Chapter Six: Beaming

Disclaimer: All characters belong to Cassandra Clare.

Author's Note: This takes place when Alec is left at Magnus's while the rest of the gang visits the Fair People.

Time: City of Ashes

Genre: Drama, Romance, and Angst

Rating: PG-13

Date Finished: June 12, 2012

Beam: A board smile of happiness...

Magnus was beamed. He felt all warm and fuzzy inside. His beautiful Alec wanted to do what he wanted. He hoped that Alec was referring to being friendly in the same terms that Magnus wanted. To the warlock being friendly meant more than just friends. It meant something more. Magnus wanted Alec as a lover and was happy that Alec was now willing to give in.

Magnus pulled Alec in close and breathed in the Shadowhunter's scent. Alec smelled like leather and blood, but Magnus could also smell the mint of his aftershave mixed with a slight touch of soap. He smelled like other Shadowhunters, but the smell was still unique to Alec. "Mmmm," Magnus said.

Alec looked at Magnus. Once again, Magnus found himself blinded by Alec's beautiful blue eyes. There was just something about those eyes. They made Magnus want to melt into a puddle of love struck warlock. There was just some things that could not go unnoticed.

Alec was staring at Magnus with a curious expression on his face.

Magnus smiled weakly at him. "I am just so excited that you want to you know-"

Alec nodded and pulled away from Magnus. "We still cannot be seen in public."

Magnus knew that was going to be part of the deal. He did not want Alec to lose his marks because of their relationship, but it would have been nice to able to go on a date in public. It made Magnus kind of sad, but he supposed that it was better than nothing. He would learn to deal with it, but it would just take time.

He also wished that Alec would just come clean about who he really was. There was no shame in having a relationship with someone who was the same gender as you. There was no shame in that whatsoever. People were just stupid about it. People tended to be stupid about a lot of things.

Magnus nodded slowly. "Of course." Of course he would go along with it. He would give everything and anything to Alec. Whatever made Alec beam made him beam. Alec was the centre of the world and Magnus would see to it that Alec got whatever he wanted and deserved.

Alec smiled. "Good. I can't having anyone find out. I would be shunned from my world."

Once again, Magnus nodded. He did not want Alec to be shunned because of him. If Alec got expelled from the Shadowhunters, it would kill him. Alec could live with Magnus, but the Shadowhunter would be very unhappy. Magnus would be happy because he would get to stare at the beautiful Alec all day every day. However, if it meant that Alec would not be happy, then it was not worth it.

Alec knew that he should not be asking Magnus to have a secret relationship with him. He knew that Magnus was not fully okay with it even though he said he was. The warlock was so in love with Alec that he would give Alec whatever he desired, even if he did not deserve it. Alec knew that he did not deserve Magnus and had even wondered why Magnus even stayed with him. He guessed and believed that Magnus was just that much in with him.

Magnus kissed Alec on the forehead. Alec was touched by the gentleness behind the kiss. The warlock was making him feel extremely guilty right now. He felt bad for everything that he was doing to Magnus.

Magnus broke away and smiled at Alec. "My dead Alexander," he said.

Alec just smiled. He was happy with Magnus. It made him beam, but he still felt guilty for what he was doing to him. He hated feeling like this. He wished that he emotions would just pick one way to stay and be like that. He wished that it could be like that. Oh, how he wished it could!

Magnus looked at Alec once again. Alec knew that Magnus was wondering what the problem was. The warlock always just seemed to be able to sense when something was wrong. Alec did not want to say or do anything that would ruin this happy moment between them.

"No, there is nothing wrong," Alec said. He was not going to give Magnus the chance to ask first.

Magnus raised an eyebrow. "Whatever you say there Alexander. Whatever you say."

Alec knew that Magnus was just pretending to act like he could not sense a problem. "Well there is not."

Magnus smiled. "I am not going to argue with you, Alexander."

Alec wanted to huff, but would not for the warlock's sake.

Magnus looked up at the ceiling. "I just find it amusing that you are still denying it."

Alec was still focusing on not huffing. "Denying what?"

"Who you really are," Magnus stated. He was now looking at Alec.

Alec huffed that time. He did not understand why Magnus did not drop the subject. Alec was not denying who he was. He was just not advertising it to the world all of his choices. He knew who he was and he was quite happy with the way things were.

"I am not," Alec said slowly, "at least not anymore." It felt good to finally say those words aloud. He was not going to hide anymore. He was just going to be himself and those who did not like it could go away. He was not sure if he would actually carry this out, but it still felt good to say it.

Magnus beamed a smile. That was what he had been wanting Alec to say all along and know he knew that they were going to be okay.