"Mer is she ok?"

"I just wanted to update you, we're not done just yet, the knife went quite far into the kidney so there's still some damage control but she's stable. I thought you should know, she should be done within the next two hours" Meredith tells me with a hand on my shoulder.

"Thanks for letting me know, I'm just going to wait here." I walk back to the seats and sigh deeply.

After sometime I hear footsteps approaching and they sit in the chair next to me

"I thought it was time you had one of these" says Richard handing me a coffee

"Thanks" I reply, sipping the coffee which was heaven sent right now

"So...you ok?" asks the former Chief

"As good as can be expected. Bailey just had an interesting chat with me. Hey, you're Arizona's wingman, tell me the truth...does she still love me?" I ask Webber

"Torres she's never stopped" says Richard "That woman loved you from the moment she saw you and she still loves you, you're the only one for her! Yes we went to find new women for her but she never took any numbers or went further than the odd kiss. None of them were you is her reason"

"I just can't understand why she's not said anything to me" I tell him, finding it hard to process everything

"That final day in therapy. It was a confusing day for her, you had both shared a lovely evening before and when she entered that room, she thought it was for the last time as you had both resolved everything. To her, you were both going in to say thank you to the therapist, she had no idea you were going to end the relationship. The greatest relationship of her life." Richard explained, clearly knowing the story from Arizona's POV anyway.

"You seem to know a lot...any more?" I ask him.

"You misinterpreted her use of the word 'anchor' in that session. You assumed it was negative - that you were holding her down in one place, drowning her and not letting her be happy or free. What she actually meant when she called you her anchor, was how you are able to keep her grounded in life. After all the bad that happened to her in life, the one happy thing she could count on being steady was the love you shared, your love was the anchor to a disruptive life of tragedy. Every time something bad happened - missing her brother, Africa, the shooting, the car crash, the plane crash, losing Mark, the storm, the miscarriage, the divorce, seeing you move on - she's still always loved you and your beautiful daughter throughout that, it's always that great love that keeps her feet moving one in front of the other every day. You two keep her alive, even when you're not in her life like you were. You are her happy. Then you informed her that you were happier without her, once in that room and again when you talked about Blake to her for the first time. That was a big blow to her" Richard informs me honestly.

"Wow. You sure know a lot!" He's got my crying now "How didn't I see anything? I've messed everything up. I've wasted so much time trying to move on with my life and all along I wanted the same thing she did...just to be back as our family!"

"So why didn't you ever say anything to her?" asks Webber.

Before I could answer, not that I'm sure I did have an answer for that question, I see my little mini-me running towards me with Penny trailing behind her.

"Hi mija!" I say scooping her up into my lap and giving her the biggest hug.

"Hi mami, hi uncle Richard! Where's mama?" Sofia asks innocently.

"I'll leave you to it Torres but think about that answer and if you need anything just page me" says Richard as he leaves to go check in on Arizona.

"Oh baby girl she was hurt today at work, she was being a super hero saving me!" I explain to our daughter.

"Woah. Superhero?! Did she hurt her head like I did?" Sof asks showing me her scar.

"Not her head but she did hurt her back, we're just waiting for aunty Mer, aunty April and uncle Owen to fix her up!" I tell her holding her tighter to me.

"Is there anything I can do Calliope?" Asks Penny, it sounds so much better coming from Arizona.

"Could um, could you not call me that? It's just I would only ever let Arizona call me that and it's too painful right now knowing she's in there" I ask Penny who looks a bit upset, not that she has any right in this moment.

"Sure. I think I'll just go and talk to Bailey about the grant. Bye Sofia, bye Callie" Penny walks away but I'm too caught up in other emotions to think about her.

"Will mama be ok?" asks Sofia.

"I'm sure she will, she's a superhero after all but I think she may be in hospital for a little while to make sure she's better." I explain to our daughter.

"Can we look after mama when she leaves hospital?"

"Well we need for mama to wake up first baby and then we can discuss it with her but I'd like to help her out" I say to Sofia.

"Me too mama, me too. Oh and we can eat ice cream every night, it made me feel better when I was hurt" I laugh at this, she will do anything for ice cream, just like Arizona.
"I miss the three musketeers" Sofia says, my heart clenching at this sentence, it was the term Arizona and Sof adapted for us three after reading about it one bedtime.

"So do I Sof, our little adventures in the garden were the best!" I tell her honestly.

"I preferred the magical den castle we made in my bedroom, when I was fighting off the baddies and you had to rescue mama with a kiss then we all lived happily ever after!" Sofia explains with excitement at the memory but she soon has a frown on her beautiful face.

"Sof?" I prompt her

"I miss mama living with us. It's not as fun when we live apart. I don't like it and I feel sad every time you switch me over. Did I do something wrong?" My baby asks with tears running down her face, this innocent little child.

"No baby this wasn't your fault, ever, so don't think it is. You are the ray of sunlight in both mine and mama's lives, we live for you Sofia Robbin Sloan-Torres! Me and mama just made some bad choices over the past few years but we never meant for them to hurt you." I try to explain

"I want to see mama now and hug her" Sofia says with a pout.

"I know you do, you can soon" I tell her, wanting nothing more myself either.

Me and Sofia must have been sitting for another hour when finally April comes out to see us, tears in her eyes. I stand up immediately with Sofia in my arms.

"April?"

"Callie I'm so sorry!"