Hey guys. I really feel like I need to be more descriptive. Yep. I'll try harder. Sorry if some parts were too unclear.
Karkat leaned on the door and cursed to himself as he tilted his head to some degree. He really wanted to just barge in Sollux's room and give him a good lecturing, but seeing that the other was truly agitated, he decided not to. It would surely lead to more exchange of rude statements or worse, it could lead to the end of their 'friendship'. He even called him Karkat instead of Kk. But dammit... He's just a friend... a friend who cares.
Soft footsteps were produced from below. It alerted Karkat which made him hurriedly wipe his tears away and go down for a glimpse of who was there. Peeking from the corners of the wall, he saw Tavros walking through the living room, trying to maintain silence.
"Hey." Karkat called as he stood by the stairs, running his fingers along his hair.
Startled a little, Tavros raised his brow in response. "What's up?"
"Can I..." He glanced down and rubbed his neck. "... Sleep in your room?"
The other man straightened his body and snagged his shoulders. "Uhh... Yeah. Sure." He shifted his body away from Karkat but then turned to him again and rubbed his chin as he pointed his lips before asking. "Did you two fight again?"
He exhaled heavily and shut his eyes for a few seconds. "Tavros, I..." Then opened it again and crinkled his brows. "Oh god. I don't know..." Karkat brushed his hands through his face and sat down on the floor.
"Geez. What am I gonna do with you two?" Tavros stroked his forehead gently while his other hand landed on his waist. "Did you say sorry?" He asked. But then he snapped his fingers after realising something. "Oh yeah. You two never apologised to each other personally." Now pointing his index finger to himself. "You always used me. That's why you two never learned how to value your relationship. Wait, maybe it was also my fault because I always agree to what you guys want. But then, you should learn the importance of 'apologising personally'! What if I died then you got into another quarrel with him? How would you solve it? Would you stay mad at each other until one's pride-"
"It was his fault! He's such an idiot. He's lost his senses! He's the one who needs to say sorry, not me!" Karkat raised his voice.
"You see, that's the problem, you keep too much pride. If you really value your relationship then-"
"THERE IS NO FUCKING RELATIONSHIP, TAVROS." He frowned as the colors from his eyes faded. "There never was."
"Then will you PLEASE. STOP. CUTTING. ME. OFF, KARKAT!"
He stopped. It was unusual to see Tavros like that. To see him covered with rage.
"I'm sorry. It's just that... I really want Sollux to realise what he's doing." Karkat entwined his fingers and crooked his lips. He bent his head down but his eyes were still locked on Tavros's.
"Do you hate him? Is that why you think it's his fault? "
"... Yeah." Goddammit. No he doesn't.
"No you don't." His furious expression was replaced by a tender smile. "Karkat, you may dislike him right now, but it's not hatred. You're scared. Scared because you think Sollux hates you. You're not afraid of apologising, you're afraid of the reply he'll give you. You were always like that. But sometimes, you need to be ready or else nothing will happen."
"Then I'm sorry for being so prideful and weak." Without any other words, he stormed to the other room and closed the door gently.
"Well, that wasn't the answer I was expecting..." He scratched his head. "But at least he didn't slam the door."
Tavros sighed and pulled his phone out of his pocket.
adiosToreador began pestering terminallyCapricious [TC]
AT: hI,,, UHHH,, GUESS WE NEED TO TALK,,,
TC: Hi TaVbRo. WhAt'S uP?
AT: cAN i,,, UHHH,,, GO TO YOUR APARTMENT?
TC: ThAt SeEmS tO bE mOtHeRfUcKiNg ImPoRtAnT.
AT: mY TWO ROOMATES,,, THEY QUARRELED AGAIN,,, AND i'M REACHING MY LIMIT,,,
TC: ThAt'S bAd BrO. :o( hOw 'BoUt I vIsIt YoU iNsTeAd?
AT: /sIGH. i GUESS THAT CAN DO,,,
adiosToreador ceased pestering terminallyCapricious [TC]
Tavros sighed and patiently waited for his boyfriend to arrive.
He turned the television on and remembered that it was the first time he's watched some decent show again. He flickered through the channels lazily. Unfortunately, no show could probably entertain him at a situation like this. Damn. He rubbed his temples and stretched his arms.
"Sometimes I think it's better to be with Vriska than with these two." He clicked his tongue and snickered to himself. "Nah. Probably not. What am I saying?"
As he turned the television off, the ticking of the clock crawled on every surface. Faint car noises from outside were heard too.
After a few more minutes, the doorbell rang. Knowing that it was Gamzee, he stood up and opened the door.
"Yo." Tavros raised his hand and bit his lips. His lover planted a small kiss on his cheeks, filling his face with red. "Y..eah.. Come ... Uhh.. In." Shit. Why does he always stutter? It's too cute.
"Nice to see you again, man." Gamzee sat on the couch and patted the space beside him, signaling the other to sit too.
Tavros followed and as soon as he was seated, the taller man pulled him to a warm hug.
"So what's the motherfucking problem this time, babe?" He giggled and gazed down at his lover only to see Tavros frowning. "Man, Tavbro. Don't be like that. You know I hate it when you're not smiling. I want to see the motherfuckin sparkles in your eyes."
Without a reply, the shorter man hugged him back and rested his head on Gamzee's shoulder. "Don't call me babe." He pouted.
"Then tell me the real problem." He rubbed circles along his boyfriend's back, hoping he'd be calmed.
"Look, I'm sick of this. They always fight and they wouldn't even try to talk to each other to they can fix their own problems."
"You're a good friend man. You know that."
"But friends have their limits."
"Just try to understand those two. They're new to this motherfuckin feeling. They don't know what to do yet." He smiled and swayed his body a little, wanting him to be relaxed as possible. "Specially Sollux."
"It's alright. I can talk to both of them... But I've had enough of their vocabulary."
"What do you mean?"
"They're too rude. You're trying to help, they shout at you. And they won't even take your advices. For god's sake." He tightened his grip at Gamzee's shirt and gasped.
The taller man let out a crippled laugh and crumpled his brows. "But my vocabulary's pretty much the same with theirs."
"No, you're different. You're kind and warm and gentle. You don't shout at people. You understand my feelings. You understand everybody's feelings and you always do your best to help them. My god, Gamzee, I am so jealous of you."
"Don't. Be glad I belong to you. Motherfucking miracles man." He smiled softly and broke the hug. "And I'm not kind. I'm not warm. I'm not gentle... I'm none of those, Tavbro."
He raised a brow.
"Nevermind what I said. That's just me being motherfucking weird." Gamzee forced a grin and moved his head closer to his lover, pulling him for a taste of each other's lips.
The door screeched. I went out with my hand holding on the wall for support. I moved down carefully but everything seemed to be useless as I was welcomed with a usual image and stumbled down, inevitably hitting my arm on the floor.
I grunted loudly and threw my head back from the pain.
"Woah, you okay man? You seem to be motherfuckin smashed." I rolled my eyes at the sight of Gamzee.
"You expect me to be alright after seeing two men making out on my couch?" I stood up weakly, ignoring the fact that neither of them even tried to help me. "Get a motherfucking room."
"It's both occupied." He glanced at me and smirked. Oh I see the point, you dickhead.
"Shut the fuck up you clown. It's not funny." I walked slowly to the couch and after reaching it, I sank myself into it and rested my head. "God. It's too hard."
"What is?"
"Whatever reason you're thinking about is right." I closed my eyes and took in heavy breaths. "Both is hard. Being in this situation physically and emotionally."
"Tav, man, can you please let us talk? Just the two us. Sollux and I." He cupped the other man's hand and tilted his head while smiling. "You can go check on the short guy."
"I'll see what I can do." Without another word, Tavros left us alone and went to Karkat.
"Gamzee... I... I'm sorry."
"About what?"
"Your boyfriend. I know it's hard for him to be trapped in our storm."
"You should apologise to him... and to the other guy."
"No way man. I can apologise to Tav, but not to him." I narrowed my eyes.
"Mind tellin this motherfucker why?"
"Damn. Do I really need to?" I gritted my teeth and kept my hands inside my pocket.
"Please motherfucking do." Gamzee gazed at me. I felt his eyes scanning me from head to toe. It was creepy, but I can deal with his shit.
That's what I used to do to Karkat. Scan his body like a perverted old man.
"Fine, You see, I want to say sorry. But then this thought of him not accepting it always comes into my mind. It's scary how you can never bring back your relationship with your bestfriend."
"So you have a motherfucking relationship then? Bro, that's cool." He gave me a smug look which I imidiately ignored because I know it would piss me off more, given the fact that I'm already displeased with the 'relationship' thingy.
"God. No. Relationship as bestfriends. Not like yours with Tavros. "
"Shit man. I knew it."
"Knew what?"
"Remember when we were together?"
"Oh no. Please don't bring that back. That one day relationship was nothing but boredom."
What am I talking about? Well, back then in high school, I had these weird feelings for Gamzee so I told him about it. It's not love. Sometimes, I like him, sometimes he annoys me down to the core. But he took it as 'Whoa. Sollux motherfuckin Captor... Likes me?' So we became together... FOR A DAY. I broke up with him the next day cause it felt like I was playing jokes with myself, also because I realised I want boobs, not dicks. Fuck. And we never told anyone about it. About what happened on that single day.
"That's not the point man. The motherfuckin length of our motherfuckin relationship isn't what I'm trying to emphasize." He reached his hand out and grabbed my arms.
"Then what?" I focused my sight on him.
"What do you feel when you get into some serious shitass mess with Karkat?"
"Annoyed... Sad... I guess." I roughened my gaze. "What is this?"
"Bro, just answer me truthfully. Motherfuckin miracles. Trust me, life has many wonderful surprises."
"Okay I get it." Fucking crazy clown.
But then, I thought to myself, letting go of the feelings inside me can be a good thing. "I'll tell you the 'truth' you wanted... just... please don't tell anyone." Wow. I sounded like a pussy.
"Secret's safe with me."
With that as a reply, I inhaled all that I could and exhaled deeply. "Honestly, I'm disgusted with myself. I blame Sollux Captor everytime Kk's feeling down. But I couldn't stop being this kind of asshole. It just feels so natural to annoy him... However, not to the point where I'm starting to break him." I hugged my knees and bowed my head. Shit. Why am I being so vulnerable in front of this lanky prick? "It hurts me to see him troubled. To see him alone and crying... I actually never saw him cry unless it's because of me... Kk is like a fragile glass in the hands of a careless child. Once the child breaks the glass, both will be damaged... Once I break him, I don't... know..."
Heavy hands landed softly on my back and started rubbing it in a circular pattern. "That's gotta be motherfuckin hard for you."
"No it isn't Gamzee." I clenched my fist the tightest I can and gazed at him with these monstrous eyes of mine... "It isn't just hard..."
"...It's killing me... "
Woaaaaah. Shit. guys, just a little note. For some reasons, I can't put AT (adiosToreador) there. I dunno why. When I put it, it vanishes after saving. O.o
So, again, thank you for reading. Reviews are well appreciated and have a good day! I hope you enjoyed my work even though I have this feeling that I kinda suck. Hahaha.