OK so I don't usually like adding a note at the beginning of a story but for this instance I just want to explain that from now on the story will be switching perspectives. The story will mostly be in the same point of view but for things like this it will be in Albus' point of view. So here we go.

Breakin' down and coming undone

It's a roller coaster kinda rush

And I never knew I could reel that much

And that's the way I loved you

The Way I Loved You – Taylor Swift

The summer had been long and boring. Every waking moment, the same as it had been for close to seven years, were filled with thoughts of her. I needed her back, and I would get her back. This year, I was going to talk to her, and it was as if fate had been on my side. My family thought something was wrong with me when I had found out that she was going to be Head Girl.

I had been warned, forbidden, and forced to be with her any longer. But, if she would take me, I wanted her back. I didn't know how I was going to even talk to her. She hated me, I would hate me, and I do hate me.

I had been looking forward to September 1st with more excitement than I had when I was to be a first year. I lay awake at night seeing her face only to fall asleep to dream of her laugh. In other words, I was head over heels in love with the girl that I had broken it off with.

I first met Alisha Anderson on the train ride first year. She was sitting alone in a compartment and she seemed so alone. I was on my way back from using the restroom. She was sweet and shy, instantly I was drawn to her. For the rest of the night we stayed together. My family found me an hour later, Rose had begun to worry like she always does, and they found us laughing and eating sweets. Rose and Alisha got along in a heartbeat and as a group we rode the boats up to the castle.

Alisha was the second to be called up to be sorted, as she approached the old hat my stomach dropped as I realized that this could be it. It was one hundred percent possible that she could be sorted into a different house than me. When she was declared a Gryffindor I was no longer scared about being in Slytherian. Even though I had known this girl for no longer than a couple of hours, and even though I was only eleven at the time I knew we would be together.

The first four years at Hogwarts together had been the best of my life. Where ever I went you wouldn't see me without Alisha, Rose and Scorpius. We were inseparable, even during holidays. The night before the train ride home for Christmas in our fourth year I kissed Alisha. Already I knew that I loved her. A week later I received a letter from Alisha, there was something wrong. I suspected a problem with her home life, it would explain why she spent so much time at my place, but I didn't think it was that bad. My dad didn't hesitate when I told him something was wrong and he needed to take me to see her.

I was right. We got there and her dad was drunk, as we approached the door we heard screaming then a whimper of pain. My dad kicked the door in and started fighting the scum bag who was supposed to be her father. I ran through the house in a panic, I had only been here a hand full of times but I knew enough to be able to find her room. Alisha was curled up in the corner, tears streaming down her cheek, a sob escaping her lips. I held her in my arms for two hours; it was silent except for the sound of her crying. Finally I grabbed a duffle bag, throwing in a few of the necessities and flooed to my house.

I watched and held her hand as my mom healed the bruises. Her lip was split and still bleeding slightly, bruises ran up and down her arms, her face was still red from what looked like multiple hits. She also had a few crack ribs and the skin under her right eye was a little black. That image of her still haunts me; I shudder just to think of it. After that night, I never left her side. The only time you ever could find us apart was when we were asleep in our dorms. Even the school nurse became used to the fact that if I was in the Hospital Wing due to a Quidditch Injury, or she was in for the flu, they wouldn't rest until the other was lying next to them. His life revolved around making sure she was safe, nothing was more important.

It was for that reason that he had to break up with her, causing her more pain. It hurt him to see the pain in her eyes, but he convinced himself that it was the only way. During summer break of his fifth year Al began receiving threats. They didn't bother him, he had become somewhat unconcerned, and it was a fact of life that there were people in the world that wanted his dad and his entire family dead. As bad as it sounds, threat had become a part of life. But then they started threatening Alisha. They sent him photos of her, they were taken from a distance, but they proved that they had been following her. Al began to worry, he told his Dad and then left it at that. The final straw was when the Muggle Theater that Alisha was at with her Aunt was attacked. Her Aunt was in the hospital for a week and Alisha was to be in a cast for six weeks (only about two after they took her to a wizard healer).

Albus became convinced that the only way to protect Alisha was to break up with her. He had it set in his mind that it was the only way. He can still remember the conversation with his parents.

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(FLASHBACK)

"I think I have to break up with her." Albus said one night during dinner.

"With who, Alisha?" James asked from across the table.

"Yeah," Albus said looking down at his food.

"Why do you think that Al?" Lily questioned, but as he answered he looked at his dad. An almost knowing look was in Harry Potter's eyes as he looked back at his youngest son.

"Al," he began, "It won't do any good to break up with her."

"It will protect her, the letters say that they want us to break up, and if we do then she'll be safe." Harry Potter looked at Albus and shook his head. "I can't have her in any more danger; she's had enough pain for a life time." He continued.

"What good will it do if you break up with her," His mother spoke for the first time. "Potter men seem to think that they know what's best that us, they always over look the fact that we don't care about the danger." His mother spoke with a fire and intensity that he had never heard. She looked at his father the entire time she spoke. "You will hurt her if you break up with her Albus Severus Potter. Just know that whatever you choose, you might regret what you decide and you may never get the chance to make things right, remember that." With that his mother walked out of the room.

The three children looked confusedly between their father and the retreating figure of their mother. "Dad?" James finally asked after a long awkward silence. "What was that about?"

"I left your mom when I was sixteen because I thought it would help protect her if we put distance between us." He rubbed his eyes as if to get a bad image out of his head. "Instead I left her heartbroken, while I set of to defeat Voldemort while hopelessly in love. I spent the whole time I was away from her, worried about how she was and if she was okay." He looked me hard in the eyes when he next spoke, "What I did left a huge mark, and not the kind you can see. Every once in a while something someone say will strike a nerve, and while I love your mother with everything I have, and I know she loves me too. She still hates me for what I did, and quite honestly, I hate myself for it." He stood up and brought his plate into the kitchen and we all stayed silent for the rest of dinner.

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That was the first time I really considered breaking up with her. I didn't though; I couldn't do that to her or myself. Instead I just kept her even closer to me.

Jamie Hedra, Alisha's aunt, came to me during a Hogsmeade weekend. She was panicked and scared. She begged me to break up with her niece. I didn't even have to ask why, by the look in her eyes she too had started to receive threats. She explained how she was willing to take any action to keep her niece safe, because she had failed to in years previous. She said that if I didn't break up with her she would be forced to take Alisha away, bring her to a different school under a different name.

Looking back, I should have just let them move, it probably would have saved me from the pain of seeing her. Sparing me form the hurt and longing etched on Alisha's face every time our eyes meet. But I was selfish; I knew that I couldn't live without knowing that she was okay and alive. So I made a decision, I broke up with Alisha and left her at the train station before Christmas break. I wasn't until I boarded the train that I realized the mistake I had made. I stayed away, but now I can't live without her. I have spent the last two years trying to get over her, trying to convince myself that she was better off, but not anymore, the moment she shows any kind of want or need for me, I'll be at her side before her heart can beat again.

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