Once we get everyone onto the train, Tobias is in the center of the main car and everyone is circling him. I stand back a little of the side, partially because I don't really want to intrude, and partially because I love to watch Tobias in action. He moves with ease, so flawlessly that no matter what he's doing, it never ceases to amaze me. I try not to let him realize the effect that he's had on me, more now than ever, considering everything that's transpired between the two fo us. War, Fighting, death...every part of it has helped out relationship grow. Helped us both grow. But this Tobias...he doesn't know that. He hasn't been through the same things as I have. He's different and although I've changed for the better because of our shared history, I feel as if this is giving me another chance. Giving us another chance. The me that I was before...in my other life, I had made some bad decisions. There's no denying that fact. It's just the truth. I went behind Tobias' back countless times and lied to him, and now this was...this was a chance to start over. Dying...or almost dying, it kind of puts a prospective on things. Things you wish you could have said, things you wish you could have done differently. It's all wishful thinking, and empty dreams. This was my reset button with big red letters telling me now to push it, but I can't stop myself. I can't look away and I can't look back. This is my life now.

"Tris?"

Tobias' voice pulls me from my reverie and I look up at him to see that amused smirk, pulling his lips up into that crooked smile of his that I love so much. I make a face at him and stand up straight, pretending that I had been paying attention to him. After all, I had done all this before, haven't I? I chew on the inside of my cheek before answering. "Yes, Four?" I ask.

He narrows his eyes at me, maybe more than a little annoyed that I called him by his nickname. But I don't want anyone else to call him Tobias. I don't want anyone else to know about what ties him to me, what times us together. I feel like it's our secret and to let anyone in on that would make it seem less important. It's probably crazy to think that, but sometimes I can't help myself. "You're team captain," he says.

"Who's the other captain?" I ask, confused. If we're meant to play against each other, then how are we to escape and have our moment at the top of the Ferris Wheel? And it's not like there's anyone else to pit me against. Unless for some unknown reason Christina and Peter have decided to come along and try to make my life more difficult than it already is. Not that they know any better. They don't...it's not possible. Despite my theory about my reset button, if I had a way to get things back to the way they were, I would probably take it. But if that meant losing everyone that has started to come back, people that I care deeply about, then I would keep living my life like this. I can't help myself if I'm greedy, I lost them once, I don't want to lose them again. I don't want to lose anyone again.

"I am."

I recognize the voice and I my heart starts pounding in my chest. This can't be happening. Today was supposed to be an easy day, a fun day and I wasn't supposed to worry about people like Jeanine or the drama about everything that comes with them coming back. Tori told me not to worry. Uriah told me to take the day off. In theory, it was a good idea. It was a good plan. But this…it wasn't working out.

I turn to the voice and I feel him staring at me. I take a breath and try to swallow past the lump in my throat. "Eric."

The piercings in his face are more prominent than ever in the dull lighting of the train and he's smiling that smile at me. The smile that makes me stomach turn. My entire body is tense and I can feel Tobias staring at me from his spot among the initiates, but I don't move. Because he doesn't know the extent of what Eric has done. I can't explain this right now.

"Hello, Stiff," he says coming toward me. "Miss me?"

I meet his gaze, my eyes hard on his and I shake my head. I put a fake smile on, because to the initiates it all about who looks the strongest and who can handle the most. I'm training them now, no matter what Eric wants or says or why he's back. This is all different. But I'll be damned if he tries to take anything away from me. Not again and not anymore. "Of course," I say instead. "Where have you been the last couple of days?"

"Oh you know…" he says, glancing over at Tobias. "Recuperating from a gunshot wound."

I bite my lip and shake my head. "Okay, let's choose teams."

Eric just smirks at me. "You first."

"T-Four," I say, almost automatically. I don't even care at this point if I'm being judged about it. I can't do this without him. I need desperately for him to remember, even if it's just a tiny memory.

"Of course," he says, eyeing the both of us. I try not to pay attention to him. If I give into Eric, then everything that happened before could happen again and I can't let it. I take a breath and he calls of names of the initiates. I don't know how he knows who they are…their names. I don't question it.

When we are finish calling out names we pass out the guns. The train starts so slow and Eric jumps out first and his group of initiates follow. After a moment we follow after him. I lead our group down the path my group took the first time and again, I let Tobias take the lead again. Being back here, with the group, playing capture the flag gets me to a point where everything is slowly falling back into place, but it's not. Not really.

I fade away as they start speaking and I turn around to find my bearings. I spot the Ferris Wheel and grin. I make way up and toss my gun up before climbing up the ladder.

"What are you doing?"

I smile when I hear his voice and I pause on the rails before turning back to look at him. "You promised me a Ferris Wheel date," I tell him.

He looks up at the height of the wheel and then lets out a groan, shaking his head.

"Come on!" I say before continuing on up the ladder. "You did it once before."

"See that's not fair," he says following me. "You may remember, but I don't. This is still my first time."

"You're lucky that I'm not taking you zip-lining after this."

"You zip-lined?" He sounds surprised and a little closer behind me.

"I did," I answer. I look up and make sure that I notice the missing rail and remember what it felt like when we were together the last time. The first time that he really caught me. The second time that I knew that I was falling for him. "Watch out when you come up," I tell him. "There's a missing rung."

"Thanks," he says.

We climb in silence for the next few moments, both of us concentrating I guess, and I hear him talking to himself, trying to motivate himself to keep climbing higher. And I swear that I heard my name pass from his lips and I can't stop myself from smiling. When we reach the top, I look over at Tobias and I can see the look on his face. I reach a hand over and place it on top of his and I can hear his heartbeat through his skin. Height was the first fear. It was by no means the worst fear, but it was still powerful and enough that it scares him to death.

"Hey," I say, my voice soft. He looks at me, panting a bit and I lean in to press my lips against his. He sighs when I pull away and I smile at him. "I love you for this."

"Just for this?" he asks, in a shaky laugh.

I laugh with him and kiss him again. "No," I tell him. "It plays a major factor though. That'd you deal with one of your fears just to make me happy." I shrug. "You're the only one who's ever done that for me. The only one that I'd want to do this for me. I can't even imagine losing you, you know?"

He doesn't say anything for a few moments, he's just staring at me and I bite my lip. "Tris," he says. "I'm not going anywhere."

"Promise?"

"Always," he says, grabbing me by my waist and pulling me against him to kiss me. I keep one hand on the railing and the other wraps around his neck. I forget where we are in the moment, and I forget that we're supposed to be leading a team exercise here. But I don't care. I've needed this.