Thanks for the reviews again! Ugh, updating in the morning is so hard lol. I rush to post it as my mom's yelling for me to leave and get in the car. Haha, so I love you all! I'll keep doing what I'm doing! Here is more blurbs…
Shout-outs: Taylor Shine- Thanks :) I kinda rushed the end in the morning, but glad you liked it! And Yeah, I pretty much wanted to as well and yell "THANK YOU!" to the computer screen. Got some sense into James… Yeah, well I have the ideas typed out, so you'll see as they get posted! :P And awh, thank you :D I really do try my best on these, so I'm glad you all enjoy it
Dreamer1992- Yeah, James needs it! And ikr, props to her! Telling him what he had to hear. And read on to see if Sam does ;) He was an idiot, a HUGE one! And ah u have me all excited now too so I can see your reviews! Lets me know you enjoy it :D
Is it terrible to go back and read your own story over and over lmao? I read the whole thing, from first to most recent chapter, and I was so jumpy for the next thing to happen! Agh, I don't know if that means I'm doing a good job or I take too much credit for my work. But eh, it doesn't matter. Here is chapter 21 for all of you!
Chapter 21: Show Me
JAMES' POV:
I practically dug my own grave today, standing in it and waiting for the dirt to cover over. Everything was fucked up, from my relationship to my life in general. There was no more Sam, the one thing that I needed cut out. And hell did it sting with pain. Every bit of pain in my body was because of the terrible thing I did to Sam. Every meaningful word I told her was playing in my head, reminding me of how much of an idiot I was for not believing her. I promise not to do that. I promised to stay with her no matter what. And now, it wouldn't just get out of my head. All those words I said to her…
The night Sam called me after her break-up:
But if you need me for any reason, I mean ANY, call me. Please. Even if you just need to talk. I'm here for you Sam. I always will be.
I'll always be your friend by your side. No matter what. I promise on my heart… and my hair.
The promise I made to her at her house the next day:
I, James Maslow, promise on my heart and soul that I will never leave you, Samantha, and this perfect friendship that we have established for two-in-a half years. No matter what happens between the two of us, what we both deal with in our friendship, and anything that we face in the future, I will remain by your side through every bit of it. And if I do break this commitment, only by some supernatural force that pries me away from my forever promise, I will take complete and utter consequences for all my actions. But I know that will never happen, because I will never hurt my one best friend on the planet. My girl, Miss Samantha Anne Joneston…
My deep talk with her on Krista's front steps on New Year's Eve:
I didn't say that just to make you feel better… I didn't say it just because you wanted me to. I said it because I meant it. I meant every single word that I said to you, and I still do. I said those words because I wanted to. And they are 100 percent true. You know I would never lie to you…
You don't have to apologize for anything… I understand everything you said. I'm still here. I never left you, Sam. Especially after that night you called me and cried. You don't how hard my heart broke, hearing you so upset and hurt. This locket, right here… this locket was to show you how I'm never going to leave you. No matter what, like I said before…
I love you Samantha… I always have, since the day our friendship was born. I didn't say anything, though, because I thought you didn't feel the same. But hearing you say those words inside made me realize that we both did. Our friendship wasn't based off of support. It was based off of love. The love we had for each other. This whole Drew incident made me see that I don't want to lose you. Not to any other guy or anything else. I want you to be mine and only mine. I need you in my life. Don't ever leave me.
And our moment in my kitchen on Valentine's Day:
I am so happy I met someone like you who showed me what love really was. And I'm just so thankful you're finally here, right in my arms, like I always wanted.
Well you don't have to worry about him. I'm here and will stay here forever with you. That can count on that.
You can count on me, I promise… I will do anything for you, you know that. Love is new to me to, but I'm glad that I'm in love with you. You're making it seem all so right. You won't ever lose me. I'm here to stay, forever. I will go as easy and as slow as you want, anything to make you happy. Because I love you.
I swear to god, my own words and promises were mocking me. They were making me feel like complete shit. I broke the very promises I swore never to break, and I lost the best relationship I ever had in the process. I promised I would never hurt her, and now Sam was hurt more than ever. I promised I would be there to stay, forever, but our break-up proved otherwise. I promised I would be there for me through anything that happened in our friendship, but I let her down. And the consequence was not having her. Even though I didn't want to break another promise, I had to. Because I couldn't accept that my punishment was not having Sam. As my lover, my girlfriend, and my friend. I needed her. She needed me more than ever. And I needed to tell her this and apologize from the bottom of my heart how much of an ass I was. Hopefully she would take me back…
I rushed out of Krista's house after the talk the four of us all hard together. I could tell you I was not expecting for Riley but punch me, but I was somewhat glad she did. She knocked the reality back into me, making me realize that I had to everything in my body to get Sam back into my arms. So, I hopped into my truck and raced over to Sam's. I kept calling and calling her phone, but there was no connection. Again. This time I knew that she was purposely avoiding me. Dialing up her home phone, I waited the four long rings before hearing Sam's voice come on the line. "Hey…"
"Sam I'm-" Just as I was about to continue, the voice kept speaking.
"…I'm not home at the moment. But if you just leave me your name, number, a brief message, I'll get back to you soon. Thanks!" The cheerfulness in her voice stung my body. That Sam on the message nowhere near close to the Sam right now. I could just feel it. Sam was happy before with me, and now she was so hurt and lost. And alone.
After the beeping, I clutched the phone to my mouth and swallowed. "Sam… It's James" I started, fighting back to urge to plead on the phone. "I am so sorry for everything I did. Please, just pick up the phone and talk to me. I'll listen to you, I promise. I never meant to hurt you, and I wanted to hear everything you have to say. I love you…"
Once waiting for a few seconds, I heard the rustling of static at the other end and a button. My heart skipped a beat when Sam's voice cam on the other end. "Sorry doesn't cut it" she spat at me, her voice sounding cold and extremely hurt. I retracted back slightly from her tone, mentally kicking myself for waiting too long. "You don't know how much that hurt, James! You not trusting me after everything we have been through and said to each other. You have some nerve calling me up and thinking that I'll take you back with just a sorry…" Sam sounded on the verge of tears, making my own eyes fill up.
"I know" I replied, the guilt and sadness pouring out my mouth. "I shouldn't have assumed, and I was wrong. I just over thought the history you two had and make an assumption."
"James!" she yelled, annoyed at what I said before. "That was HISTORY, meaning in the past. This is the present, where each day is lived like you don't know what's happening next. But I do know none of it includes Drew… Why would I go back to that terrible time?"
I shook my head and slapped my forehead. Of course I chose to word it that way. "No no!" I defended into the phone, trying to tell her that was wrong thinking. "I didn't mean for it to sound that way! I just wanted to tell you that I am extremely sorry and guilty for everything I did. I didn't mean to not trust you. Just please take me back, Sam. I love too much not to have you! I need you back!"
Sam gasped into the phone and sniffled, adjusting the phone against her ear. "If you really love me and want me back, show me." After that, I heard a button and the long beep on the other line. She hung up on me. I deserved that. How stupid was I? Just calling her up and asking for her to forgive me. Sam wasn't one of those people who gave in. She couldn't forgive fast, so I had to find a way to get her back.
I stopped driving and turned around, going back to my house. If I was going to get Sam back, I had to do it right. I had to create the perfect words and actions in order to make sure Sam was going to be mine again. I could not screw this up, because if I did, I could lose her forever. And I was on that track right now…
Sorry about the short length. This chapter was focusing on Sam and James. I hope you all don't kill me for the cliffhanger… Sam's not taking him back that easy, no matter how much she loves him. He needs to prove to her he still cares! DRAMA! Well anyway, thanks for all the views and reviews and such! And that "Day by Day" story idea I had will not happen until after this is completed. I might take a break from Sam and James to focus on that story, and then the sequel for these two lovebirds will happen after that. AGH, so many ideas! I need to stop before I burst from all the BTR. But I love it! AH CONLFICT! Oh, I'm getting off topic again. Nevermind. Well, hope you enjoyed and stay tuned for next chapter!