The platform was empty, not a soul to be seen. Our train was to arrive within the next ten minutes. Silence. Not a single word between Kou or myself. The silence is causing my anxiety to act up, my heart felt as if it were to beat out of my chest. Hands in pockets, hands out of pockets, unbutton coat, button up coat, all while staring at the ground and glancing at Kou every now and then. It was as if he was waiting for me to talk to him.

"K...Kou?"

"Mm?"

"H-How was school today...?"

"Eh? Fine? I guess...You seem a little off Yoshioka..something on your mind?"

"Lov-"

I caught myself from saying that forbidden word.

"Lovely weather it is?..." -_-

"Uh. Yes It has been the whole day."

I was losing him! He was starting to deviate away. No. I must not allow myself to get worked up over what his attention span focuses on. He turned to look down the track, the back of his neck turned to me. I could not help but stare at the nape of his neck. The sun was reflecting light off his hair, and was keeping me drawn. Then, he turned around and caught me staring. I felt my cheeks warm up and I turned to the other rail entrance to the station where the sun shown through. It was too quick! I wanted a moment more!

"Yoshioka? You are not as you normally are today. Something is up."

"Huh?! Nothing is up! Why do you think something is wrong?"

"You are not Futaba today...," he whispered.

Did-Did he just call me by my given name? I'm always "Yoshioka-san" to him...This, this is a first...and I liked it.

"Kou? Did you call me by my given name?"

"Huh? Ah, no. I said Yoshioka."

"Oh."

I knew what I heard.

There was a slight rattle as the train pulled into the station. Eventually the metal snake slowed to a halt before us and the doors opened. Two minutes. This train would be at rest here for two minutes then it would take off again.

Kou and I waited until all departing passengers cleared the doorways. One more minute. He stepped on board. It was now or never, I needed to know, I needed to be reassured. I didn't want to give up to Yuuri...

"Kou?"

"Yes?"

"I-I forgot something at school. Sorry."

"You forgot something? Seriously?"

"Yeah, I have to go back to get it..."

"Oh..."

The departure announcement played over the train's announcement system. Followed by a slow release of air from a compressor. The doors were about to close.

If he doesn't get off, I'll give up. If he does, I won't. I thought to my self.

The doors began to close, slowly.

"I don't know Yoshioka...I don't know if I can make that walk to and fro again."

If he doesn't get off, I'll give up. if he does, I won't. My rate of breath increased, and my heart was pounding away.

PLEASE GET OFF!

I closed my eyes as the doors to the steel snake closed and the consist began to accelerate, faster, faster, and faster. A final strong gust blew my hair around. I opened my eyes. The train was gone, rounding the bend near the staion's exit portal. The train was gone, and so was Kou.

I dropped my school bag and collapsed to the platform floor. My heart dropped and tears filled my eyes. I was overreacting, but I couldn't help it.

I wanted him to get off...but he stayed aboard...