A/N: Double Whammy! I'm honestly so determined to finish this story and start writing one with Sams' replies while she's not succumbing to Himiko's possession. Though I'm not quite sure yet. Anyways, heres chapter six.

Disclaimer: I do not own anything semi related to Tomb Raider. Lara's journal entries from "Rise" are yes, copied in here, but I have added parts to them as well.

DOCUMENTS: LETTERS TO SAM: CLARITY

Things are starting to finally make sense...

My Dearest,

Konstantin is here, the man who tried to kill me in Syria. He's violent, dangerous..but worse, he appears entirely devoted to his misguided beliefs. I seem to have a habit of running afoul of religious zealots. But I suppose it all goes with the territory. His men on the radio had mentioned a prisoner with information. I keep listening to Dad's old tapes. I know that his work was important, but it didn't feel like it at the time. Now I'm starting to understand how this all made you feel...for the millionth time, I cannot express how sorry I am for that. Still, Dad being away for all that time taught me independence, how to look after myself...Important lessons as it turns out. I tried to seek out the prisoner, only to end up locked up with him, and severely betrayed. The prisoner is a man named Jacob. He appears to be one of the natives that I encountered here.

For the first time in weeks, things are becoming clear, Sam. I know that something is hidden here. The Soviet's came looking for it too...and now Trinity...and Ana...She's with them, Sam...God, I still don't quite believe it. I feel as though everything I know is a lie. After all this time. Did she watch my Dad as well? Did she watch us? All those times that we were.."together" after Japan? Those times where you had to keep pulling me back to focus on you whenever I heard a creak or a thud, Where you said I was trying to "fuck myself stupid" to try to justify my actions there..to help me forget. I was. You were the only thing that kept me sane, darling. The sex, post-Yamatai...as rough and gritty as it was, it was the only way I knew how to be vulnerable. The only way I knew how to take the frustration out...I only started going to therapy after I lost you. Ana was the one to suggest it. God, I was right to be paranoid. It's freezing here. What I wouldn't give to feel the warmth of your skin once more...

I've got to keep moving. Jacob and I are on our way back to his village, to warn his people. There's something about him that I can't quite put my finger on..It's strange, but almost comforting. I feel as though I could tell him anything and it wouldn't faze him. I sense no judgement from him. Yet, at the same time, he's hard to read. My instincts tell me that he is a good man. He saved my life - I think I can trust him, at least for now. But I can't shake a nagging feeling that he knows more than he's letting on. He reminds me somewhat, of Roth...and Dad. Roth...I miss him so much. He was the father that I truly needed in my life after Dad died. I think about him every day. I think about you every day...I think about Dad. For years, I was so angry with him. For losing himself in his work, for chasing what I thought were fairy-tales. I had no idea. You know more than anyone that I keep telling myself that I was young, that I couldn't possibly understand. I remember the nights In bed together where you'd keep telling me to stop blaming myself, that there was nothing I could have said or done to change what had happened, but I still lost him. Now, for some reason, I feel more connected to him than I ever did when he was alive. He never got this far, but I know he's with me, Roth is with me. You are with me. The Divine Source is here, and I'm going to find it.

No matter where I am, however far away I am. No matter the circumstances, My heart is always..with you.

Until The End,

Lara

A/N: There you have it! Chapter 6! I hope you all liked it, please please please, review, follow, and favorite! :) Happy Reading, I'm sure the next chapter will be up very soon.