I'd love you if I could

chapter-4 locket of love

A/N: I haven't updated in forever! I didn't realize it had been that long. Probably won't take as long for the next chapter, but no promises. This chapter is a little longer than the last to make up for it. And I have 3 questions to ask you guys.

1: any ideas for a new penname? I want it to be related to TMI and have some sort of deep meaning. I can't think of anything!

2: Also, I need some suggestions of teen sitcoms to watch. Any ideas?

3: Lastly, do you guys know any good teen paranormal romance books? No vampire ones

though, maybe a book like TMI?

Plz answer in review. Thanks so much. :)

"Once you have learned to love, you have learned to live"

"Daddy, look what I found," Belle held up a small velvet box to her father. Jace took it gently from her and examined it.

"Where did you find it, honey?" She said nothing but pointed to the small shelf of books by her box of toys. He averted his attention back to the little box he was balancing on his hands. On the edge of the box there was an engraving...Open this with your heart. He knew instantly it was from Clary which made him all the more was a locking rune on it, a rune that Clary had clearly created. His heart raced as he thought about what it meant.

After a few seconds his mind sparked with an idea.

"Belle, can daddy see your necklace for a minute?" Belle just simply raised up her necklace to him. He then opened the locket and looked longingly at the picture of all three of them. They were at the hospital the day Belle was born. He slowly lifted the picture and found a miniscule key. Belle watched her father with fascination as he put the key in the lock and opened the box.

Inside was a small envelope. Jace opened it gently with shaking hands. It was a letter, bordered by tear stains. His mind was spinning as he began to read.

Dear Jace and Clarabelle,

I am sitting in our room writing this letter. It's probably the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I can't stand the thought of leaving you both. But it is out of my hands, I am protecting you. As long as I'm gone, it will be safe.

I know you may never forgive me for leaving. You might have even forgotten me and moved on, and I don't blame you. But know that I will never forget you, I won't ever move on. Wherever I am at this moment, I am thinking of you.

Whatever I had to tell you the night I left, I don't mean. I will always love you, forever. Tell Clarabelle that I am always with her in her heart, and that I love her.

You may not even read this letter, you may have burned it or tore it in half the moment you saw it, but if you do read it, know that I am very sorry. I know sorry is not enough, and you probably hate me right now.

Looking behind my shoulder, I see you sleeping soundly, making me more guilty of what I'm about to do. Clarabelle is in my arms, and it just tears me apart that I am leaving you both. I know you will be the best father to Belle. I can do nothing now but beg for your forgiveness.

I love you both,

Clary

Stunned, Jace dropped the letter from his hands.

"What's wrong , daddy?" Belle said in a cute voice running over.

"Nothing, baby, why don't you go play with your toys"

"Ok, daddy"

Jace settled in to the small cushioned chair in the corner of the room. He didn't know what to think of the letter. She had thought he moved on? He had not dated since he had met her. Alec and Isabelle were relieved that he didn't go back to his manwhore phase. In fact, the only thing that stopped him was Clarabelle. He loved her to death, and couldn't do that to her. She deserved the best childhood that he could give her.

Clary

"Lexi, are you purposely trying to kill me?" Clary asked her friend from inside her room.

She heard Lexi sigh,"You seriously need a new wardrobe and you should be happy that you have a fashion extraordinaire to help you." Clary froze, those words sounded so much like what Izzy would say.

"Hello? are you gonna get outta there or not?" Lexi said impatiently.

"Not" I said stubbornly. Yes, I had not lost by stubborn personality.

"Come on, Clary" Boy, was she persistant. She would probably be out there all day if I didn't exit the room so I slowly stood up and opened the door.

"Oh my gosh, that looks so awesome on you!" She squealed. I turned around and looked in the mirror. She was right. The light color complimented my red hair, and made my emerald eyes sparkled and shone brighter.

"I guess it does sorta look good."

"Told you so"

"But I'm not wearing this on Tuesday, it's not like I'm going on a date or anything. We're just going to meet your newfound friend that you don't know the name of. "

"In my opinion, you always have to look good, besides she dresses gorgeously and you're my best friend, you have to look good. "

"So you're basically using me to impress your friend."

"If you put it that way, it sounds worse"

Clary sighed and said,"Fine, I'll help you"

Lexi sqealed satisfied and hugged Clary tightly. Clary squirmed in her tight grip and broke loose. "As long as you never do that again"

"I can't help it, you're an awesome friend"

Clary smiled.

"And speaking of dates, you gotta get yourself a man, girl. You haven't dated in like when, forever?"

Clary's smile faded guiltily. She still hasn't told Lexi, she had a husband and a daughter. To Lexi, she just moved out here, to get away from her parents. So far, she had been datelacking and working at the small cafe around the corner from her apartment.

"I'm not interested in dating, I'm just gonna focus on my job for now," And getting the guts to go see Jace, she added in her head.

She promised herself, that she would get the courage to go see the love of her life and her beautiful daughter. One day, she thought.

One day