Finished all my exams and am now waiting for the results. =) hope you enjoy this and Seeeeeeee ya soon my fellow wolves.

This is Minecraft by the way. Trigger and swearing warning.

I sat quietly in my dark, dim room at around 1am just staring into my mirror. I had my helmet off which didn't normally happen unless I had made sure that no one else was in the room or even near by. In fact I had my entire suit off tonight. I just sat in a shirt and some boxers.

This nearly always happened and the outcome was almost always the same as well. I would ether stare blankly at my reflection and start tracing the scars that ran down my pale, thin arm. Or I would burst into tears and cry myself to sleep. But the next morning was always the same.

I get up, cut, shower and then get in my suit so I could put up the mask I always had on around the rest of team crafted so they didn't know just how weak I was underneath and just how hurt I was under the surface. It hurt. It hurt so fucking much.

Tonight was different though. Not a good different ether. The voices in my head were louder and much more overpowering.

Worthless

Pathetic

Weeeaaakkkk

Hideous

" Stop, please just stop. Leave me alone" I sob into my arms. Warm tears running from my disgusting turquoise eyes and down my pale, fat cheeks some going into my thin brown hair.

Well aren't you just pathetic, blubbering all the time. Bet your so called friends would abandon you over this. Ha then you would be all alone. Just like always.

I started crying even harder and curled up on my side scratching at my arms, wrists and thighs. Blood dripping down my arms in steady streams. The voices started fading but then I heard a much more familer voice at my door.

"Hey Jason are you okay? I thought I heard crying?" Ian of course. His bedroom would be right next to mine. I sucked in a breath to calm myself down as much as possible and looked down at my arms wincing as they moved. Shit that hurt.

"Yeah I'm good dude. Hold on a moment." I grabbed my suit and helmet and quickly slipped them on.

'Hope the fabric is thick enough to not have blood leak through.' I thought in panic. I walked to my door and opened it, revealing Ian with his brows screwed up in worry. He paused and looked me up and down as if trying to see if I was okay.

"Are you sure that your okay dude I'm pretty sure I heard you crying."

'No I'm not okay! I'm screaming for help inside.' I thought in pain.

"Yeah I'm okay. " I say calmly. Ian observed me for a moment. Then nodded.

"If your sure... are you coming down for breakfast yet?" Wait breakfast. I look out of the large window and saw the sun was up. And the sky was blue with large spots of clouds with the absense of mob sounds. Wow was I crying for that long?

"Yeah I'm coming..." I say quietly peeking down at my arm. Nothing yet but I'm going to have to be quick. So I start to follow Ian down the hallway of the base towards our private kitchen.

"So Jason what were you doing in your room?" Ian asks. Shit was do I say?

"Reading." I mutter quietly. Quicking my steps I walk to the doorway but Ian blocks the door quickly.

"Are you sure that your okay?" Ian looks at me with pure worry. I gently push his arm out of the way and enter the kitchen. If I don't answer then I'm not lying. Right?

The rest of the team were in he kitchen when I entered.

Adam was having some toast with butter piled on it while chatting with Ty about something whilst he ate a simple round of bacon and egg.

Mitch was drinking some water with a few apples and was laughing about something random with Jerome who was eatting stinky fish which I could luckily not smell with my helmet on.

Seto was just sitting there reading with a empty plate in front of him. He had probably been there all morning knowing him. Quinton was looking in disgust at the fish Jerome was eatting and attempting to start conversation with Set and failing miserably. I walked in and sat in between Jerome and Seto in silence and leaned back thinking. In the corner of my viser I watched as Ian walked in, looking at me in worry and then he sighed and just sat down next to Quinton who gave up on talking to Seto and started talking to him instead.

I felt a soft paw prod my arm, not to gently which caused my to hide a wince. I looked over to the owner of the paw and saw Jerome looking over in slight concern. With Mitch watching in confusion.

" You okay Jason?" Seriously why is everyone asking me that?

"Yeah I'm fine why are you asking?"

"I smell blood coming off you..." that statement caused everyone too look up in surprise and turn towards me.

"Don't know why... I'm fine." I whisper, I why am I starting to feel weak and lightheaded. Some black spots clouded my vision. But like always I fended it off and put the regular carefree mask up. But another pale hand grabbed my arm which I then noticed a red stain on.

Shit... OH FUCK. DAMN YOUR OBSERVATION SKILLS SETO!

"What's this then Jason?" Seto asks touching the red stain with a practised prod.

The rest of team crafted stood up and surrounded us two.

"What the fuck is that Jason?" Adam yells grabbing my shoulder. More black spots filled my vision and then the light headedness filled and clouded my vision completly.

"Jason?" The voice sounded like Seto but it was faraway and eccoed so much I couldn't tell. Gravity pulled really harsh and I just fell.

"Jason!"

Into blackness and the void.

As I slowly came too I could feel the dull pain of my cuts on my arm and the soft feeling of someones hand going through my hair. Wait what? I was about to wake up but then I heard someone speaking and decided to listen.

"Is he going to be okay Seto?"

"Yeah but he lost a lot of blood and from of the look of those scars he's been doing this often and it looks like he hasn't slept a lot ether recently." I then heard a small yarn afterwards.

"Like you then. Go get some sleep Seto. I'll keep an eye on him."

"Get me if anything changes Adam." I head the med bays doors in and then close.

"You can stop faking being awake Jason." I opened my eyes to see Adam staring down at me with a teary look in his eye. I saw my helmet and suit sitting innocently on the bedside table and bandages lining my arms and wrists.

" Why Jason? Why?" Adam cried sitting on a chair and grabbing my hand. Interlocking our fingers.

"I'm pathetic. Worthless. Hideous wh..." Adam put his over my mouth and glared. Tears rushing down his face in anger and upset ness.

"Lies. We do care. Ian's upstairs with merome trying to convince him its not his fault your in here. Your our best friend. Our brother. Your not hideous at all ether. Don't you dare disagree." He then pulled me in a gentle hug which was so like Adam. For the first time in a long time I felt... cared for?

No loved.

Sorry it took so long but I am going try get another one shot out soon to make up for the leave of absense. See ya later.