18. Daniella

I guess in some way I had acted irresponsible, careless, selfish and maybe even evil when I slept with Troy. But none of those things had ever been my intention. I needed some space some fun and so it just happened. Being drunk is no excuse for what I did. Because that night I still knew about Gabby and I still knew about her feelings and no matter how drunk I were that wouldn't change. So I know what I did was wrong I admit that. But it wasn't only me. Troy might not have known Gabby's feelings, but he was just as much in to it as I was. And about Matt., well when I think about him I have no idea why I would do such a thing because even though it might hurt him too, it hurt myself so much more. I couldn't stand him being mad at me, because if he hated me that would definitely break my heart. I walk to Gabby's room she's smiling. And I know I'm soon going to break that smile. "Can we talk?" I ask her.

She just shakes her head. I know she doesn't want to talk and as I said her smile breaks.

"Then just listen!" I tell her and she still doesn't say anything.

"I'm sorry Brie. I really am. I'm sorry that we did it, and I'm sorry you found out like that. It was wrong of me to do that, when I knew how you felt, though you never told me. I'm also sorry for what I've done to you in the past, I never meant to…" I pause and she continues.

"You might be sorry, but that still doesn't change who you are."

"I'll try to change. And you should've told me earlier."

"Oh so now this is about me?" She asks and I know she's pissed. I quickly shake my head.

"No but maybe it would have helped. I didn't come here to fight I came to apologize, and still this worked out for you too I mean you got Troy just like you wanted."

"I didn't get him as I wanted. I wanted someone who hadn't done my sister."

"And again I'm sorry for that!"

"I know you have said it a million times and I believe you. But I need some space Dani and you need to give that to me. Because right now being close to you make me remember what you've done, which are making me sad. With time it'll probably pass, but right now my heart is still broken and it won't heal with you constantly reminding me of it." I sigh. So much for apologizing I nod in understanding and decide to go to Troy's next stop on my train of apologies.

"Hey you." He says as I walk in to his house and find him on the couch by the TV. "You okay?" you don't look that great?" He asks me and I can hear the concern in his voice.

I shrug. To be honest I don't know. "I'm sorry Troy!"

"For what?"

"Not stopping us. Not telling you about Brie."

"Dani I was just as much in to it as you were. And besides Brie could have told me herself."

"So you aren't mad?" I ask.

"No."

"Thanks. Because your so called girlfriend is. God that sounds weird."

"You okay with Brie and I?" he asks me.

"I guess, I mean do I have a choice. It's not like you would dump her if I told you to?"

He shakes her head and smiles at me. "No. She means too much to me."

"Good and if you hurt her I'm gonna kick your ass."

He laughs. "I think that's fair."

"I just never thought you liked her too, so I guess I've just never pictured you together, which makes this a bit harder for me. I mean you are my best friend which means we'll have secrets, but you are dating my sister, and you shouldn't have any secrets for your girlfriend, but I sure don't want you to tell her everything that we talk about."

"Don't you think Brie understands that? You don't have to make this more complicated than it is. I mean she knows you are my best friend. And I know she's your sister, but that doesn't change anything between us, okay? I'm not going to lose my best friend over a girlfriend."

I smile at him. "But she isn't just any girlfriend."

"No she isn't. She is the best I ever had."

"Please let it stay that way, and Troy.."

He nods.

"Please go easy on her. She's young and fragile, and she'll do anything to make sure she's good enough, even though she might not want to."

"You talking about sex?"

I nod.

"Relax Dani. I'm not going to push her in to doing anything she isn't ready for."

"Well promise me you won't get what you can't get from her from anyone else."

"What kind of guy do you think I am? Of course I won't."

"I know but she's my little sister, which means I gotta look out for her. And I just had to make things clear." I say and look down.

"D I promise not to hurt her. Why are you so tense?" I hate when he can read me like an open book.

"It's just me and Brie. We have been fighting because of what happened. And she's mad at me. And won't talk to me. She says she needs space. That I broke her heart. And apparently I'm taking everything from her. So I've tried to give her some space, but it's hard. Remember we live together."

"You want me to talk to her?"

"No I don't want you to come between us. This is between me and her. But thanks anyway." I kiss his cheek. "Thanks for not hating me."

"I couldn't hate you."

I smile at him. "Well I'm glad I can always count on you. Now if you'll have me excused I have to go talk to Matt."

"Is he mad?" He asks.

"I guess. He seems to think it's all my fault."

"Well good luck then. And I'm sorry too."

I nod I know what he means and then I leave for Matt's. I enter their house and then I see Mrs. Donovan approaching me. "Hey Mrs. Donovan is Matt home?" I ask even though I know he is.

"How many times have I told you to call me Elizabeth, hun?"

"Sorry Elizabeth." I smile at her.

"He's in his room."

I nod in thanks and walk upstairs. I knock once and then I enter. "Can we talk." He turns around and I have no idea what's going on. "What's wrong?"

"It's nothing."

"You sure?"

"I'll tell you about it later. First you can tell me why you are here." He says with a smile and I walk closer to him.

"I'm sorry for everything. Especially I'm sorry for hurting you."

"Who says I'm hurt?" He teases.

"You are and I can't stand the fact that I'm the reason for it. I never meant to hurt you. I wish I could tell you why we did it, but I don't know. All I know is that I'm sorry that it happened and that I won't ever do that again."

"Well I thought we had something but apparently we didn't so why are you apologizing?"

"Because.." I sigh. "I like you." I look in to his eyes. "And I don't want you to be mad at me." I look down and he steps forward.

"I'm not mad at you. Maybe a little disappointed but I aren't mad at you."

"You sure, because what I did was really terrible."

"And I think you have apologized enough for it."

"So we are okay?" I ask.

"We are okay." He tells and smiles at me. He puts a strain of hair behind my ear. "Now stop worrying about it okay?"

I nod and then I can't help it, but I wrap my arms around his neck and kiss him on the lips.