Love Struck

Chapter 75 - One Shot

Shadow's POV

I cried into Ghost's black quills as he held me tightly.

As I cried I looked into my son's eyes and he was beginning to think something was wrong.

"Shadow, I'm so sorry." Stated Ghost as his tears fell onto me.

I cried harder and harder into his arms as I asked.

"What happened?"

Ghost looked back at Miles and he slowly replied.

"From what I can tell Shadow, Amy's heart gave on her during the final push. It just shut down on her."

"Can't you do anything for her?" I asked in tears.

Miles hesitated but managed to have the balls to tell it straight.

"No."

"What are you saying?" Asked Ghost.

Miles slowly approached us and took my shoulder.

"I'm sorry Shadow." He started.

I cried as hard as I could into Ghost's fur as he continued.

"I can't do anything." Miles stopped and waited as I raised my head up.

"Are you sure?" I asked with a red face and tear filled eyes.

Miles let a tear drop off him and he slowly nodded his head.

I then hugged Ghost harder as he cried on me.

Miles rubbed my arm and said calmly.

"She did it."

I slowly looked up and asked.

"What?"

Miles smiled and replied.

"She did it." He repeated while looking down at my lap.

I followed his eyes with Ghost and we both stared into my son's red crimson eyes. He smiled softly and I began to cry onto his black fur.

"She didn't die for nothing." Stated Miles.

"She didn't, did she?" I asked.

Miles continued to rub the side of my arm and slowly I looked at Ghost.

"Can I ask you a favor?" I asked him.

Ghost quickly replied.

"Of course. Name it."

"Get everyone out." I ordered.

Ghost hesitated and slowly got up.

"Out!" He shouted.

Everyone obeyed and left the room leaving Dove and Miles with me.

As soon as they were gone I handed my son towards Dove.

She slowly took him from my arms as I approached Amy's side.

I cried again as I put my hand on her face.

"Is it true? Can Miles really do nothing for you baby?" I asked her.

Her eyes were soft as I put my hand on her cheek.

"What happened?" I asked her.

I lowered my head and cried onto the sheets as I tried to continue.

"I was going to ask you…!" I stopped and reached into my pocket.

"I wanted to marry you." I stated as I pulled out the black case.

Everyone behind me stared in shock as I opened the case exposing the solid gold ten caret ring.

I cried onto it's diamonds and reach in to pull out the destroyed dream.

I let the case hit the floor and slowly I pressed the ring onto my forehead in anger.

"I was going to make you my only. My only love. My only priority. Now I can't. I don't know what to say." I stopped and stared back up into her closed eyes.

"I love you Amy." I stated as I reached for her hand.

Everyone watched as I slowly slipped the ring onto her finger. It fit perfectly.

I cried harder and slowly fell to my knees as I shouted.

"I'll always be with you!"

Slowly I released her hand and Ghost slowly approached me.

"AGHHHHHHH!" I screamed.

Ghost backed up as I punched the ground.

"AGHHHH!" I punched as hard as I could causing my knuckles to slice open.

Blood hit the floor after each punch and Ghost quickly grabbed me from behind dragging me back into his warm body.

I cried as hard as I could into his shoulder as he rubbed the back of my head.

"I'm so sorry Shadow." He stated as my son stared at me from Dove's arms.

I cried and cried and Ghost began to take me towards the door with Dove behind us.

Everyone waited outside and Ghost gently got me to walk away and back towards my quarters.

I limped in as Ghost took me towards the bed.

Slowly he held me down as I cried harder then ever and he gently began to wipe my tears.

"Shadow, I know no matter what I say I can't make you feel better, but I won't leave you until your ready." He stated.

I tried to calm down but I couldn't.

"Is she going to have to go through those tests?" I asked him.

Ghost widened his eyes and replied.

"I don't know. I want her to come back brother I do, but not that way."

I slowly reached out for Ghost.

I put my hand on his face and replied.

"Please leave."

Ghost was shock by me already saying that and asked.

"Why?"

I cried and replied.

"Just please go and take my baby. I don't want him to see me like this right now." I begged.

"Shadow please..!" I cut him off.

"Please!"

Ghost slowly got up and walked towards Dove who held both Midnight and my son.

Slowly they walked out of the room and shut the door gently leaving me alone on the bed.

I gently wiped my face and thought about what I had to do.

Slowly I looked over to my nightstand and my eyes rested on the choice.

"I can't let Amy do this by herself. I have to do it." I said to myself as I reached out for it.

As soon as my hand came in contact with its coldness I pulled away.

"I can't my son." I tried to tell myself.

"I can't do this. My son was just born and I'm already thinking of doing this. I don't want to but it hurts too much. Ghost said nothing bad would happen, but look at what did. I lost her in a matter of seconds. I need to do this." I said as I reached for it again.

My hand stopped at it's grip and I hesitated at the choice.

After a few deep seconds I pulled away and shoved my head in the pillow.

I had to think about this.

He said I wasn't aloud back, but I can save her. I have to.

I can't let her go alone.

I slowly rested my head and stared at the object silently.

Slowly I reached out again and this time I grabbed it in my hand pulling it close to my body.

I pinned my sad body against the steel and went for it's butt.

Slowly I unloaded the clip and stared at the golden bullets.

I failed this the first time because of a gun jam and this time I know I won't. My gun was repaired. I can do this and bring her back at the least. I don't care if I die but I just want her back. I told myself as I pushed back in the clip.

Slowly I brought the gun to the side of my cheek and let the side of the weapon rest on my skin.

I cried.

I knew I couldn't, but I had to.

My mind is in a war zone just like me. I don't know who will win.

The gun wobbled on the side of my head as I gripped the trigger.

"All I have to do is point and shoot. That's all Shadow." I told myself.

"I can die and help Amy pass her tests. She can come back and live with our baby." I said to myself.

"Just do it Shadow, one shot, that's it." I said to myself.

Just one shot and I will have her back.