I'd love you if I could

chapter 4

Hope

A/N: I can't believe I havent updated since almost a month! Yes excuses, excuses here they are: Finals, end of the year stuff, blah blah blah. Anyway, this chapter was only half of the chapter but I'm going divide it into 2 chapters. The second part will probably be up in the next 3 days. I know, this chapter is beyond short, but that's all I could write today, and I wanted to post this chapter as early as I could. And the good news is, since it's summer, I'll be able to update more often. :) So... ENJOY

If a kiss was a raindrop, I'd send you a shower. If a hug was a second, I'd send you an hour. If a smile was water I'd send you the sea. If you needed love, I'd send you me.

Jace sat on the cream colored couch watching Belle play with her dolls. His thoughts drifted to Clary once again. It was like a tattoo, even if you cover it up, it was still there. Deep down, it was still there. He thought about if Clary ever thought about Belle, about him. He thought about how happy she had been about having Belle. She had read to her before she was born, nad even asked him to play (piano) evey night believing it would help her develop musical talents. He would think she was going overboard with everything, but it proved that she loved her so he agreed. He didn't know what changed that, but Clary had left Belle without a mother. Everyone pitched in taking care of Belle, trying to fill in that missing spot, but it just wasn't the same.

***FLASHBACK***

Clary threw down the baby name book she had been looking through for the past hour, angrily. She wanted to find the perfect name, one that was meaningful. She was frustrated, and was growing more and more agitated due to her mood swings. Just then, she felt an arm snake around her waist.

"What's wrong?" He whispered into her ear making her shiver. He still had that effect on her even though they would be having a baby together, and she believed he always would.

"I just can't find the perfect name." She said as frustration built up again.

"How about naming him after somebody," He suggested, winking.

"What makes you think the baby will be a boy? But good idea."

"Of course, I thought of it" Clary playfully slapped him in the arm, then went back to putting names together.

"How about Clarabelle Celine Lightwood?"

"And you said I was self-centered." She glowered at him.

"Fine, but if he's a boy, I get to name him Jace jr." He finished with a smug look on his face.

"If we have a boy, we'll name him Max Stephen Lightwood," seh said, and when Jace stuck out his bottom lip into an adorable pout," she added," and our second male child will be named Jace jr." Jace smiled brightly,"But we're calling him JJ."

"Ok, JJ it is, I could live with that."

"She or he is going to be wonderful, our little angel" She said.

Jace chuckled, "She/he has angelic parents afterall." He leaned down and pressed his lips to her stomach.

"So this goes all back to you doesn't it?"She teased.

"Maybe"

"Ass"She said with a smile.

"You love me anyway"

"Maybe"

"What's that supposed to mean?"He said squinted his eyes. Clary giggled. Then came the silence, it wasn't awkward at all, in fact, it was comfortable.

"I love you" Jace said out of nowhere but Clary answered anyway with an "I love you too"

She leaned into him and breathed in. His smell was comforting, she didnt think she would last a day without it.

And there they sat, Clary (six months pregnant) snuggled into Jace's chest, for the rest of the night. Neither felt the need to move, or that this was a bore. They just wanted to enjoy the moment, while it lasted.

***END OF FLASHBACK***

He couldn't understand why she had left. Clary had loved Clarabelle ever since she found out she was pregnant. She had told him she didn't love him anymore, but he could've sworn on teh night she left he had seen pain, sorrow, and especially regret in her eyes. He believed she had left for another reason. Although he was beyond pissed at her for it, the thought gave him hope. Hope that she would come back.