Chapter 32

Tara stood up and placed a bandage over my bullet wound and followed up by helping me get my shirt and sling on. It burned severely but I didn't care I needed to find out what happened to Juice. I quickly followed Rat out the door and to the ICU. Chibs was coming through the door with tears in his eyes, he tried to stop me. Oh my god…Juice what happened he was doing so well! I pushed past Chibs and ran through the doors to the ICU. I ran into Juice's room to see him, staring straight back at me. I stopped suddenly. I was going to beat the shit out of Chibs…why didn't he just tell Rat he was awake. I just about had a heart attack when I saw Chibs with tears in his eyes, thinking the worst had happened to Juice. I soaked Juice up with my eyes.

"Ky." He said in a whisper. I tried to choke back my tears and a snort came out instead.

"Juice?" I walked up to his bed slowly. I couldn't believe that after everything he had been through in those past 24 hours; he was awake and talking to me. He gave me a small smile as I sat on his bed next to him. I started to sob. He was alive. "You're okay." I managed to say between sobs.

"Don't cry." He said quietly as he touched my hand that was closed to him. I looked over at him. How could he be so alert and coherent with everything that had happened to him?

"You almost died, Juice…hell you did die." I said sniffling, not wanting to move my hand out from under his. "Chibs was crying and I thought you died. Juice I can't lose you again."

He gave me a small smile. "Your arm?" He questioned.

I looked at my arm as if I didn't know what he was talking about. "Oh this?" I looked back at him. "You didn't seem to get all of the bullets, I got one in the shoulder and didn't know it until we got to the hospital." He frowned as I smiled slightly thinking about how crazy Happy had been. "Don't start with the frowning, Happy has already given me a hard enough time. He's been keeping a close eye on me." I said quietly. My eyes started to fill with tears again and were close to spilling over when Juice moved his hand off of mine and touched my face. I pushed my face against his hand and closed my eyes. So much had changed in my heart over those last 24 hours, I knew how much I needed Juice in my life. "I love you." I whispered just after I said it I heard Juice's breathing hitch. I swiftly opened my eyes thinking his was having trouble breathing again. He was staring back at me with a strange look on his face. "Are you okay?" I asked quickly.

Juice nodded and then said, "I never thought I would hear you say those words to me again." I hadn't even realized that I had said I love him until after they came out of my mouth. He looked at me tentatively as if he may have heard me wrong.

I swallowed hard because I knew I wanted to let him back in. "It's true. I never stopped but if we are going to work, I need to trust you. Granted you saving my life has helped a lot. If you were to ever cheat on me again…" I paused as I wondered if this was a good time to talk about us. He took my hand into his and looked at me as if to urge me on. I took a deep breath and then continued, "…I don't think I would be able to handle it. You know how you said you didn't want a world where I didn't exist?" I asked him. He stared at me and nodded. "Well let's just say, I wouldn't exist anymore. It would kill me." I let it stay at that; thinking about how broken I felt when I found him with the croweater.

Juice was silent for a while and was going to start to say something but as he opened his mouth Jax walked in.

"Well it's good to see you awake, brother." Jax announced happily as crossed to the opposite side of the bed and sat in the chair next to it.

"Thanks, Jax." Juice said, his voice was raspy. I didn't know if I hadn't noticed it because I was so happy he was awake and alive or if it was because he had been talking for a while. "How are things with the Irish?" Juice asked. Always concerned with club matters over his own.

"Don't worry about that right now. Just worry about yourself and getting better." Jax smiled at me.

I smiled back at him. "I will let you two talk and see if anyone else wants to visit with you." I looked at Juice; I didn't really want to leave but I figured I would let some of the other club members go in and visit him.

"Alright." Juice squeezed my hand. I stood up and leaned in and kissed his cheek.

As I was walking out of the room I heard Jax say, "You have a good old lady, she put the chief of staff in his place last night." I smiled and shook my head, was that what made me a good old lady? As I was walking through the ICU to the waiting room I wondered if the other people who had family in there would be as lucky as I was. I wondered if they would be reunited with their loved ones or if they would be saying their last goodbyes to them. I exited the ICU and walked into the waiting room where I was greeted by happy faces.

"You should really stop, when people try to stop you, love." Chibs smirked at me. If he wouldn't have said anything I wouldn't have remembered how much I wanted to kill him.

"Maybe you shouldn't give me a fucking heart attack. You sent Rat to Tara's office and he had no clue about how Juice was…he just said come now and then you were teary eye. Fuck Chibs, I thought he was dead!" I rolled my eyes at him.

"Wanted it to be a surprise."

"No you wanted to kill me." I laughed as I pushed him lightly in the shoulder.

He frowned at me. "Where's your body guard?"

I gave him a confused look but then realized he meant Happy. "Hap? I sent him to the club house. He was wound too tight, he needed to let off some steam." I said to him quietly. He knew I had Happy wrapped around my finger, he saw it when we were together. I knew Hap wouldn't want any of the other guys know, he wouldn't live it down, but Chibs understood for some reason.

"The boy needed it. I haven't seen him like that in a long time. He needs to either get fucked or to kill someone." He responded to me.

"Let's hope he's getting fucked and not the latter." I smiled at him. "Hey, if anyone wants to go in and see Juice please do it now because if you don't I am heading back in there." I announced. Tig got up from where he was sitting and quietly walked out of the room.

The rest of the afternoon went like that, a few guys would come out and some of the others would go in. There were members from a few of the other charters visiting as well. They hadn't left yet. I had went back in to visit a few more times but there was no more talk about us, because there was always someone else in the room with us. Finally the nurses had to kick everyone out so Juice could rest, they wanted him to get some sleep because they were talking about moving him to a room that was not in the ICU. I was thrilled to hear that.

It was nearly 9 at night when Happy came strolling into the waiting room. He looked more relaxed as he sat down next to me on the arm of the chair I was sitting in. "How's Juice?" He asked.

"Awake, well actually he should be sleeping. The nurses kicked everyone out, they were probably just pissed that there was so much commotion in their ICU. I am the only one who can go in there." I told him.

He looked down at me, "That's good. Why aren't you in there?" He asked.

I shrugged, "I want him to rest and if I am in there he won't. He keeps looking at my arm like he did it to me." I shook my head. "He isn't seeing that he saved my life, he is seeing that I still ended up taking a bullet."

"He's doing what he should do." Happy said quietly. "Want to take a walk with me?" He stood up.

"Sure." I stood up, "Let me go tell the nurse just in case anything happens." Happy nodded and waited by the entry way of the ICU waiting room that we had taken over. None of the other families came in there, they were probably too scared. I walked back up to Happy after speaking with the nurse.

Happy was quiet while we walked, when we got outside, it was dark out. Happy stopped me and looked at me. I couldn't read his expression, it was like he was searching for something. "You were right earlier." He confessed to me. I gave him a confused look. "When you said I was smothering you."

"Listen Hap…" I started but he stopped me from telling him I was sorry and to forget about it.

"You were right by telling me that because I was…Kylee, you are the only other woman other than my family that I have loved; that I have allowed in." He said gently. "I'm scared shitless of losing you. After seeing that you were shot and then you passed out. Ky…I…"He trailed off.

"It's fine Hap." I wrapped my arm around him and placed my head on his chest. He placed his arms round me softly taking care that he didn't squeeze my shoulder. I realized how hard it was to admit that to me, or to himself for that matter. "Don't worry…your secret is safe with me." I looked up at him. He gave me a small smile and then kissed my forehead. "I might have to tell the guys that you got all girly on me though." I teased.

Happy glared at me as I pulled away and smiled broadly at him. "You're lucky, I like you little girl. You know I wouldn't let any other old lady or croweater pull half the shit you pull."

"Happy you wouldn't let your brothers pull half the shit I pull." I smiled at him.

"True." He smirked at me. "I would have decked anyone of them if they would have told me to go get my dick sucked or to get fucked." He gave me a sideways glance as we walked back towards the hospital.

"Oh believe me I know, I was almost waiting for it…thanks for not ruining my face." I said to him.

"I would never hurt your pretty little face." Happy said as he pinched my cheek.

"Ouch." I pouted at him. He just smirked.

When we got back upstairs there was some commotion at the ICU desk. I should have recognized the cheap hair extensions from the other night but I didn't. Happy and I stopped short of the waiting room because Rat was in the hallway near a blonde woman. Macking on a grieving family member? I thought to myself, as I started to go into the waiting room but then heard the woman's voice.

"What do you mean I can't see him?" The woman shrilled. "Rat tell them who I am!"

"I am sorry ma'am but we are only allowing Mr. Ortiz's immediate family in the room right now." The nurse said with annoyance in her voice. I realized that they were talking about Juice so I turned my attention to the commotion.

There was silence for a second, "I AM immediately family, I am his wife, Dayzee Ortiz." I stiffed up as I watched the back of the woman's head. I, then realized it was the same bitch from the other night at the club house.

"Oh." The nurse said, it was a different nurse from when Happy and I walked outside, she was one that I hadn't seen before or she would have known that the woman was lying. "Well let me just clear it with your husband's doctor then." The nurse was picking up the phone as I stormed over to the desk.

"What are you doing here?" Dayzee growled at me. She was wearing a tight black dress and high heels again.

I gave her a dirty look. "I should be asking you the same thing!" I turned to the nurse. "I would like you to know that she is not Mr Ortiz's wife."

Dayzee gave me a gasping look like I had the audacity to call her out on her lie, "How dare you say I am not married to him. We have been married for years."

I let out an annoyed laughed as I glared at her. "You are seriously delusional!"

"I am sorry ma'am," the nurse turned to me. "But she says she is Mr Ortiz's wife I have no reason not to believe her."

I nodded my head, "Okay well then why is she just showing up now?" The nurse looked over at her, "Or maybe you should ask her what Mr Ortiz's actual name is or when they were married or why he saved my life when she should have been with his wife?" I growled, I was getting pissed off and if she said the wrong thing I was going to snap, bullet wound or not.

Dayzee looked shell shocked by my pushing. Rat knew me well enough that I was close to my breaking point. He stepped away, probably to get Happy or Chibs. "His name is Juan Carlos. He asked me to marry him when we were in Rouge River together for one of his friend's birthday…"She paused collecting more lies. "I am sure he saved you because he thought it would be the right thing to do even though we all know that you are just some slut who has been with all the guys."

Strike two bitch. I thought.

"I wasn't here because I have been mourning the death of my best friend, Donna and her family." She tried to get fake tears to come out of her eyes.

"Oh no you didn't BITCH." I was just about to throw a punch when a strong hand grabbed my arm. I whipped around quickly, it was Happy.

"You don't want to get kicked out of here do you?" He said quietly to me.

"I just want to rip that whore's hair out, please just let me." I was pretty much whining at him. As I tried to control my rage, but it was a fire that was burning intensely from deep within my soul.

"Mrs. Ortiz?" The nurse called, I turned my attention to her.

"Yes?" I replied before Dayzee could say anything. I glowered at her as it clicked in her head what was going on.

"Um?" The nursed looked confused as she looked between the both of us.

"This woman has been lying to you. My name is Kylee Ortiz and I am Juice's wife. I have been for a hell of a lot longer than she said she has been. If you think I am lying to you, please find Dr. McMahon, he knows who I am or Dr. Tara Knowles." I glared over at the stupid blonde who was now fidgeting. I didn't know if was because she found out who I was, if she was caught in her own lie or if it was because Chibs and Bobby were standing by her side.

"Come on, lass. Why don't we take you for a walk outside?" Chibs took by the shoulder.

I smiled, "I think I need some fresh air." I turned on my heels and followed them outside.

"But I thought she just came in, why does she…"I heard Rat's voice behind me.

"Shut the fuck up Rat and think about it." Bobby's voice said with slight annoyance.

Happy looked at me as we walked outside. "What?" I looked over at him.

"Just thinking about how much I like chick fights." He smirked at me.

"I hope that the doctor did a good job suturing my arm." I said to him as I walked up to Dayzee who was standing next to Chibs. I tilted my head as I sized her up. She was taller than I was but then again she had shoes on that added another six inches on me. "I thought Juice made it clear that you were over." My voice was full of venom.

"He just said I had to leave you alone and told me I needed to learn my place." She shot back. "He never said we were over."

I raised my eye brows at her. "Really so you thought it would be a good idea to come to the hospital and lie about being his wife so what you could go see him?" I walked closer to her as she took a step back. "Do you really think that he would take you back?"

"I am going to be his old lady!" She yelled at me.

"I am sorry love but that job's been filled." Chibs chimed in.

"By who?" She looked over at Chibs. "By her?" She nodded towards me. "She is just some croweater, who thinks she is his wife!" Chibs shook his head at her, she was living in a fantasy world.

I smiled at her as I took advantage of her distraction to shove her. "How dare you think that MY husband would ever make you his old lady? I have never been a croweater nor will I ever be unlike you, you are just a faceless cheap fuck to him. Something to fill the emptiness, well guess what it didn't work. He would never have loved you."

"I will not let you stand in my way. I've seen the rings he is going to give me. I could have made him love me." She was blood fucking delusional! Juice really did pull in the crazies…wait did that mean I was crazy?

"Those are my rings you stupid whore." I was close enough to her to throw a punch with my left arm, which hit her hard in the side of head. She unfortunately remained steady. She charged me and shoved me hard in my right shoulder. I let out a blood curdling scream as pain shot through my shoulder and into every part of my body. Since I was already in pain, I decided to pull my arm out of the sling and I threw a punch with my right arm…contact directly in the mouth.

"Mmmm…you stupid bitch!" She screamed out at me as she spit blood out of her mouth. She tried to charge at me again but this time I was ready for her and kicked her hard enough to knock her to the ground. While she was on the ground I kicked her in the side hard.

"Stay away from Juice, stay away from SAMCRO or next time I see you I will kill you." I turned to walk away from her but then stopped and turned back. "Oh and if you are thinking about going to the police with this maybe you should ask Ima what happened when she did. Slut." I said calmly as I walked away.

"Skag." Chibs spit on her.

Happy and Chibs didn't intervene, they probably knew I needed to take out my frustration out on her. They knew she overstepped her boundaries and had what was coming to her. If it had been another guy who would have done that, they would have killed him. I just beat the shit out of the girl, she would heal. Truth of the matter was I felt so much better after that. I felt like all the frustration that I had built up inside of me over what happened between Juice and I finally melted away.

"Wow that felt good." I smiled as we walked into the building.

"Glad we could help." Chibs smiled over at Happy.

"Wait did you two know she was here?" I asked.

"Thought we would give you a little gift." Happy looked over at me. "It was fucking hot by the way." He smirked. I rolled my eyes at him

"We just didn't know how crazy she really was. I can't believe that she thought Juice was going to marry her." Chibs ran his hands over his head. "You did a good job sweetheart." He placed his hand on the small of my back.

I couldn't help but wonder if this was their way of helping me heal after everything that had happened. It certainly helped and I was left feeling loved, grateful and blessed.

A/N: Again thank you all for your support! It is such a blessing, you are the reason that there is a story about Juice and Kylee. Feel free to let me know what you think.