yay, chapter two was ready to go so here it is, artigatto for reading so far if you have, I hope this chapter leaves a better taste in your mouth, again, arrigatto!

Kubo tite is still the owner of bleach :|

It's been a year since I had died and come to soul society, a year of deep depression, everyone avoided me now, they called me the lonely one, I would speak to no one.

'Shunsui.. I think you should read this.. ' my mum gave me a peice of paper. The paper was an application for the shino academy 'please shunsui.., I'm begging you.. Do something with this life' my mum was begging me, her eyes pleading that I should go through with it.

I nodded 'ok' I didn't feel like doing anything, but I hated seeing my mum like this, so I filled in the application. It had turned out that I made it into the academy, as most other students would celebrate, I didn't have the heart, I had felt hollow since the day I had come here, nothing made me happy.

In the following days and weeks, the classes were organised and I begun my training, I would train with all the effort I could muster and learn what I needed to learn but I friended nobody. The same as I had done at home in rukongai. I had no life.. Until I heard that heavy cough down the hall way.

-a flashback-

We were playing in the park again, it was out favourite place to be, as thirteen year olds we were just starting to grow up, though jushiro had grown up long before me, he has tuberlucious, one day it would probably kill him but I didn't care.

Jushiro fell to his hands and knees as he started coughing heavily, blood would start making it way from his mouth in his coughing fit, I would run over worried and sit beside him and rub his back, he liked that 'Are you ok juu?'

After he finished coughing, he would pull out some tissues and wipe the blood away, with a smile he would always say 'I'm fine, don't worry shun' it comforted me even though sometimes he lied and he wasn't alright.

-back to reality-

Walking back to my dorm, I was passing the boys bathroom, I never walked fast, always slow, there was no rush, when the deep familiar coughs started, it was from the boys bathroom, it was a distant sound, like echoes, so I thought it was a memory. On this particular day it was cloudy, rain threatened to pour down, when the coughs continued, it truly sounded like someone was in pain, so I decided to follow the sound, I quickened my step and upon entering the bathroom I froze.

There sitting on the floor was jushiro in a heavy coughing fit, blood on his hands where he was covering his mouth, I didn't feel my books drop, I didn't feel myself tear up, only the tears trickle down my cheeks, the boy looked at me with an ashamed look and then shock.

'J-juu... I-is... ' I couldn't speak.

The boy teared up 'shun.. '

I was afraid he was going to disappear, this was just my head screwing with me, when I took a cautious step forward and he remained there, I stepped again, I fell to my knees beside him, still not believing it 'a-are you.. Ok'

He nodded, staring at me, years running down his face 'I'm ok.. Don't worry about it' he gave a shaky smile.

It was then I started breaking down 'I'm sorry.. I'm so sorry.. '

Juu just gave me a hug, shushing me 'its ok.. Don't worry.. ' I just replied by crying into his shoulder, a years worth of pain coming undone.

'Thank you.. Shun.. ' jushiro was keeping strong, tears flowing 'for staying with me.. And not letting go...'

After a while, both of us were completely drained of emotion, content to just sit, both of us almost not believing our eyes.

'Jushiro.. I.. I'm sorry.. I failed you... '

'What are you talking about... ' jushiro looked at me, those bight green eyes, those pale features and pure white hair.. That familiarity that I'd been searching for, my other half, my brother.

'I promised I would be there.. When you woke up.. I wasn't.. ' I looked at him guiltly.

'I never held it against you.. Your promise brought me safely here, I could rest in peace.. You shouldn't have followed me.. ' jushiro looked at me.

'Your my brother.. I failed to look after you... It's a fitting punishment.. '

'Well lets put the past aside.. Brothers?' He held out his hand with a bright smile 'like we used to be, I've got your back, you've got mine'

I looked at him and took his hand, returning his smile 'hai, like old times' it felt weird to smile since I hadn't in so long.

Jushiro looked at his uniform and frowned 'hey shun, can you help me wash my uniform.. ' he was playing with a few stray spots of blood on his uniform.

I smiled, falling myself fall into the playful self I was before juu died 'still as grotty as ever'

'Its not my fault' he gave me a stubborn look 'will you help me or not, I hate doing the washing alone, it's creepy'

I chuckled 'sure, ill help you, I'll keep the real people away'

'By the way, your books and stuff are still on the bathroom floor' he gave me a cheeky smile.

'Crap!' I didn't remember when I dropped them but I did, I found my self running back to pick them up 'damn'

Jushiro laughed 'as dopey as ever shun'

It was back to normal, just in a different world, finally.

It had turned out that all along I had been sharing my classes with juu, I just wasn't paying enough attention so I guess the fault was mine, but it didn't matter now.