hushed voice. There was a hint of disappointment to his voice, almost as if he already knew the answer to the question he was about to ask.

"Shoot."

"I'm so fucked guys…" Craig stated as he sighed, and then continued, "he has a girlfriend." Luke and Jonathan looked at Craig with wide eyes in surprise, which then faded into sad eyes, pitying their friend.

"Oh god, Craig I'm so sorry. I know how much you liked him." Luke said with sad eyes and a droopy face. Jonathan was silent, he was too busy thinking about Evan. 'what if Evan is taken? I mean looking like that he probably is, but he hasn't mentioned anyone. Fuck…'

"It's not your fault Luke, there's no need to apologize. What's done is done. He doesn't feel the same way."

"Who's the girl? And how do you know they're dating?" Jon intervened.

"Alice Trinvanti. She posted on Instagram a selfie of them together, him kissing her on the cheek. And their bios have each other's names in it with a heart next to it. If that isn't dating, then I don't know what is."

"God that… really sucks. I'm really sorry this happened."

"It's okay, I'm okay." Craig sounded like he was lying, which he was, so. Luke and Jonathan deeply sighed and continued walking with Craig in silence, not know how to bring another topic up.

They reached the pool and spread away to join their groups. Jonathan went to lane 4 and sat by the poolside, legs in water. 'Evan has a girlfriend, doesn't he. I mean it would make sense, with a face like that and a laugh as smooth as silver. So straight!Evan confirmed, amiright?' He chuckled. 'It's not like he even fucking likes me. I don't know why I even try." Jonathan thought to himself. His thoughts were interrupted with two warm hands shoving him into the water. Once he had processed what had happened, he surfaced to the pool and was greeted with Evan at the poolside, laughing and clutching his stomach.

"You bitch!" Jonathan called out. Evan could not stop laughing.

"Oh—my god! That was too easy! C'mon Jon, what did you expect! Too easy man! Too easy." Evan wiped tears from his brown eyes and stretched out his hand to help him up, Jonathan took the hand but instead pulled Evan down into the water with him. Evan came up from the water with a huge grin on his face.

"You mother fucker!" Evan lunged onto him and pushed him down under the water, he felt Jonathan's soft hands fighting him, his long limbs wrapping around him, and instantly he felt a blush creep up on his face. Jonathan took the sudden weakness and jumped up to the surface and leapt on his back and held tightly, wrapping his legs around Evan's torso and desperately tried to pull both of them underneath. Evan's armed flayed around and he yelled out "Truce! Truce! Truce Jonathan!" while struggling to breathe. Jon got off his back and pulled himself out of the water and sat down at the edge.

"That's what you get for messing with me bitch! I'm fucking delirious!" he let out his maniacal laughter and Evan sat next to him. "Remind me to never do that again. Ever." Evan rubbed his shoulder in pain turned to Jon, staring at the droplets of water gleaming on his body.

"That's right, no one can defeat me! Get over 'ere!" he pulled Evan into a nuggy and ruffled his hair until a harsh whistle rang through the large room. Mr. Edwards was talking about god knows what, but all Evan could see was Jonathan, standing out from everything, like a beacon, like Evan was the moth and he was the flame. There were so many beautiful things about him, to many to describe. No words can even begin to comprehend how mesmerizing he was.

"Evannn… Evannnn… earth to evy? You there buddy?" Jonathan waved his hand infront of Evan, who seemed to be caught in a daze, starting at Jonathan's body. Evan quickly snapped out of his daze.

"Admiring the view?"

"What? Uh.." Evan stuttered, stuck on his words.

"I'm justing fucking with you man." Jonathan chuckled. Evan rubbed the back of his neck and chuckled slightly. He didn't even notice he was staring, he was so lost in Jonathan's body. He tried to stop himself from blushing, and it wasn't exactly working.

"I know man. Sorry for zoning out, I've kind of been caught up with shit at the moment."

"Oh. Do you want to talk about it?"

"Not really. Maybe some othertime."

"Alright, well I'm here for you Ev."

"Thanks. Now, you better get ready for me to kick your ass because I'm going to get there first!" Evan leaped into the water and started swimming vigorously until he got to the other side. Jonathan did the same and tried his hardest to beat Evan, but failed. When he reached the other side, he was greeted with Evan and his fucking smile, his pearly whites showing.

When the session was over, Jon regrouped with Luke and the others with Evan by his side. He introduced Evan to them and after some small talk, Luke couldn't take it anymore and put matters into his own hands.

"Hey Evan, quick question: Are you good at math?" Luke asked nonchalantly. Getting Marcel to yell out 'RACIST', getting a couple laughs.

"I would say I'm pretty good, you know those asian genes never seem to fail me." Evan chuckled.

"Well, that's great because Jon over here, need some tutoring, and my dumbass doesn't know math for shit. He won't stop complaining about his grade, you think you can help 'em out? Don't you think so Jon?" Luke asked, getting a angry and 'what the fuck are you doing stare' from Jonathan.

"Yeah, but it's not that big of a deal." Jonathan replied with his head down.

"No man don't worry, I'm happy to help."

"Well that settles it! It's a date. We'll leave you two to sort out the details." Luke and the others walked away, and had the hugest grins on each other's faces.

"So, does after school today work?" Evan asked.

"Yeah, you can catch a ride with me and my brother." They reached the locker room and Evan nodded in approval and they separated ways.

"I'm going to fucking kill you Luke." Jonathan said angrily as soon as he saw Luke and his smug little face.

"Oh come one Jon! He so into you! And you do have a shit grade in math right now. Aren't you a little bit happy you get to be alone with him?" Luke said defensively. Jonathan rolled his eyes and let out an aggravated sigh. Luke raised an eyebrow

"Tell me I'm wrong." Luke crossed his arms.

"Fuck you." Jonathan flipped Luke off and proceeded to change out.

"You'll thank me later."

After changing out and grabbing their stuff, they walking out of the locker room and met up with the rest. Tyler, Craig, Lui, and David greeting them with simple hellos and went back to talking about video games and the deadpool movie.

"I'm just saying I'd fuck Ryan Reynolds!" was the first thing Luke and Jonathan heard when they joined the group. Getting raised eyebrows from everyone.

"What! He's hot as fuck!" David defended, his Irish accent extremely prominent.

"Jesus David, when you'd become such a faggot?" Tyler joked, getting more laughs than angry stares.

"I am not!I'm just saying, he is pretty hot."

"Don't make me tell Berenice on you! Don't break da rules!" Lui squeaked.

"I don't know Tyler, I'd have to agree with David on that one." A voice said from behind. "Don't you think Davey?" David smiled and wrapped his arms around Berenice, kissing the top of her head and getting 'awe's from the group.

"Y'all are the couple of the year, I mean c'mon you both want to have sex with Ryan Reynolds! It's a match made in heaven!" Luke exclaimed. "Speaking of couples, Tyyylllerrrrr? So you and Alice?" Luke asked, receiving an angry glare from Craig. Tyler rubbed the back of his neck, making a quick glance at Craig and hesitating before answering.

"Uh yeah. Me and Alice, we're uh together." Tyler said awkwardly, wondering what the actual fuck to do with his hands. The group was silent, and they were literally, saved by the bell.

Jon started to walk towards the door when two small fingers poked at his sides. He turned and saw Berenice, smiling at him.

"So when were you going to tell me about the cute asian guy?"

"Come again?"

"You and uh.. It's Evan right?" he nodded.

"What about him?"

"Oh nothing, just that you guys are the cutest couple in the entire freaking world! Behind me and David, of course." Jonathan's eyes widened and his face was bright red.

"What? No… we… are not together!" he stuttered, still burning up. She raised an eyebrow at him.

"Well, it's kind of obvious you guys have a thing for eachother, making hearts eyes at each other every waking moment. It physically hurt me how cute you guys were."

"Oh my god- no, Berenice, first off: no, and second: he's straight?"

"Straight my ass! You guys are worse than Hannah and Dave!" she scoffed.

"Whatever, we are not a thing, end of story." they were already close to their classes and slowed their walking to avoid crashing into the person in front of them.

"Well you should be. I got to go, but I'll talk to you later, bye Jonathan." she waved goodbye and parted ways towards her next class. Jon sighed. 'This is going to be a very long day.'

The end of the long day was nearing when Jonathan felt a buzz in his sweatshirt pocket.

Evan: um, so I kind of have no idea where the junior lot is?

Jonathan: xD don't worry, just meet me by the front and I'll just walk you there with me.

Evan: awwwwww my knight in shining armor! :3

Jonathan: more like knight in grey t-shirt from target, but u k

Evan: don't sell urself so short

Jonathan: sure evy, ill get right to that lol

Evan: seriously evy? again

Jonathan: what! It's cute :3 almost as cute as u ^-^

Evan: awww ur too nice to me

Jonathan: ur too nice to me to, so we're even

Evan: hmm k

Evan: so i'll meet u at the front?

Jonathan: yep. See u then evy :)

Evan: sttahhhhhppp!

Jonathan:nope.

He put his phone back in his pocket with a grin on his face, which quickly faded to a frown. He buried his head in his hands know that he definitely, positively, absolutely fucked. Class went by slowly and painfully, as Jonathan was almost shaking with excitement, more so a bittersweet feeling. The bell rang, and Jonathan made his way to the front, and searched for black hair and chocolate eyes that he had longed to see for quite some time. Brown met with blue and smiles lit up on both of their faces. They made their way towards each other, butterflies ragging in their stomachs. Jonathan grabbed Evan's hand and dragged him out of the crowd and towards the junior lot. he had expected for Evan to pull away quickly, to snap at him, to maybe even scold him for holding his hand, but he didn't. He kept it there, intertwining their fingers while they walked side by side. They eye's locked for only a couple seconds, but it felt like an eternity, it felt like they had just seen the world through each other's eyes, like they had found the thing that made them feel at home, and how they mapped and memorized each other's eyes, remembering every detail and wonder how they seemed to shine brighter than the stars. Evan squeezed his hand and gave him a warm smile, which Jonathan gladly returned. They walked in a comfortable silence, soaking in what they felt like, how their skin touched the others, how perfect it felt to be with the other.

The travel to the car seemed to be too short, and once their hand's separated to enter, they had immediately longed for each other's touch again. Jonathan opened the back door of the minivan for Evan, who then proceeded to climb in, with Jonathan following. Erin greeted Jonathan and his friend, and proceeded to turn on the music, jamming alone without his brother, who seemed to be in a whole nother universe with his new friend. Erin chuckled at the two boys, about how fucking cute they were. Erin was one the very few people who knew of Jonathan's preferences, although they didn't bring it up very often, Erin wasn't really a talking-feelings type of person, he had a hard shell around him and it takes quite a lot for it break, but god damn were they cute.

After about 10 minutes, they had reached home and climbed out of the very manly minivan, and went into Jonathan's room. When Evan entered his room, it gave him this comforting feeling, something he can't describe, but he knew that it felt quite nice to be let into Jonathan life, the life away from school. Jonathan's room was just what Evan expected, it had a twin bed against the wall in the left corner and a simple desk next to it. The closet was on the opposite wall, the 2 white doors standing out against the navy blue paint. In a little nook in the right corner in the front part of the room was a small tv, with stacks of horror movie classics scattered somewhat neatly on the floor. It was a small room, but it was very homey. Evan liked it.

"Welcome to my room, or as I like to call it, my secret nerd lair." Jonathan opened his arms at the room, doing jazz hands as to say 'ta-da!' Evan laughed a little to hard at his joke.

"That has to be by-far, the lamest name for a room in the history of forever." Evan said struggling to complete the sentence because he was laughing so hard.
"You know you love it. Now. Let's get down to business. Math. How they fuck do you do it." Jonathan clapped his hands and sat on his bed. Evan joined his and sat criss-cross applesauce on the grey bedspread.

"I do. So what exactly do you need help with?" Evan asked.

"I don't even fucking know man, I don't even fucking know." So with that they got down to business talking mostly about everything but math, mostly talking about how fucking awesome Target it and what they think Ted Cruz's toes look like. After about an hour or two of fucking around, they decided to take a break and watch House Hunters re-runs, both sitting on the bed, back on the wall, and dangerously close to each other.

"I'm telling you they're going to pick 3! It has everything! It has a fucking hot tub for christ sake!" Jonathan exclaimed.

"Nope, my money's on 1, new white couples always go for the reno ones!" Evan argued. When the reval was coming up they were chanting the house they thought was going to be pick.

"House number two! Are you fucking serious! It was so far from work AND it lacked the 3rd bedroom!" Jonathan half-yelled.

"Exactly! What the hell!" Evan said aggressively, then started bursting out laughing, getting a confused reaction from Jonathan.

"What?!" Jonathan asked while slightly laughing.

"This is what our lives has come too! Sitting on a bed, at 5 in the afternoon, yelling at white people for picking the wrong house!" Jonathan then burst out laughing, they laughed until they couldn't breathe and collapsed on each other. After the laughter had died down, they stayed in their positive, with Jonathan's arms around Evan's body, with Evan laying on top of him, facing the ceiling. Instead of moving, they stayed put, quite contemp with their current position. Their eyelids seemed to become heavier, finally drifted asleep in eachother's arms, just as how they did in their dreams.

Notes. Ok. So chapter 5 is finally fucking here. Again, I am really sorry for not updating for nearly 2 fucking weeks, I have been in a really bad place recently, making it very hard for me to have any motivation to write. But Alas! Chapter 5 is here! So this is one of my longer chapters, I believe it is about 3.6k words, which isn't exactly long, but it's double of what I usually write per chapter, which I'm proud of myself for. This is also a very fluffy chapter so be prepared! I hope you guys enjoy this chapter, and PLEASE tell what you think (good or bad shit I don't even care man)

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