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I'm missing you.
With her earphones in, Jenny wandered around the streets near her parents' house, walking her neighbor's dog Rusty and listening to music on her iPhone. She often took Rusty out for walks. Her neighbor was an old lady in her early eighties living alone, and Jenny loved the walks. They helped her calm down and clear her mind. She felt the time she spent walking around London with Rusty gave her some peace of mind about her life. The 3 year-old little Yorkshire terrier had really won her heart, and she loved the little guy. When he looked at her with those small dark eyes as if she was the only one in the whole world, she couldn't help but smile and give him an extra treat. She had a suspicion that Rusty had figured out that she couldn't resist his puppy dog look and did it on purpose just to get the treats he knew she carried with her.
She had never had a pet as a child because her parents wouldn't allow her to have one as they moved a lot and didn't have time to take proper care of one. So she would never have thought that she could create such a bond with a little furball like Rusty. It seemed at times as if Rusty knew how to comfort her when she was sad. He would crawl up on her and cuddle her or do something silly that made her smile. Mrs. Woodward kept remarking that he had taken a liking to her the first time he saw her. That it was love at first sight for Rusty, which wasn't like him at all.
Since she had her hip operation, she hadn't been able to take long walks with Rusty, so Mrs. Woodward was happy when Jenny volunteered to walk him for her. Jenny had become close to Mrs. Woodward, or Rose as she preferred to be called. Her real name was Rosalind but she had soon asked Jenny to call her Rose like her own children and grandchildren did. Jenny liked helping her with Rusty and talking to her over a cup of tea. She could tell the most incredible stories about London's history. She had gotten close to Rose lately and felt she was the only one who understood her and the pain she was feeling. Rose let Jenny talk about Emma and cry when she needed to. She was patient and listened to Jenny ramble on and on about not wanting to be in London and missing Emma. Jenny felt that Rose was the grandmother she never really had and, lately, she visited her every day telling her about her day and the newest conversation she had had with Emma.
Looking down at Rusty, she couldn't help but smile. The little terrier knew exactly where they were going and he was so eager to get there that he pulled on his leash to get Jenny to walk faster. Rounding the corner, she could see the entrance to the park. Rusty loved it there. He especially loved running around without a leash playing with the other dogs. Jenny usually sat on a bench watching him play while listening to music. Sometimes she also played with him, running around playing catch with a stick she found in the park.
A new song started playing as she walked through the entrance to the park. Frowning, she listened to the song and her mind filled with thoughts of Emma again.
"I miss your love, since you've been gone
I find it hard to go on
The summer sky don't mean a thing
I thought I'd always be strong
I got a feeling inside
And it's making my heart cry, 'cause"
She couldn't figure out why Emma hadn't answered her phone calls or texts. It had been over a day since they last spoke and she hadn't heard from her since she had sent her that wonderful song. That song had made all her insecurities about their relationship and the distance fly away. If possible, it had made her heart swell with even more love for Emma. Somehow Emma always knew what to say and do to make her feel better.
"I'm missing you
And it's making me blue, yeah
I'm missing you
But what can I do
Thousand miles away, from you"
But thinking of Emma made Jenny's heart hurt a bit. She missed her and wondered why she still hadn't heard from her. It wasn't like Emma to ignore her like this. They usually spoke at least once a day and now it had been a full day since she heard from her. Jenny was getting worried that something had happened.
"here I am, and everything's new
I should be happy in love
But all I know, I look deep in my eyes
I've never felt so alone
And this feeling inside
It's making my heart cry, 'cause"
The thought of something bad happening to Emma was unbearable. It made her heart ache. She tried to push the thought away and looked at the ball of energy at her feet. Walking along the path with Rusty still on his leash, she passed a corner and he immediately started to pull a bit. He knew they were going to the area where he could run freely and play with the other dogs and Jenny smiled at his little tail eagerly wagging the closer they came to his favorite place in the park. The song kept playing and again Emma came rushing back into her mind.
"I'm missing you
And it's making me blue, yeah
I'm missing you
But what can I do
Thousand miles away, from you"
"Ohh Emma I miss you terribly, why won't you pick up your phone?" she silently whispered to herself as she walked up to a bench to sit down and unleash Rusty.
"So what's the meaning of this
To be living like this
It ain't no fun at all
I wonder where are you now
(I wonder where are you now)"
She hadn't noticed the tears running down her cheeks when she sat down. She took out her phone and hit Emma's number once again, hoping that her love would answer, but instead, she once again got the very familiar voice mail song. Usually she found that song adorable, but now she hated it. She was tired of only getting Emma's voice mail. She was sick of that being the only time she heard Emma's voice. This time she didn't leave a message. She just didn't have the strength to beg Emma once more to contact her or answer her phone. She had left so many texts and messages on Emma's voice mail telling her that she was worried and that she missed and loved her , begging her to call her back.
Instead of running off to play with the other dogs, Rusty just sat down beside her feet looking up at her, as if he was trying to figure out what was wrong. Jenny finally broke down and held her face in her hands as she cried. Rusty stood up on his hind legs, licking her hands trying to comfort her. When that didn't work he laid down on her feet to try and protect her.
"I miss your love since you been gone
I find it hard to go on
And this feeling inside
I just break down and cry"
As the song played on, Jenny just sat crying on the bench, not registering anything around her. Her only thoughts were of Emma. Why wasn't she responding? All of Jenny's insecurities came rushing back and thoughts of Emma being sick of the long distance relationship or having fallen for another girl were a blow she felt all the way down to her stomach.
Suddenly she felt a strong, comforting arm reach around her and pull her into a hug. Quickly looking up, she found herself staring into a very familiar pair of eyes.