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Chapter 12

Dr Showman placed the ultrasound gel on Chrisy's stomach and placed the wand on her and began to move it around slowly. Aaron held his breath as the image appeared on the monitor.

After some more moving the doctor found what she was looking for. Once she took a closer look she smiled.

"There is your baby. See the tiny flutter in the center. That's the heart beating."

"Is everything alright?" Aaron asked.

"It all appears normal. I'd say she's about twelve weeks along."

Smiling Aaron took Chrisy's hand. "There's our baby." He said proudly.

Chrisy didn't turn her head to look at the monitor. Her eyes held fixed and blank at the wall across from her.

"Don't you want to see the baby Chrisy?" Aaron asked worried more now than ever.

She remained frozen and didn't respond to his question. The tears began to well up in his eyes as he watched her so shut down. He thought for sure this would be what would make the pregnancy real to her.

The doctor gave Aaron a sympathetic look and removed the wand from Chrisy's stomach and turned off the machine. She then wiped the gel from Chrisy's stomach and pulled her shirt back down.

"Aaron could I have a word with you?" Dr Showman asked motioning him to the door.

"Sure. Chrisy I'll be right back." He got up and followed the doctor to the hall.

"When was the last time she ate anything?" The doctor began.

"It's been days."

"She's lost weight since her annual check up."

"She cleans like a lunatic and hardly sleeps. I've tried everything to get her to eat but she refuses. She still won't acknowledge what happened to her."

"Aaron, right now the baby seems fine. If she doesn't start eating and taking care of herself it will harm the fetus."

The knots were pulling tighter in Aaron's stomach from the doctors words. He still wasn't sleeping well and his own nerves were worn thin. He didn't know if he had the strength to keep going like this.

"I'll do my best doctor. How is she otherwise?"

"She has bruising and a bit of swelling from the trauma of the rape but she seems to be healing. The results of the tests ran on Trent Williams all came back clear of any and all diseases."

"Well thank god for that." Aaron sighed.

"Just make sure to take care of yourself too. If you don't you won't be any good to her."

"I'll try."

A few days later….

Aaron sighed closing the door behind Morgan as he took Jack with him for the day. The team was being so kind stepping up and looking out for Jack right now. The little guy was very upset at his mom acting so strangely. Derek was going to take him to a ballgame and fill him full of ballpark junk food. Jack was actually excited about going today and that made Aaron happy.

The racket going on upstairs had quieted and Aaron went up to check on his wife. He looked around seeing that the hall closet had been cleaned out and rearranged. When he reached the master bedroom he figured he would find Chrisy passed out on the bed finally dropping from exhaustion but the bed was empty. He then noticed the door to the bathroom closed and went to it and tapped on the door.

"Chrisy are you alright?"

When he didn't get an answer he opened the door and looked in to see his wife with scissors in her hand and a pile of hair on the sink.

"Chrisy! What are you doing?"

She turned to her husband blankly making another chop to her beautiful long strawberry blonde locks that fell on her shoulder.

"My hair needed cut." She stated flatly.

Aaron hurried to her and removed the scissors from her hand and took a closer look at the damage she had caused.

"Baby if you wanted a haircut why didn't you just tell me. I would have taken you to have it done."

He felt his chest tightening at the sight of the lovely long locks that were now all chopped off and uneven. He brushed the loose hair from her shirt and pulled her into him. She stood stiff in his arms as he longed for her to respond to his touch.

"Come on. We need to change your shirt." He said leading her back into the bedroom.

After she changed her shirt Chrisy went downstairs. Aaron sighed and pulled out his phone.

"JJ it's Hotch. Do you know by any chance who cuts Chrisy's hair?"

"I'm pretty sure she goes to the same person I do. Why?"

"I just found her in the bathroom and she chopped off her hair."

"Oh Hotch." JJ said softly. "I'll call Jenna and see if she can get Chrisy in and I'll come pick her up and take her to get it fixed."

"She's pretty hard to deal with right now JJ. Are you sure you want to do this?"

"I can handle it Hotch. You sound like you could use a break anyway. I'll call you right back."

JJ hung up and Aaron closed his eyes still feeling the sting of JJ's words. He could use a break but he felt so incredibly guilty feeling that way. Right now he was just spent and frustrated. He could take her being angry and crying but not this unfeeling robot she had turned into.

His phone rang and he saw it was JJ. "Hotchner."

"Jenna can get Chrisy in so I'll be there in about forty five minutes."

"Thank you JJ."

Aaron put his phone back in his pocket and went downstairs to see what Chrisy was doing now. As he got to the bottom of the steps he saw she was in the corner where his scotch stash was and had a glass up to her mouth drinking from it. He rushed over and grabbed the glass from her spilling the remaining liquid on the carpet.

"Hey." She protested.

"Damn it Chrisy you can't drink! You are pregnant!" Aaron yelled.

"You just made a mess." She said looking at the spot on the carpet.

"Forget the mess. Why are you drinking?"

"I wanted one."

"You can't have one." He said picking up the bottle and taking it to the kitchen.

Chrisy followed him in and watched as he poured the rest of the liquor down the drain. She walked over behind him and opened a cupboard and pulled out a sponge and the carpet cleaner and went back into the living room. Aaron put down the empty bottle and rubbed his hands over his face and tried to think if there was anymore booze in the house he would need to get rid of.

Chrisy was on her hands and knees furiously scrubbing at the carpet working on the spot left by the spilt scotch.

"For the love of god Chrisy would you just let that go?" Aaron sighed seeing her cleaning.

"It will leave a stain if I don't get it up now."

"I don't care about the stain."

"I do. It will make a bad impression on anyone who comes over."

Biting his tongue Aaron turned and walked away before he said something that he would regret. Chrisy continued to scrub harshly at the stain.

The doorbell rang and Chrisy didn't even flinch at the sound. Aaron went and got it letting JJ in who gasped at the sight of Chrisy on her hands and knees. Aaron motioned JJ to follow him to the kitchen.

"Hi Chrisy." JJ said making her way past her.

"Hi Jay." She answered not really looking up.

JJ's eyes were wide when she entered the kitchen. Looking up at her boss she saw the exasperated expression on his face.

"Oh Hotch, she's a mess." JJ said choking back her tears.

"I know. I don't know what else to do. After she chopped off her hair and I got off the phone with you, I came downstairs to find her drinking scotch. I yanked the glass out of her hand and that's what she's cleaning up right now. She didn't get mad when I took the drink away she just obsessed on cleaning up the mess."

"She still refuses to believe she's pregnant?"

"Completely. She wouldn't even look at the ultrasound. I can't get her to eat anything. I'm almost at the end of my rope." He confessed.

"How's her family taking all of this?"

"Her mother wants to come out here. I told her no mainly because I don't want to deal with her too but I'm about to let her now."

"You lay down and get some rest while we are gone. You look like you really need it. I'll see if I can get her to eat something once we get her hair taken care of."

"I will. Jack is with Morgan today so hopefully I can get some sleep. I'm sure that's most of my problem with my nerves."

"Why don't you go on upstairs and I'll get her ready to go."

"Thanks JJ."

"Hey I love her too Hotch."

Aaron walked to the stairs and went up as JJ went back to the living room and got down on the floor next to Chrisy. Upon further examination of her hair JJ could tell that it was salvageable and Jenna would have no problem fixing it even though it would be much shorter.

"Chrisy, I'm going to take you to get your hair cut." JJ said softly.

"I already cut it."

"I see that but it needs some fixing. Jenna is going to take care of it for you."

"Oh, ok."

"I don't see a stain there anymore. I think you got it all up."

"The whole carpet needs cleaned. I'll work on that today."

"Let's go get your hair done first." JJ said getting up and holding her hand out to help Chrisy up.

After getting her shoes on Chrisy went with JJ to the car to go and get the damage to her hair fixed.

Aaron laid down on his own bed for the first time in a long time. He reached over and pulled Chrisy's pillow over to him and wrapped his arms around it and pretended he was holding his wife like he used to before Trent Williams forced himself into their happy life.

Sometimes the urge to kill that son of a bitch was so strong in Aaron it almost frightened him. Even though he would not admit it at the time it was a good thing that Dave had him locked away in that police cruiser because he probably would have strangled Trent with his bare hands.

"Chrisy I need you to come back to me." He whimpered into the pillow.

He closed his eyes and began to drift off to sleep.

Jenna trimmed the last of the stray hairs from Chrisy and ran the brush over her new look one last time before removing the cape.

"What do you think Chrisy?" Jenna asked

Chrisy looked at herself blankly in the mirror. When she didn't respond JJ piped up.

"It looks cute Chrisy." JJ smiled.

It was considerably shorter than it was before now only hanging to the top of her shoulders but it looked cute on her. It made her look even younger than she already did. Chrisy didn't even really seem to notice the difference as she got up from the chair to go and pay Jenna.

Jenna just looked to JJ and shrugged and went to collect the money from Chrisy.

"Ok so what sounds good to eat? Lunch is on me." JJ said getting in the car.

"Nothing. I'm not hungry."

"When was the last time you ate Chrisy?"

"I don't know."

"Well I'm not going to take no for an answer. What's it going to be? Italian, Chinese, cheese burgers?"

Chrisy didn't answer so JJ put the keys in the ignition and decided to pick and make her sit there with her while she ate. Aaron needed the time alone to sleep.

"Well I vote for cheese burgers." JJ said and pulled out of her parking space.

She sighed seeing the empty look on Chrisy's face. Until something caused her to break emotionally this would be the look she would permanently have and it sent a shiver down JJ's spine.

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