Chapter 6 for everyone! Wow, can I just say that even though this story was only created Saturday, time has FLOWN by! I loved seeing the reviews again Thanks!
Shout-outs: ArianaMaslowBTR25- Wow! Hm, coincidence or not? :P And nice to hear my story is being spread And yes, she did! Even though she doesn't, she can't take back what she said… Plus don't forget the phone-call in the very beginning where she said it as well and the phone connection was still on O.o Something to think about, maybe? And ikr? Kendall and Krista are just so cute together. It's a very romantic and cuddly relationship. And you are fitting next this chapter, I promise. I have the titles of about the next 5 already written out for ideas :D Thank you, too!
AlliJay21- Yup, they most certainly were! Chit-chatting away like they usually do! More will come from them :P And good! You still had a good laugh about James and his "sensitive" subject to touch upon. I have no clue why I threw that in there, but I think James was just taking his anger out on them because of everything.
Dreamer1992- Great! And that topic just might be discussed in this chapter… ;) And me too! (Not having anything to do with my name being Sam… hehe)
By the way, to anyone who saw the guest review, my friend Destiny was doing some… snooping on my iPhone and found my app for fan-fiction. At least she liked it! And now for a drum roll please... Chapter 6, here you go! Hope you all enjoy everything that is about to unfold!
Chapter 6: Girl Talk
SAM'S POV:
Once James left, I didn't get up off the couch. Oh wait, just once I did, and it was to grab my iPhone which James had nicely plugged in for me before he left. Opening up Krista's number, I sent her a text that would hopefully clear up why I was on the floor. Typing as fast as I could to get the message over with, I watched as the message popped up in a blue text bubble on the right side. Our conversation looked like this:
To: Krista
From: Sam
-Letting u know since ilyas, Drew called me. He said that he was glad he didn't have to spend the rest of his life with me. That's why everything happened. Don't worry, I'm fine now. Just the last thing I need is people watching me 24/7 in case I might break. I'm not a nut case, ya know!
To: Sam
From: Krista
-Kk I understand. I'm coming over 2moro at 12 for some needed girl talk.
To: Krista
From: Sam
-What? Is there something I'm missing?
To Sam:
From: Krista:
-You'll see 2moro. Until then, you'll just have to wait. Be ready by that time!
To Krista:
From: Sam
-Ugh fine :( now I won't be able to fall asleep… Thanks girl! :(
The next day couldn't have come sooner for me. For the rest of the night, I sat alone on my couch listening to "No Idea" by BTR itself. Then it was "Invisible", "Nothing Even Matters", "Stuck", "Worldwide", and "You're Not Alone". I felt like I was pushing away my sorrows. Each time James' voice came on, I pictured him singing the songs to me, confessing the love he always had through his amazing voice. Those songs were my favorite for a reason, either because it related to my situation or what was going on around me. With my phone on a soft volume, I let James sing to me until I was in a sweet, long sleep…
The next day, I woke up about 9:30 AM. My song's playlist shuffle was on "Worldwide", reminding me about how much I do think of James. Just listening to him singing the chorus of the song made my heart ache. He should be singing this right now to me, letting me know that he will always be thinking about me everywhere he goes. Right when the chorus came on, I started to sing as well:
Paris, London, Tokyo
It's just one thing that I gotta do
Hello, tuck you in every night on the phone
Hello, tuck you in every night
And I can hardly take another goodbye
Baby, won't be long
You're the one that I'm waiting on
Hello, tuck you in every night on the phone, woah
Girl, I'll be thinking about you worldwide, worldwide, worldwide
Girl, I'll be thinking about you worldwide, worldwide, worldwide
Girl, I'll be thinking about you
The last part of the chorus had me back into precious sleep again, enjoying the few hours I had left before Krista came over. If this way the only way I could have James right now, then so be it…
The pounding on the door woke me up again, besides the fact that my phone was blasting "Time of Our Life" by BTR too. I really enjoyed all their songs, who cared if I was only 20 years old? It was December 21st anyway! 5 days until Christmas! I had until June 2nd to celebrate being 20, then full responsibility came in at 21. And for right now, I was going to chill back and enjoy this little time.
"SAMANTHA!" Krista screamed from outside my door, her boots kicking the lower half. "Let me in! I have been standing out here for 10 minutes! 10 MINUTES! I' m freezing my ass off! Sam! SAM!"
"I'm COMING!" I groaned back like an annoyed teenager. Piling the afghan over where I was sitting, I sat up and dragged myself to the door. When I looked down at myself, I noticed that I was still wearing the same pajamas I had on earlier. Eh, why does it matter anyway? It's easier to mope around in PJs anyhow. After what seemed like forever, I opened up the door, revealing a pissed and almost frozen Krista.
"What the hell?" she yelled as she threw her brown coat on my coat rack and flew off her snow boots. "Did you not hear me calling your phone or practically screaming your name from outside? What kind of a trance were you in?"
My iPhone stopped ringing "Time of Our Life" as Krista hit the end button on hers. Immediately after, the soft music of "All Over Again" began to circle in my living room. "Hm…" she snorted, peeling off her scarf and adjusting her white cardigan. "Now I see what you were going…" Her eyebrows rose, squinting her eyes slightly for a mysterious look.
"Oh shut up…" I whined back, not wanting to deal with whatever she was going to tease me about. Turning off the music, I reached for the back of my hair. I un-tied my bun, letting the hair softly fall over my back. The naturally small waves in my hair were more prominent, each one flowing down my back in a pattern. The blonde highlights were slowly starting to fade away, but my hair was the least of my worries right now. "So what is this 'girl talk' you mentioned?" I asked Krista, using air quotes as I sat on my legs on the couch.
"Well…" she started, smoothing out her black skinny jeans and making her way to the other side of the tan couch. "You know, girl talk is only about two things: guys or sex. Actually, technically only one thing cause guys always think about sex. Sexist pigs…"
I gasped at this comment, knowing it wasn't true. "Hey!" I defended, surprised by my tone of voice. "Not all guys are like that! Especially our guy friends! Kendall is in a relationship with you, and Logan and Carlos are taking it easy on the girls! And you know James! He definitely doesn't think of girls that way! He thinks about anything BUT that! He focuses on everything else about a girl before even THINKING about that! You've seen that! Why would you think such a thing?"
"Sam!" Krista laughed, putting her hand on my shoulder. "Calm down! I was only joking! But I see you got very defensive about James…" She purposely accented his name, sounding curious as to why I did so.
I crossed my arms and puffed out at her. "First of all…" I began with a low tone. "You little bitch! You know you had me going there for a minute!" I slapped her playfully in the arm and smiled from the corner of my mouth. "And second of all, so what? James is my best friend. Can't a girl defend him?"
Her head nodded, that evil grin coming back on her face. I knew her all too well. Whenever that grin came, which wasn't a lot at all, she was looking for information. Maybe it wasn't bad, but I felt it my stomach that it would be something personal. "Yeah, I mean you are his friend. But it seemed like you got really angry there. Anything you might have to tell me?" Krista's head titled, staring me down for an answer.
That stare was extremely uncomfortable, causing me to squeeze my legs together and bite my lip. "Um no…" I stammered out, trying to avoid Krista's demanding glare. "Why would you think that?"
"Oh, I don't know… Because you told James you loved him!" Krista finally burst out with an obvious and sarcastic tone.
I froze. I froze up on the couch with a blank stare at Krista. There were strong knots in my stomach, trying to rip and shred it to smithereens. The lump in my throat came back, forcing me to swallow it with all my might. When I finally spoke up, I tried to be as quiet as possible. It was just enough so Krista could hear me if she leaned in a little. "I said what?"
"You told James that you loved him. When did that decide to come out?" Krista was drilling me with hard questions. There were some questions that were casually used in girl talk. But these questions were extremely specific, digging deep into the power of girl talk and what could be discovered.
A long sigh came from my body as I pulled on my lower lip. "It slipped ok! I was just about to hang up the phone when we talked in the middle of the night after my break-up and it just came out! I couldn't control it! It was like my mouth had a mind of its own! It just felt like the right time to say it since he was being such a great friend and I was going through-"
"WHAT?" Krista blurted out, staring at me with wide eyes. "You told him you loved him TWICE? How come I didn't know of the first time until now? I was talking about yesterday!"
Now it was my turn to be shocked. "HUH?" I shrieked, my jaw dropping to the floor. "I TOLD JAMES I LOVED HIM YESTERDAY? WHY THE FUCK DID YOU NOT TELL ME EARLIER WHEN YOU FOUND OUT BECAUSE I SURE AS HELL DIDN'T KNOW! WHEN? I DON'T REMEMBER ANYTHING FROM YESTERDAY BESIDES THE MORNING AND THE TIME BEFORE JAMES LEFT FOR THE STUDIO! WHAT DID I DO?"
"Calm down Samantha!" Krista screeched at the top of her lungs, her hands flailing in the air. "You told him when you were laying in your bed that you loved him. Right before you fell asleep for the second time… Did you mean it? I mean, do you like James?"
"Excuse me, what?" I managed to choke out, my mind fuzzy from what was being said. Were we really having this conversation about my best friend? The best friend I just so happened I was thinking about non-stop?
Krista groaned and slid her hands down her face in agony. "Do you have any feelings for James? Sam, it's a simple question! Yes or no? Do you?"
I drew in a sharp breath before speaking, my throat and mouth becoming dry from the air. "So what if I do?" I asked, not directly answering the question. But like I could be hinter any clearer… "Is there a problem? What if I said I do? Would that make everyone happy? What if it's something more? Am I going to get judged on that too?" I spit out, my anger rising because I didn't want people to judge.
"No, there's no problem at all!" Krista defended again, putting her hands up in defense. "I'm not judging you at all by any means. I just want to know as your friend if you do. Do you love James?"
This was when I snapped. Not snapped as in losing all anger, but snapped as in losing the lies I had bundled up inside about my feelings. "YES, OK!" I cried, my voice filling up the entire living room "I FUCKING LOVE JAMES MASLOW! I LOVE HIM WITH ALL MY HEART AND HAVE SINCE THE DAY I TRULY GOT TO KNOW HIM! EVERY DAY NOW I HAVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT HIM AND HOW MUCH I LOVE HIM! BUT I KNOW IT'S DANGEROUS BECAUSE HE'S MY BEST FRIEND AND I'D RUIN ANYTHING IF WE TRIED! IT IS SO HARD TO FAKE FEELINGS IN FRONT OF THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE! I JUST HAVE TO ACCPET THAT IT WON'T HAPPEN! SO DON'T YOU FUCKING DARE SAY A WORD TO ME ABOUT THIS IF YOU HAVE AN ISSUE. IF YOU DON'T HAVE ANYTHING NICE TO SAY, DON'T SAY ANYTHING AT ALL! JUST LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE AND LET ME WALLOW IN MY MISERY!..." I stopped for brief moment, to lower my voice to barely a whisper. "Like James Maslow would ever love me anyway…"
Krista was pressed again the couch all the way at the other end, flabbergasted at my sudden outburst. She just watched me with a facial expression that only read Oh my god… The tears were pouring down my cheeks, ashamed that I just admitted my true feelings to my best girl friend. Hearing them come from my mouth made me see that every single thing I spoke was true. It was all of my thoughts and feelings condensed into one little paragraph that changed everything. It changed how I looked at James, how Krista looked at me, and how I looked at myself. I wasn't a confident woman at all. I was more like a scared puppy dog that over-reacted over everything. At least I recognized this, making it only a little easier to get over James. I really didn't care if Krista knew, since she was prodding me for the information anyway. If she was going to judge or say anything, let her do so. It just didn't matter.
"Well…" Krista blew out in a scared and apprehensive tone, speechless at everything she just heard. "I certainly wasn't expecting that…" For the rest of the time, we sat in my living room in silence, processing the confidential girl talk that was just secretly exchanged between the two. The words spoken in here on this day were never going to leave the room. At least I hoped and prayed they wouldn't. And if they were, my life would stop before I know it. Because no one else besides Krista Duncan could know that I love my best friend, James Maslow.
OMG plot twist? Not really, but just felt like saying that… Sorry about the shorter length too, this way just a smaller focused chapter. Anyway, just so you can get an idea of the time the story is happening, I'll briefly explain. So this day was December 21st (who cares the year, it is modern day) The next chapter will be the 22nd to 23rd, then Christmas after! I'm so happy I finished this chapter early. Now I have more time to keep typing in advance for you all :)