Chapter 16

There was nothing better than a SAMCRO party. They were full of drunken debauchery. By the time Juice and I arrived at the party we were assaulted with drunk members and croweaters when we walked up to the club. It made me wish we would have stayed in bed together. I am sure that ladies would have never let me hear the end of it. I certainly know that Happy would give me a hard time about it. He enjoyed torching me.

"It's about time you two get here," Chibs walked over to us. He smelt like cigarettes and alcohol…which one I couldn't say. It was probably a mixture of several different kinds. Drinking away his sins, I thought to myself, maybe I should do that too. "I know what you two were up to." He narrowed his eyes at us.

"I don't know what you could be speaking about Chibs." I smiled as I let go of Juice's hand and walked into the club where I knew at least Gemma would be. I felt much lighter walking into the club which was very much unlike the last time I was in there. I spotted Gemma and Donna sitting at one of the tables, before going to join them I went to the bar where Rat Boy was tending. "Hi, can I get a brown ale?" I asked him.

"Sure. You are looking more relaxed then the last time that I saw you." He smiled at me. He was a nice guy. He was respectful when he had to keep an eye on me which I had always appreciated and he never ate me out house and home.

"Thanks, I feel better." I nodded in agreement, I hadn't really had time to think about it but I felt so much better. It could have also been my mad romp with Juice too. He handed me my beer, "Thanks Rat." I turned and walked away to go sit with Gemma and Donna. "Hello Ladies." I smiled.

"Ah someone got laid." Gemma smirked at me.

"Um..yes but can I not just be happy to see you guys?" I asked, there was no need lie to them about getting a little, I know Juice was more than open about that shit with his brothers.

"Darlin' no one has been happy to see me in years." She teased. "Okay well maybe Clay has been."

I laughed at her. "I am also sans body guards now!"

"So they found them? Is that where Opie was earlier today?" Donna asked me. Her blue eyes were inquisitive. I could tell her husband had not shared the intimate details about what happened with my would be abductors.

I decided it would be good to not share what happened to them either, I would keep those secrets to myself. Plus there were a few too many ears around at that moment. Who knows what someone would do if they found out that the club just executed some justice on a few no to innocent men today? "Yeah they found them." I said and left it at that. "I feel much safer, plus now I don't have a constant shadow. I can enjoy solitude once again." I smiled at them. I looked up and saw Juice staring at me while talking to Happy and Jax. I winked at him and he did the same in return. I wondered how I had gotten so lucky with a man who loved me so very much. Yes he could be over protective but I suppose I would rather be over protected then controlled and manipulated. My life had changed so much in less than a year. I had lost so much but had gained even more in return. I looked around at my adopted family, they were dysfunctional, loud, gun carrying, law breaking, sex maniacs but they were all mine. I smiled softly at this. If it hadn't been for my brother I would never have this family. We were all enjoying the party by that I mean we were all drinking quite a lot. I was actually feeling tipsy. Happy fed me a few shots of something that tasted like cinnamon and burned like fire on the way down. Donna had left go relieve the babysitter, Gemma and I sat there talking when they walked in, the whores from Caracara. I didn't notice her at first but after a few minutes I saw her hanging on off of one of one of the prospects.

"Oh FUCK NO!" I stood up, fueled by anger and liquor. I stormed over to her. "What the fuck are you doing here whore?"

Ima gave me a smug look. "What does it look like?" She rubbed the prospects leg seductively. "I was invited."

"I don't care if you were invited, get the fuck out! Your invite was rescinded when you pressed false charges on me…or didn't you realize that after spending a week in jail for falsifying information?" I spit back at her as I walked closer to her. I was willing to use force, I wasn't afraid of anything happening.

The prospect who I didn't know, looked shocked that I had such a strong reaction to her being there. I was pretty sure he had no clue who I was, "Whoa, honey, she is welcome here, you could always join us." He ran his hand down m y thigh thinking that it would be a turn on to me. He dared to touch me like I was a croweater. "Maybe one day you'll make me a good old lady!"

"Don't honey me!" I am pretty sure I growled at him, "I am not some sweet butt or croweater that you can talk to like that." He tried to touch me again, I smacked his hand again and he stood up and tried to grab at me. I am sure that Juice must have seen what was going on. "Don't fucking touch me!" I shoved him away from me.

"What the fuck?" Juice stood between us.

"Just trying to teach this tart that she can mess around with my lady friend…unless she wants to join up bro." The prospect looked at Juice. He seemed to think that he could already speak to Juice like he was a member of SAMCRO. Even I knew that was a huge disrespect if you were a prospect to try to talk to the members like you had a say.

"Get the fuck out man or I will fucking kill you and take that whore with you." I don't think I had ever seen Juice that angry. Not even when he was about to kill those two men, not even when he found out what happened to me in Belfast. He had rage in his eyes, it made me shutter a bit.

"Whoa dude, isn't it brotherhood before pussy?" The prospect pushed back.

"He said get the fuck out." Happy growled from behind us. "You do not disrespect the old ladies unless you want to get the shit beat out of your dumb ass!" He then turned to Ima who tried to look all innocent to him. I wanted nothing more than to punch that look off of her face. "Skag, take your fucking rancid pussy out of this club house, you are not welcome here!" She grabbed her purse and stormed out in a huff. The prospect looked back at Happy and Juice who were standing their ground by me.

"Doesn't look like that one will be around for long." Jax's voice came out from nowhere. "How you doin' doll?" Jax put his hand on my back.

"I was doing great until that fucking whore came in here." I shook my head, how dare she show her face in this club house after everything she had done. I sat in a fucking jail cell because of her, I smiled slightly at the thought of her sitting in a jail cell.

Phil came rushing into the club house, "Um Kylee, Ima…your car." Was all he could get out between breathes. He actually ran to tell me. I ran out into the parking lot of Teller Morrow only to see Ima bashing my beautiful car with metal pole. I came to a dead stop, I could feel my rage wash over me in tsunami size waves.

"What are you doing you stupid whore?" I yelled at her, walking up to her like I was a cat stocking its prey. She looked at me and threw the metal pole that she had just used to smash in my head lights and windshield at me. I ducked I had been drinking but I hadn't lost my large motor skills. I took another step closer to her determined to get a punch in, I was sick of that fucking whore.

"Don't you dare take another step closer to me!" She shrieked. I didn't heed her I took another step. She started struggling with her purse, the other must have seen what was going on before I did, because Juice was right next to me and Jax was behind her…she pulled a gun out of her purse. "Stay the fuck away from me." She pointed the gun at me.

"Are you really going to try to shoot me in front of all these people you stupid cunt?" Cunt the name I reserved for the most horrible of people.

She held the gun in her shaking hands but continued to point it at me. "You know what he told me that night?" She brought up the night she was with Juice, "He told me that I was a far better fuck then you were. He told me that you were a charity fuck. He said that you were some whore he never wanted to see again." She tried to make me angry with this but it didn't do anything. I rolled my eyes at her. "Do you know his cock felt so good inside of me? I rode him all night long. I got pregnant that night you know. But its fine…I took care of that." I took advantage of her looking over at Juice when she said that to launch myself at her. I couldn't handle it anymore, she pulled that last thread of sanity I had left in my body. That last string that held my compassion into place. My fist slammed into her face and body several times before someone pulled me off of her. Rage blinded me.

"I hate you!" I screamed as two sets of strong arms pulled me off Ima. "You are stupid wretched prostitute who has nothing better but then to try to make other peoples' lives miserable. But you know what. You are nothing!" I glared at her, "I know you love Juice. But you know what he doesn't love you. If he did he would have given a second thought to me when I went back to Belfast but he did. He would have been with you from the start. If he cared two shits about you, he wouldn't have asked me to marry him!" the two sets of hands holding me back, loosened their grip as I calmed down.

"Fuck you!" She bit back, I looked at her for the first time with clear eyes, she face was bloody and hair was an utter mess. I didn't feel any regret for what I had just done to her. I knew she wouldn't go to the cops again because they wouldn't believe her. "You stole him from me. I was going to be his old lady." She blamed me for taking him away from her. I tried to shrug off the guys hold me back, I looked and it was Happy and Juice. I glared at Juice, if he had been clear with her from the beginning then this wouldn't have happened. He looked at me with confusion in his eyes, I couldn't look at him anymore, I was so angry. I turned to Happy.

"Take me home." I told him.

"I don't think that is my place, love." He let go of my arm and looked at Juice.

"It's fine." he turned and went back to the club house. I think he was still processing that he had knocked up Ima and she thankfully terminated that pregnancy. Or maybe she was just saying that to make me angry, well it worked. Either way he knew me better than I probably knew myself, I needed my space to process everything. I took a woeful look at my car, my beautiful car which had allowed me freedom, now it was dented and broken. I shook my head as I walked with Happy to his bike. I grabbed my helmet from Juice's bike and hopped onto Happy's bike where he had already had it started. I took one last look at Ima hopefully my last one, she was being escorted to her car by Jax, he had an angry look on his face and he was talking to her. I couldn't tell what he was saying but I was hoping he was telling her to never come back.

Happy dropped me off, he grabbed my arm as I started to walk into the house.

"Kylee, you did the right thing." He said as if my conscious was getting the best of me; which it was not. "You need to stand up for yourself when it comes to the croweaters, or sluts that hang around the club, which by the way I don't mind them but still you old ladies have it hard when it comes to them." I looked at him as he continued talking, probably the most I had ever heard him talk. "She shouldn't have said the shit she did." I nodded and gave him a small smile that didn't touch my eyes.

"Thanks Happy." I turned to go in.

"Hey Ky?" I turned back to look at him. "I'll have Phil and Rat take a look at your car tomorrow and see if there is anything that we can do for it."

"Thank you, will you tell Juice, he can come home tonight." I paused, "Actually I would prefer if he did, unless he really doesn't want to, which I understand too."

Happy nodded as he kicked his Harley to life and pulled himself out of the driveway and took off towards Teller-Marrow. I went into the house, which was filled with such love and passion only a few hours earlier now it felt empty and lonely. I went into the bedroom and collapsed on the bed in a sobbing mess. How could he gotten her pregnant? How could he have not been careful? Stupid whore just added another bump in our already pothole filled road. At least you can run bumps over.

I ended up crying myself to sleep, I woke up when I felt the bed dip from Juice's weight. I rolled over and looked at him. He was sitting on the bed without a shirt on taking off his shoes and socks. I touched his back; him being close again took away all the strain of the day. I wanted to lose myself in him. He turned his head and looked at me with concern in his eyes. I sat up and moved to his side of the bed so I was sitting directly behind him. I kissed his shoulder, ran my hands over his bare chest.

"I love you," I whispered in his ear then I kissed his neck. I could feel his tense muscles, relax as I continued to kiss him. He moaned quietly as I bit his shoulder softly. He turned to face me, he took my face in his hands roughly and kissed me passionately. I wanted him so badly, I needed him. "Juice, I need you." I told him and I started to unbutton his pants. He quickly remedy that by taking them off himself. I in turn took off my clothes, Juice watched me with ravenous eyes. There was nothing loving or caring about us having sex, it was all about hunger and desire. I think we both wanted to show the other who much we needed them. We wanted to forget about the day and get lost in each other. And that is exactly what we did. I was a sweaty, panting mess when we were done. As I laid there Juice took me into his arms and held me.

"I love you, Kylee. You have always been the one for me. Before you there were just faceless bodies. The day you turned around at your brother's funeral it was like the blinders I had on were lifted. I knew I wanted you and no one else." He was being so honest with me, I had never told him what I thought about him that day.

"You gave me butterflies." I thought of the first time I saw Juice, "I couldn't believe I was flirting with you at Kip's funeral. Thank you for everything you have done for me, since that day."

He sighed deeply, "I have also caused you so much pain. You have to deal with Ima, you almost got taken from me because of my stupidity." He looked down at me.

"Juice." I turned over on the bed so I was facing him. "You didn't cause them. Ima is a fucking bitch who needs to realize that you will never be hers and she needs to get over it. And those guys who wanted to kidnap me they did that of their own volition, not yours. You did everything in you power to find them and protect me."

"I couldn't protect you against Ima today." I looked into my eyes.

"I don't need protection from Ima, you saw that tonight." I scoffed. I thought about how she had to pull a gun and she still got her ass kicked.

"You certainly do not need help from her physically, even if she has a gun. But she said some hateful stuff. I saw the switch in your head flip, Ky. You turned into someone else, someone full of rage and anger, when she said that she had been pregnant with my child and when she told you about that night you left." Ouch that hurt, having him say it hurt. I wanted to pretend that, the night they were together happened in a different life time.

"I would be lying if I told you that it doesn't sting…okay burn severely when she talks about the night you were together. Actually tonight she threw me into a blind rage." I thought about my poor car the innocent victim of all this. "I think it was a combination of everything that's happened today, she was just the topping on the shit cake."

"You do not need to worry about her any more. Jax told her she was no longer welcome at the club house and if she is seen there then she will be fired from Cara Cara." Well that was a plus, I thought about her bloodied face and a small smile crept across my face. I wish karma would hurry up and bite her in the ass. She needed a taste of it.

I fell asleep in Juice's arms that night, for the first time in a long time there was a sense of calm and peace in my life. Everything was a lined and heading down the right path. Now I could focus on planning our wedding and our future together.