Callie's POV

It's been 4 hours and 38 minutes since Arizona was taken into the OR. I know the best team of surgeons are working on her but I've not been able to stop worrying about her. After all she is my ex-wife, of course I'm going to worry about her, I always will. My ex-wife who I'm still in love with, always have been and always will be.

Even though I'm with Penny, it's just not the same - even through all the bad times, my life with Arizona was the best time of my life. The love, passion and life we shared outweighed the bad moments...which there were more than a lifetime of in our relationship. God I would give everything I have right now just to make sure she pulls through this, I can't believe she put her life on the line for me like that.

"Torres?"

"Oh sorry I was in another world" I replied to Bailey who came to sit next to me.

"Should I even ask how you're holding up?"

"Honestly I have no idea, she just needs to survive!" I reply.

"Come on this is Robbins you're talking about, didn't you know she's immortal?!"

"What?"

"She's a survivor - gossip is she's indestructible according to the interns" explains Bailey.

"She sure is, I can't believe what life has thrown her way..."

"She's not the only one...you've gone through enough yourself to qualify!"

"Thanks Bailey. How much longer will they be?" I ask her, I couldn't face it sitting in the gallery & seeing Arizona in that state.

"Well she's lost a lot of blood so they're doing a transfusion, the stab wound is quite deep, they're trying to save her kidney but it's 50/50 if she'll need a transplant" explains Bailey.

"If she does I'll donate mine, we're a match" I respond almost instantly, not even thinking twice about it.

"I thought you'd say that, are you sure?"

"Miranda, she saved my life today. There's no question about it! Remember a few months back you asked me the question about cheering on Sof at the Woman's World Cup Final?"

"Of course, you never did answer that by the way" the Chief replied.

"I know the answer, heck I even knew back then but I couldn't say it out loud, I had a girlfriend...still have a girlfriend...but it's never been her. I saw Arizona, every time I close my eyes it's always that perky, beautiful blonde I see. She captured my heart and life the first time we met, my life has never been the same since. Even these years we've spent apart, she's still the biggest part of me." I admit to Bailey.

"So, what are you going to do about it?" asks Bailey.

"I can't do anything. She's moved on, she's happier these days"

"Callie Torres if you think that then you're a fool!" Bailey harshly tells me with a punch to my arm...

"Bailey what the hell?!" I yell back

"The woman is madly in love with you! If you can't see that then you're a blind fool!" harsh.

"She can't be...if she was she would have said something over the years!" I can't believe Bailey has the audacity.

"Or she's put on a hell of a good cover to ensure you're happy because that's all she's wanted since you walked out on her! You told her in that room you were happier without her and all she ever wants is you and Sofia to be happy!".

"How do you know all of that?" I ask not sure if I'm going to believe her or not.

"Me and Robbins are friends, we go for coffee every weekend. Remember...Bailey knows everything!" Miranda responds.

I throw my head in my hands and contemplate this new information. I thought I had cried all the water from my body these past few hours but clearly not as a fresh wave attack me, I can't believe how selfless Arizona has been, putting me first even when we're apart and then putting herself in front of danger for me today, she's committed and loyal, a good man in a storm she sure was.

"What the hell do I do now?" I ask out loud, not sure if it's to myself or Bailey as she stands up due to her pager going off - ER not OR thankfully.

"That's up to you and I can't choose for you...but like I've said before...I'm more of a roller girl myself" she responds walking away with a knowing smirk.

I lean back in the chair and take a deep breath with a lot of new information over the past 20 minutes to process. Before I can even think my phone ringing startles me, Penny.

"Hey" I say, not wanting to answer but she's looking after Sofia.

"Hey babe are you ok? I just had a call from Cross." I hate being called babe!

"I'm not ok but can you bring Sof in for me please? Page me when you get here." I tell her hanging up instantly.

I get up and start pacing up and down the surgery corridor again, nervously fiddling with my hands. With another look at the clock I sigh '5 hours and 18 minutes'. When I turn around at the top of the corridor I hear a door open behind me, spinning around I see Meredith and can't read her expression.

"Callie..."