Chapter 15

Chrisy was limp in Aaron's arms still on the kitchen floor surrounded by broken dishes and a destroyed kitchen. Jack had stopped crying and had moved over to lean against his father. Even though they still had a long road ahead of them to recovery at least now they were beginning their journey.

Aaron moved around and Jack sat up. "Come on buddy lets get your mom upstairs."

Jack nodded and stood up then Aaron did and bent down to help Chrisy up. She was weak on her legs so he scooped her up in his arms and carried her up the stairs to their bedroom and laid her down on the bed.

"Jack can you go get yourself ready for bed?" He asked.

"Yes daddy." He answered and went to go change into his pajamas.

Aaron started to go over to the dresser to get something for Chrisy to change into but was stopped by a hand reaching out to grab his arm.

"Don't leave me Aaron."

He looked down at her pleading eyes and got down on the bed with her. "I'm not going anywhere baby."

"Just hold me."

Aaron laid down next to her and pulled her into him. Chrisy nuzzled into his chest.

"I'm sorry." She whispered. "I love you."

"I love you too. So much."

It wasn't long before her completely exhausted body gave out and she fell into a deep sleep. Jack wondered back into the room seeing his mom sound asleep.

"Can I sleep in here tonight?" He asked.

"Absolutely." Aaron whispered.

Jack climbed up on the bed next to his mom and snuggled up to her and closed his tired little eyes. Aaron soon followed and was asleep too.

Aaron woke to see that it was nine in the morning. He didn't set the alarm and Jack missed the bus for school. He looked down at his still sleeping wife and son and wasn't about to wake either of them. Carefully he slid out from under Chrisy and made his way downstairs to put on some coffee.

When he reached the kitchen he realized the extensive damage they had created last night. All of the cupboards were cleared and every dish, cup and glass was smashed including the coffee pot. He walked back into the living room and sat down resting his head in his hands feeling the relief wash over him that Chrisy had finally come back to him. He knew that things were going to get rough and bumpy but at least now her therapist would be able to help.

The house remained quiet as it got closer to noon. Chrisy and Jack were both still asleep and Aaron was enjoying the down time. A knock at the door interrupted his serenity.

He opened the door to see Spencer on the other side.

"Hey Hotch."

"Come in Reid."

Spencer walked in and pulled his messenger bag off and set it down on the floor.

"Where's Christine?" He asked noticing the silence.

"She and Jack are both sound asleep upstairs. She finally came back to us."

"What happened?"

"I forced her to remember what happened. She screamed at me and hurled a plate at my head and then we as a family proceeded to smash every dish in the house." Aaron said pointing to the kitchen.

Spencer walked over and peered in and saw the destruction and turned to Aaron with big eyes.

"She was blaming me for not being there to protect her." Aaron said softly.

"I'm sorry." Was all Spencer said.

"After we demolished the kitchen she broke down crying and then she just crashed and she's been asleep ever since."

"Is there anything I can do?" Spencer asked.

"Maybe get us a new coffee pot and some mugs?" Aaron almost smirked.

"I can do that." Spencer smiled.

Earsplitting screams pierced the quiet from upstairs sending a shiver down Aaron's back and he rushed up the steps to the bedroom to see Jack with his arms wrapped around his mother's waist talking to her.

"Mommy it's alright. It was just a bad dream."

Aaron stopped in the doorway of the room seeing his son being so brave for his mom. Chrisy looked down at Jack. Her eyes were large and full of fear.

"Jack, oh baby. I'm sorry I scared you." She said hugging him.

"I'm not scared mommy. You've helped me after bad dreams and now I'm going to help you after yours."

"Thank you Jack. You are the best son a mother could ever want. I love you so much."

"I love you too." He said squeezing her tighter.

Aaron felt his heart beam with pride as he watched the two embrace and comfort each other. He walked over to the bed and sat down.

"I hurried up when I heard you scream but I can see you are already in good hands."

Chrisy looked up to her husband. Her eyes were glassy with tears. "Aaron I'm scared."

"I know baby. We are going to be here for you every step of the way helping you not to be."

"I love you so much Aaron."

"I love you too."

Once Chrisy calmed down she and Jack got up and walked downstairs with Aaron to see Spencer pacing in the living room. Spencer looked up to see that she no longer had that blank look in her eyes.

She walked over to her friend and hugged him who embraced her back tightly.

"It's good to see you Christine."

"Thanks for everything Spencer."

"You know I would do anything for you."

Aaron watched the show of affection between the two friends and pushed away the annoyed feelings that were threatening to show. Finally they dropped the hug and Spencer stepped back away from her.

"Daddy, I'm hungry." Jack said rubbing his stomach.

"So am I." Chrisy added. "Do we have anything to eat?"

"We have plenty of food but nothing to eat it on." Aaron answered.

"Oops. I guess that's my fault." Chrisy said sheepishly.

Spencer hung out with Chrisy as Jack and Aaron got dressed and headed out to buy a new coffee pot and dishes.

Sighing at the mess in the kitchen she crunched over the broken glass and got out a trash bag from under the sink and began to pick up some of the shard remains. Spencer grabbed the broom and began to sweep up some of the smaller pieces.

After making some progress Chrisy stopped what she was doing and started to cry. Spencer dropped the broom and rushed over to her and pulled her into him. He knew this would part of her healing process and he wanted to offer her all the comfort he could.

"Spencer, am I really pregnant?" She asked between sobs.

"Yes Christine you are."

"I'm scared. What if I did something to hurt the baby."

"I'm sure the baby is just fine."

"I don't understand why this all had to happen to me. I didn't do anything to entice that man."

"You didn't have to do anything. Sometimes people just become obsessed with someone just by seeing them the first time. He just got things twisted in his mind and believed that you two belonged together no matter what."

"Aaron's never going to want me again. I'm dirty and tainted."

"That's not true at all. Aaron loves you. You are not dirty and tainted."

"What if it was your wife this happened to? Would you still want her?"

"Christine, I would always want you no matter what happened. This horrible thing happened against your will. I would never be turned off by it." Spencer felt his cheeks turn red once he said those words.

He knew that Chrisy had asked him about a hypothetical wife and he just answered as if she was his wife. Chrisy paused before saying anything. She wasn't sure she had heard him correctly.

Spencer backed away from Chrisy and brushed his thumb under her eye to wipe away the tears and gave her a shy smile.

"Why don't you go sit down while I clean the rest of this up?"

"I can help."

"I've got it."

"Well I could use a shower. Are you sure?"

"Yes, yes, yes. Go."

Chrisy left the kitchen confused by what had just taken place and made her way upstairs.

"Way to go Spencer." He mumbled grabbing the broom and began sweeping again.

Sweeping up the last of the glass from the floor Spencer dumped the full dustpan in the trash just as Aaron and Jack came in. Aaron and Jack both had their arms full of bags that had replacement items for the kitchen.

"Where's Chrisy?" Aaron asked emptying his arms.

"She went up to take a shower." Spencer answered pulling the trash bag out of the can.

"Reid you didn't have to clean this up." Aaron said surprised.

"It was no problem."

"Well then we will feed you a late lunch for your help."

"Oh no really I should just go back to work." Spencer said scrambling to get his messenger bag.

"Are you sure?" Aaron asked puzzled by his sudden need to leave.

"Yep. I'll see you later." Spencer said hurrying out the door.

Chrisy was sitting in the tub letting the water from the shower rain down on her. For the first time she noticed the faint bruises on her thighs and wrists that remained. She remembered the way Trent smelled on her and how he touched her. No matter what that image was never going to go away now that she could recall everything that happened to her. The tears were flowing again and she pulled her knees up to her chest and sobbed. She felt so violated and dirty.

Aaron tapped on the door and stepped into the bathroom to check on Chrisy. He was concerned because she hadn't come back down to eat.

"Chrisy, is everything alright?"

"No."

Aaron pulled back the shower curtain to see her crumpled on the floor of the tub. He reached over and flipped off the water and got down on the floor and pulled her into him.

"What is it baby?"

"I feel so dirty. I can almost still feel him on me. Nothing is ever going to erase that feeling."

"No nothing will but hopefully with time you won't think about it anymore. Come on let's get you out of here."

He stood up and helped her climb out of the tub. He wrapped her in a towel and pulled her into him. She sobbed on his chest clutching him back tightly.

Aaron held her until she pulled back. "I'm cold." She said.

"Why don't you get dressed then come downstairs. I almost have lunch ready and I'll make you some hot tea to help warm you up."

"That sounds good. Is Spencer still here?"

"No he had to get back to the BAU. I offered him lunch for cleaning up the kitchen but he hurried out."

"Oh."

Aaron gave her a light brush across her cheek then stepped out while she got dressed.

Chrisy pulled out her warm sweats and quickly put them on hoping her teeth would stop chattering. She sat down on the bed feeling weak. So much was going through her mind remembering the rape. It made her sick to her stomach visualizing all of the things Trent had done to her. No matter how much Aaron insisted he loved her Chrisy couldn't imagine him ever wanting her again.

Closing her eyes Chrisy slid her hand over her stomach. It was hard for her to believe she was pregnant. She didn't experience any symptoms that would have made her think she could be. Then again she was so worried about her stalker that she easily could have mixed up the symptoms with how her body was reacting to fear and stress.

Everything was so overwhelming at the moment. She needed to feel some levity and the one who seemed to give it to her more than anyone dropped a bomb on her by revealing his feelings to her earlier and then just left. She felt the anger begin to boil up in her thinking about Spencer and confused by the need to go to him and make sure he was alright. Why the hell did he have to let that slip now? She had more than enough to deal with right now and he just added more crap to sort out in her head.

"Lunch is ready." Aaron said softly bringing Chrisy out of her daze. "Are you alright?"

"I just got a little light headed."

"Then let's get a little food in you."

Chrisy stood up slowly and went downstairs with her husband still not sure why he seemed to care so much about her.

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