Wow it has been a minute since I've written! I'm sorry sometimes I completely forget I have a Fan Fiction account let alone stories. Well I have returned my children to bring you another chapter of this crazy story in progress you're welcome!

(We are not going through this today!)

I didn't have time to dwell on Iggy's words and figure out how I'm gonna make it up to everyone. I'll have to do that some other time right now if I don't get a move on I'm gonna be late to my meeting! And the last thing I need right now is to get fired. I quickly stripped off my clothes and jumped in the shower, spending maybe 3 minutes in there before I jumped out to quickly shave and brush my teeth. I left my bathroom in a hurry pulling on some black jeans, a grey button up shirt, red Jordan's, and my black leather jacket. My hair was still really wet so I slid on a dark purple beanie in an attempt to pull off the 'What? No of course I didn't get wasted last night and wallow in self pity, completely forgetting I'm a 'dad' and that I have a meeting in the morning' look.

Hopefully it'll work.

I grabbed my keys and wallet before exiting my room and heading to the door. Then I turned back around jogging to the couch and kissed my girls on the head.

"I'm sorry," I whispered to them before quickly leaving and running down the stairs skipping as many as humanly possible.

I got in my car and floored it driving to Itex.

"Hey Fang you got here just in time Ari and the directors just arrived," Jenny the secretary smiled as I entered the tacky pimped out looking lobby.

"Great thanks Jenny I owe you," I ran for the gold elevators barely making it before they closed.

Other porn stars were already in there but quickly made room for me. I'm sort of a big deal around here but I don't brag (duh I don't even want this damn job) and I'm kinda anti social anyone that attempts to talk to me I usually just stare at them until they get uncomfortable and leave. Yeah I'm such a nice person.

It felt like an eternity as I watched the doors open for every Goddamn floor apparently people are needed everywhere in this building. I didn't need to press the button to the floor I was headed to because someone had already pushed it. Which is weird because the 20th floor is only used for meetings and to my knowledge I was the only one heading up there, I really don't need some oiled up porn star in my meeting, today is just not the day.

Finally it was just me and a waitress in the elevator… both heading to the 20th floor. I looked over at her, she was hot but it really amazes me what they make the staff here wear I mean poor Jenny looked like she was about to be bent over her desk by her boss any minute now. This girl basically looks like a waitress at a gentlemen's club which is a nice way to say strip club. The little silver tray she was balancing had coffee and donuts on it. Oh good I'm starving.

Finally the doors opened, I being the gentleman my mother raised me to be let the lady go first. Well that and also because I wasn't sure what room the meeting was going to be held in. Hey don't look at me like that my mother didn't raise an idiot! She stopped in front of the bright red double doors opening one. I slid in behind her before closing it after me.

"No and then I said 'Why pay for something that I can get for free', you know what I'm saying I mean she was hot but come on I own a porn company!"

I turned a corner to see Ari seated at a large black table with two other men both in very expensive suits. I suddenly felt under dressed. But Ari wasn't much better with his khaki shorts, yellow shirt and flip flops.

"Ah there he is! Fang my man come on in; I'd like you to meet Mr. Chu and John." Ari introduced as I shook hands with both of them.

"Very nice too meet you both," I said sitting down.

"It is quite an honor to meet you Fang we only hear great things." I didn't like the way Mr. Chu looked at me it made me feel like I was some type of prized rare animal.

"Yes, great things. We were told you are up for an award am I correct?"

I nodded, "Yes sir I am nominated for the male porn star of the year."

"That is a high and prestige honor Fang,"

Really? Because I kinda feel like I was nominated for most likely to die alone and die from some sort of flesh eating disease. You know like those weird nominations in high school.

"Yes sir I'm honored," Bullshit!

"Well Fang," Began Mr. Chu, I was beginning to think that he ran things around here because John doesn't speak much and Ari was looking at him like he just witnessed the birth of Jesus Christ.

"We brought you in here today because we want you to be our spokes man at the annual porn convention."

I paused mid bite of my chocolate donut I picked up, "Excuse me?"

"Fang," I looked over at John.

"You being the 'Dark Knight' and all, are very popular and famous in the porn community. Last year's convention wasn't as packed as we had hoped. Did you attend?"

Is this a trick question?

"Um, no I wasn't invited," I miss those days.

"Well this year you're our guy you have brought a… new life to Itex!" Mr. Chu looked ready to jump on the table and kiss me. I'm so serious this is guy is really freaking me out.

"More people have started buy our movies and we've even started appealing to more women. It's a new generation for porn Fang and it's all because of you."

I blinked… so… am I getting a raise?

"Um… thanks,"

"Fang we need you as our 'How to Guy,'" Ari said looking extremely serious.

I damn near spit out my coffee! But this coffee is really good and I don't want to mess up my shirt.

"You mean the guy that demonstrates the entire new toy collections on women during the convention?" The poor sucker that gets stuck with that one ends up on all porn magazines, interviews and everything. That guy has to talk the entire convention, he has to smile and take pictures with people and sign autographs. Basically that guy is a douche bag.

"Oh um, wow guys I don't think-"

"Fang you are perfect for this it's a great opportunity! You can become the next John Holmes!" (A/N: He's was a really famous male porn star in the 80's but got in some trouble, watch the movie Wonderland it's actually really good!)

Oh wow thank you for that boost to my already fucked up ego. Really. Appreciate it.

"Um…."

"Fang please you have to do this," Ari pleaded.

Well if it means that much to you…

"No absolutely not,"

"Fang this is your calling!"

Wow again thank you for your kind words of encouragement. It means so much to me that you think this is all I'm good for.

"No it isn't I didn't even want to be a porn star!"

"Well it was your destiny to become one your terrific at it!"

I could have knocked John's bitch ass right out of that chair.

"No at the time I had no choice I couldn't find a good enough job to take care of me and my girls!"

"Well why do you still do it Fang you could have quit a long time ago?" Mr. Chu folder his hands in that way overly cocky business people do.

"Yeah quit in this economy? Then I'd right where I started."

"Fang if you do this convention you'll never have to work another day in your life."

Wait what?

"Do you even know how much you're worth? How much money we bring in because of you? Once you do this convention you can retire before you hit 30. Put your girls through college and still have plenty left over. " Mr. Chu smile was easily nice. Almost sickly nice. It was the kind of smile you give to people when you know something they don't.

How I wish I had followed my guts instinct. How I wish I would have paid attention to those warning signals in the back of my head. But all I could think about at that time was the money. Money I needed money I didn't have. Money that would solve all my problems. I could be with my girls more and be a better father figure, I could live life instead of just… exist.

So I sold my soul to the devil, "Ok I'll do it but after this I quit."

Mr. Chu smiled leaning over the table his hand extended. "We have a deal,"

And I shook hands with the devil.

After my strange and uncomfortable meeting I drove to Max's house with the biggest carton of cookie dough ice cream I could find. And before you ask yes the ice cream is an 'I'm sorry' gift. Max isn't really a flower and teddy bear type of girl. I parked my car and quickly found my balls to give me the courage to walk up to that door and knock.

Gazzy answered, "Hey buddy what's up is your sister home?"

He took a bite of his candy bar before answering, "Yeah but she said if you ask, to tell you no."

Before I got to reply Val appeared behind Gazzy, "Oh Fang so nice to see you again come on in." she said with a smile stepping aside to let me in.

"Thank you it's nice to see to too Val although I wish on better terms,"

She closed the door behind me and began walking to the kitchen; I followed still trying to get my balls to give me enough strength to go up to Max's room.

"Oh yes she told me about the little fight you all had, Gazzy enough sweets you'll spoil your appetite for dinner."

Gazzy dropped the candy bar on the counter then headed to the living room where I could hear the faint sounds of a Transformer movie playing.

"She did huh?" I sat down in one of the chairs at the kitchen table as Val flittered around the kitchen making dinner which appeared to be steak and potatoes.

"Yeah, well actually she more like yelled a bunch of things as she slammed the front door close then stomped up the stairs then slammed her door. I gathered the gist of her tantrum though."

Val smiled as she placed a small shot glass down in front of me then one for herself as she sat across from me before pouring a little rum into our glasses.

"Whoa Val um-"

"Oh relax I'm not an idiot I know you drink, and plus if you're planning on apologizing to my daughter you're gonna need something to take the edge off." Val never broke eye contact as she knocked her shot back.

I smirked, "You are the coolest mom ever," I picked up mine and knocked it back just as easily.

She poured us another round, "So I've been told. So do you wanna talk about it?"

"Talk about what?"

"The whole ordeal that transpired yesterday,"

We took our shots, I rubbed my chest a little cause that one kind of hurt.

"I don't know I mean I guess I do try to put Angel on Ella a lot and I make a lot of mistakes,"

Val filled our glasses again," Fang there is no book on parenting; sure they try to sell you some overpriced bullshit but in the end parenting comes with time. You learn what works best for you and what works best for your kids."

I downed my shot, Val following. "Yeah but I feel like I'll never get it right,"

"And you probably won't, there is no right way of parenting. And kids do what they want anyway, you can try to teach them right from wrong but ultimately it's up to them and all you can do is hope and pray."

"Amen to that," We clanked our glasses together before knocking them back.

"Fang I'm gonna tell you what my mother told me, kids are mean ungrateful brats. They eat your food, spend money and break your heart without so much a thank you. But as long as a child knows they are loved and cared for they will forgive you for any mistakes you make while raising them."

I smiled Val is amazing I can see why Max and Gazzy love her so much.

"That's actually really good advise Val,"

She smiled getting up and collecting our glasses and the rum bottle. "Well here's one more piece of advice, when you go to apologize to Max let her vent, let her scream and let her hit you. Then once she's calmed down somewhat give her the ice cream wait until she's devoured half of the carton then apologize. Oh and here," Val placed a spoon and thick balled up roll of tube socks in front of me.

I got up picking up the socks, "What are theses for?"

Val smiled going back over to the oven and opening it up pulling out a pan. "Max as got a mean left foot and um… she likes to aim below the belt if you know what I mean."

My eyes widen in horror shit I'm so in for it. The struggle is real man.