Moonlit Wishes

Part XXVI

Dear Samantha,

I was using Nicole, I knew the first time I saw her after your reaction to her that she could be useful to me in helping me get you to realize that you did care for me, notice I wasn't foolish enough to believe you could love me. The cynicism you manage to instill in me continues to rub off on me to this very day I'll have you know.

So I thought my British charm and good looks could be put to good use so I flirted with her some, got her around to my way of thinking. She even told me if I hadn't of been in love with you she'd be falling for me herself. I should have stopped it then and there, yet I was determined you would fall for me; eventually even love me the way I loved you.

Hope sprung eternal during those days. I actually thought Nicole could be an ally for me. I didn't want her for a friend; I mean you know how it was for me. Friends never came easily for me, that was until you came into my life and somehow you became the best friend I'd ever had, the only true friend I had found.

I shouldn't have taken your friendship for granted. We were both cut from the same cloth, (I can hear you screaming no we are not I am a Brady, you are a DiMera, the two are like oil and water-but we are one in the same no matter how you try to say we are not) and I truly enjoyed being around you, making you laugh seeing your beautiful eyes light up when you smiled.

I was so caught up in using Nicole to get you for my own that I failed to realize that somehow Nicole was actually falling for my charms even though I had told her I only needed her to help me help you see you belonged with me.

When Nicole called me the evening her dog was sick, I went to her. She really didn't have any friends and I guess she thought I would empathize with her. I do like animals, they treat you better than most humans do and even when the world has turned against you and believe me I know better than most, you dog still loves you.

I felt bad for her, she was crying and I gave her a hug, nothing more than that and I guess when you saw us together you assumed the worst that she was trying to get me into bed with her. You might have been right about that one even though at the time I wasn't interested in her sexually. You have to believe me, all I wanted was a chance to be with you, not her.

You pulled me away from her and before I knew it, you grabbed my jacket by the lapels, pulled me close to you and you kissed me.

The moment I felt your lips touch mine however briefly it was, it was so sweet, to feel your tongue brush gently up against mine. I totally forgot where I was, actually how to breathe, and then you pushed me away, your eyes wide looking at me like you were in shock.

Sweetheart, I was shocked enough for the both of us. You finally kissed me, you made the first move with no motive to use me to get information about the DiMera's which you had been known on occasion to do in the past and all I could do was stand there.

You asked me what had you done and of course I replied that is a rhetorical question isn't it because you had just kissed me. You asked what was wrong with you and Nicole had to add snarkily where did she need to begin, but it was like she wasn't there with us really, we were both shaken by the kiss.

You kissed me, you finally kissed me and before I could say or do anything else you did what you do best.

You ran like hell to get away from me.

EJ

Moonlit Wishes

Part XXVII

Sami looked up to the ceiling, remembering the night she initiated that kiss. She had been so mad at Nicole trying to lure EJ with some stupid sad plight about her dog. Sami hadn't been naïve, she knew how Nicole worked, but EJ hadn't or at least she thought he hadn't at the time.

He was right it had shocked her, there she had went and done the one thing she had tried so hard not to do, kiss EJ because the man knew how to give a kiss.

That among other things, but she wasn't going to go there, she couldn't or she'd be wanting things from him that wouldn't be good for either of them in the long run, it never had been for them in the first place.

What had he expected? It had shocked her to kiss him, there had been no way she was going to stand there and be humiliated by Nicole. The nerve of that woman to even offer EJ antibacterial mouth spray from her sparse cleavage no less had been enough to get her to leave, if she had of been smart she wouldn't have ran into the pub, she would of went somewhere else instead.

Her grandmother hadn't been much help either offering up no sage words of wisdom Sami had hoped she could give her to stay away from EJ, so she had put a call into the prison. Lucas didn't want to see or talk to her and she had needed to see him because that would give her courage to stay away from EJ. She had used Lucas as an excuse to keep her distance from EJ, even wearing that stupid necklace around her neck which had been utterly ridiculous, kind of like wearing someone's high school class ring when you'd been out of school for years. She had gone about things in a child like manner, thinking if she kept talking about Lucas, wearing his rings around her neck that EJ would see she loved Lucas, not him.

One kiss had ruined it all and it had only fueled Nicole on to get EJ for her own.

It had been obvious when Sami had tried to follow EJ to the gym the next day; she tried to play it cool. She didn't want EJ to think she couldn't get him off her mind. Nicole had come and drug him away with her to the steam room, Sami wasn't a fool, and she knew what Nicole was trying to do. She had almost stormed into the steam room, and then at last her good sense had kicked in, she wasn't going to give Nicole more ammunition against her so she'd left before causing a scene.

She hadn't meant to stay up waiting for EJ, she should have went on the bed, but when he had come into the room one thing had led to another and somehow they had managed to have one of the most honest talks they had ever shared with one another.

She wondered if EJ ever thought about that night anymore. The night they had declared the slate was wiped clean between them both.

Moonlit Wishes

Part XXVIII

Sami opened up the next letter and smiled wryly, of course they were on the same wavelength thinking wise, it was uncanny how they could sometimes be on the same page with one another and other times as far apart as two people could possibly be.

Dear Samantha,

I wonder what would have happened if we had never spoken of the night Johnny was conceived. I hadn't been expecting anything of the kind to take place between us, but I guess after that kiss in front of the pub it was bound to happen sometime or another. We were either going to talk about it or just act like it never happened like we seemed to do about so many things.

I want you to know that night was a turning point for me; it proved we could actually have an honest to god conversation without you running away from me and what you felt which was a miracle in itself. I was more truthful with you that night than I had ever been with anyone in my entire life before and since. That honesty thing had never been my strong suit, but somehow you could manage to get me to admit things I never would have under normal circumstances. Who knows writing these letters to you has brought out more honesty in me than I ever thought possible?

Honesty was never your strong suit either though so I don't feel too badly that many times I haven't told you the truth or the entire truth about things. Sometimes our versions of the truth seem to differ greatly from what others see of us or even what we ourselves see.

I would have had to been an idiot to not realize you were pissed at me when I arrived home, you immediately notified me I had missed putting the twins to bed, but you were sure I'd had plenty of fun with Nicole in the steam room and then you snarkily added that you guessed my priorities were pretty good.

The best offense is a good defense so I told you how lovely it was to see you which you could of cared less about instead steering the conversation directly back to asking how was Nicole like you even cared how she was, only wanted to rub it in that I had been with her at the gym which I knew didn't please you one iota.

I never was one to back down from a challenge and it was impossible for me not to goad you on, telling you she was wonderful, amazing all the while stating emphatically nothing happened.

You crossed those arms in front of you, giving me the evil eye you have perfected so well especially whenever I am concerned along with a sarcastic reply of right, only your tone of voice let me know instantly that was not what you thought at all.

You know it is difficult when you say one thing and mean something completely the opposite, woman code is extremely hard to decipher young lady, and Samantha Brady woman code is about a hundred times harder to figure out. Really I should have gotten some kind of award for being able to crack the code the few times I did with you.

I told you it was the truth nothing happened with Nicole and then you let me have it going as far as the question my forthrightness with you because I always told the truth.

Well we both know that was a mocking jab over my honesty skills if there ever was one, but seriously Samantha you and the truth were hardly ever friends. I had nothing to gain by lying to you about Nicole and told you as much which only prompted you to say that I'd probably get a communicable disease which thankfully that wasn't the case at all as much as you might have wanted it to be because you really like to wish bad things to befall me for some odd reason.

I wasn't going to win with you so I told you I'd go for a shower, but we could finish this conversation later and I was already to leave the room when your next question stopped me in my tracks.

You wanted me to explain what I was trying to do by getting Lucas out of prison.

And that started it all, the night that I'll never forget.

Will you ever forget that night? Have you forgotten it?

EJ