19. Bonnie

I thought fitting in would be easy. That moving to another city wouldn't be that bad. But it is. Everyone else knows each other and I don't. Of course I had Brie, but it wasn't the same. She was nice and so were her friends, but I was still the new girl. And I guess that was going to stick to me for quite some time. It's nice to move to a place where you know other people, but on the other hand it can also make things harder, because you feel stuck. I'm pretty much always sticking to Brie because it's safe and I know her. But if I hadn't known anyone I think it would be easier to make new friends. Now everybody knows I'm friends with Brie. And if they like her they'll talk to me, if they don't they won't. I guess that's the sadness of being in High School.

"Hey you found any cute guys that you like yet?" Gabby asks me and I shake my head.

"No, besides no one wants the new girl. They all think I'm weird."

"Don't be silly they think you're gorgeous."

"No I don't think so. Well Bree even found someone before me."

"Wait who did she find!"

"Kyle!"

"Wait Kyle as in my best friend Kyle, as in my boyfriend's brother as in Lola's boyfriend."

I nod and I see her eyes go wide. "Well he's nice and quite hot I'll give her that. But I think she's going to get her heart broken. I mean with Lola and all."

"I know. But she has really fallen for him, they are even going to a concert next week."

"Wait she actually likes the same music as him?"

"Yes."

"Wow. Didn't see that one coming."

Bree walks over to us. "Bonnie you need to cover for me on Thursday. Mom and dad are never letting me go to the city with Kyle."

"And why's that?" I ask her.

"Because they don't know him. And because they'll say that I don't either. And I really want to go to that concert." She pauses.

"Hi Bree. So you and Kyle huh?" Gabriella says with a teasing voice.

Bree gives me a stern look. "You told her!"

"It's okay Bree I promise not to tell him."

Lola walks over to us. "Brie, just who I was looking for. We are going to our lake house this weekend. You want to come? You can come too Bonnie."

"I don't know. I kinda made plans with her." I say and point at Bree who smiles widely and I see Lola checking her out.

"If you'll rather stay home with your little sister that's fine." Lola tells me and I can hear she seems offended.

"First of all who are we? And second can't Bree come too?" Gabriella asks.

"It's okay. Bonnie you can go." Bree says.

"Problem solved." Lola says.

"C'mon Lol, she's no harm. Besides who are we?"

"Okay fine she can come." Lola says and Gabriella smiles at Bree who smiles back. She seems more exited about this than I do. "Well Matt and I, and I think he asked Dani and Emily and I'm sure Troy is going too." I see Gabriella's expression change but Lola continues. "And then Kyle and Jeremy."

"How come you are just going out of sudden?" Gabriella asks with a suspicious voice.

"Mom and dad feel guilty towards Matt and I. Tell you why later. And so they thought it would be fun for us to get away for a little bit."

"Well I'm definitely going." Gabriella says, and I know why. She wants to go because of Troy, and I don't blame her. I wish it was me who was in love and had someone who cared for me.

On one hand I wanted to go. Get to know the rest of them better, well hopefully. But then on the other I was afraid that I was going to feel like I didn't fit in. I mean even Bree had already found a friend herself. And me I just talked to whomever Brie talked to.

When I got home from school I asked mom if we could go. She was also more excited for me than I was. "Of course you can go sweetie. But no sleeping with boys." She told me trying to be funny, but it wasn't funny at all.

"I won't mom, don't worry." I told her. Like there would ever be a chance that would happen. I don't know what it was with me. But it is like people had always liked my friends more. Not that they didn't like me, but the boys had always liked Brie and my friends at my old school more. I had never had a boyfriend and even though I tried to tell myself I didn't need one, I would still like to have someone who cares for me, someone who loves me, someone to hold me during the nights, I want someone wants me just as much as I want him.

But that was probably never going to happen. It's not like I had never liked a boy or a boy had never liked me. But I was kinda picky which meant that I didn't want the boys that wanted me and the boys I actually did want never wanted me. Or at least that's what I made myself believe, since nothing more ever happened because I was too damn scared to tell him. And now I was here at this new school where no one knew me and where I didn't know any one and therefore I was not likely to find anyone soon. Which was okay I mean I'm 16 I have my whole life in front of me. But seeing Brie in love and Lola well pretty much everyone around me made me think: When is it my turn? But for now I would be okay I mean I had to be. And who knows maybe this weekend would be better than expected.