Wow. That is all I can really say you guys are just… amazing. So so amazing the reviews just kept coming in thank you all so much you guys really put a smile on my face every time I read your comments. Well I'm back I figured I really need to get a move on it with updating before one of you finds out where I live and comes after me so here I am you're welcome. Now this story is very… fragile? I don't know what more I should put in it without breaking it and turning it into shit. I know where I want the story to go it's the little details I have trouble with so if there is something small you want to happen in this story let me know because if not I'm just gonna continue to think of little random things as I sit here and type. Ok on with chapter…. What chapter is this?

(For God sakes you know who the hell it is!)

The last time I ever felt like I was a kid about to get grounded for doing something I know I had no business doing was when I was 17, five months before my mother died.I remember it clearly I was on the couch watching TV when my mother and father stormed into the living room, dark and haunted expressions grazed their faces. I was about to get it. They didn't need to yell or even tell me what I had done wrong I already knew. I had crashed dad's car into the neighbor's garage and ran over their kid's bike after backing up. I was a little drunk from the party I went to and at night the neighbors drive way looks a lot like… well ours. Long story short I was grounded for three months and I ended up working off the damages to their garage and buying the kid a new bike.

Now you may be wondering why in the hell I'm telling you this. Well stupid reader I want you to understand that it has been a long time since I have been in trouble and seated on a couch while people stand above me and rip me to shreds. So imagine my discomfort and embarrassment as Max and I sat on the couch with Iggy and Nudge dancing above us laughing, cheering and singing about how we finally had sex. Which we did not! It was foreplay, really really good foreplay. Max was bright red and I just sat there banging my head against the back of the couch staring at anything but Max and the two idiots hovering above us.

"EEEEEEEEEEEPPPPPPPPP I'm so happy you guys finally did it! I thought Fang was gonna take years to finally crack! OMG Max we have to have a sleep over at my place so you can tell me all about it! OMG pillow talk! EEEEPPPP-"

"Dude look at you finally growing some balls I'm proud of you my little boy he- he's growing up becoming a man!" Iggy sobbed attacking me in a hug.

That's when I lost it.

"Get the hell off of me Igit!" I pushed Iggy to the ground before standing up whipping all of his weird gayness off of me. It's sticky. (A/N: No offence to anyone that is gay I'm just writing what I feel Fang would say!)

"We did not have sex ok? We… well you don't need to know but we didn't have sex!" I looked back to see Max biting her lip and playing with the hem of my shirt that she was wearing, looking at her lap.

"Poo," Nudge said frowning clearly disappointed.

Iggy picked himself up glaring at me halfheartedly, "Never mind my son is still a pussy,"

I glared at him ready to punch his lights out and show him who the real pussy is. Just then my phone rang giving me a much needed excuse to leave. Sorry Max. I went back to my room closing the door behind me as I answered my whining phone seated on my bedside table. It was Ella.

"Hello?"

"Fang!" Came Angel's panicked little voice.

"Angel what's wrong? Why do you have Ella's phone?"

"Me and Gazzy can't find Ella! We went to the park and she sat on the bench waiting for her friends while me and Gazzy played tag and when I went to get her because me and Gazzy wanted ice cream she was gone but her phone was still on the bench! Fang we looked everywhere!"

I quickly pulled on a pair of jeans and sneakers grabbing my keys as I calmed Angel down. "Ok don't worry sweetie I'm coming now she's probably with her friends, just stay where you are and stay on the phone ok stop crying she's alright."

"O-ok," She sniffled; I could hear Gazzy in the background trying to comfort her he's a great kid.

I left my room heading to the door of the apartment completely forgetting about the other people in it.

"Fang don't leave we're sorry we were just joking around don't-"

"Ella's missing," I cut off Nudge's long winded apology.

Max got up running into my room for some reason; Nudge did the same heading to Iggy's room.

"What happened?" Iggy asked in a calm voice trying not to freak out, he thought of Ella as a little sister so I know inside he was screaming.

"Angel says one minute she was there next minute she was gone so I'm going to the park to find her and get Angel and Gazzy."

"Well we're all coming," Max said coming out dressed in her clothes from the previous day.

"Max-"

"You're not going by yourself my brother is at the park too and I'm going to help you find Ella." Her stance was unmoving matching the determination in her eyes letting me know that I was not going to win this one. She looked so much different from the girl I had crying and begging for me earlier.

Nudge came out not a second later dressed in her clothes, the same determination in her eyes. I sighed opening the door as everyone followed me out; Iggy grabbed his keys along the way.

We broke into teams Max and me in my car, Nudge and Iggy in his. I started it up and flew out of the apartment complex heading to 6th and Gladys Park the closest park near us. I put the phone on speaker placing it on the dash board.

"Angel sweetie you there?"

"Yes," Her little voice responded still scared.

"Sweetie I'm coming now ok I'm around the corner are you and Gazzy still together?"

"Yes he's right here,"

"Ok where are you?" I parked in one of the few empty spaces before picking up the phone and calmly getting out the car.

"Um we're by the swings,"

The others followed me into the crowed park heading to the swings; Max held my hand squeezing it to calm me down which I greatly appreciated.

I finally spotted my baby and Gazzy sitting on a bench near the swings. I took off running knocking small children and parents over not even stopping to say sorry.

"Fang!" Angel yelled running into my arms when she saw me.

"Hey sweetie everything's gonna be ok I promise I'm here." I whispered in her ear as she cried in my shoulder her small body shaking with her tears. Max, Nudge and Iggy finally caught up to me, Gazzy running to Max.

"We looked everywhere Fang we ca-can't find her!"

"Shhhh I'm gonna find her don't worry she's ok let me see her phone."

Angel handed me Ella's phone as I put her down and I looked through Ella's most recent texts to some kid named Kyle.

K: Hey

E: Hey what's up?

K: Heading to the park in a few wanted to know if you could sneak past security

E: Lol no way Fang would so catch me he sees everything. Don't worry I'll come up with something see you in about 20?

K: Cool

E: I'm here

K: Cool where?

E: On the bench by the swings sadly my little sister and her friend are with me that was the only way Fang was gonna let me go

K: Ditch em

E: What I can't just ditch them they're like 6!

K: The park is full of parents if something happens to them they'll handle it don't worry

E: I don't know Fang will kill me if he finds out I left them alone…

K: Hey they aren't your responsibility he's the adult. Just wait there and I'll come and get you so we can go somewhere quiet ;)

E: Ugh you're lucky you're cute

I'm gonna break her fucking neck! I looked down at Angel who looks up at me with big worried eyes.

"Don't worry Ang. Ella's fine… for now." I growl marching away from the group.

"Fang what's going on?" Max asked jogging up to me.

I just handed her Ella's phone and she read through the messages before standing in front of me stopping my strides.

"Fang don't she's a teenager don't be too hard on her."

"She left them to do gods know what with some boy! They were in her care Angel was so scared she was crying! She's in for it now." I walked around her heading into the wood near the park everyone following cautiously behind me.

Anyone who has ever been to this park as a kid or teen knows that if you want some privacy you go into the woods. And if other people are there you simply go farther in because the woods is big enough that you can have your own spot and not disturb anyone else. I silently made my way through maneuvering past all the roots that stick out of the ground and branches that hit unaware people in the face… like Iggy.

"OW dammit!"

I walked towards the far edge of the woods until I saw Ella's bright red shirt pushed up against a tree as some pot head skater looking boy made out with her. I snuck up behind them and then ripped him off of her throwing him to the ground.

"Fang what the hell?!" Ella screamed running over to him but I grabbed her arm pulling her back over to the tree.

She flinched under my glare, "I could ask you the same thing."

"Hey man back off she didn't do anything wrong."

I turned my glare to the boy he took a few steps back bumping into Iggy who towered over him with his arms crossed over his chest. The kid quickly moved away from turning back to Ella she gave him an apologetic look before the boy ran off.

"You left them to be with the Rob Dyrdek wannabe?" My voice was deadly calm but Ella knew that was when I was my scariest.

Ella glared pushing me back away from her. "His name is Kyle and yes I did because I like him and he likes me!"

"That kid only wants one thing from you Ella and you know it! Come on your smarter than this!"

"He does not just want me for that he respects me unlike you!"

"Respects you?! He had you pushed up against a fucking tree shoving his filthy tongue down your throat and dry humping you!"

"He was not we were just kissing! Stop acting like you don't do this I bet you've done more with Max!"

"I'm an adult you're only 16 you have your whole life to wait until the right person to come along, someone who actually does respect you because it ain't him!"

"He does respect me I love him!"

"A person the really respects you won't make you ditch your family so he can get a quick feel!"

"Oh you mean like what you and Max did when we went to the beach!"

"At least when I left I made sure you had Nudge and Iggy to look after you! You left Angel and Gazzy by themselves!"

"They aren't my responsibility!"

"Oh how amazing it must feel to say that, I wish I could have said that years ago but here we are! You know why because I was all you had!"

"No one asked you to take care of us! You aren't dad and you defiantly aren't mom all you are is my whiny, lying, overbearing, annoying big brother who ruins my life! I'm sorry you decided to take care of us and it ruined everything you ever worked for but that isn't my fault! I don't want the life that you had or were going to have I want to be me stop trying to live through me!"

Everyone gasped at Ella's harsh words I think she even surprised herself by the way she looked down suddenly very interested in her shoes. I felt my face turn into stone blocking all emotions; she doesn't need to know how much that hurt. She's right I push her to get the best grades and lock her up in her room to study. I'm forcing her to go to college and get a nice job and I guess I don't really care if she likes and enjoys it I just want her to do everything I didn't do. But better than I would have done. I do live through her because I have no life and the small one I do have sucks but I most certainly do not regret becoming their legal guardian.

"I made that decision because it was for the best and I love you girls that was not a mistake and I don't regret it." I looked directly at her willing her to look at me but she didn't too scared of what my face might say, her watery eyes filling up. I walked away not wanting to deal with anymore of this family drama.

"Fang," I felt Max tug on my arm pulling me to look at her she looked concern as she placed a hand on my face.

"You should go," I whispered.

"Go where?"

"Anywhere just far away from me, you don't want this I'm a train wreck."

"Shh Fang everyone has their problems,"

"Are they so bad that their younger sisters want to leave them to save themselves?"

Max smiled sadly, "Sometimes worst,"

I removed her hand from my face stepping away from her, "If you won't run away from me then I'll do it for you." With that I dashed out of the woods Max calling after me. I ran out of the park and to my car starting it up and zooming down the streets leaving all of my pain and troubles behind me.

The sun setting over the trees and water was absolutely breathe taking I thought as I took another sip from my bottle of whisky. It's times like this when I really feel like my father, he use to drink his problems away but his liver was as healthy as a horse. After I left the park I went to the liquor store bought a bottle or 5 and headed to the beach then made way to the top of the water fall I had shown Max. I probably shouldn't be drinking up here this close to the waterfall but I don't care whisky makes you not care. My phone had been blowing up with calls and text messages from the others but I didn't answer anyone I don't feel like talking just sitting here and contemplating if I should jump or not.

I mean I would be so much happier if I jumped. I never got why my father killed himself until now. Because it's easy and freeing to just die and it not be a dream. There is no waking up to the chaos and suffering of your life. Your job is done you can do anything you want, you're free. I fingered the little silver bullet with the words fly on engraved on it hanging from my keys. This was the bullet my father put through his heart.

"I understand dad, I forgive you," I whispered to the sky as the sun performed its grand finally making way for the moon.

I awoke the day to the burning sun cooking my skin to a nice golden crisp. I sat up pushing my many whisky bottles away as I stood tripping over my own feet and stumbling. Once I got my footing and balance under control I pulled out my phone looking at the time.

"Shit," Clumsily running for my car at 10:47am I have a meeting with Ari and the owner and founders of Itex (A/N: I just decided to name the company that I don't know why) in an hour. I finally got to my car and raced to the apartment complex. I sprinted up the stairs damn near ripping the door off its hinges as I unlocked it. When I enter I saw Ella and Angel sitting on the couch with a bowl of cereal watching Sam and Cat while Iggy was in the kitchen washing dishes. They all looked up when I stumbled inside smelling like a trash can outside of a bar.

"Fang are you ok?" Angel asked innocently looking concerned.

"You didn't come home last night we were worried," Ella said looking guilty and upset.

"Um… no I'm fine I just needed to clear my head I'm sorry." I muttered quickly walking to my room. At the moment I couldn't even look at them, I'm a disgrace I ran off to get drunk last night that's not what good responsible parents do! But I'm not their parent, I'm there big brother I make mistakes and do dumb stupid shit because I'm basically a kid. I'm a failure.

A knock came and I ignored it already knowing who it is and that he'll come in anyway. Sure enough my door opened and in came Iggy.

"Dude you wreak,"

"I know so if you'll excuse me I'm about to take a shower, I've got a meeting."

Iggy closed the door behind him as he stepped in the room. "Don't you ever pull the shit you pulled last night again." He all but growled.

"You left those girls out there, your sisters, your girls, and your entire world without a second glance."

"Iggy-"

"Shut the fuck up I'm talking!"

Iggy has never ever raised his voice before and has never looked so threatening, I miss drunken uncle Iggy.

"I have never seen those girls look so distraught and lost for as long as I have known them. Ella didn't stop crying all night even in her sleep she was crying, Angel couldn't even sleep because you weren't here to tuck her in. I did it but she said it wasn't the same. That she need you to do it, you weren't here! Max left with Gazzy and won't answer her phone Nudge went over there to make sure she was ok and not breaking someone's face. I was left by myself to deal with a bunch of crazy females; you don't even know how much we all need you around here Fang. So if you ever in this lifetime or the next pull this shit again I'll cut off your balls… because apparently Dr. Gunter-Hagen doesn't need to you're fine, an asshole but fine." Iggy threw a piece of paper at me and I caught it reading it over.

I was clean.

"Congratu-fucking-lations, dickhead." Iggy muttered storming out of my room and slamming my door shut after him.

Shit now I've got new problems, how the hell do I get everyone to forgive me?

Damn the struggle is so real.

Alright so this was a much more serious chapter but it was necessary I'm working on the next chapter so we'll see what happens but only if you R&R!