Ah, I'm such a fucker.
XV
"Someday, Oikawa, you will be able to comprehend that there are things worth a thousand times more than your whims. And maybe, when that day arrives, you will stop hurting innocent people with your foolish schemes!"
But Iwaizumi was wrong, he's certain of it.
Because he never thought him able to protect a secret with his life. He never considered him able to look beyond himself, to notice this boy's determination not to be discovered ―because there was something more important than his own existence to protect.
Far from being offended, the first time Oikawa Tooru laid eyes on his future wife ―the clear image of a boy dressed as a woman that apparently only he was able to discern, curiosity triumphed over pride.
However, this perception soon fade and in its it place came gratitude ―gratitude for having him in his life in any possible way.
And yet, in the end, just as Iwaizumi had foreseen, his whims have subdued his patience and kindness.
He must hate me now.
He has done something awful, atrocious even, and instantly comes to the realization that he must fix it by any means.
Oikawa slides his chamber's door open, ready to go wherever he needs to, wherever he is.
But then he stumbles upon the royal advisor, who falls to his knees at his sight.
"His Majesty", he squeals, and Oikawa doesn't listen to any of what he has to say.
He understands it right away.
He's the emperor, and his obligations come before his own wishes.
こんなちいさな星座なのに ココにいたこと 気付いてくれて ありがとう
That night, Shouyou huddles inside the stable. Oikawa's is wider than the one which belonged to his father, and he has taken a liking to all the horses that inhabit it. This time, however, the smell of soil and alfalfa provides no relief.
Because it pains him how different it is from sleeping by Oikawa's side.
He has lied to him. He has deceived him. And while he does not regret it, while he knows that Natsu and Koushi are living happily somewhere thanks to all this, Shouyou feels as if he has let someone else down.
Oikawa hasn't laid a sole finger on him in all this time, and Shouyou wishes he had tried.
If that were the case, he would have at least a reason to hate him.
Nevertheless, apart from tonight, Oikawa hasn't made the slightest attempt to humiliate nor mistreat him.
He has indeed ended up doing exactly that, but has made clear the reason why.
Because I lied to him.
Stubbornly, Shouyou doesn't shed a single tear all night long in spite of barely managing to conciliate some sleep as a result of the extreme exhaustion.
He is a man, after all.
The next morning, Oikawa is nowhere to be seen.
He has some urgent matters to attend to and has departed to Tokyo early in the morning.
Plz don't hate me.
-Pequeña.