AN:
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It was early in the morning. Darren was quietly snoring next to Chris. Chris tried to slip out of bed without having Darren notice, but he wasn't succeeding. When he had freed himself from Darren's grip his arms started searching for Chris. Chris quickly held the pillow out to Darren and he was glad to see Darren cuddle up with it.
He tip-toed to the kitchen and grabbed his phone. He dialed the number he needed. A sleepy 'hello' came from the other side. "Cory, can you take Darren off my hands today?"
"What?"
"I need to get out of here and Darren can't be alone. Can you please just pretend to have a brother-boyfriend day?"
"You can't expect me to do that, right? I was this close to knocking him unconscious when he freaked out on set. I don't know how to deal with this thing."
"Listen, I'm wearing ridiculous outfits every day, he asked me to move in with me, he tells me he loves me every five minutes, he is trying to get into my pants and if I hear him sing one more Katy Perry song, I will rip his head of! I think you can handle one day of watching movies with him. Please Cory, I can't take it any longer. Just lie to him when he asks about something real. It's not that hard, he's just as oblivious as Blaine. If freaks out really bad, just distract him with a bow-tie."
"I don't have any of those."
"It was a joke, you idiot."
"Okay I'll do it."
"Thank you. Can you just entertain him, but don't watching tv. You can't afford someone we know showing up on a talk show. Movies are fine. Don't make it too obvious you're baby sitting him. And put on some Harry Potter while you make him eat Red Vines. I read online smells can bring up memories, maybe he'll make the connection. Put his pink sunglasses somewhere in sight when you're watching. He's already getting better, he is really making progress in the way he talks and he even put on some socks yesterday. But I'm still pretty desperate right now."
"Okay, I can do that."
"Thank you so much."
Chris hung up with a relieved feeling. He could finally have some time as himself without Darren confusing him all the time. He could finally do the stuff he liked. He was even planning on smoking, and he never smokes. He just wanted to get away from Kurt and everything he was.
But first he needed to 'wake up' next to Darren and he should make something up about why he was going to spend his day with Cory. He just hoped for Darren not to get mad at him, but he could handle one more fight if that meant he could get away from him for a day.
He tip-toed back to the bedroom and pulled the pillow out of Darren's grip. He replaced the pillow with himself. He couldn't go back to sleep, not with Darren laying next to him. He took a long moment to admire him. His hair all frizzy, lips parted so small puffs of warm air could escape, an occasional snort that was absolutely adorable.
That was what Chris wanted it to be like. When Darren was asleep he wasn't Blaine, he was just Darren. There was no difference. That was what he wanted. Just Darren, no uncomfortable clothes, no lies, no pretending, just him and Darren like that.
But he knew that was never going to happen. He knew there would come a day that Darren came up to him with a pretty girl who he'd introduce as his girlfriend. He knew that a while after that they would get engaged and married and they'd start a family with kids who would be all theirs. No adoption, she would have Darren's baby. And Chris would be uncle Chris. Not daddy, but uncle. He knew all that.
But he also knew that, the second Darren would open his eyes, he would start pretending again. What they were doing wasn't real, but it was closer to what he wanted than reality. So he would pretend, and he would tell everyone he hated it. Which he did, but he loved it too.
And it all was so confusing. Where was it all coming from? Part of his brain screamed that it was because Darren had spent a lot of time figuring out his character, but a tiny part was hoping it was something deeper. It was hoping Darren also used his character to be close to him and that was where he truly wanted to be. But he knew he should ignore that part of his brain. The part that had already gotten too much attention from Curt and Ashley. The part that needed to disappear, because it would put him in misery in the end.
He had to wake Darren up sooner or later. He wanted it to be later, but he knew that wouldn't solve anything. He sucked in a deep breath and ran a hand trough Darren's hair. When he reached the back of Darren's head he ran the hand down Darren's neck. He brought the hand up to his face again and caressed his jaw. Darren's eyes fluttered open slowly and blinked the sleep out of his eyes. He smiled when their eyes found each other.
Darren leaned up to press a soft, chaste kiss on Chris' lips. Chris leaned in to the kiss and felt the mixed feelings well up again. After a few moments they broke apart. "I love you, Chris."
"I lo-" Wait, what? Did he just- he just- he just called me by my name. Does this mean he is himself again? Does this mean I can be myself again? Chris was so happy, he had his friend back. He had waited so long. Did he just say he loves me? His happiness vanished, because Chris was convinced Darren would never say that. So, he is not himself. He just remembers my name. That's progress, I guess. "Blaine, you just called me Chris." Chris smiled and tried to hide his sadness.
"No Chris, I love you."