"April?"

"Callie I'm so sorry" ...

"Kepner?!"

"She gave us a scare but she's going to be fine" April informs me and relief instantly rolls off my shoulders, my heart rate starts to slow down to normal.

"Thank God! You scared the crap out of me crying! Sof mama is going to be ok!" I hug my baby girl closer.

"Aunty April why are you sad?" asks Sofia

"Oh sweety I'm sorry, they're happy tears! Your mama gave me a little scare, I think she was pulling a prank on me whilst she's sleeping! She's fine, just fine!" replies April.

Meredith and Owen come through the OR doors wheeling Arizona's bed and I feel tears form instantly in my eyes, she's would have died for me today, she's the bravest woman I know.

"Callie she's ok, she lost a lot of blood and the kidney was severely damaged but we managed to fix it without a transplant. She'll probably need a couple of weeks observation and she should wake up sometime tomorrow, she's been through a lot today!" explained Meredith.

"Thank you so much you three, I know you're the best but when April came out crying I thought she was gone!" I tell them.

"I'm sorry she's my best friend, it only hit me when we were closing up that I could have lost her and we've had a rough patch recently, as soon as she wakes up I'm apologising to her!" Says April.

"Get in line Kepner, the only faces she's seeing when she wakes up are these two!" I say pointing at Sof and myself. I look down at Arizona who is paler than usual, understandably so, even after these events she is so beautiful, a Goddess if you will, she's the mother of our child and the love of my life.

...

A few hours later we're up in Arizona's room, Sof is making a get well card and I'm sat next to Arizona, holding her hand in mine, I've not let go since we got here. I start thinking about what Richard asked me this evening, why didn't I ever say anything?! I get lost in thought on this for what seems like hours, only pulled out of my thoughts by Karev coming in.

"Alex hi!" Sofia runs over to Alex who picks her up with a smile.

"Hey kiddo, how are you?" He asks, he's really great with her, he'll make a great dad one day.

"Look I'm maling mama a card for when she wakes up!" she tells him pointing at the picture, it's only now I also look - she's drawn the of us with a house, the sight warms me up.

"How's she doing?" asks Alex concerned.

"Ok so far, no bleeping machines and her colour is coming back, it's just a waiting game until she wakes up. How are you?" I ask knowing he's one of Arizona's closest friends.

"Good. I was worried, why the hell do you two go through so much crap!?" he replies which makes me laugh.

"I have no idea, I think the universe is against us!" I reply.

"Yet you always beat the odds and come through everything" he states matter of fact.

"You know from your first case on PEDs Arizona always knew you'd take over the department and be an amazing surgeon...She's rooted for you from day one Karev" I tell him honestly remembering Arizona telling me how he saved a band geek.

"Shut up" he says shyly looking at Arizona "she's a great teacher and friend" he continued.

"I think it's more than that Alex, she considers you a little brother, she's very protective of you" I let him know and I can see a bit more moisture in his eyes at this statement.

"I feel like a protective brother towards her, especially the last few years after you split up. She was lower then than after the plane crash and leg" he tells me, my curiosity picking up.

"Really? I didn't think it could get worse than that!" I respond.

"I still feel so guilty about the leg, I never should have let you take the blame, I wanted to tell her so many times. I feel part responsible for your break up. If she had known from the beginning it was me then maybe you'd both still be together. I mean it sucks to lose a limb but to also then lose your family, I couldn't think of anything worse!" I always appreciate how bluntly honest this man can be but only taking note now how right he is.

Arizona didn't want to split up, that was my call, like it was my call to take blame for the leg, it's always my call...that's it...I didn't say anything to get her back because I feel guilty that it was my choice to end us, I've never deserved to even ask her about feelings. It was all my call. These past 12 hours have been more insightful than an additional six months of therapy. Thanks to these wonderful friends, no, family of Arizona's they've all helped me finally sort my crap out as Karev called it.

"Karev you're a good man, you'll make a wonderful family" I tell him truthfully.

"Thanks, do me a favour, when she wakes up tell her you love her because she feels the same damnit!" He says casually then leaves me and Sof to it.

Sofia goes back to finishing her card and I look to Arizona, a piece of her golden blonde hair had fallen over her face, I gently smooth it back behind her ear.

"Please wake up soon beautiful, I've got so much to say to you, I'll be waiting for you" I whisper to her and place a soft kiss to her lips and sit back in my seat.

"Calliope..."