Chapter 13

I'm too hot. I thought as I woke up, I tried to kick the blankets off of me but I couldn't move. Juice had intertwined his body with mine. I was dying. I pushed him and he mumbled incoherently. I shoved again, "Juice move." He finally turned over to his side of the bed. I got out of bed and went to take a shower. Not even two minutes later Juice climbed into the shower behind me.

"Good morning." He rubbed his hands all over my soapy body. "How is my beautiful fiancée?"

"I am better now that I am not being smothered in my sleep." I smirked at him. "Looks like you're feeling pretty good as well." I looked down at his boner and back up at him and I bite my lip.

"God you drive me crazy." He lifted me up right there and had his way with me. This man was insatiable and I loved it. I laughed as he sat me back down in the tub. "I love you."

"I love you too Juice." I lathered my body with soap while he watched. "You should either clean up too or leave because at this rate I will never get showered."

He grinned and touched my remaining light bruise, "Soon you'll be flawless again."

I laughed, "Yeah right, flawless. I have my flaws, like being easily distracted by tall sexy Puerto Rican men with tattoos." I rinsed the soap off my body and washed my hair. Juice washed up as well, he quickly shampooed his hair which there was very little of and hopped out of the shower. I finished rinsing out my hair and washing my face. "Will you please hand me my towel." I called out to Juice as I turned off the shower and started to pull back the curtain.

"Sure." It wasn't Juice's voice it was Matt's.

"Fuck!" I pulled the shower curtain around me. "What the hell do you think you are doing Matt? Get out!" I yelled.

"Oh come on Kylee. You know I've seen you naked before. Your tight little body." He murmured as he tried to pull the curtain away.

"GET OUT!" I screeched, Juice came running in half dressed. He must have walked out into our room just as Matt came into the bathroom.

"What the hell man?" Juice threw him into the hallway and closed the door leaving me shivering in the shower. I grabbed the towel that was sitting on the hook behind the bathroom door and wrapped it around me. I heard the murmur of them in the other room. I opened the door and ran across the hall. I got dressed quickly and walked out into the living room where I encountered an angry Matt and an every angrier Juice.

"It's not like I haven't seen her naked before man. Seriously." He was trying to reason with Juice with that?

"I don't care if you have seen her naked before, you will not be seeing her naked again. She is my old lady and I am the only one who gets to see her that way!" Juice pretty much growled at him. There was far too much testosterone in my house.

"You…"I pointed at Juice, "go cool down, my house is newly decorated and I do not want to lose any of my new stuff because you want to settle this with muscle." He looked at me with such anger I wanted to flinch, he must have noticed my change in stature because he turned and went into the kitchen. Matt started to laugh. "You!" I turned to him. "Shut the fuck up! You had no right to come into my house and try to demand a free show from me. Do you think that is what I meant by I would pay you?" I pushed him in the chest. "What do you think of me, Matt? Do you think I am a whore?" I barked at him. He lazily shrugged as he sat down on the couch nonchalantly. "Do you want to know how much of a whore I am Matt?" He lifted his eyebrow, ugh he made me so angry I wanted to punch him in the face. "I am so much of a whore that I have only been with three guys in my life, one took my virginity, one took my baby and the other one has given me my freedom. But let's go ahead, why not just let me pay you so I can lose the one person in this whole world that I care about more than my own life." I started to unbutton my shirt, "Is this what you want from me? Come on, big boy let's see if you can get it up for Kylee. Come on!" I yelled at him as I straddled him and tried to unbutton his pants

"Get off me, Kylee." Matt pushed me. I could smell the booze on his breath, I could tell by his glazed over look that he was still drunk.

"No, Matt this is what you want isn't it? I mean you walked into my bathroom while I was in the shower like I would give it up to you while my fiancé…my FIANCE was in the other room. Well let's go."

"No! Fuck!" I got off of him and button up the few buttons I had unbuttoned.

"Go clean yourself up and go to bed. Maybe you can apologize to Juice later, I wouldn't blame him if he doesn't forgive you. I will have cash for you by the time you get up and I would appreciate it if you would be gone by this evening." I started to walk into the kitchen when he called after me.

"Kylee, I'm sorry."

"I don't want your apology." I barked back at him as I left the room. Is this the same thing that happened between him and Kip all those years ago? Did Kip push him away like I was doing? Was I a horrible person for doing it? I saw Juice when I got into the kitchen, he pulled me into his arms. I felt so safe there. "I'm sorry about that baby." I looked up at him.

"I'm going to go for a ride to clear my mind." Juice said quietly and kissed me. "Please don't stay in this house with him."

"I won't. I told Donna I would meet up for coffee with her. I am sure she wants all the juicy details about our engagement. Plus I want to give Trin a call and see if she would be my maid of honor." I grabbed my bag and followed him out of the house. I called Donna and asked her if she would meet me in downtown for coffee at the café. She was cool with that but she had to get the kids off to school. I decided that I would run to the bank and take out a decent sum for Matt. It was really all I could do for him. I took out what I thought would be a nice sum of $3,000 for travel expenses and his time. I drove back home and walked into the house and left an envelope under the spare room door and left again. I could tell he was still there because I could hear him snoring. I got out to the car and called Trinity.

"Hello?" Trinity answered.

"Hey Trin." I replied

"Oh my god Kylee! How are you? How is Charming?"

"I've missed you Trin. Things are going well. Charming is warm and sunny. I am not calling to discuss the weather with you though."

"I didn't think you were. I have missed you too. I heard Seamus left you a good sum of money after Liam's unfortunate accident."

"Oh is that what they are calling it these days?" I laughed lightly

"That is what police have ruled it. Well at least according to McFee." She responded.

"So the whole reason I called was to see if you would be willing to come to Charming in the future."

"I already told you I would."

"Well you didn't tell me whether you would be my maid of honor or not." I replied casually.

"Your what?" She paused. I could feel her shock though the phone.

"My maid of honor. Juice asked me to marry him."

"Holy Shite! I would love to! When are you getting married?"

"We haven't discussed that, things have been a little crazy around here lately. Once they slow down, I will let you know. Can you have Kerrianne call me when you see or talk to her. I lost her phone number when I left my phone in Ireland."

"I can do that. Oh my god, you're getting married. I always thought it would be to Liam even though everyone would have been against it. "

"Let's not bring him up again. He was in my past and I am looking forward to my future with Juice. I need to leave that in the North, Trin. You know how I am about dwelling."

"I know. Shite I have to go someone just walked into the store. Cheers."

"Cheers." I hung up the phone just as I pulled up to the café. Donna and I had coffee and talked about all the excitement going on in our lives. Well more like we talked about what was going on in my life. Her life had finally calmed down whereas mine was a never ending merry-go-round. I yearned for that amount of calmness. I told her about what happened that morning with Matt. She reassured me that I took the proper steps in getting him out of my house and life because I didn't need that in my life. I was happy she felt the same way about things as I did. Donna was super excited that Juice and I were getting married. She brought everything back to that just before we parted ways. We talked about taking a girls trip to look for dresses in Stockton. I was actually looking forward to that. We parted ways just before lunch. I decided the best thing for me to do was to go to the club house. I didn't want to risk running into Matt again. I pulled into the parking lot of Teller-Marrow and noticed Juice's bike wasn't there. He wasn't kidding when he said he was going on a ride to clear his mind. I got out of my car and walked into the club house.

"Hey Phil." I smiled at the prospect.

"Hi Kylee, Juice isn't here." He informed me.

"I know. I just need a place to hide out for the afternoon. I was going to go see if Gemma needed any help at Teller-Marrow but I didn't see her car so I am assuming she isn't here. Do you need any help?" The club house was still messy from the night before.

"Oh no, you don't have to help me." It fell upon Phil as prospect to clean up the club house after parties and such. Basically he was the get shit on guy.

"Well I don't care, I need something to do or I will end up going home and Juice would not be happy about that." Grabbed the recycling bin and started collecting beer bottles. I could not believe how many trips to the larger recycling bin I had to empty out the smaller bin. By the time we were nearly done cleaning Happy and Opie walked into the club house.

"Hey Ky." Happy touched my shoulder as he walked and sat down at bar with Opie. "What are you doing?"

"I'm helping Phil clean." He looked at me, "It's a long story."

He raised his eye brows, "We have time," He offered me a spot next to him. I turned to face him and Opie and told them about the morning's situation…minus the parts before where Juice and I got a little freaky in the shower. "I would have shoved his ass on the pavement." Happy piped up after I finished my story. "Why don't I take you home so you don't have to be hanging around the club?" I smiled at his offer.

"Okay." He followed me out of the club house. Opie stayed back and chatting with Phil about some club business that needed to be taken care of. Happy lead the way back to my house, where everything seemed about the same. I parked my car in the driveway, Happy parked his bike behind it. We went into the house and it was quiet. I saw that the envelope that I had shoved under the spare bedroom door was on the counter in the kitchen. There was a note written on it:

Kylee,
I know I do not deserve your forgiveness and there is no excuse for my behavior other than the fact that I was still drunk from last night. Honestly I am sorry for my behavior and hope that one day you can forgive me. I am leaving your money here. I don't want it.

Matt

I looked at Happy and walked into the spare room. Matt was gone. "You should be okay to leave me. Matt is gone." Happy nodded and headed out the door.

I grabbed my phone and called Juice. It rolled to voicemail. I sighed and didn't leave him a message. He obviously needed his space. My stomached growled loudly. Had I eaten yet? I hadn't had anything to eat since coffee with Donna. I made myself a sandwich and snuggled up on the couch with a cup of tea and a good romantic comedy. I must have fallen asleep because when I woke up the TV was flashing the screen saver. I sat up and stretched, looking over at the clock it was 2 in the morning. I got up and turned off the TV, I walked to the bedroom expecting to see Juice there and he wasn't. I grabbed my cell which didn't have any missed calls. I tried calling him again and he didn't answer. This time I left him a message.

"Hey. I was wondering where you were. I'm a little worried. Please call me." I hung up and called Happy.

"Yeah." His voice was gruff like I woke him up.

"Shit did I wake you?"

"Um, I just went to bed. Are you okay?" He asked me with some concern in his voice.

"I'm fine, I just don't know where Juice is, have you heard from him?"

"Huh, I thought he would have called you, Clay sent him and Tig out on some club business."

"No he didn't call me." I was slightly irritated that he didn't have the courteously to call me. "Well I am at least glad that you knew what was going on, now I don't have to sit up and worry about him all night."

"No problem. He should have called but you know I could always come over and keep you company. Make sure that douche bag doesn't come back over and bother you."

"I'll be fine Hap. Thanks though." I hung up the phone.

I actually went to bed. At one point I woke up in a panic, because of a nightmare I was having. I thought about how differently the morning before was when I woke up. It was close to 6 am so I decided to get up. Still no Juice. I was actually getting angry with him, he still hadn't called me. Was this his way of punishing me? I thought to myself. I made a large pot of coffee and settled on the couch with a Bride magazine that Donna gave me the day before. It wasn't before long I didn't have the patience or attitude to look at it. I tossed it on the coffee table and paced for a few minutes. I needed to do something or I was going to explode. I changed into my workout clothes and decided to go for a run. It had been ages since I pounded some pavement. I ran for a few hours before going home. I had worked out all my anger and aggression somewhere along the way. When I got home, Juice's bike was in the driveway. I walked into the house and heard the shower running. I walked into the bathroom, Juice's clothes were scattered all over the floor and they were covered in blood.

I pulled open the shower curtain, "Oh my god are you okay?" I looked him up and down to be sure that he was in one piece.

He looked at me with some confusion then realized what I was talking about, "It's not my blood." I sighed in relief and closed the curtain on him. I picked up his clothes and brought them to the laundry room. I ran back upstairs to grab the peroxide a trick I learned to take blood stains out of stuff when I started boxing. Juice had just walked out of the bathroom with nothing on other than a towel wrapped around his waist. I felt the urge to run up and hug him. There was just too much space between us. I think I took him by surprise when I threw myself into him and wrapped my arms round his midsection. He put his arms around me and kissed my head. I didn't want to let go but I did and looked up at him.

"I missed you." Was all I could say to him all my anger and irritation were forgotten. He looked so tired.

"I'm sorry I didn't call you, I am sure you were worried. When I got home and you weren't here I didn't know what to think especially since your car was here." His voice was gruff with sleepiness.

"I went out for a run. I needed to get out of the house because I was pissed off at you for not calling. I called Happy at two in the morning because you weren't here and I hadn't heard from you. He was going to come over to make sure that Matt didn't come back." I figured that he would hear about it from Happy too and he wouldn't be so nice about it.

"Things got a little involved." He yawned. He was so vague about everything. I didn't know if I could handle it.

"You should go to bed." I kissed him and grabbed the peroxide and went to the basement where the laundry was waiting. I scrubbed the blood from Juice's clothes and wondered if this was going to be my future. Clean up after his mistakes. When I finished I decided to shower and then take a nap. It was going to be one of those days when I didn't really care if I did anything.

It had been several weeks since the whole Matt and Juice not coming home incident. Life was pretty uneventful. We had decided on a date for our wedding. We set it for six months out. No need to wait any longer than it took to plan a wedding. Donna, Tara and I went to Stockton to go dress shopping. I was surprised I actually found a dress that I liked. It was a strapless mermaid style dress that laced up the back and was gathered in places with slight jeweling. I placed my order and then forced the ladies to try on bridesmaids dresses. Okay so forced is a strong word, they were happy to try on dresses. In the end I decided that they could choose their own as long as it was black. Donna found a cute short a-line dress with lace and Tara went for something a little sexier and sleek that hugged her curves.

"You know you are going to be extremely lucky if you can get Juice to wear a suit." Tara piped in.

"I figured as much. I mean the man only owns t-shirts and jeans. He might have a button up shirt that I don't know about at his house still. I am going to fight for this…I mean wouldn't it be nice to see them all dressed up and cleaned up for once in their lives?"

"If you can do it, you will be the talk and savior of the club." Donna joked.

"I may just put it this way, they will definitely get laid if they wear suits." I said then thought about how hot Juice would look in a suit. I grinned at the thought, I am pretty sure Tara and Donna were thinking the same thing. "Don't worry I will work on them. After it all isn't the wedding about the girl anyway?"

We grabbed a quick bite to eat before heading back to Charming. I had noticed that a vehicle has been following us since we had left Stockton. It could have been a coincidence, I didn't mention anything to Donna or Tara because I wanted to be sure that I was right. I pulled into a gas station that was on the way acting like I needed gas. The car pulled in too. You have to be fucking kidding me. I thought. The safest thing for us to do was to stay put.

"Tara, Donna?" They both looked at me. "Call Jax and Opie, tell them we are being tailed by a black SUV with several Hispanic men."

"What?" Tara started to look around for the vehicle.

"STOP, looking around, they'll know that we are onto them. Just call him." I got out of the car and started to put gas into it when I noticed the SUV had pulled up to the pump next to us. I looked into the car and saw Tara was talking on her cell while Donna was on hers. I took note of the make and model of the SUV.

One of the men got out of the SUV, he nodded at me. I tried to act as if I wasn't on to them. "Nice day isn't it?" The man asked me.

"Yes, it is." I replied nonchalantly. It really was a nice day. I had been paying so much attention to the guy at the pump I didn't realize that one of the men was behind me before it was too late. I heard Donna scream and I turned around to have him grab me. I struggled to get away. "Let go of me you asshole. Let go." Donna shoved open the door which hit the man from behind but he didn't sway any. I knew if let them get me into the SUV, I might never see Juice again. I tried to draw as much attention to myself as possible. I screamed loudly and fought. Tara jumped out of the car and pointed a gun at the man who was holding me and the other one who was starting to come to help him.

"Let her go before I shoot you both." She fired a warning shot at the man who had been pumping the gas. The other man released me and walked away, like hadn't just tried to kidnap me. I knew that this all happened in a matter of seconds but it seemed like hours. I just stood there until they were off into the distance. I took the gas nozzle out of my car and got back in. I hadn't realized how badly I was shaking. "Jax said stay put until they get here."

All I could do is just nod and watch my hands shake.