OOH YAY 50 REVEIWS! Thank you so much for them all! You inspire me to keep writing and do daily updates since you enjoy it. What would you do if I didn't do daily ones anymore? :3 Of course I'll keep doing them, but just a question. Ponder on that… Just kidding. It would only make the drama stretch out. Onto my usuals…
I'm trying to get used to this morning update! But eh it doesn't take long to post from the doc manager. But anyway, I hope you all like the early updates!
Shout-outs: Taylor Shine- Haha kinda. But the drama needs to be good! And yeah, thanks :D And yeah, but unfortunately drama affects everything. For good or bad. Well sorry in advance for the way this story is heading! I hate the fact how everyone is on edge and such, but that's what happens :/ And here is the update! Hope you people don't hate or kill me for this… But I have a plan, before you all freak!
Dreamer1992- Haha, yeah it has! I don't think anyone wants to be on it. And well, you'll see :D Thanks!
So, I'm proud that these blurbs are getting shorter :P But here is chapter 19! Damn the drama is heating up… I think. Agh I'm rambling. Here ya go!
Chapter 19: Intermission
SAM'S POV:
What. Just. Happened… Did I just slap James? And then slam the door on him? What the hell was happening! My whole life was changing and completely ruining everything I ever established. This was when I truly wished Drew was dead. I never did that to people, but he messed up everything. He was screwing up my relationship with James, making him believe that I had something going on with Drew. After everything I expressed to him about my love for him, he had to question it all. He wouldn't even listen to me! This was a new and angry James, and for now, I didn't want to see more of it.
When I closed the door on James, the tears were pouring from my eyes. He looked like he didn't even care about how I felt or was reacting. He was just angry. And hurt. Extremely hurt. I had no clue that his truck was the noise I heard when I went to Drew's house. I didn't even know he followed me. But that was because he cared and was worried for me. What happened to that James? Oh yeah, he saw my ex and I kissing at his house. He thought I was just dating him to cover up my Drew affair. At first I could understand, but then I got mad myself. I remember telling James I was never in love with Drew and wanted to be with him. He even said he would go easy on me, but this was anything but easy. How could I tell him what really happened if he wouldn't hear me out?
That night, I sat with my back against my front door and cried. Sobs escaping my mouth. What did James mean by "Actions speak louder than words?" Did he not believe me? This was all too much to take in and think about. Curling myself into a ball again, I laid down on my doormat in front of the front door and rubbed my legs. I closed my eyes and tried to think of nothing, allowing the emptiness to engulf my head. There was so much stress happening in my life, and I just needed some quiet time to get away from it all. Letting the darkness seep over my eyes, I faded out into my getaway, sleep becoming the only thing now…
When I woke up , I was still lying on the doormat. My body had goose bumps all over it, and my back killed from the uncomfortable position. Standing up, I stretched and walked into my living room. Instantly, the memories of the fight James and I had took over. His face staring at me, the tone of his voice, his comment at the end, the feeling of my hand hitting his face. It was too much to take. My legs caved in from under me, my knees buckling in as I collapsed on my rug. That was the first fight James and I ever had. And it ended terribly. How was I supposed to recover after that? Grabbing my phone off of the couch, I quickly dialed James' number. The time was 8:34 AM. My fingers were shaking uncontrollably as I held the phone to my ear, praying that he would answer so this could be settled. But after waiting the four rings, I was sent to voicemail. Hey, this is James. Sorry, but right now I'm not available. If you could just leave a message for me, I'll call you back. Thanks!
Just hearing his voice over the phone made me heart ache and burn. I really needed to straighten this out. After his voicemail was over, the animated voice came on, reminding me about pressing buttons to repeat what she was saying and other useless shit. The small buzz went off to let me know I could talk, but I didn't. I opened my mouth, but nothing came out. I froze on the phone, my emotions taking over me. For a few seconds, I just sat on the rug and breathed into the phone. Why couldn't I tell him to talk to me? Oh yeah, because it would probably result in a repeat of before.
Hanging up, I threw my phone on the rug, hearing the small thud as it hit the floor. This was pointless. James wasn't going to talk to me. Who knew if we were even dating anymore? Of course I still loved him, but I couldn't have his actions affecting everything. Neither of us said it was over, so we were just going through some troubles. And I wanted to fix them.
I sat there and contemplated what to do. Then I realized I needed someone to be with me, by my side to help me when I need it. James usually would be this one, but right now he was too busy ignoring me. So I picked up my phone and texted Krista, hoping she could help me.
To: Krista
From: Sam
Hey. Have you talked to James by any chance? We got into a fight and he's not responding to my calls.
To: Sam
From: Krista
Oh no. Sorry hun, but I haven't heard from him after I finished texting you earlier. He sounded pissed. What happened?
To: Krista
From: Sam
Oh kk. And well he accused me of seeing Drew on the side and started yelling at me about how I lied to him. I tried to explain what happened, but all he kept doing was bring up the kiss that he saw at Drew's house. He seriously thought I lied to him about loving him and such. I don't know what to do…
To: Sam
From: Krista
OMG! No! James did that? What has gotten into him? We all know you would never do that! Do you want us to talk to him?
To: Krista
From: Sam
Yeah he did, and I have no clue. Maybe it's the shock from everything that happened? Krista, I'm worried. That was our first fight, and a bad one. I ended up slapping him and telling him to get out of my house, slamming the door behind him. And I know, I love James. I would never do such a thing to hurt him. I just can't believe he thinks I would be with Drew after it all. Not to mention I never got to say about the threats and all… It hurts me more to know that he doesn't trust me. And no, don't. This is my battle, and I need to fight it alone.
To: Sam
From: Krista
Idk, might be. And woah, what? You slapped him? What he did say? I know that too, so I'm not getting why he's being a dick about it. And you didn't? Try to tell him and get in contact with him. Just, please make sure you don't fall back to your ways like after the break-up with Drew. None of us can go through that again, especially you. And kk, I'm still here if you need to talk though.
To: Krista
From: Sam
Yeah, he said that actions speak louder than words. He was referring to my kiss and me saying that I would never do that. So I told him to watch this action and slapped him. In my anger, I kicked him out and left him outside. You don't know how bad my heart killed to do that. Watching the person I love walk away in anger after a fight. What he said made me almost break down. I would absolutely never do that, so it shocked me to know he thought that. And I'm going to try again later. I'll try not to, but I can't promise anything. James is the one I truly and deeply love. He told me he would go easy on our love and stay with me no matter what, but I'm not seeing it. What happened to my boyfriend? And thanks girl. Ily.
To: Sam
From: Krista
Geez, he's being a total ass. And this is the same James that went after you when he didn't hear from you for 10 minutes? What the fuck happened to him… And aw Sam, it was just a fight. Kendall and I had one, and later on we were engaged. Hopefully you two can work it out. Good, let me know if you get in touch with him. And Sam, please please don't hurt yourself. I know you're going through a hard time, but never go back to that. NEVER. Your boyfriend will come back. And love you too.
To: Krista
From: Sam
I guess, and I'd rather not think of that either. I screamed at him there too, which was a wrong thing. And that's different. You didn't have an ex who was desperate to be with you again while you were dating a person you loved for over two years. I hope so too. I don't know what I would do if I lost him. And kk. Krista, I'm just being open with you. I will try my best not to, for everyone. Ok? And I really hope he does. I need him.
To: Sam
From: Krista
K, I understand. Sorry about that. I'm just trying to help. And I know how much you need him. You two are perfect. Ok, as long as you promise.
To: Krista
From: Sam
No, it's ok. I know you are, and I'm thankful for that. And yes, he's my other half. Fine, I promise for all of you. But I gtg, I'm going to try and reach James again. Thank you.
To: Sam
From: Krista
I will be there for everything, I'm your best friend for gods sake! And we all see that. You complete each other. And thank you. And kk, good luck. You're welcome baby girl. Bye.
To: Krista
From: Sam
Thank you so much. You're my best friend, alright :) and exactly. Bye
After I stopped texting Krista, I sat with my knees folded up to my chest, just breathing and preparing myself for calling James. Just as I picked up my phone again to dial him, my phone went off. I looked at the screen, noticing it was James. "Hello?" I asked into the phone, quiet and anxious for his response.
"We need to talk" was all James had to say to me, in a deep and serious tone. He still sounded angry, but he was willing to talk.
I swallowed the lump that was beginning to form in my throat and held my phone tighter. "Yes we do" I agreed, my tone being scared and weak. "There's a lot to talk about, starting off with you not trusting me…" I whispered the last sentence out, hurt by how much he seemed like he didn't.
"What am I supposed to think?" he snapped, his voice rising in anger over the phone. I pulled my cell away from my ear for a second, flinching at the noise. "I SAW what happened!"
There he went again, telling me about he saw what happened. The only thing he saw was the kiss, nothing else after. And that was the important stuff. The rage and hurt building up in my own body, I took a quick breath in and leaned against the couch. "Why do you keep saying that?" I yelled into the phone, the shakiness in my voice from my hurt growing by the second. The shaking was now all the way to my arm, traveling its way down my body slowly. "You saw what Drew did to me before! Especially after the break up!"
"Yeah, why go back then?" he snickered, the same cockiness from our fight today coming back. I was so tempted to punch the god damn phone because of his tone. How dare to believe everything he knew was right! He thought he knew every fucking thing.
I gripped the phone around my ear and pulled the mouthpiece closer, cupping my hand around it so the words would be louder. "I DIDN'T go back!" I screamed into the phone, feeling more tears building up. I never knew I had so many tears to shed. "James, listen to me! NOTHING HAPPENED!" I emphasized every word in the phone, my voice cracking at the end from the strain. I was on the verge of breaking out and crying, but I had to hold on a little longer to talk to James.
"Sam, I saw the kiss" James bluntly stated in response. "I thought you loved me and didn't want a relapse involving Drew, but I guess I was wrong…" He paused for a second, taking in a breath as he waited for my reply.
Hearing him say that he believe my love wasn't true made something inside of me sting with pain. It was like my heart ruptured from the stabbing words he said. James actually thought I didn't love him. This was too much for me. I just could not be with someone who thought that, after every single thing I told him throughout our relationship. Blinking my eyes to keep the tears from flowing, I licking my lips and closed my eyes. "You told me you would never hurt me, but those words killed so bad. I'm hurt…" I choked out into the phone, my voice only a faint whisper. "I can't do this…"
"YOU'RE hurt?" James yelled into the phone, his voice sounding in complete anger. That was the loudest I had ever heard him talk to someone, let alone me. "I'M hurt! To watch the one person you love in someone else's arms? I can't keep doing this, not this way. I can't be there for you."
This was now or never. James was really going to go all the way and say that I didn't love him. He was going to stop everything because of our fight. A fight where he didn't know half the story. This made me realize that he broke something he said he never would. "James…" I addressed him, soaking up each breath I took to let out my next words. "Your promise is broken. You said you would always be by my side no matter what, be there for anything we deal with and never leave me. But now you you're saying you can't be there for me. I'm no longer doing this with you. We're through. Trust is the biggest issue, clearly. And you're too fucking stubborn to listen to the woman who has loved you for over two fucking years. Fine, be that way. But I will not be with you when you can't trust me." Once all those words left my mouth, I bit hard on my bottom lip and used everything I had in me to keep from bursting out crying over the phone. I just, myself, told James that we were through. I couldn't believe I had enough in me to do that.
James didn't talk for a few seconds, a small swallow coming from his throat before he spoke up. "It's just to be there for someone when the other person is-"
"JAMES!" I interrupted on the phone, my devastating emotions taking over. "You don't know anything that's going on. Just accept the consequences of you breaking your promise to me. You and I are done. Our relationship is over. Goodbye." Right after, I hung up the phone, I screamed out in agony. I broke up with my lover for over two years. Even though we dated for two months, I loved him for so long before. And everything was just gone because of one fight. I could not be with someone who didn't trust me. Someone who made promises to my face and told me personal things, only to break everything and act like he never said that. There was an excruciating pain coming from the middle of my chest, letting me know that my heart was broken. This was worse than the break-up after Drew. So many times worse. The pathetic break up tears were rushing down my face, falling and smearing over my phone in my hands. I quickly unlocked the screen and typed a quick text to Krista to let her know.
To: Krista
From: Sam
James and I broke-up.
After I saw the message sent, I hurled my phone at the wall with as much force there was in my arm. It cracked hard against the wall, sliding down and leaving a dent in my wall. But I didn't care. I was dying in my house again. The one person that gave me my life was no longer in the picture. We ended the deep connection between us. Well, I ended it. I ended it because we weren't mutual on the one thing that kept a relationship strong and burning with love: trust. The one most important thing, and the one thing our relationship lacked. And on this day, March 1st 2013, I realized that our relationship couldn't continue. I still loved him with every bit of my heart, but I could just no longer deal with it all. I was back to the lonely single life, staying locked up at my house with nothing but a soup spoon and ice cream. But that was what had to be done. And now, both of us were going to suffer from it…
Ohmygod yeah please don't kill me. Sam and James did break up, but no need to freak and such. This is the drama! I hope you all aren't pissed haha. Well anyway, I still have big plans for this! And I cut down the chapters to 30 in total. A perfect number! There will be a sequel, as I said. But not right away… Keep reviewing!
Oh, if I created another fan fiction, would you all be interested? I had an idea for another James one. It would involve a girl who moved to L.A. for some time to pursue acting and got stuck with living with James by some mix-up. It would be called "Day by Day" since they would go by a daily basis adjusting to each other. It would be rated M *hehe ;P*, and the main girl would either be Sam (again ik, but I love her! Haha not because it's my name hehe sh), Sabrina, Vanessa, or Aliza Davis. I just thought of this while feeding my cats. I know, weird? But if you could please let me know if you would be interested, I would type up an introduction chapter and post it. Thank you!