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Disclaimers: I do NOT own Big Time Rush or any of the members, fictional or not (even though I wish I could own James ;D ) However, I do own the character Samantha. Krista's character is owned by Dreamer1992, since she is the one who suggested the other best friend. On guard to chapter 5!
Chapter 5: Questions
JAMES' POV:
After leaving Sam's house, I hopped into my pick-up and headed to the studio. Cranking up the radio, I sped down the highway. My mind was racing faster, though, the radio not seeming to drown out my thoughts. Well, more like questions. Why did I run away? Why we did almost kiss? Were we really going to? Why didn't Sam pull away? How does she feel about me? About this? Should I tell her how I feel? Or is it too late? Why couldn't life just be simple?
Once I pulled into the only other empty parking spot at the studio, I got out of the car and slammed the door. Walking through the building, I headed to the elevator and went up to the 3rd floor. The ride was too short, only giving me about 30 seconds to stop and take a breath of what happened. The doors finally opened, revealing Logan and Carlos sitting in the lounging area up front. Carlos jumped up from the black chair and smiled at me.
"James, you made it!" Carlos yelled, happy that the four amigos were finally reunited again.
"Yup, I did" I spoke with a long sigh, my hands digging into my jean pockets as I rocked back and forth on my feet. An attempted smile came from my lips, but it couldn't hold itself up. Everyone else may have been happy, but I just had too much on my mind to be as well.
My friends could tell there was something wrong with me the minute the words left my mouth. Logan shifted on the orange lounger and crossed his hands between his legs. His eyes looked down as he asked "So, how's Sam...?" in a quiet and worried tone. When Sam first fell asleep on the couch, I called the guys and told them briefly about the situation. They were very understanding, but also nervous about how she was taking the break-up as well.
"She's… getting there" I admitted. "I got her mind off of it for a little bit. We took another nap and then spent time together until I had to leave." Well, that was the truth, just not with some details included like I was about to kiss Sam. But right now they didn't need to know that. They already knew about how I found her, and no one wanted to bring that up. It was a sensitive topic.
Logan rubbed his hands together and looked at me. "That's good" he said with a hopeful tone. "She's lucky enough to have a friend like you by her side. You're a great friend to her."
I took my hands out of my pockets, taking off my jacket and hanging it on the coat rack. "Yeah, but what if that's not enough? She was in really rough shape when I found her; I thought she was going to die. A friend can only provide so much, and I think she'll need more than that…" I walked over and sat in other white lounger, letting my head fall.
Carlos stared at me with scrunched eyebrows, folding his arms across his chest. "So what you're suggesting is that she find other girl friends to hang with?"
I stopped at that question. I was more hinting at how I should step up, but maybe having more girl friends would help her. "Um yeah…" I agreed. "I mean some girls she could get together with and go out for a night on the town or something… I should talk to Kendall and Krista about it." Krista Duncan was Kendall's girlfriend. They were going strong for about 7 months now. Everyone else knew they were soul-mates and going to get married someday, but they insisted on going slow and steady. Looking around the room, it made me realize that the couple was nowhere to be seen. "Hey, where are the two lovebirds?" I questioned my two buddies in the room.
Logan nodded his head and answered first. "They were in the break room having something to eat last time I checked. You should go talk to them and mention your idea. It sounds pretty good…"
I shook my head in agreement, standing up and adjusting my sweater top. "Ok, thanks. I'm going to talk to them now…" My hand briefly waved goodbye before turning down into the hallway.
As I was walking away, I heard Carlos and Logan talking to each other in muffled voices. I stopped in the middle of the hallway to listen to see what they had to say, slithering on the carpet to the corner of the wall. "It seems to be affecting him pretty bad too…" Carlos whispered to Logan, pausing a few seconds so make sure I was out of the room.
Logan mumbled out a small yeah and shifted in the seat. He then leaned closer into Carlos to speak again, thinking that someone could still hear him. "Do you think that he possibly has… you know… feelings for her or something? I mean did you see the way he looked when he walked in?"
"Oh absolutely, he really does" Carlos agreed. "He has for a while. I mean we all see it, especially Kendall. I'm surprised Sam didn't pick up on it since they spend so much time together… Did you hear him say about they took a nap together?"
It sounded like they were more gossiping girls than grown and mature men. Logan sighed and clapped his hands together. "Yup I did, but maybe it was as just friends?" That sounded like he was trying to make himself believe the answer. "I just really don't know. I know I see it, especially when he hangs out with us after doing something with her. Just his mood is always happier after. When do you think he's going to tell her how he feels?"
Carlos then blew air out of his mouth very slowly, like he didn't know what to do. "I have no idea, but he should have earlier. I mean, what if now is too late? But I think the real question here is: Does Sam feel the same?"
That "too late" comment put me over the edge. Sick of hearing their little "gossip talk", I turned around and walked straight for the break room. How dare they discuss my love life? It was mine and personal, only involving me and the one I was interested in. Seeing the door in sight, I stormed right towards it, determined to speak with Kendall about everything that was going on.
OMINISCENT'S POV (Whenever these are included, you know whatever follows is important!):
Logan looked straight at Carlos, taken back by the question. He knew he couldn't say anything, he told himself before that he wouldn't let himself slip. Sam forced him into secrecy, threatening their friendship if he ever spoke out. But now was the time he had to say something. Carlos was one of his best friends, he couldn't keep this from him. Taking in a deep breath, Logan sucked in air through his teeth to calm himself. As softly as he could talk, Logan breathed out the answer. "Yes" he confided. "I know she does…"
JAMES' POV:
Knocking on the break room door, I patiently waited a few seconds before hearing "Come in!" from Kendall. I opened the door, seeing him and his girlfriend sitting at the red table with large smiles on their faces. They were romantically staring into each others' green eyes, Kendall's hand pushing Krista's layered brown hair out of the way. Usually I wouldn't mind their loving gestures, but right now I felt like I was going to puke.
I cleared my throat, making them turn away from each-other quickly. Krista's cheeks flooded with color, embarrassed that the couple was caught. She knew us for just about a year now, spending time with Kendall for 2 months before finally accepting to be his girlfriend. I sometimes laughed at how shy she still acted around us, like she was still adjusting to everyone. We all accepted her into the Big Time Rush family right away, knowing very well that she and Kendall would be together for a long time.
Kendall looked up at me, fixing his chair to angle more towards me. "Oh hey James" he greeted, gesturing to an open white seat at the table. "Come sit with us."
"Thanks" I replied, walking over to the two of them. Sitting down with my hands on my knees, I took the seat to the left of Kendall. "So I was wondering if I could talk to you about something…" I began, not knowing know to say it correctly.
Krista looked at me like she was intruding. "Oh, I'll just leave you two alone then…" She started to put her chicken sandwich away in the container, pulling the seat out so she could stand up.
I reached my arm out and stopped her. "No, it's fine!" I defended. "You're one of my closest friends too. I don't mind. Plus I need you anyway…"
Krista nodded her head and adjusted her purple over-the-shoulder shirt. Once she sat down, she scooted over to Kendall and put a hand on his arm. "So, what's up?" Kendall frontally asked.
I swallowed the lump in my throat before opening my mouth. "I need some way or thing to make Sam happier after this whole break-up… She just seems so… out of it, to say the least. All I know is that I want to bring the old Sam back."
Kendall tilted his head, knowing exactly what happened when I went to Sam's house in the morning. When I first called everyone at the studio, I used the studio land-line to summarize what happened. Logan, Carlos, and Kendall all listened in, since the speaker phone was on. However, after hanging up, I specifically called Kendall to tell him every little detail that happened. I told him to have Krista with him, since she was Sam's best girl friend. They listened deeply, sighing sadly after my description was over. Those two were the ones I linked onto most during this time, mostly since they would be able to find ways to make Sam and me happier. Also, since they were in a relationship, their advice would come in handy.
Now, the three of us were sitting privately in the break room, ready to speak about what I needed help with. Kendall was the one to reply, stroking his chin as he thought. "Yeah, she sounded pretty bad when you called us. We were speechless at what you described but relieved that you said you had it under control. Did you even find out what she was so upset about?"
Krista blinked her eyes a few times, trying to stop the tears that were piling in the corner of her eyes. She looked like she had something to say. "It was Drew…" she sobbed out. "He called her earlier today and said he was happy he wasn't spending the rest of his life with her… She just texted me that around 3:20. I'm so sorry I didn't say anything…" Krista completely started to break down, burying her face in her hands.
Kendall moved his hand to her back and pulled her closer to him. "Sh baby, don't cry…" he whispered to her. "Don't worry. That's why we are here now to talk about it…"
My mind was thinking about a million different things. At first the question Why didn't Sam tell me this? came up. But then I realized why she didn't. She already knew I knew. From the moment I first found her, I knew it had to do with Drew and one terrible remark that made her heart break into pieces. Then I remembered her back and the terrible mess I saw. It was scratched and raw, most likely from when she went down into the ball. "Did she mention anything about her back?" I spoke in a serious tone.
"W-What?" Krista choked out. "What's wrong with her back? She didn't mention anything about that! I hope she's alright…"
I sighed and pictured her back in my mind. "Well, she scraped it pretty bad on the counter when she went down. She said-" I was now starting to stutter at my words, Kendall looking at me with sadness in his eyes. "She said she thought it would help take away the pain. And that or anything else was better than the pain Drew left her with… I told her I didn't want to lose her, and I promised to remain her friend no matter what. She told me to, and I did…"
The couple held hands as I talked about our friend. Kendall breathed in and stroked Krista's face with his left hand. She was leaning on his shoulder, softly crying into his neck. "Oh my…" he expressed. "Well, at least you made a promise we all know you won't break." I smiled a little at his comment, he knew me so well. "But what happened after that?"
I licked my lips and continued on in conversation, darting my eyes back and forth form Krista to Kendall. "She fell asleep in my arms again, so I brought her upstairs to her room. I thought it would be more comfortable for her. When I tucked her in, she insisted that I sleep right next to her in bed. I tried telling her that she needed time to herself to rest, but the only thing she kept repeating was how she needed her friend by her side. So I took off my shirt, sneakers, and belt and climbed into the other side to rest. Right before Sam fell asleep, she said-" Suddenly, I stopped myself. I couldn't tell two of my best friends what Sam whispered before drifting off into deep sleep. I told myself I would not bring it up again in conversation, especially since I didn't want to over-analyze this. But right now I needed the opinions of two of my friends. Sam probably didn't remember anything, and I was not going to remind her anytime soon. But maybe her friends could help.
"What?" Krista quietly asked, her eyes begging for me to continue on.
"She said 'I love you'…" I whimpered out before leaning my head onto my open hand, waiting for the dreadful responses of my friend.
KENDALL'S POV:
I was completely lost for words. Did James just tell Krista and me that Sam told him she loved him? "Are you sure?" I asked him, not understanding if I heard him right. Since when would she be so obvious about her feelings for him?
"Yes, I'm positive" James approved. "Just the way she said it had me wondering. It was almost like she was in a trance, but yet a happy one. It was spoken with such clarity, even though she was drifting off to sleep. What does that mean? Does she love me as a friend? As a brother? Or is she in love with me?"
Krista leaned off my shoulder and sat back up to her chair. I kept my hand glued to hers, squeezing whenever she started to get upset. "So she just said 'I love you'? Was there anything else?" She was digging for answers, just like me. We both loved Sam like a sister, so hearing her circumstances was extremely difficult.
"Yeah…" James mumbled out, kind of like he didn't want to bring it up. "After we woke up again, we were fooling around insulting each other when I picked her up and brought her downstairs to tickle her. It was fun, until she wrapped her legs around me. Then we both stopped and starting leaning into each other. We almost kissed…"
Krista's eyes widened at what she just heard, her head nodding like she understood. But she didn't act as surprised as me. My mouth was wide open, shocked at how two of my best friends almost kissed. Krista turned to face me and shut my mouth, looking deep within my eyes. Hers were showing confirmation, like she already knew about what happened between the two. Tilting her lips to my ear, she whispered "It's true", answering the silent question in my head. I was right? My assumptions made between my two best friends turned out to be true? Now the next step was to make them both realize it about each other.
"Wow…" was all that could escape from my mouth. I was bombarded by a load of information about two of my friends. Everything was adding up now, though. All the little things Krista and I noticed between the two whenever we all hung out. After pondering on that thought was a moment, I finally spoke up again. "So, that's pretty deep. What are you planning on doing next?"
"Well, Carlos suggested that we gather a group of girl friends for Sam to spend some time with" James informed me and my girlfriend. "You know, get her out of the house and her mind off of Drew… That's what I initially came here to ask you, actually." He nervously laughed, trying to cover up the fact that he revealed more than he was supposed to. "Do you think you two would be able to help, especially you Krista?" He turned to face my girl, his hands shaking slightly for who knows what reason.
She nodded her head and answered back "Of course! Anything to help my best friend. I'll do anything…" It was times like this where I knew that I loved the girl in front of me. The fact that she would do anything she could to help a friend in need made me fall in love with her all over again. Who cares that we were dating only seven months, because it sure felt like longer. I had to ask her that question soon. I knew deep down in my heart that she was the one for me. Yes, we may have been taking things slow in our relationship, but I couldn't hold on much longer. After this was all done, I had to talk to the boys about how to ask the love of my life to marry me.
"Good, good" James said, lost in his own thinking. "Maybe if you could call her up later on today and see how she is? Suggest to her about going out?" He sighed briefly, leaning back in the chair and playing with his sneaker. "Sorry, I'm just making sure that Sam will turn out better. You don't understand how much I care about her…" He looked at me straight in the eyes, not hiding the deep care and emotion he felt for. Once he realized that it had been exposed, he shuffled again in his chair and stood up. "I'm just going to head back home now, since you don't need me anymore. Enjoy the rest of your day…" With that, he placed his hands on his jeans and walked away from us.
"No" I mumbled under my breath in response to James' comment, watching him walk out the door. "I think we ALL do…"
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