Marian watched Friar Tuck walk off with Roland in tow. She had asked the Friar to keep her son occupied while she had spoke with Little John. She needed answers.
"John," she said, walking up to him. "I was hoping we could talk. Are you busy at the moment?"
John turned to her from where he had been staring out into the woods and smiled. "I am never too busy for you, Marian." He walked over to the campfire and gestured for her to sit next to him.
Once they were both seated, Marian didn't waste any time. "It's about Robin," she said. She saw John's eyebrows furrow. "He's been different than I remember him. You told me that he changed after he thought I died. I just want to know if this is normal."
Marian looked imploringly at him, unsure which answer she was hoping for. After a moment, John shook his head. "I wish I could, Marian, but it's not. This is not the Robin I know. He's been angry and violent and impatient. Over a third of our men are now living in a separate camp because Robin has deemed their misbehavior unfit for men in his band. He berated a young man in front of the group, something he's never done before." John paused so he could turn and look directly at Marian. "He was always a champion of second chances, of forgiveness. He believed that after a person had done bad things, they could decide to live a better life. but now…" John trailed off as he turned back to face the fire.
Marian nodded. That sounded more like the Robin she remembered. This Robin was not the man she fell in love with. She asked, "do you have any idea why Robin is acting this way?"
John shook his head. "I'm not sure. But perhaps we can figure it out." John and Marian agreed to see if they could gather any more information, and John walked off in the direction of the non-merry men's camp.
Marian sat by the fire, thinking hard. She was trying to make sense of Robin's behavior since she awoke from the freezing curse. His behavior towards his men had been strange - unrelenting. She tried to think what had made Robin suddenly treat his men differently.
But then her mind drifted back to the incident just two nights ago. Robin had gotten into a very violent fight with a man who he had previously claimed to have forgiven. Marian had never seen Robin react like that, not even when he first found out that Will had betrayed them all. How could he be angrier now, years later, than he had been at the time? It wasn't just merry men that Robin did not forgive - it was others, as well.
Marian began to wonder if perhaps his new unforgiving nature was not concentrated only on the merry men. Of course - Regina. When Marian first arrived in Storybrooke, Robin insisted Regina had changed and deserved forgiveness. But since breaking the freezing curse, he had completely changed his mind. She had thought it was merely a result of his memories of the queen being erased, but he could not have fallen in love with Regina with the attitude he had now. This was new.
When Marian first learned of her husband's relationship with the Evil Queen, to say she was shocked would be an understatement. It seemed completely unlike him. Robin - her Robin - would never have feelings for someone who had done such horrible things. Marian would have expected her Robin to treat the queen… well, kind of like he had in the last few days. Marian had expected Robin to be angry, unforgiving and unrelenting toward the queen. She had believed that reaction would be in line with the man she knew. But she had seen Robin being unforgiving, and it was completely wrong. The more time she spent with this new Robin, the more she realized, his forgiveness of the queen made perfect sense. Your past ends now. That was what he told each new merry man when they joined. So he applied that to the queen as well.
Marian thought about what she knew of Regina - from personal experience, not stories. She had raised her son, alone, and the boy was turning out quite well. She had gained the trust and respect of many people in this town, including Robin and Emma, both of whom Marian trusted immensely. And to top it all of, Regina had saved Marian's life, twice. Both times, it would have been incredibly easy and beneficial to herself to simply let Marian die.
Marian shook her head. No, Regina was not a monster. She had done awful things in her past, but she had earned the forgiveness of all the people Marian had met, everyone in the town, really. Regina had not done anything remotely evil since Marian had come to the future. Marian had always subscribed to Robin's philosophy that anyone who wants to can change. Regina had changed. It hurt to admit it, but Robin's relationship with the former Evil Queen was suddenly making a lot of sense.
But Robin had forgotten all that. To him, Regina was still the person she had been all those years ago. Marian got up to throw another log on the fire as she wondered if anyone had been spared Robin's harsh opinions. Roland was still perfect in his eyes, of course. And his behavior had been faultless when it came to her.
As Marian sat down again, she thought a bit harder about her interactions with Robin. He had indeed been perfect. He had said and done all the right things, he had been patient with her, teaching her the ways of this land. She had once, briefly, brought up his relationship with Regina. He had assured her that he would always remain faithful and as his wife, she had his complete commitment.
Marian's mind raced. Commitment, faithfulness, concern. This was what he had shown her since she awoke. No, that couldn't be right. He loved her. His love had saved her from the curse. And he had shown her affection since she awoke, she knew he had. But the more she thought about it, she realized every instance of affection between them happened when Roland was around. He could have been showing his love for Roland each one of those times.
Marian began to panic. Was it possible Robin no longer loved her? She had to find him.
…
Marian waited for Robin to return from the archery range. She had found out he was there giving a lesson, and figured she would let him finish while she tried to gather her thoughts. She focused on her breathing and mentally listed her concerns. There was no reason to overreact. It was entirely possible she was reading too much into this, and a conversation with Robin would erase all her doubts.
Finally, she spotted him enter the camp looking distracted and mildly upset. "Robin," she said, walking up to him. Robin gave her a tight smile. "Would you like to join me for a walk through the woods? We haven't had much time to talk, just the two of us, since I awoke from the freezing curse."
Robin agreed and his smile relaxed a little. They headed into the woods side by side.
They walked for a few minutes in silence, Marian trying to choose her next words carefully and Robin merely enjoying the silence of the forest.
"Robin, I've been gone a very long time. I mean, not from my perspective, but I understand you believed me to be dead for 30 years." Marian looked expectantly at him.
Robin merely looked confused. "Yes," he said, "but you knew that."
"Yes," Marian said, and continued walking. "I was just wondering what it was like, for you. I mean, you thought I was dead. You must have moved on."
Robin put a hand on her shoulder, stopping them both and turning to face her. "Marian, is this about the queen? Whatever relationship I allegedly had with her is irrelevant - it's not part of the present. It isn't even a part of my past." He held both her hands in his and smiled gently. "You have nothing to worry about. You are my wife, and I would not be with anyone else."
Marian was staring at him, listening intently to every word. "I understand, Robin. But she was a part of your past." Robin tried to interrupt, but she continued. "It's alright, I understand that it's over. It's just…" Marian kept walking and Robin followed alongside her. "You did start to see her, and you had feelings with her. We know that happened. If you were starting a new relationship, you must have moved past me. You couldn't have fallen in love with someone new if you were still in love with me."
Robin said, "I'm not in love with her, though, Marian. She means nothing to me."
Marian shook her head, continuing to look forward. "It's not about your feelings for her, Robin. It's about your feelings for me. You weren't in love with me anymore - after 30 years that's understandable." Now, Marian turned to look at Robin. "What I want to know is, how could you have fallen back in love with me so quickly?"
Robin seemed disturbed. "Marian, I have always loved you. You are my wife. There is no other for me." He smiled at her. "I pledged to love you until death do us part." His smile faltered. "And it did. But then, it didn't." Marian wasn't sure either of them really knew what he was saying. But Robin shook his head and continued. "Marian, I broke the freezing curse on you. That proves I love you. You have nothing to worry about."
Marian did not feel convinced, but was not sure what more she could ask of him. She decided to let it go for now and changed the subject. "I heard you were giving an archery lesson. Who were you teaching?"
Robin hesitated briefly before saying, "Henry. Apparently I promised him some lessons during one of my erased memories."
Marian sent him a sideways glance. "I hope you were nice to him, Robin. You agreed not to say rude things about Regina in front of him." Robin squirmed, and that was all the answer she needed. "Robin!"
"It wasn't my fault," Robin insisted. "He brought up the subject. He was asking about the men I've kicked out of the camp. I was as generous as I was could be, but what was I supposed to say? I told him that a person's character is determined by their actions. What a person has done tells you what kind of person they are"
"But Robin, what about forgiveness? People can change. You know they can."
Robin scoffed. "People can't change who they are. They can only hide it for a while."
Marian was furious, but she tried to control the anger in her voice. "Robin, a person is more than the worst thing they have ever done. You are not exactly perfect. You were a petty thief when I met you. If you can change, anyone can."
Robin stopped in his tracks to stare at her. "Marian, you can't be serious. Pretty soon you'll be saying that even the Evil Queen deserves a second chance."
Marian glared at him. "Her name is Regina." Marian's hard eyes met Robin's as they stared at each other, both furious at the other.
Marian wanted to walk away, but she had to know. "Robin, I don't want to talk about her. I want to talk about us. I still love you. But everything has been different since I got to this land. Maybe it's too much to expect you to still love me as you did years ago."
"Marian, what are you saying?"
What was she saying? He had changed. He was no longer the man she loved. And he obviously didn't love her as he once had. People do change, obviously. And at least one of them had changed too much to pretend otherwise.
Marian's eyes filled with tears. "I don't know what's happening, Robin, but you've changed. I don't even feel like we're married anymore." Robin reached for her arm, but she pulled it roughly away. "This is not working. Our marriage was over a long time ago. It died when you believed I did."
Robin was shaking his head, disbelief and anger in his eyes. "Marian, we made vows. I intend to stand by them."
Marian's tears spilled down her cheek. Robin did not move a muscle. "A marriage cannot be held together only by vows, Robin. Marriage is supposed to be about love! I don't want you to be with me out of obligation."
Robin's eyes darted back and forth as he scrambled for words. Marian looked at him, hoping to find some indication that he still loved her. He didn't seem sad to be losing her, or affected by how upset she was. It only confirmed what she believed: he hadn't loved her in a long time.
Marian turned and tearfully walked away. Robin remained silent as he watched her go.
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A/N: I hope this chapter didn't feel too rushed, but it's been a looooong time coming. I never thought this thing would end up being so long. I guess I just had a lot of story to tell. Anyway, I'm so excited for what's coming next!
