Love Struck

Chapter 27 - For What I Did

Shadow's POV

I approached Amy's desk as she stared into my eyes with curiosity.

I stopped as soon as my hand came in contact with the front of the desk.

I tried my hardest not to break down in front of her because of what I did. I know it didn't really happen, but it hurt all the same. Its just hard not seeing a hole in her head.

I hesitated as I tried to find my tongue.

Amy was waiting she knew it was hard.

"I…wanted to talk to you about…before." I said as I looked up into her eyes.

Amy gently took a breath as she took her eyes off me and down onto my chest.

"Are you sure you want to do this now? I mean you just went through surgery." Stated Amy.

"I know, but I think its best I say this now before it gets any worse." I replied.

Amy looked at me in confusion.

I took a breath. I was nervous. Amy is the first girl I really ever liked. During high school I never really liked anyone; the only girl who liked me was a bat named Rouge. To be honest she was too much to handle.

Amy put her paperwork down as I prepared myself further by wiping my forehead.

The other thing scaring me of this moment was the fact that I'm still getting off cocaine. I can still feel it in my head.

"Shadow if you can't…!" I cut her off softly.

"No I can; its just I don't know where to start."

Amy then relaxed as I found the words.

"When I first met you Amy, to be honest I was scared." I stated.

Amy widened her eyes a little.

"Scared? Of what?" Asked Amy.

"Of what I almost did to you." I replied in guilt.

Amy put her head gently to the side.

"I know you saw me Amy. The moment our eyes came in contact I knew something was wrong." I stated.

Amy slowly stood up off her chair.

"You could have killed me there and then Shadow. Why didn't you?" Asked Amy.

My heart sunk at the question.

"To be honest Amy it was for a couple of reasons." I replied.

Amy gently looked back into my eyes.

"When I first heard your voice and saw your emerald green eyes I nearly lost my heart to the angels for you." I started as Amy looked at me in confusion.

"I heard your love and devotion to this cause and it made me question what I was doing at that moment." I gently stopped and began to walk to the side of her desk.

"I watched as you motivated the people of this country to follow you into a near war with the world dictators." I stopped as I reached the corner of the desk. Amy remained standing in front of her seat.

"Not many women can motivate an entire country to fight along side a particular cause. But for some reason they looked at you as there hope, there faith, there only chance to have a voice in this fucked up world they live in." I stopped and remained at the corner of the desk as Amy looked into my eyes with confusion still in her glare.

"My mission Amy was to kill you we both know that, but did I ever tell you why?" I asked her calmly.

Amy gently nodded her head in disapproval.

I took a deep breath and slowly looked down at the floor.

"I was told G.U.N was given Intel that you were the rebellion's leader." I stated.

Amy's eyes widened in shock.

"What?" She asked in confusion.

"There's a mole in the rebellion spreading Intel to G.U.N and I found out also to the anti-rebellion. Who ever it is has created something of a war. I saw you on that podium and I knew you couldn't be what the Intel suggested." I stated.

"Why?" Asked Amy.

I slowly looked back into her eyes.

"You were scared. As if it was your first live presentation. A leader like Logan is use to that and I can tell that now that I fight for him and the rebellion. Someone framed you Amy and if it was someone else in my place you would be dead right now." I replied.

Amy took a small nervous gulp and looked away in fear for herself.

"Your no longer in danger Amy. The rebellion won't hurt you. The anti-rebellion won't hurt you, and G.U.N won't hurt you as long as I'm here." I stated.

Amy gently looked back into my eyes with surprise.

"Why do you care?" She asked me with force.

I slowly began to approach her.

"No one was able to protect me when I was younger Amy and I never had a friend or family to depend on. When I first saw you I knew if I could meet you in person just once I would never leave your side." I stated.

I walked slowly and I stopped once I stood two feet in front of her.

"I know you don't feel the same Amy. I know you have a lot on your mind. I know you don't want a relationship, but just know that I will always protect you and I'll never let anyone hurt you." I stated as I stared into her beautiful green eyes.

Amy's POV

Every word he said he said with feeling. As he stood in front of me with his crimson red eyes I felt the care this hedgehog had for me. No other man has shown this kind of care ever for me, but he means it.

Shadow slowly gave me a small smile and gently began to turn around.

I quickly grabbed the back of his arm.

He stopped in his tracks and looked back at me with confusion.

"Amy?" He said.

"Please, stay for a little. I want to ask you a few things." I stated in fear of his response.

Shadow didn't smile or frown. He just turned around with his muscular bare body full of dry cuts and fresh bruises and stood still in front of me.

I quickly looked around and found another chair for him.

I immediately brought it over and rolled it to him.

Shadow gently took it and slowly sat down in front of me as I retook my seat.

He was about three feet in front of me now.

I didn't know where to start.

I finally found the words as he waited patiently with his soft ears.

"I found Ghost this morning. He was sick from the party you guys had last night." I stated.

Shadow slowly looked away.

"We both had no idea where you were. No one knew. I told him how when I saw you; you were hurt and Ghost immediately ran to confront Logan." I stated as Shadow continued to look away.

"Logan admitted to sending you out alone on that suicide mission…!" Shadow cut me off.

"I didn't mean to hurt you or Ghost. It was something I had to do." He stated.

"Logan said to us you had to do because you killed Nexus's nephew." I stated.

Shadow gently nodded in approval.

"I understand you felt as if you had to make up for your mistakes and I'm happy you kept your word, but you could have been killed and look at yourself, you almost are." I stated.

Shadow quickly looked into my eyes.

"I'm not dead. I understand Amy I do, but I had to go alone." Stated Shadow.

"You could have told Ghost." I replied.

"No. I couldn't have. It was a rule. I was making sure he wouldn't get hurt for my mistake." Replied Shadow.

"So you got him so drunk at the party that he would pass out for the whole night!" I shouted.

"No! Ghost had only three beers. He can handle more then that." Stated Shadow.

"Then how did you get him drunk?" I asked.

Shadow slowly looked away.

I knew what he did.

"You drugged him!?" I shouted.

Shadow slowly nodded his head.

"Why would you do that to your commanding officer and not to mention your best friend!?" I screamed at him.

As I screamed at him Shadow kept his head down and as I was piling on the guilt I made him cry.

I Immediately stopped once I saw tears hit the floor in front of me.

"Shadow I…!" He cut me off in anger.

"I didn't want to do it Amy! I only wanted to clean up my mess without anyone else getting hurt or worse! If Ghost would have been killed I would have ended myself there and then! I wasn't losing anyone else to my fuck ups!" He shouted.

"Shadow I didn't mean to…!" He stopped me by closing his eyes letting all his tears flow down his face.

"I know what I did was bad Amy I do, but…!" He couldn't continue he was too upset.

"I'm so sorry Shadow." I apologized feeling bad for making him like this.

"It's not your fault. Even after that Amy I'm still the bad guy." Stated Shadow.

I looked at him in confusion.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"The fight with Adam led to us crashing into a building with his car. I was nearly crushed by it and I managed to get out. Adam lost his legs in the wreck and he begged me to kill him. I had one bullet left. I could have done it but instead I let him burn." Stated Shadow.

I looked in shock.

"He didn't deserve it. I left him and let the building fall. I felt broken as if somewhere in my brain cracked. When I found you almost getting raped by those men I completely lost it and that's why I beat that man the way I did. Only when I was done I found out that you and Nexus saw it all. I left in embarrassment and then the worst part came." He stated.

"I felt as if I had no chance of ever being with you and that caused me to do something I never thought I would do in my life." He stated.

I slowly rolled closer as he began to cry again.

"I ran into a fox who gave me a sample of…cocaine and once the powder made me feel as if I was happy again I killed the fox for his supply and I managed to blow the whole load up my nose." Stated Shadow in guilt.

My eyes widened in shock.

"That's why I was gone the whole night. When I finished the bag I slowly took out my gun and thought about what I have done. I never wanted to do that, any of that Amy! The drugs began to make me feel like shit and I slowly began to lose it. I was fucked and that bullet felt like the only way out of that hell. I fought it as long as I could until Ghost found me on that rooftop. He tried so hard to save me, but in the end I put the gun to my head and I pulled the trigger." Shadow stopped trying his hardest not to cry any more.

To be honest I was about to cry.

"The gun jammed and an overwhelming amount of shit filled my head as Ghost comforted me. I never wanted to do it, but after what I did in front of you I thought I lost everything." Stated Shadow.

"You didn't." I replied.

Shadow slowly looked into my eyes.

"You saved me Shadow. I would be dead and so would Nexus if you didn't show up the way you did." I stopped as Shadow wiped his eyes.

As soon as he looked back at me I continued.

"That whole time you were gone I worried about you. I didn't care about the man you hurt, hell he would have killed me. I'm glad he's dead. He deserved all you did to him, they all did. I wanted to hug you the moment you went to leave, but I was confused when you ignored me a ran. I didn't care about anything at that moment I just wanted to be sure you were safe and got what you deserved." I stated while sitting up.

Shadow looked at me with confusion.

I slowly took his hand that was resting on his leg and brought him closer to me.

Shadow looked at me with his crimson eyes as I held him close.

Slowly I moved in on his lips.

His warm lips connected to mine and slowly I began to kiss him.

I closed my eyes.

Shadow's POV

My heart is beating faster then it was when I was in the medical room with Ghost.

Her lips are so soft and warm I wanted to melt as she kissed me.

I held my eyes wide open in shock as she tilted her head to the side.

Slowly I shut them and began to kiss her back.

Gently she put her hands on my face and retracted away.

We both reopened are eyes to stare at each other in silence.

I wasn't expecting that at all from someone who told me she didn't want to have a relationship.

"What was that for?" I asked calmly.

"After all you have done for me Shadow you deserved something in return." She replied with a small smile.

"I thought you said I wasn't your type back when I asked you to spend the night with me and Ghost?" I questioned.

Amy slowly looked away.

"I lied." Stated Amy.

My eyes widened.

"What?" I questioned.

"When I first saw you Shadow I was scared yes, but when you came into my office knowing yourself that you almost killed me, I knew you had some balls. I was shocked to see you for sure, but I was curious as well. You asked me out and to be honest I was shocked that you had the will to do that. I kind of liked you for that. When I first came to see you back in your quarters not knowing for sure that it was you who almost killed me I was really…attracted to you. If your bio was a dating survey we would have been together in a second, but when you said your past work I was scared as I said. I didn't know what to make of you after that. I lied to keep you at a distance. I didn't know what to do. I liked you sure, but I was scared for my life. I thought if I gave you a chance you would hurt me." Amy stopped and put her head to the side.

I was shocked.

I gently ran my finger against her face so that she would look up at me.

She gently lifted her head and looked back into my eyes.

"You thought I was going to hurt you again?" I asked.

Amy slowly nodded.

"I wouldn't dream of it." I stated.

"How was I suppose to know. I didn't realize you actually meant it until you saved me." Replied Amy.

"I understand how you must have felt, but I never dreamed of it." I stated.

"I know that now." Replied Amy while looking away in guilt.

I waited as she let a tear roll down her cheek.

"Do you hate me?" She managed to ask.

The tear rolled and I slowly caught it with my finger.

Amy slowly looked back into my eyes.

I gently rolled my chair into hers and our legs where between one another.

She never took her eyes off me as I leaned in.

Just as I was about an inch from her lips I softly whispered.

"No."

Amy closed her eyes as my lips connected to hers again. I slowly wrapped my arms around her waist as she began to kiss back with passion.

Amy gently put her hands around my back and as we kissed we both felt the spark.

Slowly I leaned out of my seat and our lips slowly disconnected but we breathed into each others mouths as both our faces turned red with love. Amy slowly ran her hands across my chest fur as she held her mouth open with a warm passion.

As soon as she reached the center of my fur she pushed me back into my chair and I rolled into the desk as she slowly got up and approached me.

I looked at her as she sat on top of my legs.

Amy then moved back in and continued to kiss me with her soft lips as I ran my hands across the back of her dress.

Slowly I found her zipper as she went for my pants.

Amy gently reached my belt and tore it off with force then she went for my zipper.

As we kissed we both pulled down our zippers. Amy managed to get mine down first because of it being the shortest. She then quickly pulled down my pants along with my boxers and slowly I stood back up and finished my work with hers. Amy gently ran her hands down my back quills until she reached my waist. Then she gently came forward.

I reached the bottom of her dress and gently pushed it off the corners of her shoulders and we stared into each others eyes as it hit the floor softly.

I gently began to kiss her neck causing her to moan softly as I also ran my hands down the sides of her body.

Amy ran her hands across my back and slowly I fell back into the chair.

We then continued to kiss as she raised herself on top of me.

I felt her warmth and she slowly began to moan.