Hello everybody ready for this new chapter well here we go, enjoy guys ;) Get ready for some feels ^.^
Dragon POV
"It depends deeply on the choices Hiccup will have to make," Skulllcrusher finally answered as he looked at how quiet and how much Hiccup was shaking. "I can see how afraid Hiccup is, after everything that's happened he is afraid on what Stoick think of him for his actions. As for Stoick, he is afraid of Hiccup's response to him coming all the way here after everything that has happened between them." He sighed when he could see that the two still did not exchange words. "They are both afraid of each other, it's up to them to see if they are willing to share these fears so they can try to mend their bond."
"So our entire future is on their hands?" Toothless asked, and seeing Skullcrusher nodding, he whispered with concerned, "Hiccup, please do what you think is right...Don't let anyone control your decisions."
End Dragon POV
"We'll let you guys work things out alone," Dagur suggested, much to everyone's surprise as he nudged Heather to follow him out of the cove area, leaving Windshear, Toothless, and Skullcrusher behind just for their own trust issue reasons. "Don't worry Hiccup, just give us a shout if something goes wrong." He reassured the teen and with that Hiccup found himself alone with Stoick with the exception of the dragons.
Come on Hiccup, you have to start...You started this mess so you will let them know that you know your place. Hiccup was seeing that the silence was going to get them no where so he decided for the sake of it all, to start first. "So... I heard everything," He began, not even noticing that his voice was cracking and how his hands trembled to increasing by every passing second. "About what you were talking about with Dagur and Heather last night, I heard every last detail..."
"You did, so was that why you left?" Stoick asked and when Hiccup nodded, the father continued, "Was that answer to unbelievable ?
Hiccup shook his head. "No, I knew you were telling the truth...I'm just confused, I guess that's why I ran off..." The awkwardness was building up, but Hiccup continued while looking down at the snow his boot was kicking. "To be honest, I was meaning to ask you those questions myself and you unintentionally gave me my answers... Which is pretty ironic since one of those stories you told them about had the time when you grounded me for eavesdropping."
When he can tell that jokes and sarcasm won't work, he had to get straight to the point. "Look I'm probably the last guy on earth who you would want to see now and I'm not sure if you know by now but I'm not worth having you risk everything to find. I did too many bad things. From attacking Berk for kidnapping Heather, to losing control of myself! I know there are things I said that hurt you and that I'm pretty much living a life a traitor but..." Hiccup could feel his eyes burn with tears but he had to hold them back. "I'm so so sorry...I'm sorry for everything that happened, and not just now or over the past few days but eighteen years ago on that night...The night I was born." He didn't see the shocked looks Skullcrusher and Toothless made, especially the shocked face Stoick gave. Before he could continue, Stoick was quick to respond.
"Hiccup, you have nothing to be sorry for, if anyone should be the one apologizing it should be me-"
"No, it shouldn't!" Hiccup interrupted, "I was the one who exaggerated when the truth was out. I didn't think or handle it responsibly! I know from everything people tell me that you're probably here because you actually care but I don't think so. It's may sound crazy but I just can't see why you would go through hell to find me... I'm not even your birth son, just the kid who was born the moment your real son passed on. You could have cast me aside, tell me everything to remind me of my place, or even kill me but you didn't..." Before Stoick could ask, Hiccup answered that unasked question. "I know, I told you that I heard everything but...But..." They could see the tight fist Hiccup was making as he lashed that fist out to the closest rock wall! "But it's so hard to accept...I believe it but I just can't accept it...There is no way I changed your mind about me!"
"Hiccup it's true," Stoick reassured his son, taking a cautious step closer only to see Hiccup flinch. "You did change my mind, you are worth going through hell in order to find you. You only reacted from hurt because I was too much a fool and a coward to trust you enough with the truth but I realized that the more I hide it from you, the more harm it'll cause to the both of us." He gently placed his hand on Hiccup's shoulders but had to remove it because of how tense Hiccup was getting. "It doesn't matter if you're not my birth son, you're still my son and you have every right to feel this way, to exaggerate if you had too. If there's anyone to blame it's me, you are not the blame for anything!"
"But...But how can you say all that?!" Hiccup choked, his eyes widened with shock at his father's words. "I-I sided with the enemy, I turned my back against the village I was raised in, I-I'm a traitor! You should be furious with me! You should have beaten me, disown me, or finish me off with no mercy for all I've done! I don't deserve any-" He was cut off midway when Stoick placed his hands on his shoulders, gently holding him closer as Hiccup tried to break free. "Why are you holding me with care!? You should be teaching me a lesson! You should be spitting insults at me! Showing me where my place is!"
Stoick did none of the punishments the teen listed, instead, he pulled Hiccup into a tight embrace which caught the teen completely off guard as the father replied with his voice choking with raw emotion. "You deserve all the love of a parent you need. I would never or even dream of doing such horrible things to you Hiccup...You were never a traitor, I know what you were planning, I saw you in tears when you walked away. I knew you were never a traitor, you're more a victim than a traitor. I never felt anger, disappointment, or disgust for your actions."
Hiccup was speechless to hear his father talking to him like this, he was expecting to be on the ground getting beaten up to a pulp or something worth a punishment; not this! "But I-I attacked!" He repeated in shock,"I.. ..Lost my temper...Said those things..." He stuttered, his lips were quivering as his thoughts flash backed to the moment he stated said things.
Flashback
"Now you see Stoick, what lying to me, and treating me like trash has gotten you to?" Hiccup asked, approaching the man he once called father with venom in voice that actually stroke fear in Stoick's heart. "You think you can get away with this, being fake with me, making a fool of me for all those years. You and your wife never loved me, you never wanted me!" Hiccup shouted, causing Stoick to flinch for the first time in his life.
"You made me go through so much pain before I met Toothless and even today when I was told the truth you never had the guts to tell me! YOU HATED ME!" Hiccup screamed at the top of his lungs with pure rage. "YOU NEVER SAW ME AS YOUR SON! SO GUESS WHAT, I HATE YOU STOICK! I HATE YOU SO MUCH! YOU NEVER HAVE OR WILL EVER BE A FATHER TO ME! YOU NEVER WANTED ME AS A SON SO I DON'T WANT YOU AS MY FATHER! YOU MADE ME FEEL SO USELESS AND WORTHLESS, YOU ONLY USED ME!" He got quiet, then finished with a lower calm tone, "And now you're going to know how that feels..."
End Flashback
"I-I hurt you...Ran away..." He whispered, "How..How could you still say all that, after everything I've done?"
"All of that doesn't matter," Stoick answered, still embracing Hiccup. "I was only scared." Was he scared of me? Hiccup asked himself with grief but he knew the answer. Of course he is, I'm a berserker, I single handedly attacked his village and defeated his best warriors...I don't blame him...However, as if Stoick could read Hiccup's thoughts, he explained his fear more in depth which truly brought the shock in the teen. "But I wasn't scared of you, I was scared that you'd hate me for the rest of my life. That you'd hate me for being a terrible father and never forgive me no matter how much I apologized. I feared, I would have lost you for good...That I would never get the chance to see you and bring you back again. "
Hate him? Hiccup thought in surprise. How could I hate him? Sure I was mad but I could never hate him...Never. Stoick still felt how tense Hiccup was in this embrace but for some reason he just couldn't let go, he felt that if he held on to him longer then it could show some reassurance that he's here for his son. "I don't care if you hate me or not, leave or not but I just want to know if you could forgive for all the things I've done, for hiding secrets that you had every right to know. No matter what you do, if we're related or not, you are still my son. It doesn't matter what everyone else says, you are still the same son I've always and still proud of. I swear on my grave that I do not regret being your father, because you made me the most happiest father in the whole archipelago...I still love you son."
No that did it, Hiccup's eyes shut tight as he wrapped his arms around his father like there was no tomorrow. Stoick's words were believable, after all he never hated the man but to hear these words really broke him out of his shell. His face was buried in the chief's beard as his voiced muffled, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry! I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, I'm sorry! I'm so sorry for everything I did! I didn't mean any of the bad things I said to you! I'm sorry, I'm sorry! I'm so sorry! I'm sorry, I'm sorry for all the trouble I caused you! I must be such a pathetic son to you! I'm sorry I'm sorry!I'm sorry for getting mad at you! I'm sorry, I'm so sorry chief! I am so sorry. I'm sorry, I'm sorry!"
Stoick was speechless, feeling his son embrace so tightly as he repeatedly apologized to him as if he was the one who did the wrong doing. "You have nothing to be sorry for Hiccup," He whispered soothingly to his son, rubbing the boy's back while the teen still repeated 'sorry'. "I'm the one who should be saying sorry, not you...You not pathetic, I know you never meant any of the words you said, you never caused me any trouble, you don't have to apologize." When Hiccup still was whispering sorry, Stoick hushed the teen, then lifted his chin up gently and apologized, "I'm sorry for not telling you the truth, for not being there with you when Berk turned their back on you. I'm so sorry Hiccup, for everything I ever did to hurt you. You don't have to say sorry to me, not now, not ever! I'm sorry son..." He pulled his son in a tighter embrace. "Can you ever forgive me?" Ironic to his name, Hiccup hiccuped a bit as he finally nodded, whispering as he looked down over his father's shoulder,
"Yeah I do, but I just need some time...But..." Stoick nodded, knowing they both would need time before everything to go back to an almost normal life. Hiccup took a deep breath before he continued, "...But, I never hated you for any of the stuff you did. I could never hate you or leave you, dad."
It was first time in days since Hiccup heard himself call Stoick 'dad' after all the drama and it sure did surprise the father! Stoick's eyes widened, never letting Hiccup go as he felt his eyes getting filled up with tears as he repeated to himself, Don't cry, don't cry, don't...Cry...Don't-Too late, tears were spilling from his grey eyes as he buried his face on his son's hair just to make sure Hiccup didn't see him but unfortunately for him, he wasn't very quiet with his sniffling since Hiccup asked from over his shoulder, "Dad? Are you...Crying?"
"Eh..No! It's just dust," Stoick bluffed even though his tears continued to fall. He was about to try to wipe them off until he felt warm and wet on his shoulders coming from Hiccup. "Hiccup, are you crying?"
Indeed, Hiccup's eyes gave up the fight since he was crying a river but he quickly shook his head. "Nope! Just dust, yeah just stupid dust in my eyes!"
No far away from where they were, Heather and Dagur watched the whole scene, a little emotional with the scene as they both nodded while covering their eyes as the older brother whispered in mirth. "No kidding, stupid dust is everywhere now." All Heather did was nod, "Yep."
Stupid dust, why are you everywhere?! Hopefully this chapter is good and yes hiccup repeated himself over and over but quite frankly anyone would do the same. Hope you loved this chapter and see ya next time. But bear this question in mind:
What now?
