A/N: HI everybody! I hope you all have been enjoying "Rise Of The Tomb Raider" as much as I have! Anyways, I would like to clear something up for those who have not played Rise and do not understand why Lara's father is being brought up so much. *SPOILER ALERT* Lara's father died when she was around 7-9ish I'm gonna say. He had been studying the key to the immortal soul, something VERY similar to Himiko. This drove Lara to continue his research. It's basically the plot of "Rise." So now that that's cleared up, third chapter
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DOCUMENT: LETTERS TO SAM: MOTIVATION
I'm close to something. If only I can find the connections to understand what's going on with you, Sam.
My Love,
I've been spending a lot of time with Jonah lately. He's been one of the only people, apart from you who understands what I went through. My therapist thinks that spending time with him is unhealthy. "He's a reminder of the past. You're going back to the island in your head, over and over again to the exclusion of everything else." He says. Bollocks. You and Jonah are the only people who make me feel like myself. Like, I'm not crazy. I was asked if I enjoyed "taking control of the situation" while we were stranded. I had no choice. I did it because I had no choice….I don't know who I am anymore, Sam. When I ask myself that over and over again, I can't tell if I'm being hard headed or worse, terrified of the real answers, as much as I'd like to believe that I did what I had to. My heart aches at thought of you not being here to reassure me. You were always the light in the darkness. You gave me reason to keep going when all I wanted to do was lay there and die.
But you're not here, when I need you the most. What I'd give to look into those beautiful, grey eyes again. The ones that took and continue to take my breath away…the eyes that see me the way that no eyes ever have, or ever will. The pain of losing you…knowing that another soul is…more prominent in you, than you, is too hard to imagine, too hard to bear. Though I've found something that might be useful. I've been studying Japanese folklore, exorcism and spirits. According to traditional Japanese beliefs, all humans have a spirit or soul called a reikon. When a person dies, the soul leaves the body and enters some sort of a purgatory, where it waits for the proper rites to be performed, so that it may move on. However, if the proper rites have not been performed, or if they are influenced by powerful emotions such as a desire for revenge, love, jealousy, hatred or sorrow, it is thought to transform into a yūrei, which can then bridge the gap back to the physical world. Which, can explain the storms. But not Himiko's immortal soul. That's where Dad's research comes in.
Before he died, for years he had been searching for the key to the immortal soul. A Deathless Prophet, Himiko…I know there's a connection, I just can't quite make it. Not yet. I truly believe that If one person can crack my father's research. It's me..though, a group named Trinity has been interested in my father's research as well. It's funny…my mother was the reason why Dad was so set on his studies. It seems history is repeating itself with us. I have to do this, I need to do this, for you, darling. After this is all over, perhaps we can settle down like we talked about, get that six-bedroom on Faulkbourne Road in Witham… maybe someday fill it up with children. Sometimes I worry, whether or not I'll be a good mother. I don't ever want to be…distracted caught up in my work like my father was. I don't think I ever would be…I'd have you to pull me back to reality. I've come so far, discovered so much. I can't give up. I won't….I miss you, dad and Roth every day. I'll continue to write to you. Just promise me one thing: fight like hell, Sam. I know you're in there and you're stronger than you think. You can do it, I believe in you.
Yours,
Lara
A/N: There we go! NEXT CHAPTER, I will finally be getting into the beginning of "Rise" so be prepared for mild spoilers. If you like what you read, review, favorite, follow. If you don't well, don't say anything. If you would like to offer constructive criticism, please refrain from the review section, and PM me instead. Thanks you guys.